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[ While Icarus is sitting in bed, they hear a small knock on the door ]

@hidden-in-thevents

[Icarus was still irritated from the interaction before as they sat on the bed, groaning unhappily at the knock]

“What now?!”

[They’d stand up and walk to the door, swinging it open]

“Can’t you just leave me alo- oh… uh.. hi?”

[Osc jumps at the door opening so quickly, taking a step back. He slowly offers them the small bird plushie sitting in the palms of his hands with a slightly tilted head]

“Uh.. thank you?”

[They’d grab the bird plush and hold it with their own two hands]

[He smiles widely and giggles, wrapping his arms around Icarus and hugging them]

[Icarus would automatically lightly push the boy away with a awkward laugh]

“Haha..i’m so sorry kid, i don’t do.. hugs.. why are you here? You should probably be with your parents or something-“

[Osc’s face falls slightly and he digs in his pocket, taking out a handful of broken crayons]

‘ou draw with me..?

“Wha- why? I don’t exactly- look.. i’m not the person you want to hang around alright? I cause problems. Why don’t you go hang around anybody else.”

Bu’.. wanna draw with oo..

[He nods to the broken crayons]

“I… seriously?”

[Osc nods]

Pwease..?

“Fine! Fine.. come in.. i guess..”

[They’d push the door open a little wider]

[He breaks into a wide smile and runs in immediately, plopping himself on tne floor, giggling to himself. He pulled out paper and started drawing, putting the rest of the crayons and paper between them]

[Icarus would let out a sigh and make their way over to him. Sitting down on the floor and watched]

“So.. whatcha drawin?”

[He doesnt respond for a moment before holding up the drawing so they could see. Its a picture of a little pink figure with the word “me” next to it. Beside the pink figure is a taller one, with yellow wings and a splotch of brown on the head that looks like hair, with the words “Unk Icky” next to them]

Me ‘n ‘ou!!

[Icarus would stare at it, confusion in their eyes and they glanced at every little detail of the drawing]

“that’s…me? But why..”

Oo ma unk, silly!

[He giggles]

‘ou ma Unk Icky!

“I.. i guess? I wouldn’t exactly call myself that but..”

Bu’ what?

“Sure… sure kid. I’m your uncle..”

[Icarus smiled gently,]

[ While Icarus is sitting in bed, they hear a small knock on the door ]

@hidden-in-thevents

[Icarus was still irritated from the interaction before as they sat on the bed, groaning unhappily at the knock]

“What now?!”

[They’d stand up and walk to the door, swinging it open]

“Can’t you just leave me alo- oh… uh.. hi?”

[Osc jumps at the door opening so quickly, taking a step back. He slowly offers them the small bird plushie sitting in the palms of his hands with a slightly tilted head]

“Uh.. thank you?”

[They’d grab the bird plush and hold it with their own two hands]

[He smiles widely and giggles, wrapping his arms around Icarus and hugging them]

[Icarus would automatically lightly push the boy away with a awkward laugh]

“Haha..i’m so sorry kid, i don’t do.. hugs.. why are you here? You should probably be with your parents or something-“

[Osc’s face falls slightly and he digs in his pocket, taking out a handful of broken crayons]

‘ou draw with me..?

“Wha- why? I don’t exactly- look.. i’m not the person you want to hang around alright? I cause problems. Why don’t you go hang around anybody else.”

Bu’.. wanna draw with oo..

[He nods to the broken crayons]

“I… seriously?”

[Osc nods]

Pwease..?

“Fine! Fine.. come in.. i guess..”

[They’d push the door open a little wider]

[He breaks into a wide smile and runs in immediately, plopping himself on tne floor, giggling to himself. He pulled out paper and started drawing, putting the rest of the crayons and paper between them]

[Icarus would let out a sigh and make their way over to him. Sitting down on the floor and watched]

“So.. whatcha drawin?”

[He doesnt respond for a moment before holding up the drawing so they could see. Its a picture of a little pink figure with the word “me” next to it. Beside the pink figure is a taller one, with yellow wings and a splotch of brown on the head that looks like hair, with the words “Unk Icky” next to them]

Me ‘n ‘ou!!

[Icarus would stare at it, confusion in their eyes and they glanced at every little detail of the drawing]

“that’s…me? But why..”

Oo ma unk, silly!

[He giggles]

‘ou ma Unk Icky!

“I.. i guess? I wouldn’t exactly call myself that but..”

[One morning, there would be a knock at Icarus' bedroom door]

-@violet-experiment

[Icarus would wake up groggily, sitting up as they rubbed their eyes. Turning towards the door as the grumbled a small]

“Go away..”

[Before falling back onto the bed and rolling over]

It's Centross

“My answer before stands even firmer now. Go away.”

[Their voice hissed, alot more aggressively than their answer to the knock before. Now knowing of who was behind the door]

[Cen sighs and walks in anyway]

We needed to talk

[Icarus would be curled up on the bed, blanket wrapped around them as they faced the direction away from the door on purpose]

“I’d rather not speak to you at all. Asshole.”

Too fucking bad. I'm not leavin

“Crazy that when i actually want you to leave, you won’t huh? Where was this mentality before?”

[They’d scoff]

You don't know the full story, Icarus- believe me, I didn't wanna leave you

“Yeah right. You are just like everyone else.. i shouldn’t be surprised though.”

Fenris needed me- Rae left, Cas was looking for him, he didn't wanna be alone

“I don’t care anymore centross. You made your choice, so go live with it.”

[They’d bull the blanket over their head, a clear sign that they didn’t want to keep talking to him]

I don't choose between partners. That's not me. I love you, and I want to help

“I don’t need help anymore. I’m back here, everything is fine clearly. Go help fenris. I’m fine.”

