leegheid @mischieffff - Tumblr Blog

Listen to me. You’ll be okay, you’ll be more than okay. I loved you and it was one of the purest things I’ve ever done and I’m not sorry for it and I don’t regret it. Don’t associate me with sad songs. Don’t turn that into us. Give me your happy songs, give me the ones that make you dad dance in your kitchen. Think about the music we played on your couch, think about how we surprised each other and how beautiful it felt to be like that together. People are moments. They are wonderful huge magnificent universes and they are just moments. You got to have that with me and I got to have that with you and that’s what’s important, not how it ended, but how it felt whilst it was happening.

mischieffff

I *WISH* i could convince myself its like that but the truth is i that i stay stuck in my thoughts, pics, etc. of her…

#i miss you

misssmamas

Pink Matter by Frank Ocean

geekandmisandry

I have to go without adequate pain relief for a month because my government is "tackling the opioid epidemic" by threatening doctors who prescribe them with discipline. They are looking at the numbers and have apparently given very vague outlines for what is "too frequent" in giving a prescription.

I purposefully get a lower dose, slow release opiate because they make me feel less sick and I need less of them. Now keep in mind I am in pain every day, but I don't take a pill every day, I have to ration them.

I got my last prescription for 24 pills nearly 3 months ago. I have a few left over because I really try not to take them.

But not many.

And he wants me to ration them even further because he is afraid of punishment for giving me pain relief. That can't really be the best solution, that I spend more days in pain so that the government can say it is addressing the problem.