Mi_ra

SW: 220lbs ~ CW: 153lbs ~ LW: 142lbs ~ UGW: 80lbs.

[mirarlay]

I have an Eating Disorder but I'm scared to tell anyone around me about it. Not because I don't want to be judged or because I don't want to hear about how they can cure me. I'm scared that if I tell them I have an ED they'd look it up and fall a prisoner to it.

[mirarlay]

It's not that I don't know what harm I'm inflicting on my body chasing after an impossible body it's just that I can't help but keep chasing...

[blurry-and-numb]

I feel like most things I ‘like’ around here on ED blogs is more a ‘I can relate’ than me actually liking the content displayed.

Just fyi I will never actually like that someone is in pain or is struggling or is pursuing unhealthy behaviors or habits.

My ‘like’ will simply mean that I can relate.

[mirarlay]

T👏🏻H👏🏻A👏🏻N👏🏻K 👏🏻 Y👏🏻U👏🏻O

[mirarlay]

I'm hungry but eating is a myth.

[mirarlay]

Being fat made me realize that I'm missing on soooooooo many things in life, so I better become skinny ASAP so that I can live life to the fullest. 🙂

[mirarlay]

I'm having a huge urge to binge please send meanspo. If I do binge I don't know what I might do to myself 😔

[0skinny-love00]

For anyone who needs a little motivation today, this is exactly one months progress!

• sometimes it’s hard to see progress or feels like you’re falling backwards but you have to push through it. The key to weighloss is to understand that it is not a straight line, you will see results. You just have to put 100% into it. If you want it you have to work for it, nothing comes easy.

[exxfatty]

One month? ok I’m ending myself lol

[mirarlay]

Do you ever feel like crying but not your usual muffled-in-the-bathroom cry. A cry where you scream, kick, throw punches in the air, and just get everything out of you or is it just me?

[paintinblood]

to those of you who are discouraged when you see you only lost 1 pound in a day think about it this way; if you lost just one pound every day, after a month youd be down around 30 lbs. same thing goes for losing half a pound a day, in one month youd be down 15 lbs. the process is slow and discouraging my lovelies, but any progress is progress.

[livsprivateeye]

this this this this

[troubleisaddictedtofood]

KEEP GOING YOUR GOALS ARE IN SIGHT!!!

[mirarlay]

I'll get there💪🏻

[mirarlay]

If I lost an ounce every time I said I want to be skinny I'd probably by in the minus &$@lbs bu now

[mirarlay]

Just when I thought I should stop thinking about how much I should be eating or they way I look a comment appeared regarding my look.

"Your belly is poking out, lose some weight"

- Mom

"I know that more than anyone but thanks for the reminder"

- I thought

[mirarlay]

My medicine is starvation.

My brother is going to Canada tomorrow so to celebrate his last day we're going to dinner which mean my 10 days water fast will have to be cut short. But it's okay I'll just go for another 10 days starting tomorrow. But today I proved to myself that not eating is better than any other medicine out there. When I'm not eating I'm not thinking about anything else other than food my main thoughts become all about how to avoid food at all situations, how I'll look when this is over, how much I'll lose tomorrow, how beautiful and skinny I'd look, etc. but when I'm eating so many thoughts go in my head I feel suffocated, miserable, sad, and I just want to scream. My only medicine is starvation. 

[mirarlay]

I have to lose 50lbs by August 😔.

[mirarlay]

So I'm in love with kinder bueno problem is I'm on day 4 of my 10 days fast. So I was thinking if I divided the bar into 8 pieces and ate one piece each day that would be 15 calories each day... should I do it or just ignore my thoughts?

[mirarlay]

I never knew how filling chew-and-spit actually is😳

[anas-poor-victim-blog]

Me after eating two sandwiches and hot Cheetos yesterday: you know what? Fuck weight! I’m beautiful and healthy (not really)!

Me in the morning: fuck that shit. if I gained i swear I’ll kill myself

[mirarlay]

Me every single time 😪