Miss Talkative

Just an ordinary girl who wants to express her feelings :)

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I Just Want Someone Next To Me Always.

Yes, you read it right. All I wanted now is someone who stick to me always and bare with me. I know it is normal to be single at this age but every time I felt lonely, sad, depress or just wanted someone to share my problem, i tend to look for someone. I always tell to my friends but I realize that I need someone special in my life. Love of my life where I can share everything openly. I always failed in any serious relationship I get into, either I got cheated or friend zone. I know I’m not that pretty but I wish I get someone who accept me for who am I and be with me always. I cant wait to build a new relationship and family with that ONE SPECIAL PERSON. 

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                                                B E S T   F R I E N D

God always has his own plan and most of the time, we just accept whatever he gave us. The only thing I can’t accept until today is that I’m apart from my best friend. V (not real name) has a special place in my heart always and forever. Someone I met during high school that played an important role in my life. My life while with him was so beautiful and meaningful. Those memories and happiness he gave me are so true.

V and I knew each other since 2012 (form 4 that time). We hate each other first then God’s plan changed when we begin to talk everyday, weekend is the best time since both of us meet, have fun, study and everything. He got to know me so well that none can understand me well as he did until now. He choose my outfit, he knows what is the best for me, he cared so much for me, swear to God, he is the SUPERMAN in my life.

Everything was going on so well when an EVIL (two-faced person) tried to take away him from me. Before I realized that, it was too late that V gone forever. He stop talking, show anger, blocked me in all social media and GONE just like that. I thought it will be fine soon but I was wrong. That EVIL brainwashed him so nicely and at the same time act like innocent in front me. I was so stupid back then that I was good to that EVIL. 

Hours, days, weeks, months, years gone and i still didn’t get back my best friend. I wish he knows how much I loved him and I will do anything to get back him as before. Even if i did any mistake, I wish I could make it right. Until now, I’m waiting for him to come back one day and I know he will understand me very soon.The reason why I wrote this now, anything can happen. In case I’m no longer in this world, I’m sure V will read this and he knows how much I missed him and his presences in my life. 

p.s To EVIL that did all this, I won’t do anything but remember, u took away my best friend. I’m sure God will take away your best friend until u can’t even see him/her. God bless YOU.

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He is not my husband,

He is not my boyfriend,

He is not my friend,

He is not My crush

BUT, he has special place in my heart.

MY BEST FRIEND NOW AND ALWAYS. 

MR.V.

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About ME!

           Since this is my very first post in tumblr, I would like to tell few things about me and why i decide to blog? Before that, I want to tell that I’m not going to reveal myself. This blog is for me to express my feelings, thoughts and thinking. Even to stop me from over-thinking or suicide. Hell yes, i tried to kill myself few times cause I was so depress and started to hurt myself. Lucky I’m still alive.

              Someone who talks a lots, have so many friends, happy girl but there is another side of mine. Well, I do tell my close friends about my problems but none cares or they just good in advice. I appreciate it guys but the story become gossips for some. Well i have backstabber, selfish people, haters etc in my life. I do so much but all they do is hurt me. 

              So there you go I have trust issue now and I decided to stop sharing it to others BUT I cant keep it to myself as well. Sometimes it push me into depression. Well I started to cry, hurt myself, be alone. sometimes i feel like want to stay in the world without humans. People move on so fast but it takes years for me to do so. I always believe something good will happen to me, but every time I think this is the good thing I get, it turn out to be the worst nightmare.

             But, with all negative stuff in my life. I do have gems that make my life shine everyday. I truly blessed to have such souls around me. they cheer me, they supported me, they are my backbones. Every time I go thru hardship, I will always have someone that make me laugh non-stop. I hope God doesn’t take them away from me. I’m trying to be very positive. calm myself and handle all the problems. I know god is with me and he won’t let his child to struggle so much.

              I will be very strong and mature enough in the future so that many people take me as their inspiration. Always Put Your Hope In GOD - Hosea 12:6