now is as good a time as any to give a life update to you all, right?
itās been just over a year now since a moved to chicago. six-ish months since my last update i think?
i have casually dated a few people since then, none really having the spark i needed to convince myself to stop being single. i met some really cool people, but it just wasnāt what i wanted with them. a few of them had too many serious feeling too soon, which scared me off too.
but recently, like the past 3 months, iāve been talking to and seeing this girl, and sheās been really exciting. sheās so funny and a good energy to have around. weāve had a few difficult moments, some being really close to making things not worth it, but i think i have a warped sense of thinking about how relationship should be, considering my last one was extremely easygoing and we never had arguments. it really puts into perception how good that relationship was and how lucky i was to be able to experience that. itās set a precedent for what i want going forward. and so now, in the early stages of a new relationship, iām grateful i can look back at my last one and feel good about it.
otherwise, iām still at the same job, living a pretty normal life. i started therapy again, this time with a trans therapist, and itās been good so far to communicate my issues to someone who gets it. i also started voice lessons, so i can finally stop being dysphoric about that. and iāve also been thinking a lot about srs lately. i used to be really against it, saying i was okay with my body, but the truth is more that i put up with my body because the thought and uncertainty of surgery scares me.
one step at a time i guess