[Their voice would be muffled by the blanket]

Fen's asleep. I'm not leaving, Icarus. I swear

“Oh. So you acknowledge me when he’s asleep. Got it.”

You're fucking twisting my words, thats not what I'm saying- I didn't know you were here until last night, after I brought Oscar here

“What do you think is going to come from this conversation centross? That we’ll be fine and everything will go back to fucking normal? News flash asshole! We. Were never normal”

[They’d sit up, and glare at him]

I know that- that's why I wanted to talk it through

[They’d just glare at him]

“You fucking left me.”

You weren't going to leave on your own

“I was trying! I couldn’t! You think i wanted to be there?!”

You stayed, though

“So you decided the best plan was to just leave me? Like that? Not even a fucking goodbye???.“

I thought I was going to come back, and you were asleep- shit spiraled

“You could of left a message..! Or a note.. or something to let me know where you were going! But no! You didn’t.“

I know I couldve- I realize that now, but I didn't then and I'm sorry

“You should be sorry.”

I am

“Okay cool. So glad we talked this out.“

But this didn't resolve anything-

“Wasn’t trying to.”

I want to-

“Why? So you can make yourself feel better? Seriously? You want to play hero right now???”

I want to help you, Icarus, because I love you

[They’d just remain silent]

I just want to help..

“Yeah? Help how centross? I’m already here aren’t i?”

You really think just because you're here means you're magically mentally okay? The gold's still in there

“Good observation. Anything else you want to point out?”

No, but I have a question. How come Raemond was able to take you home, but I wasn't? After all the months of trying?

“He didn’t care. I warned him. I told him i was no good. That i wasn’t worth saving and he didn’t care. You care too much. What’s the point of you bringing me back only for me to let you down again.. and again.. if i didn’t leave with you. I couldn’t let you down. I couldn’t be the problem i’m constantly being.”

Icarus.. You're not a problem. You wouldn't let me down, I promise. All I've wanted was to bring you somewhere safe, and I felt awful watching you practically deteriorate in front of my eyes

“… he also got me chips..”

I could've done all that for you, if you had let me..

“Well i didn’t know how good chips were until he got them for me!… and.. and i don’t know. I didn’t deserve you doing that for me. Centross.. i am the reason for all of this. I am nothing more than just like him. I could have prevented all of this. All of your trauma, i could have been stopped. This is just punishment for that.”

If you keep fucking comparing yourself to the monster who hurt all of us, I swear to the gods- you aren't him! You've never been him! You are Icarus. Not Creation, not Gilded, Icarus. You're not a failure, you're just a bird who's wings have been clipped since birth. Nothing is your fault, so stop saying that it is.

[They’d remain quiet as they glanced at the bed sheets, before patting the spot beside them]

[Centross slowly sits down by them]

[They still wouldn’t say anything as they just leant their head on his shoulder]

[He wraps his arm around them]

“You’re a fucking asshole.. ya’know?”

[They’d finally say, a small smile on their face]

I know, but you are too

“Shut up…”

[They’d shove his shoulder lightly]

[ While Icarus is sitting in bed, they hear a small knock on the door ]

@hidden-in-thevents

[Icarus was still irritated from the interaction before as they sat on the bed, groaning unhappily at the knock]

“What now?!”

[They’d stand up and walk to the door, swinging it open]

“Can’t you just leave me alo- oh… uh.. hi?”

[Osc jumps at the door opening so quickly, taking a step back. He slowly offers them the small bird plushie sitting in the palms of his hands with a slightly tilted head]

“Uh.. thank you?”

[They’d grab the bird plush and hold it with their own two hands]

[He smiles widely and giggles, wrapping his arms around Icarus and hugging them]

[Icarus would automatically lightly push the boy away with a awkward laugh]

“Haha..i’m so sorry kid, i don’t do.. hugs.. why are you here? You should probably be with your parents or something-“

[Osc’s face falls slightly and he digs in his pocket, taking out a handful of broken crayons]

‘ou draw with me..?

“Wha- why? I don’t exactly- look.. i’m not the person you want to hang around alright? I cause problems. Why don’t you go hang around anybody else.”

Bu’.. wanna draw with oo..

[He nods to the broken crayons]

“I… seriously?”

[Osc nods]

Pwease..?

“Fine! Fine.. come in.. i guess..”

[They’d push the door open a little wider]

[He breaks into a wide smile and runs in immediately, plopping himself on tne floor, giggling to himself. He pulled out paper and started drawing, putting the rest of the crayons and paper between them]

[Icarus would let out a sigh and make their way over to him. Sitting down on the floor and watched]

“So.. whatcha drawin?”

[He doesnt respond for a moment before holding up the drawing so they could see. Its a picture of a little pink figure with the word “me” next to it. Beside the pink figure is a taller one, with yellow wings and a splotch of brown on the head that looks like hair, with the words “Unk Icky” next to them]

Me ‘n ‘ou!!

[Icarus would stare at it, confusion in their eyes and they glanced at every little detail of the drawing]

“that’s…me? But why..”

[One morning, there would be a knock at Icarus' bedroom door]

-@violet-experiment

[Icarus would wake up groggily, sitting up as they rubbed their eyes. Turning towards the door as the grumbled a small]

“Go away..”

[Before falling back onto the bed and rolling over]

It's Centross

“My answer before stands even firmer now. Go away.”

[Their voice hissed, alot more aggressively than their answer to the knock before. Now knowing of who was behind the door]

[Cen sighs and walks in anyway]

We needed to talk

[Icarus would be curled up on the bed, blanket wrapped around them as they faced the direction away from the door on purpose]

“I’d rather not speak to you at all. Asshole.”

