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Exorcism (2025)

Collage, inkjet print, wax pastels and colored pencils on board

9” x 12”

kailysander

Lucifer & Eden

trans-rage-posting

Reminder .ᐟ

You are WORTHY of living. You have inherent worth.

You aren't damaged because you are queer.

You aren't wrong because you are queer.

Your existence isn't wrong.

Your existence isn't a sin.

Your existence is a miracle.

There are others like you.

There are people who will support you.

There is anger to be felt and that is okay.

❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

10:24 // i was clean until i met you, every night now i fill the emptiness with another addiction. but it was nothing to you. they are just scars you said. scars heal. so here i go again.

12:10 // 9 times out of 10

i genuinely think if i died tomorrow either at my own hand or by pure mistake no one would bat an eyelid, shed a tear or even picture me in my darkest days. to them my darkest days i am a ray of sun flowing through a field of wild flowers.

Chapter - 12:03 || this is not a pitty party. this is me saying it how it is. most mornings i cant get out of bed to brush my teeth. most days i cant muster the energy to go have a shower. most nights i lay awake and thing of everything, by everything i mean every little thing. i’m a bad person i have come to realize that. i have hurt people. like really badly hurt people. i’ve left people. after countless hours of therapy and utter self hatred i have realized that i don’t think i am worthy of people so when things in my life get to hard for me to handle i push people away, i push people far far away. it hurts them. i know it hurts them. i am a coward. i can’t muster the courage to tell them why i’m doing this or why i can’t keep them around. i don’t talk to them. i don’t give them an explanation. i leave. it must be such a horrible feeling. i know it must. i move on thinking i’m okay. i’m not. i’m not okay. the guilt i feel for no even giving an explanation is horrible. i don’t understand, i really truly don’t understand why i do the things i do. i just want to say sorry but i can’t even do that. i want to message them and tell them why i did what i did but instead i make excuses. i make excuses because i am a coward. i can’t face them knowing i’ve hurt them. im sorry. i am so fucking sorry and you have no idea how sorry i am. i miss talking to them. i miss laughing with them. fuck. why do i ruin things. is it because im sad? is it because i don’t think i deserve good things? or is it because i am a bad person? i don’t think i’ll ever know.