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I love people that just naturally have morals, manners, self awareness, common sense and consideration.

Hi, it’s been a long time. I downloaded tumblr, it looks different. But memories still came back. Different people I talked to through this app, there was a time it helped me a lot. It’s been a long time, since you reached out. When you said sorry. You’re probably wondering why I’m here saying this anonymously, or thinking, what is this person trying to say? I don’t know. But speaking to you this way feels the most comfortable. You popped up in my brain as soon as I saw a post that reminded me of you. Or I guess, reminded me of the situation we were in. I just thought, I wonder if I was important enough to remember, I wonder if you’re still sorry. I wonder what happened in your life, to bring what happened. I hope that you’re better, and that you’re figuring things out. And if you have a spark of curiosity, I am better. I did all the things I wanted to do, and then i created new things to want to do. No one has hurt me in a long time, I’m safe, things are good. I hope that for you too. It wasn’t until recently that I thought, this person must’ve had something awful happen to them. That doesn’t make anything feel better, it just makes me wonder. You don’t have to respond to this, if I remember correctly if you don’t, no one will see it. I just want you to know the thoughts that came to me.

I don’t know how old this message is - as I don’t really use this anymore. I just by chance happened to check it out and saw this and am happy I did. A lot of life has happened since we last really really spoke. It almost feels like a whole different life time since way back when. Like it doesn’t even match with the life I have now almost.

I look back at my life during those times often and only recently was I able to do so without hating myself. They say it gets worse before it truly gets better. I went through a lot of self discovery. As I think we all do when we reach our 30’s. Crazy to think we were kids during that time. I didn’t realize even then how much pain I was holding. That caused me to hurt many many people. I didn’t see it then. It’s ironic I’m even seeing this message now because I just wrote my first book on the topic, sorta. Like healing, and reparenting ourselves kinda thing. Literally this week I finished it. The timing and synchronicities are awesome. I forget exactly how far I’ve come sometimes and appreciate reminders like this. things weren’t so great yeah so I appreciate you looking at it from that kind of perspective. I know that can be tough too. Not that it was an excuse you’re right. but I lacked any awareness back then which really sucked. I messed up a lot of good relationships.

“I did all the things I wanted to do, and created new things to want to do” probably the most refreshing thing to hear out of anyone. I’m so glad. And i think it’s pretty cool too you set out to do that and know you want more. I love a good story if you ever want to share. But Yeah man this was awesome to come and read.

If I don’t hear from you again, keep taking care. You played important role in my growth and I can’t ever take that lightly. And I’ll always be sorry. that doesn’t change. It never did. I forgave myself of course I had to to get where I wanted to be healthily but yes, I hold a lot of empathy towards the whole thing and you and will always hold tenderness over it. ps tumblr is v different now huh? lol

#6/13/25

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