Too fucking bad. I'm not leavin

“Crazy that when i actually want you to leave, you won’t huh? Where was this mentality before?”

[They’d scoff]

You don't know the full story, Icarus- believe me, I didn't wanna leave you

“Yeah right. You are just like everyone else.. i shouldn’t be surprised though.”

Fenris needed me- Rae left, Cas was looking for him, he didn't wanna be alone

“I don’t care anymore centross. You made your choice, so go live with it.”

[They’d bull the blanket over their head, a clear sign that they didn’t want to keep talking to him]

I don't choose between partners. That's not me. I love you, and I want to help

“I don’t need help anymore. I’m back here, everything is fine clearly. Go help fenris. I’m fine.”

[Their voice would be muffled by the blanket]

Fen's asleep. I'm not leaving, Icarus. I swear

“Oh. So you acknowledge me when he’s asleep. Got it.”

You're fucking twisting my words, thats not what I'm saying- I didn't know you were here until last night, after I brought Oscar here

“What do you think is going to come from this conversation centross? That we’ll be fine and everything will go back to fucking normal? News flash asshole! We. Were never normal”

[They’d sit up, and glare at him]

I know that- that's why I wanted to talk it through

[They’d just glare at him]

“You fucking left me.”

You weren't going to leave on your own

“I was trying! I couldn’t! You think i wanted to be there?!”

You stayed, though

“So you decided the best plan was to just leave me? Like that? Not even a fucking goodbye???.“

I thought I was going to come back, and you were asleep- shit spiraled

“You could of left a message..! Or a note.. or something to let me know where you were going! But no! You didn’t.“

I know I couldve- I realize that now, but I didn't then and I'm sorry

“You should be sorry.”

I am

“Okay cool. So glad we talked this out.“

But this didn't resolve anything-

“Wasn’t trying to.”

I want to-

“Why? So you can make yourself feel better? Seriously? You want to play hero right now???”

I want to help you, Icarus, because I love you

[They’d just remain silent]

I just want to help..

“Yeah? Help how centross? I’m already here aren’t i?”

You really think just because you're here means you're magically mentally okay? The gold's still in there

“Good observation. Anything else you want to point out?”

No, but I have a question. How come Raemond was able to take you home, but I wasn't? After all the months of trying?

“He didn’t care. I warned him. I told him i was no good. That i wasn’t worth saving and he didn’t care. You care too much. What’s the point of you bringing me back only for me to let you down again.. and again.. if i didn’t leave with you. I couldn’t let you down. I couldn’t be the problem i’m constantly being.”

Icarus.. You're not a problem. You wouldn't let me down, I promise. All I've wanted was to bring you somewhere safe, and I felt awful watching you practically deteriorate in front of my eyes

“… he also got me chips..”

I could've done all that for you, if you had let me..

“Well i didn’t know how good chips were until he got them for me!… and.. and i don’t know. I didn’t deserve you doing that for me. Centross.. i am the reason for all of this. I am nothing more than just like him. I could have prevented all of this. All of your trauma, i could have been stopped. This is just punishment for that.”

If you keep fucking comparing yourself to the monster who hurt all of us, I swear to the gods- you aren't him! You've never been him! You are Icarus. Not Creation, not Gilded, Icarus. You're not a failure, you're just a bird who's wings have been clipped since birth. Nothing is your fault, so stop saying that it is.

[They’d remain quiet as they glanced at the bed sheets, before patting the spot beside them]

[Centross slowly sits down by them]

[They still wouldn’t say anything as they just leant their head on his shoulder]

[He wraps his arm around them]

“You’re a fucking asshole.. ya’know?”

[They’d finally say, a small smile on their face]

[One morning, there would be a knock at Icarus' bedroom door]

-@violet-experiment

[Icarus would wake up groggily, sitting up as they rubbed their eyes. Turning towards the door as the grumbled a small]

“Go away..”

[Before falling back onto the bed and rolling over]

It's Centross

“My answer before stands even firmer now. Go away.”

[Their voice hissed, alot more aggressively than their answer to the knock before. Now knowing of who was behind the door]

[Cen sighs and walks in anyway]

We needed to talk

[Icarus would be curled up on the bed, blanket wrapped around them as they faced the direction away from the door on purpose]

“I’d rather not speak to you at all. Asshole.”

Too fucking bad. I'm not leavin

“Crazy that when i actually want you to leave, you won’t huh? Where was this mentality before?”

[They’d scoff]

You don't know the full story, Icarus- believe me, I didn't wanna leave you

“Yeah right. You are just like everyone else.. i shouldn’t be surprised though.”

Fenris needed me- Rae left, Cas was looking for him, he didn't wanna be alone

“I don’t care anymore centross. You made your choice, so go live with it.”

[They’d bull the blanket over their head, a clear sign that they didn’t want to keep talking to him]

I don't choose between partners. That's not me. I love you, and I want to help

“I don’t need help anymore. I’m back here, everything is fine clearly. Go help fenris. I’m fine.”

[Their voice would be muffled by the blanket]

Fen's asleep. I'm not leaving, Icarus. I swear

“Oh. So you acknowledge me when he’s asleep. Got it.”

You're fucking twisting my words, thats not what I'm saying- I didn't know you were here until last night, after I brought Oscar here

“What do you think is going to come from this conversation centross? That we’ll be fine and everything will go back to fucking normal? News flash asshole! We. Were never normal”

[They’d sit up, and glare at him]

I know that- that's why I wanted to talk it through

[They’d just glare at him]

“You fucking left me.”

You weren't going to leave on your own

“I was trying! I couldn’t! You think i wanted to be there?!”

