plains drifter

30s | lesbian | tired old soul | words and poems are mine alone | any and every lesbian can claim sanctuary here | all else tread carefully

[miserablemodernsappho]

my deepest miseries are my own doing,

tucked away and untold

alone, afraid,

how much more can a woman endure

[miserablemodernsappho]

i carry the empty space in my arms like an ugly slab of marble

let the lonesome void take your shape and never let go

[miserablemodernsappho]

cruel days turn kind under her watch

let me love as i weep, freely and openly

[miserablemodernsappho]

love like a new star, i collapse in your arms

your heartbeat fills my ears and meets mine

the seasons begin to blur, i can't leave

to gaze down into your eyes is to see endless fields

my soul can finish wandering, my world spinning

the long lost girl is home, i love you

[miserablemodernsappho]

a moment of weakness, whimpered

my feeble heart cannot take another moon

an imprudent thought, cloaked in tears

the moon belongs to us, it does not tease

the same stars we share will guide my flight home

[miserablemodernsappho]

out of luck, and so far from home

the lonely lakebird coos and cries

winter heartache paralyzes the wings

woe! the sky mocks and the moon antagonizes

[miserablemodernsappho]

NOT ONE MORE NIGHT, PLEASE

[miserablemodernsappho]

watch her struggle and weep when the music stops

[miserablemodernsappho]

i want to be the dog at the foot of your bed

[miserablemodernsappho]

my heart turns ever inward in search of meadows

where the fox i love rests eternally,

the flowers whisper her name, softly,

and clouds paint the future i see between us

the cruel city contains no more secrets

let me crossover into that loving new world

and find my new home in the meadow,

the flowers, the clouds, and the fox

[miserablemodernsappho]

reduced to a black muck fire

hissing on some lost roadside

the summer will burn me alive

i am so scared, and my throat is gone

let my words, silent, reach you still

listen to the howls, and see the shaking

break me down under you,

create joy in your image

[miserablemodernsappho]

today is yours, tomorrow too

my heart aches under jubilation

the seasons bend around you

I love you dearly

[miserablemodernsappho]

oh! my fragile heart

i can't help but weep again tonight

it is just overwhelming,

i miss you terribly

may my dreams be kind,

let me hold you, head you, touch you, smell you

wipe my tears as i wipe yours

just for one night

[miserablemodernsappho]

Melancholy licking at my heels,

when will this bastard flame die?

[miserablemodernsappho]

i wear your crown, unspoiled

noble oath, love feels true

[miserablemodernsappho]

the iron is glowing through my chest,

it's burning a deep hole

steam hisses through the viscera,

and pours from my mouth

[miserablemodernsappho]

a ghost by condition,

happy to haunt

watch her wail,

rattle her chains

just don't forget her

when the fear has faded