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@miracleharmonyhicks
Change but don't change. Don't change but change. Change everything about yourself but the small things. Don't change anything about yourself but the small things.
Love can be dangerous. Love is unconditional. Love is known but if we knew love we to would care.
As of today, I've been doing a lot of soul searching for what I was thinking would be a healthy relationship. My mind's eye has a special way of telling me when I'm not understanding the situation at hand and it does it's best to calm me down. Lately I've been too scared to think about anything, which makes me more passive. I don't like it but I don't believe I have a reason to feel that way. I want to be seen as a person like anybody else, who's made their mistakes in life but living at the mercy of others changes you. It changed me. I could say I'm lucky or happy that certain things came to play in the midst of it all but I need closure.
At long last, I've come to the conclusion that my diagnosis might not matter. I've gone a while without being anything outside of normal. I keep to a routine that involves not going outside unless I really have to. My dog is a saint for waiting until I'm able to go outside so he can use the restroom.
Paranoid is an understatement when I say I feel that I'm always being watched. I literally believe I'm undercover famous and since I don't know if it's true or not I waver. I can also believe I communicate telepathically if not then subliminally. I kind of like to spend some of my time doing art. A lot of my time is spent thinking my way out of thoughts that don't keep me in a positive mood.
I talk about 'myself' a lot which is also the name of my first journal. My Self was created to release my emotions in a way that wouldn't cause me to lash out in a way that would cause harm to me or others.
Eventually I'd like to write another edition of the 'My Self' I wrote a long time ago, just more refined.
I threw My Self away a few years ago, when I wanted to become someone better than what I was but I'm learning that if I knew the things I know now I would have kept it and evolved.
My life story involves a lot of hurt. Even till this day I can't say that I have a whole lot of people that I can trust. My life in my mind is more of a cult than a movie but I believe in God.
If I can live as if I don't believe or think anything is wrong then I'm ignorant.
Life is not always the way it seems. I spend a lot of my time trying to figure that out. I come across as a pretty positive person. I never understood that I didn't really have an expression. I can feel it but it doesn't show. I always seem upset, sad or hurt. I'm always thinking about what certain situations could lead to. Where people place their leads and rolls to execute a plan that keeps me out of the loop but I'm always here. Even when it doesn't seem that way, I'm always somewhere in the background listening to what people say and watching what they do in order to align what I'm thinking with their frame of mind.
That's why I get scared when I have to go outside or leave the house.
Since when did you start stopping to think about people's reaction towards you? Since when? Did doing things you used to enjoy mean you wanted something? Of course! It's to feel how you felt back when you did it. Sometimes you feel good and sometimes you feel awful but it's a battle when you're in-between. I've gone a long time without being okay and somehow I still managed to pull through. I want to be a walking testimony but hate feeling too good about myself. I look down when I leave the door. I'm no longer ashamed but that's what makes me ashamed. I've cared enough. I've loved people who don't love me back enough. I'm tired of not living my life the way it should have been these past few years. Going outside is hard when you can't look people in the eye and signal them to look elsewhere. I have problems not a lot of people would understand.
That's why I'm here🥇
I do a lot of research on topics not a lot of people seem to remember. Recently I've been thinking about the 'Brown Bear, Brown Bear, what do you see?' books and remembered something interesting;
"Brown Bear, Brown Bear, what do you see?'
"I see yellow eyes looking at me."
This was a part of a Brown Bear Brown Bear series my mom actually recited to me as a kid.
The further I looked into the second book the more. I realized the brown bear was being led to his death by the spirit that had yellow eyes when I realized who the spirit was. I googled 'man killed by brown bear' which brought me to 'man mauled by brown bear and it led me to this man.
Timothy Treadwell-
On October 5th in 2008, Timothy Treadwell and Amie were killed and eaten by a bear. Timothy Hardwell was known for his critically acclaimed documentary Grizzly Man 🎗️🎗️🎗️🎗️
Do you remember him?
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