You stayed, though

“So you decided the best plan was to just leave me? Like that? Not even a fucking goodbye???.“

I thought I was going to come back, and you were asleep- shit spiraled

“You could of left a message..! Or a note.. or something to let me know where you were going! But no! You didn’t.“

I know I couldve- I realize that now, but I didn't then and I'm sorry

“You should be sorry.”

I am

“Okay cool. So glad we talked this out.“

But this didn't resolve anything-

“Wasn’t trying to.”

I want to-

“Why? So you can make yourself feel better? Seriously? You want to play hero right now???”

I want to help you, Icarus, because I love you

[They’d just remain silent]

I just want to help..

“Yeah? Help how centross? I’m already here aren’t i?”

You really think just because you're here means you're magically mentally okay? The gold's still in there

“Good observation. Anything else you want to point out?”

No, but I have a question. How come Raemond was able to take you home, but I wasn't? After all the months of trying?

“He didn’t care. I warned him. I told him i was no good. That i wasn’t worth saving and he didn’t care. You care too much. What’s the point of you bringing me back only for me to let you down again.. and again.. if i didn’t leave with you. I couldn’t let you down. I couldn’t be the problem i’m constantly being.”

Icarus.. You're not a problem. You wouldn't let me down, I promise. All I've wanted was to bring you somewhere safe, and I felt awful watching you practically deteriorate in front of my eyes

“… he also got me chips..”

I could've done all that for you, if you had let me..

“Well i didn’t know how good chips were until he got them for me!… and.. and i don’t know. I didn’t deserve you doing that for me. Centross.. i am the reason for all of this. I am nothing more than just like him. I could have prevented all of this. All of your trauma, i could have been stopped. This is just punishment for that.”

If you keep fucking comparing yourself to the monster who hurt all of us, I swear to the gods- you aren't him! You've never been him! You are Icarus. Not Creation, not Gilded, Icarus. You're not a failure, you're just a bird who's wings have been clipped since birth. Nothing is your fault, so stop saying that it is.

[They’d remain quiet as they glanced at the bed sheets, before patting the spot beside them]

[Centross slowly sits down by them]

[They still wouldn’t say anything as they just leant their head on his shoulder]

[One morning, there would be a knock at Icarus' bedroom door]

-@violet-experiment

[Icarus would wake up groggily, sitting up as they rubbed their eyes. Turning towards the door as the grumbled a small]

“Go away..”

[Before falling back onto the bed and rolling over]

It's Centross

“My answer before stands even firmer now. Go away.”

[Their voice hissed, alot more aggressively than their answer to the knock before. Now knowing of who was behind the door]

[Cen sighs and walks in anyway]

We needed to talk

[Icarus would be curled up on the bed, blanket wrapped around them as they faced the direction away from the door on purpose]

“I’d rather not speak to you at all. Asshole.”

Too fucking bad. I'm not leavin

“Crazy that when i actually want you to leave, you won’t huh? Where was this mentality before?”

[They’d scoff]

You don't know the full story, Icarus- believe me, I didn't wanna leave you

“Yeah right. You are just like everyone else.. i shouldn’t be surprised though.”

Fenris needed me- Rae left, Cas was looking for him, he didn't wanna be alone

“I don’t care anymore centross. You made your choice, so go live with it.”

[They’d bull the blanket over their head, a clear sign that they didn’t want to keep talking to him]

I don't choose between partners. That's not me. I love you, and I want to help

“I don’t need help anymore. I’m back here, everything is fine clearly. Go help fenris. I’m fine.”

[Their voice would be muffled by the blanket]

Fen's asleep. I'm not leaving, Icarus. I swear

“Oh. So you acknowledge me when he’s asleep. Got it.”

You're fucking twisting my words, thats not what I'm saying- I didn't know you were here until last night, after I brought Oscar here

“What do you think is going to come from this conversation centross? That we’ll be fine and everything will go back to fucking normal? News flash asshole! We. Were never normal”

[They’d sit up, and glare at him]

I know that- that's why I wanted to talk it through

[They’d just glare at him]

“You fucking left me.”

You weren't going to leave on your own

“I was trying! I couldn’t! You think i wanted to be there?!”

You stayed, though

“So you decided the best plan was to just leave me? Like that? Not even a fucking goodbye???.“

I thought I was going to come back, and you were asleep- shit spiraled

“You could of left a message..! Or a note.. or something to let me know where you were going! But no! You didn’t.“

I know I couldve- I realize that now, but I didn't then and I'm sorry

“You should be sorry.”

I am

“Okay cool. So glad we talked this out.“

But this didn't resolve anything-

“Wasn’t trying to.”

I want to-

“Why? So you can make yourself feel better? Seriously? You want to play hero right now???”

I want to help you, Icarus, because I love you

[They’d just remain silent]

I just want to help..

“Yeah? Help how centross? I’m already here aren’t i?”

You really think just because you're here means you're magically mentally okay? The gold's still in there

“Good observation. Anything else you want to point out?”

No, but I have a question. How come Raemond was able to take you home, but I wasn't? After all the months of trying?

“He didn’t care. I warned him. I told him i was no good. That i wasn’t worth saving and he didn’t care. You care too much. What’s the point of you bringing me back only for me to let you down again.. and again.. if i didn’t leave with you. I couldn’t let you down. I couldn’t be the problem i’m constantly being.”

Icarus.. You're not a problem. You wouldn't let me down, I promise. All I've wanted was to bring you somewhere safe, and I felt awful watching you practically deteriorate in front of my eyes

“… he also got me chips..”

I could've done all that for you, if you had let me..

“Well i didn’t know how good chips were until he got them for me!… and.. and i don’t know. I didn’t deserve you doing that for me. Centross.. i am the reason for all of this. I am nothing more than just like him. I could have prevented all of this. All of your trauma, i could have been stopped. This is just punishment for that.”

