2:14 AM

JUNG EUNMI LUNA: 8teen, freshman @ mokwon uni majoring in acting, rebel, lead vocalist and visual for l:oveless.

[mkwnmiyeon]

“well, i couldn’t make up my mind either, so everyone just decided for me. if i follow it then i’m disgusting, and if i don’t then i’m just faking it for publicity. which i usually am, but i don’t need them to call me on it.” miyeon shrugged, finding relief in the sudden light air that took over what was essentially a whining contest between the two of them.  “if they like you, you’re in the clear… if they don’t, you’re a raging dyke that needs to be destroyed. or maybe that’s just punishment reserved for career destroyers.” she let out a bitter snort, folding her arms tighter across her chest in an attempt to keep warmth. still, freezing was far better than the suffocating feeling that came from being inside. why did she think this life was for her anymore? “good luck. doesn’t seem too far off for you all,” she replied, unsure of exactly how true her encouragements were. at one point she had tried to keep up with l:oveless to be supportive, but it eventually became a constant reminder of how she’d lost her best friend to her dreams and how their leader would’ve loved to have miyeon’s head delivered on a stick just for her own sick, twisted joy. “better than a pack a day like some people. if you’re really working on quitting.”

[mkwnluna]

[🌙 ] “damned if you do, damned if you don’t.” no need to say anything else. luna was positive that it would transcend the way it was supposed to. “so far so good, i assume. i mean, i do get those antis in the comment section but i haven’t had a negative article about me trend.” however, luna was certain that such articles existed... they just probably didn’t get any traction and she wasn’t the kind to go out and look for them. luna knew her place and she didn’t really care anyways. at the end of the day her career was her own and she was getting paid. “mm, i hope not. we work too hard to blend in with the background.” as long as they kept it up she knew that failure was not in their cards. no, l:oveless was shoved into the spotlight far too often for people to ignore them. almost every offer that came luna’s way was accepted. as long as it benefited her then why wouldn’t she go with it? even if the money was going in her pocket when people read the interviews they would go look up her group and that helped everyone. “yeah... yeah - you make a good point. i just hope i don’t resort to smoking to keep myself from ripping heads off. seems like the only safe solution for me right now.”

[jyjunho-deactivated20161127]

He offered her his arm to her. “I have to go in as well so I’ll cover for you. My stupid sisters wanna see me about something,” he states with a huff. He obvious was not happy about seeing them again. He was mad that they keep trying to talk to him, but he won’t hurt them per his mother’s request.”Or you can just wear my jacket as we head in”? 

[mkwnluna]

[🌙 ] “stupid sisters?” she smacked her lips playfully, eyeing him before crossing her arms over her chest. “that’s not a nice way to speak about your siblings.” luna glanced down at her clothes, lips turning as she let out a small sigh. she wasn’t used to people being this g e n u i n e l y nice to her anymore. “i don’t want your jacket to smell like cigarette smoke...” luna shuffled awkwardly, “i’m sorry i’m acting weird all of a sudden, i just--” 

[jyjunho-deactivated20161127]

He smiles and nods, “Ain’t that the truth”. He smiles impressed by her thick skin to everything. He pull a container of mints and offers it to her. “I have to say I am impressed though Luna, I don’t always have a thick skin. Blame the Seo twins”. Her brushes the cigarette away. 

[mkwnluna]

[🌙 ] “i only speak the truth...” luna paused seconds later, realizing that wasn’t necessarily the whole truth. “and on occasion a tiny white lie to get myself out of trouble but these barely count.” luna held out the palm of her hand, nodding her head in silent thanks before she popped the mint into her mouth. at least someone looked out for her, even if the action was slight. “hm, it comes with the territory. if i didn’t will myself to have thick skin i wouldn’t have lasted that long.” not just in her career but in her life as well.

