but wait... there's more!!!! (interests and more abt me below cut, WARNING for mental illness)
I am not formally diagnosed as of making this post, but I am on a psych eval wait list!!! my therapist and parents think its likely that I have
- depression
- some form of anxiety
- ADHD or ADD
- eating disorder
(i also struggle with self-harm)
also I'm medicated now???? (as of April 3) so that's pretty cool, ig im in semi-recovery? (not from my ed though, so beware of that)
I am 100% pro-recovery, I support those that don't want to recover, those struggling to recover, those who can't recover, but I draw the line at anti-recovery and forcing people to recover.
ABOUT ME AND OTHER STUFF:
-17 yrs ancient
- bisexual, she/her
- mentally not great (but lowk recovering right now??)
- DNI = none uhhhhh I block freely
INTERESTS
FANDOMS (there's more not included)
- tadc
- madoka magica
- one piece
- death note
- kpop (mainly bts, seventeen, ive)
- needy streamer overload
- vocaloid (i'm sorta new here)
MUSIC
- rebzyyx
- kpop (in general)
- lady gaga
- isak danielson
- lumi athena
- 6arelyhuman
- asteria
- ado
RANDOM
- shitposting on da don
- doomscrolling
- roblox
- markiplier
- my baby girl pookie dookie (my dog, Daisy)
- caffiene
- apples
- my leon kennedy obsession is back and strong
BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD! Once you are given this award you're supposed to paste it in the asks of 8 (or more) people who deserve it. If you break the chain nothing happens, but it's sweet to know someone thinks you're beautiful inside and out <3
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I was in a bad headspace, and once I had taken a break from here, I was too scared to come back. I did log in periodically though to stalk my mooties. (Not in a creepy way I swear guys)
I wish I had good news, but this will be my last post.
I hope to pass on peacefully so I can rest.
I want to say that this was not the result of some big change or event that happened, it was more of a slow build-up, and I eventually reached my limit.
I am just so tired.
About a month ago, I made another blog and started posting on there, @kokokaboom
Unfortunately, due to parental controls and my computer being taken away, I can no longer log in there. This will be reblogged on @kokokaboomed instead
Saying as this will be my final post, I would like to share some stuff about me. (Some of you may know some of this if I've mentioned them before)
My real name is Miriam. Nobody irl calls me Miri except for my parents sometimes, I used to hate the nickname and found it annoying, but I grew to like it after I started using it online.
My dog's name is Daisy, and she just turned 3 years old. She is a Polish Tatra. I have 6 cats, 4 on whom are girls, Blackie, Tiggy, Patches, and Grace. The 2 boys are my new kittens, Calvin and Hobbs.
I am 17 years old. My birthday is October 4, 2008. I live in a small town of about 1500 people in Minnesota. I live with my parents and siblings, my 3 little brothers.
Ethnically I am Finnish, Swedish, German, Danish, and Norwegian.
I played volleyball for 3 years and was a middle hitter/blocker. I thought that position was cool because it was the same as Kei Tsukishima from Haikyuu!!.
When I was 2-4 years old, I lived in Texas and Georgia while my dad was going to school. He is a nurse anesthetist. My mom was a dietician but she quit after I was born to stay home.
I have always had good grades. I was ranked top of my class for all of high school until this past school year. That was the first time I had ever gotten a grade below an A in my life.
I have loved reading since I was little. I was homeschooled for preschool and kindergarten, and again in 6th grade. (because of COVID)
I have been an ARMY (BTS fan) since 5th grade when I was 10 years old. I think I first started to watch anime when I was 12.
None of my irl friends know about pretty much any of my interests. They are all very conservative. The only person that really knows me is my cousin, who is a grade older than me. She's my bestie but unfortunately lives in Illinois so I don't get to see her often.
I am 5 ft 8.5 in tall (174 cm)
My mom has stage 3 breast cancer. She is done with chemotherapy and just had her mastectomy. She will be going through radiation starting in a few weeks. One of my close friends mom passed away from breast cancer last year.
I like to draw and I'm not that bad at it, however I'm not very creative so I can only replicate images.
I adore Marilyn Monroe.
I did a triathlon a year ago and the worse part was that I had to wear a stupid swim cap. I looked like an egg.
My favorite songs of all time are
Mikrokosmos : BTS
View : SHINee
Stay Gold : BTS
Starry Night : Mamamoo
I have played piano since I was 5 or 6 but stopped taking lessons when I was 13.
Yeah I can play Giorno's Theme on the piano because I'm cool like that
I guess this is it.
Here's my face
Some special shoutouts:
@/comorahifi
you were my most loyal liker :) You were always a very refreshing presence to me. Being on jiraiblr was hard a lot of the time, and you were sort of my normal. (This is a compliment sorry I can be bad with words)
@/arts-n-starz
Colls, you are an absolute angel. You are extremely sweet and supportive, and I feel so honored that you made a bracelet for me!!! Even though I didn't know you for very long, you made me smile with every interaction.
@/at-my-hw-i-hate-this
even though you deactivated a long time ago and likely won't ever see this, know that I loved you so so much. (This is mychemicalromancewithfo0d btw) You were my first true online friend and one of the kindest and most supportive people in the world. I hope that you are healthy and happy :)
@/drainedblood
you were honestly my comfort human. I wish you the very best, wherever you are at in your life
thank you to everybody on mastodon. You were all my safe space and favorite people. I wouldn't have made it this far without you guys. Especially Nana, Layne, Emma, Toofie, and Tori. Even if we didn't interact that much, you could always make me smile and are all amazing and beautiful people.
to all of my moots:
I love you. If you are struggling in any way, I hope that things will start to get better. Reach out to people. You all matter in this world, even if you don't always feel that way.
comora’s first draft post yay this one is probably my hottest take
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why do cheeses have to be so quirky? like "this product has gouda cheese, that one has ricotta!” bro is it cheddar or is it mozzarella? pick a side, they’re all variations of one of those two
im going to post a lot less. a few times a day maybe. get me 200 followers and ill think about posting more. I want more attention. Reblog this. I had 950 followers. Follow me. I thought I was a popular jirai blog. So follow me.
@deathbymicrophone @d0ki-d0ki-k0k0 @pientones @sicklysweet420 @miri-had-2-much-monster @morichrysanthemum @needybloggeroverloadd @zzz0mbiegurl @gogols-venom @godof-thenew-world @astralovesrugs @hpdamechan @meowsteryaps @dinkingmyoiter6 @damsel-understresss @222yokai222 @wuthering-on-ur-ashes @weepingides @iiangl @l-xapr0 @l4cedw1ster1a @lost-light-jirai @pvrgedcvt @chuuyaawannabbee @crushmyprettyheart @cvtiemishka @funfettifawn @f0rever-devoted @fawnedupon YOU WILL ALL FOLLOW SENA. RIGHT NOW. (yes I am logging back on this account for this. Don't expect me to post much until th rapture is over)
my psychology professor is teaching us about personality disorders and when talking about anxiety disorders he gave the example of how feeling stressed before an exam is different than having a panic attack in the parking lot before class, making you unable to attend (his words not mine)
bro I had a panic attack in my car before your class last week and had to go home how did you know