If you keep fucking comparing yourself to the monster who hurt all of us, I swear to the gods- you aren't him! You've never been him! You are Icarus. Not Creation, not Gilded, Icarus. You're not a failure, you're just a bird who's wings have been clipped since birth. Nothing is your fault, so stop saying that it is.

[They’d remain quiet as they glanced at the bed sheets, before patting the spot beside them]

[One morning, there would be a knock at Icarus' bedroom door]

-@violet-experiment

[Icarus would wake up groggily, sitting up as they rubbed their eyes. Turning towards the door as the grumbled a small]

“Go away..”

[Before falling back onto the bed and rolling over]

It's Centross

“My answer before stands even firmer now. Go away.”

[Their voice hissed, alot more aggressively than their answer to the knock before. Now knowing of who was behind the door]

[Cen sighs and walks in anyway]

We needed to talk

[Icarus would be curled up on the bed, blanket wrapped around them as they faced the direction away from the door on purpose]

“I’d rather not speak to you at all. Asshole.”

Too fucking bad. I'm not leavin

“Crazy that when i actually want you to leave, you won’t huh? Where was this mentality before?”

[They’d scoff]

You don't know the full story, Icarus- believe me, I didn't wanna leave you

“Yeah right. You are just like everyone else.. i shouldn’t be surprised though.”

Fenris needed me- Rae left, Cas was looking for him, he didn't wanna be alone

“I don’t care anymore centross. You made your choice, so go live with it.”

[They’d bull the blanket over their head, a clear sign that they didn’t want to keep talking to him]

I don't choose between partners. That's not me. I love you, and I want to help

“I don’t need help anymore. I’m back here, everything is fine clearly. Go help fenris. I’m fine.”

[Their voice would be muffled by the blanket]

Fen's asleep. I'm not leaving, Icarus. I swear

“Oh. So you acknowledge me when he’s asleep. Got it.”

You're fucking twisting my words, thats not what I'm saying- I didn't know you were here until last night, after I brought Oscar here

“What do you think is going to come from this conversation centross? That we’ll be fine and everything will go back to fucking normal? News flash asshole! We. Were never normal”

[They’d sit up, and glare at him]

I know that- that's why I wanted to talk it through

[They’d just glare at him]

“You fucking left me.”

You weren't going to leave on your own

“I was trying! I couldn’t! You think i wanted to be there?!”

You stayed, though

“So you decided the best plan was to just leave me? Like that? Not even a fucking goodbye???.“

I thought I was going to come back, and you were asleep- shit spiraled

“You could of left a message..! Or a note.. or something to let me know where you were going! But no! You didn’t.“

I know I couldve- I realize that now, but I didn't then and I'm sorry

“You should be sorry.”

I am

“Okay cool. So glad we talked this out.“

But this didn't resolve anything-

“Wasn’t trying to.”

I want to-

“Why? So you can make yourself feel better? Seriously? You want to play hero right now???”

I want to help you, Icarus, because I love you

[They’d just remain silent]

I just want to help..

“Yeah? Help how centross? I’m already here aren’t i?”

You really think just because you're here means you're magically mentally okay? The gold's still in there

“Good observation. Anything else you want to point out?”

No, but I have a question. How come Raemond was able to take you home, but I wasn't? After all the months of trying?

“He didn’t care. I warned him. I told him i was no good. That i wasn’t worth saving and he didn’t care. You care too much. What’s the point of you bringing me back only for me to let you down again.. and again.. if i didn’t leave with you. I couldn’t let you down. I couldn’t be the problem i’m constantly being.”

Icarus.. You're not a problem. You wouldn't let me down, I promise. All I've wanted was to bring you somewhere safe, and I felt awful watching you practically deteriorate in front of my eyes

“… he also got me chips..”

I could've done all that for you, if you had let me..

“Well i didn’t know how good chips were until he got them for me!… and.. and i don’t know. I didn’t deserve you doing that for me. Centross.. i am the reason for all of this. I am nothing more than just like him. I could have prevented all of this. All of your trauma, i could have been stopped. This is just punishment for that.”

[One morning, there would be a knock at Icarus' bedroom door]

-@violet-experiment

[Icarus would wake up groggily, sitting up as they rubbed their eyes. Turning towards the door as the grumbled a small]

“Go away..”

[Before falling back onto the bed and rolling over]

It's Centross

“My answer before stands even firmer now. Go away.”

[Their voice hissed, alot more aggressively than their answer to the knock before. Now knowing of who was behind the door]

[Cen sighs and walks in anyway]

We needed to talk

[Icarus would be curled up on the bed, blanket wrapped around them as they faced the direction away from the door on purpose]

“I’d rather not speak to you at all. Asshole.”

Too fucking bad. I'm not leavin

“Crazy that when i actually want you to leave, you won’t huh? Where was this mentality before?”

[They’d scoff]

You don't know the full story, Icarus- believe me, I didn't wanna leave you

“Yeah right. You are just like everyone else.. i shouldn’t be surprised though.”

Fenris needed me- Rae left, Cas was looking for him, he didn't wanna be alone

“I don’t care anymore centross. You made your choice, so go live with it.”

[They’d bull the blanket over their head, a clear sign that they didn’t want to keep talking to him]

I don't choose between partners. That's not me. I love you, and I want to help

“I don’t need help anymore. I’m back here, everything is fine clearly. Go help fenris. I’m fine.”

[Their voice would be muffled by the blanket]

Fen's asleep. I'm not leaving, Icarus. I swear

“Oh. So you acknowledge me when he’s asleep. Got it.”

