So, idk. I am fine. I’m making a lot of new friends. I just had a paid gig last night and so many of my new friends came and supported me. There was a lot of wholesome love in the room. My boss even got my coworkers to bring me flowers since they couldn’t make it. I’m doing great at my job. Everyone keeps telling me how they are so impressed with what I have accomplished. Also how nice it is for me to be in their lives. I’m moving soon and my new roommate saw me preform. He thinks I’m really talented and funny. I just. Idk. I know that I am loved and that I love all my new friends and that I am doing what is right for me. But I am just so sad. I’m so fucking lonely at this point. And like I get it, you have every right to be upset. But you still never told me why you just ignored me. I never got closer. And ever since I’ve blocked and deleted you on everything except for here, its been hard. I check your tumblr at least every three to five days. I try not to do that. One because it’s a huge invasion of privacy, and two because it’s just torturing myself. I don’t even know what the point of this post is other than to just kind of hope you read it. Idk, I don’t want to hear from you. And I know you don’t want to reach out. Idk. I want you to know that although moving on without you is hard, I am doing my best to actually take care of me. I work out and mark down each day I do so I have concrete evidence that I am not “fat.” I try not to eat out often. I go to work and enjoy everyday and try my best because I know they value me there. I’m making friends with all the music scene here to get my solo career started. And idk. I wish I could still impress you. But I know that you just are done with my bullshit at this point. And I don’t blame you. idk. I hope you’re well. And I hope one day I do eventually find out what caused you to end this all. But for now, have a good life lil hoss.