[mkwnsunnie-blog]

Playful but honest jeers about Luna looking like an utter douchebag with her sunglasses on were on the top of Sunnie’s tongue, but for once she let tact take the wheel and kept them to herself. She probably already knew, anyway. “It was just so much fun… No one knew our names or what we were saying half the time but they still listened.” As nice as the nostalgia was, she didn’t want to relive her trainee years, fights with her family and sleepless nights and the restlessness that only made her wonder if she and Luna were ever going to debut at all. “I dunno about kidnapped. Not with all those witnesses– maybe just attacked or something. Mauled by whackos.” Far from comforting words, but she was never one to forgo honesty for comfort. Her response was equal parts humored snort and sigh of relief, glad that she wasn’t the only one wishing she was elsewhere. “You’re insane, I would’ve went to that.” Cover shoots for a rookie came few and far between, but their invitation would only be extended year after year. “No. I can’t fucking stand these people. I don’t know if I hate them more or the cold, and you know how much I hate being cold.”

[mkwnluna]

“ALTHOUGH it doesn’t suck too much now that people do know our names.” Just as fast as the words had left her mouth she was quick to take them back. “Nevermind. As much as I appreciate our fans, which you know I truly do, they can be overbearing. I miss being able to eat a normal fucking meal at Taco Bell without having people say ‘’unnie~ you’ll get fat’’.” Just the memory of a similar encounter made Luna roll her eyes from underneath her sunglasses. “Hey! You never know about the whole kidnapping thing, Sunnie. The world’s a strange and messed up place.” Luna let out another long sigh, fingers digging through the space in between the cushion to dig out her cellphone. She scrolled through her messages, looking at the exchange with their manager. “It’s really nothing too special, I guess. It just paid really well... the personal profit would’ve been significant.” Not like she needed it anyways. “But I have another one lined up, I don’t really want it though... I want to be more involved in music. I have so much to show but all anyone wants to do is look at my pretty face.” How much longer until their album was finally put together? Luna didn’t know at this point. The pair of them had been working themselves to the bone trying to put something amazing together, something they could be absolutely proud of.” She almost made the mistake of pushing her sunglasses off, hands hesitating on her lap as she locked her phone. Luna swallowed thickly, mentally kicking herself for almost exposing her bloodshot eyes. “Just a little bit longer, my sunshine. We’ll be back to work soon enough.”

[mkwnmiyeon]

miyeon shrugged, in no position to really try and fight the comparison despite how much she disagreed. their circumstances weren’t all the same in her eyes, but maybe she was clouded by the rut of woe-is-me that she’d found herself in since. “secret mega-cunts tend to do better than blasphemous lesbian whores. you can pass it off as a twisted since of humor and someone’ll still adore you for it. taeyeon’s still got her lackeys,” she chuckled, leaning her body up against the cold brick structure as she eyed the girl. sure, she’d heard some things– but still, none of that met up to luna in the flesh. “make it past the rookie stage and you’re untouchable, right?” or so she’d heard, but it wasn’t as if she was going out of her way to converse with idols these days. “fourteen a week is good. like, two a day average, yeah? that isn’t bad, better effort than none.”

[mkwnluna]

[🌙 ] she didn’t even have to think twice about her statement, homosexuality (although becoming more and more ‘’tolerable’’ with every day that went by) was still pretty taboo. luna was sure it’d improve tenfold when their grandparent’s generation died off. “you’re completely right. but what about secret mega-cunts who can’t make up their mind when it comes to their preferred gender? wouldn’t they just call me greedy for wanting it all?” she was only teasing, making herself laugh at her own lame attempt at lightening this ugly mood. maybe she was a little tipsy. drinking on an empty stomach was seldom a good idea. luna cleared her throat, downing the rest of her drink and crumpling the red cup before tossing it to the side. “bingo. just gotta last one more year... or maybe reach untouchable status before our two year mark.” luna knew that it was absolutely possible. rookies who had just debuted with ten years worth of accomplishments under their belt. l:oveless was a pretty good bit along the way. “no. it’s like three or four a day. i have to go days without them when i can’t sneak a quick smoke.”

[mkwnjuno]

Juno raised an eyebrow at her words, only partially taking them in.  He wasn’t necessarily interested in what she had to say, and even less interested in her personal life, but he had asked for some reason, and now he had to listen to her answer.  “Sounds like a stand-up guy,” he muttered, his tone sarcastic as his lips wrapped back around the cigarette.  From what he had picked up, he actually sounded a lot like his own step-father, if they just traded Chinese for Japanese.  In a way, he could relate to her words.  “People seem to be more up your ass than anyone else’s, from what I’ve heard. Must be because you all go to Mokwon or something.  They like the idea of personally catching an idol red handed.”