You're fucking twisting my words, thats not what I'm saying- I didn't know you were here until last night, after I brought Oscar here

“What do you think is going to come from this conversation centross? That we’ll be fine and everything will go back to fucking normal? News flash asshole! We. Were never normal”

[They’d sit up, and glare at him]

I know that- that's why I wanted to talk it through

[They’d just glare at him]

“You fucking left me.”

You weren't going to leave on your own

“I was trying! I couldn’t! You think i wanted to be there?!”

You stayed, though

“So you decided the best plan was to just leave me? Like that? Not even a fucking goodbye???.“

I thought I was going to come back, and you were asleep- shit spiraled

“You could of left a message..! Or a note.. or something to let me know where you were going! But no! You didn’t.“

I know I couldve- I realize that now, but I didn't then and I'm sorry

“You should be sorry.”

I am

“Okay cool. So glad we talked this out.“

But this didn't resolve anything-

“Wasn’t trying to.”

I want to-

“Why? So you can make yourself feel better? Seriously? You want to play hero right now???”

I want to help you, Icarus, because I love you

[They’d just remain silent]

I just want to help..

“Yeah? Help how centross? I’m already here aren’t i?”

You really think just because you're here means you're magically mentally okay? The gold's still in there

“Good observation. Anything else you want to point out?”

No, but I have a question. How come Raemond was able to take you home, but I wasn't? After all the months of trying?

“He didn’t care. I warned him. I told him i was no good. That i wasn’t worth saving and he didn’t care. You care too much. What’s the point of you bringing me back only for me to let you down again.. and again.. if i didn’t leave with you. I couldn’t let you down. I couldn’t be the problem i’m constantly being.”

Icarus.. You're not a problem. You wouldn't let me down, I promise. All I've wanted was to bring you somewhere safe, and I felt awful watching you practically deteriorate in front of my eyes

“… he also got me chips..”

[One morning, there would be a knock at Icarus' bedroom door]

-@violet-experiment

[Icarus would wake up groggily, sitting up as they rubbed their eyes. Turning towards the door as the grumbled a small]

“Go away..”

[Before falling back onto the bed and rolling over]

It's Centross

“My answer before stands even firmer now. Go away.”

[Their voice hissed, alot more aggressively than their answer to the knock before. Now knowing of who was behind the door]

[Cen sighs and walks in anyway]

We needed to talk

[Icarus would be curled up on the bed, blanket wrapped around them as they faced the direction away from the door on purpose]

“I’d rather not speak to you at all. Asshole.”

Too fucking bad. I'm not leavin

“Crazy that when i actually want you to leave, you won’t huh? Where was this mentality before?”

[They’d scoff]

You don't know the full story, Icarus- believe me, I didn't wanna leave you

“Yeah right. You are just like everyone else.. i shouldn’t be surprised though.”

Fenris needed me- Rae left, Cas was looking for him, he didn't wanna be alone

“I don’t care anymore centross. You made your choice, so go live with it.”

[They’d bull the blanket over their head, a clear sign that they didn’t want to keep talking to him]

I don't choose between partners. That's not me. I love you, and I want to help

“I don’t need help anymore. I’m back here, everything is fine clearly. Go help fenris. I’m fine.”

[Their voice would be muffled by the blanket]

Fen's asleep. I'm not leaving, Icarus. I swear

“Oh. So you acknowledge me when he’s asleep. Got it.”

You're fucking twisting my words, thats not what I'm saying- I didn't know you were here until last night, after I brought Oscar here

“What do you think is going to come from this conversation centross? That we’ll be fine and everything will go back to fucking normal? News flash asshole! We. Were never normal”

[They’d sit up, and glare at him]

I know that- that's why I wanted to talk it through

[They’d just glare at him]

“You fucking left me.”

You weren't going to leave on your own

“I was trying! I couldn’t! You think i wanted to be there?!”

You stayed, though

“So you decided the best plan was to just leave me? Like that? Not even a fucking goodbye???.“

I thought I was going to come back, and you were asleep- shit spiraled

“You could of left a message..! Or a note.. or something to let me know where you were going! But no! You didn’t.“

I know I couldve- I realize that now, but I didn't then and I'm sorry

“You should be sorry.”

I am

“Okay cool. So glad we talked this out.“

But this didn't resolve anything-

“Wasn’t trying to.”

I want to-

“Why? So you can make yourself feel better? Seriously? You want to play hero right now???”

I want to help you, Icarus, because I love you

[They’d just remain silent]

I just want to help..

“Yeah? Help how centross? I’m already here aren’t i?”

You really think just because you're here means you're magically mentally okay? The gold's still in there

“Good observation. Anything else you want to point out?”

No, but I have a question. How come Raemond was able to take you home, but I wasn't? After all the months of trying?

“He didn’t care. I warned him. I told him i was no good. That i wasn’t worth saving and he didn’t care. You care too much. What’s the point of you bringing me back only for me to let you down again.. and again.. if i didn’t leave with you. I couldn’t let you down. I couldn’t be the problem i’m constantly being.”

[One morning, there would be a knock at Icarus' bedroom door]

-@violet-experiment

[Icarus would wake up groggily, sitting up as they rubbed their eyes. Turning towards the door as the grumbled a small]

“Go away..”

[Before falling back onto the bed and rolling over]

It's Centross

“My answer before stands even firmer now. Go away.”

[Their voice hissed, alot more aggressively than their answer to the knock before. Now knowing of who was behind the door]

[Cen sighs and walks in anyway]

We needed to talk

[Icarus would be curled up on the bed, blanket wrapped around them as they faced the direction away from the door on purpose]

“I’d rather not speak to you at all. Asshole.”

Too fucking bad. I'm not leavin

“Crazy that when i actually want you to leave, you won’t huh? Where was this mentality before?”

[They’d scoff]

You don't know the full story, Icarus- believe me, I didn't wanna leave you

“Yeah right. You are just like everyone else.. i shouldn’t be surprised though.”

Fenris needed me- Rae left, Cas was looking for him, he didn't wanna be alone

“I don’t care anymore centross. You made your choice, so go live with it.”

[They’d bull the blanket over their head, a clear sign that they didn’t want to keep talking to him]

I don't choose between partners. That's not me. I love you, and I want to help

“I don’t need help anymore. I’m back here, everything is fine clearly. Go help fenris. I’m fine.”

[Their voice would be muffled by the blanket]

Fen's asleep. I'm not leaving, Icarus. I swear

“Oh. So you acknowledge me when he’s asleep. Got it.”

You're fucking twisting my words, thats not what I'm saying- I didn't know you were here until last night, after I brought Oscar here

“What do you think is going to come from this conversation centross? That we’ll be fine and everything will go back to fucking normal? News flash asshole! We. Were never normal”

[They’d sit up, and glare at him]

I know that- that's why I wanted to talk it through

[They’d just glare at him]

“You fucking left me.”

You weren't going to leave on your own

“I was trying! I couldn’t! You think i wanted to be there?!”

You stayed, though

“So you decided the best plan was to just leave me? Like that? Not even a fucking goodbye???.“

I thought I was going to come back, and you were asleep- shit spiraled

“You could of left a message..! Or a note.. or something to let me know where you were going! But no! You didn’t.“

I know I couldve- I realize that now, but I didn't then and I'm sorry

“You should be sorry.”

I am

“Okay cool. So glad we talked this out.“

But this didn't resolve anything-

“Wasn’t trying to.”

I want to-

“Why? So you can make yourself feel better? Seriously? You want to play hero right now???”

I want to help you, Icarus, because I love you

[They’d just remain silent]

I just want to help..

“Yeah? Help how centross? I’m already here aren’t i?”

You really think just because you're here means you're magically mentally okay? The gold's still in there

“Good observation. Anything else you want to point out?”

[ While Icarus is sitting in bed, they hear a small knock on the door ]

@hidden-in-thevents

[Icarus was still irritated from the interaction before as they sat on the bed, groaning unhappily at the knock]

“What now?!”

[They’d stand up and walk to the door, swinging it open]

“Can’t you just leave me alo- oh… uh.. hi?”

[Osc jumps at the door opening so quickly, taking a step back. He slowly offers them the small bird plushie sitting in the palms of his hands with a slightly tilted head]

“Uh.. thank you?”

[They’d grab the bird plush and hold it with their own two hands]

[He smiles widely and giggles, wrapping his arms around Icarus and hugging them]

[Icarus would automatically lightly push the boy away with a awkward laugh]

“Haha..i’m so sorry kid, i don’t do.. hugs.. why are you here? You should probably be with your parents or something-“

[Osc’s face falls slightly and he digs in his pocket, taking out a handful of broken crayons]

‘ou draw with me..?

“Wha- why? I don’t exactly- look.. i’m not the person you want to hang around alright? I cause problems. Why don’t you go hang around anybody else.”

Bu’.. wanna draw with oo..

[He nods to the broken crayons]

“I… seriously?”

[Osc nods]

Pwease..?

“Fine! Fine.. come in.. i guess..”

[They’d push the door open a little wider]

[He breaks into a wide smile and runs in immediately, plopping himself on tne floor, giggling to himself. He pulled out paper and started drawing, putting the rest of the crayons and paper between them]

[Icarus would let out a sigh and make their way over to him. Sitting down on the floor and watched]

“So.. whatcha drawin?”

[One morning, there would be a knock at Icarus' bedroom door]

-@violet-experiment

[Icarus would wake up groggily, sitting up as they rubbed their eyes. Turning towards the door as the grumbled a small]

“Go away..”

[Before falling back onto the bed and rolling over]

It's Centross

“My answer before stands even firmer now. Go away.”

[Their voice hissed, alot more aggressively than their answer to the knock before. Now knowing of who was behind the door]

[Cen sighs and walks in anyway]

We needed to talk

[Icarus would be curled up on the bed, blanket wrapped around them as they faced the direction away from the door on purpose]

“I’d rather not speak to you at all. Asshole.”

Too fucking bad. I'm not leavin

“Crazy that when i actually want you to leave, you won’t huh? Where was this mentality before?”

[They’d scoff]

You don't know the full story, Icarus- believe me, I didn't wanna leave you

“Yeah right. You are just like everyone else.. i shouldn’t be surprised though.”

Fenris needed me- Rae left, Cas was looking for him, he didn't wanna be alone

“I don’t care anymore centross. You made your choice, so go live with it.”

[They’d bull the blanket over their head, a clear sign that they didn’t want to keep talking to him]

I don't choose between partners. That's not me. I love you, and I want to help

“I don’t need help anymore. I’m back here, everything is fine clearly. Go help fenris. I’m fine.”

[Their voice would be muffled by the blanket]

Fen's asleep. I'm not leaving, Icarus. I swear

“Oh. So you acknowledge me when he’s asleep. Got it.”

You're fucking twisting my words, thats not what I'm saying- I didn't know you were here until last night, after I brought Oscar here

“What do you think is going to come from this conversation centross? That we’ll be fine and everything will go back to fucking normal? News flash asshole! We. Were never normal”

[They’d sit up, and glare at him]

I know that- that's why I wanted to talk it through

[They’d just glare at him]

“You fucking left me.”

You weren't going to leave on your own

“I was trying! I couldn’t! You think i wanted to be there?!”

You stayed, though

“So you decided the best plan was to just leave me? Like that? Not even a fucking goodbye???.“

I thought I was going to come back, and you were asleep- shit spiraled

“You could of left a message..! Or a note.. or something to let me know where you were going! But no! You didn’t.“

I know I couldve- I realize that now, but I didn't then and I'm sorry

“You should be sorry.”

I am

“Okay cool. So glad we talked this out.“

But this didn't resolve anything-

“Wasn’t trying to.”

I want to-

“Why? So you can make yourself feel better? Seriously? You want to play hero right now???”

I want to help you, Icarus, because I love you

[They’d just remain silent]

I just want to help..

“Yeah? Help how centross? I’m already here aren’t i?”

[ While Icarus is sitting in bed, they hear a small knock on the door ]

@hidden-in-thevents

[Icarus was still irritated from the interaction before as they sat on the bed, groaning unhappily at the knock]

“What now?!”

[They’d stand up and walk to the door, swinging it open]

“Can’t you just leave me alo- oh… uh.. hi?”

[Osc jumps at the door opening so quickly, taking a step back. He slowly offers them the small bird plushie sitting in the palms of his hands with a slightly tilted head]

“Uh.. thank you?”

[They’d grab the bird plush and hold it with their own two hands]

[He smiles widely and giggles, wrapping his arms around Icarus and hugging them]

[Icarus would automatically lightly push the boy away with a awkward laugh]

“Haha..i’m so sorry kid, i don’t do.. hugs.. why are you here? You should probably be with your parents or something-“

[Osc’s face falls slightly and he digs in his pocket, taking out a handful of broken crayons]

‘ou draw with me..?

“Wha- why? I don’t exactly- look.. i’m not the person you want to hang around alright? I cause problems. Why don’t you go hang around anybody else.”

Bu’.. wanna draw with oo..

[He nods to the broken crayons]

“I… seriously?”

[Osc nods]

Pwease..?

“Fine! Fine.. come in.. i guess..”

[They’d push the door open a little wider]

[One morning, there would be a knock at Icarus' bedroom door]

-@violet-experiment

[Icarus would wake up groggily, sitting up as they rubbed their eyes. Turning towards the door as the grumbled a small]

“Go away..”

[Before falling back onto the bed and rolling over]

It's Centross

“My answer before stands even firmer now. Go away.”

[Their voice hissed, alot more aggressively than their answer to the knock before. Now knowing of who was behind the door]

[Cen sighs and walks in anyway]

We needed to talk

[Icarus would be curled up on the bed, blanket wrapped around them as they faced the direction away from the door on purpose]

“I’d rather not speak to you at all. Asshole.”

Too fucking bad. I'm not leavin

“Crazy that when i actually want you to leave, you won’t huh? Where was this mentality before?”

[They’d scoff]

You don't know the full story, Icarus- believe me, I didn't wanna leave you

“Yeah right. You are just like everyone else.. i shouldn’t be surprised though.”

Fenris needed me- Rae left, Cas was looking for him, he didn't wanna be alone

“I don’t care anymore centross. You made your choice, so go live with it.”

[They’d bull the blanket over their head, a clear sign that they didn’t want to keep talking to him]

I don't choose between partners. That's not me. I love you, and I want to help

“I don’t need help anymore. I’m back here, everything is fine clearly. Go help fenris. I’m fine.”

[Their voice would be muffled by the blanket]

Fen's asleep. I'm not leaving, Icarus. I swear

“Oh. So you acknowledge me when he’s asleep. Got it.”

You're fucking twisting my words, thats not what I'm saying- I didn't know you were here until last night, after I brought Oscar here

“What do you think is going to come from this conversation centross? That we’ll be fine and everything will go back to fucking normal? News flash asshole! We. Were never normal”

[They’d sit up, and glare at him]

I know that- that's why I wanted to talk it through

[They’d just glare at him]

“You fucking left me.”

You weren't going to leave on your own

“I was trying! I couldn’t! You think i wanted to be there?!”

You stayed, though

“So you decided the best plan was to just leave me? Like that? Not even a fucking goodbye???.“

I thought I was going to come back, and you were asleep- shit spiraled

“You could of left a message..! Or a note.. or something to let me know where you were going! But no! You didn’t.“

I know I couldve- I realize that now, but I didn't then and I'm sorry

“You should be sorry.”

I am

“Okay cool. So glad we talked this out.“

But this didn't resolve anything-

“Wasn’t trying to.”

I want to-

“Why? So you can make yourself feel better? Seriously? You want to play hero right now???”

I want to help you, Icarus, because I love you

[They’d just remain silent]

[ While Icarus is sitting in bed, they hear a small knock on the door ]

@hidden-in-thevents

[Icarus was still irritated from the interaction before as they sat on the bed, groaning unhappily at the knock]

“What now?!”

[They’d stand up and walk to the door, swinging it open]

“Can’t you just leave me alo- oh… uh.. hi?”

[Osc jumps at the door opening so quickly, taking a step back. He slowly offers them the small bird plushie sitting in the palms of his hands with a slightly tilted head]

“Uh.. thank you?”

[They’d grab the bird plush and hold it with their own two hands]

[He smiles widely and giggles, wrapping his arms around Icarus and hugging them]

[Icarus would automatically lightly push the boy away with a awkward laugh]

“Haha..i’m so sorry kid, i don’t do.. hugs.. why are you here? You should probably be with your parents or something-“

[Osc’s face falls slightly and he digs in his pocket, taking out a handful of broken crayons]

‘ou draw with me..?

“Wha- why? I don’t exactly- look.. i’m not the person you want to hang around alright? I cause problems. Why don’t you go hang around anybody else.”

Bu’.. wanna draw with oo..

[He nods to the broken crayons]

“I… seriously?”