[mkwnluna]

[🌙 ] she nodded along, agreeing with his statement. “yeah, although anyone with a substantial amount of money in their bank account is a ‘’stand-up guy’’... until they’re not.” how many times had she seen the parents of her peers fall into a cesspool of failure? families being exposed for their mafia ties, others for embezzling... the life of a rich mokwon student was anything but ordinary. luna took her last drag, holding the smoke in her lungs as she flicked the butt of the cigarette away. “i guess,” she released the pent up smoke slowly. “some people act so fucking stupid with it. i can’t count how many time i’ve caught people in the act of pretending to take a selfie.. when really they’re taking pictures of me.” luna shrugged, “eh. but then again maybe i should feel flattered in some way.”

[jyjunho-deactivated20161127]

He couldn’t help but raise an eyebrow, but from what his sisters tried to pull with him he could understand that point. “I can’t deny that there isn’t truth to that,” he states looking at her closely. He nods to her music comments. “I can understand that, though wouldn’t hanging out with me ruin your standing at school”? 

[mkwnluna]

[🌙 ] “it sucks but it’s just the way that life is, you know?” the best someone could do was roll with the punches and hope for the best. everything else was out of their hands. luna took his words into consideration, shaking her head as she reaches a conclusion. “mm, i don’t think so. i assume that as long as i keep my career afloat people won’t bother trying to drag me down.” she drops the cigarette onto the ground, smothering it out with the tip of her shoe. “not to mention that i don’t really care about what other people say. i have pretty thick skin.”

[mkwnsunnie-blog]

@mkwnluna

It was supposed to be a vacation, but it didn’t feel anything like it. Sure, Sunnie knew that her presence was valid– the entirety of L:OVELESS was invited after all, but just the thought of having to deal with all the obnoxious brats she couldn’t even stand on campus when she could be at home working was repulsive. So she did as she always did– cling to her best friend, though part of her felt that it wasn’t being reciprocated as much as normal. “Remember how we used to spend all these trips busking before we debuted? It wasn’t all that long ago, but it really feels like it,” she mentioned, chin rested in her hands as she looked up at Luna from her spot on the bed. Where she was going with it, even she wasn’t sure, but she needed to say something to put an end to the silence. “I kind of wish we could do something like that here, but we’re too close to home, I think. Those were really kind of the only reason I ever went. Are you enjoying yourself here any?”

[mkwnluna]

Luna was curled up in the resident big chair, sunglasses covering her eyes (even though she was indoors. She may or may not have spent last night with her forehead pressed against the resort’s bar. ) Her eyes were lazily trained on Sunnie, head nodding slowly as she recalled the memory. “Even when we were supposed to be enjoying our free time we were promoting ourselves.” She grinned, if only for a moment, before sighing. Sometimes she wished she could go back to those days. “It wouldn’t be much of a good idea either. Without our manager or security it could turn out to be dangerous. I’m not too fond of getting kidnapped.” She had to think about it for a split second before answering with a casual ‘not really’. Maybe the trip would’ve been a lot more tolerable had she been roomed with Sunnie. “I gave up a cover shoot for this so I’m kind of super bummed.” But on the bright side it had been a lot easier for her to sneak around and get up to no good. “You having any fun?”

[mkwnjuno]

Juno just shrugged, taking a long drag of his cigarette before pulling it away from his lips.  He let the smoke settle in his lungs for a moment before exhaling.  He wasn’t going to go on about the stress that he thought she had.  Hell, he wasn’t even interested enough to find out what she meant.  Instead, he dropped the subject and focused on the smoke that slowly disappeared in the air.  Suddenly, she was talking about her family, and although he would normally rather dig his eyeballs out with a spoon than listen to someone’s backstory, he had a decent enough amount of alcohol in his system to tolerate it.  “Well, is she?  A gold digging whore, I mean.”  He didn’t care how rude his words were, knowing that most people around here wouldn’t hesitate before throwing their parents under the bus. Maybe the fact that she cared more about her mother’s reputation than her own answered his question.  “Shouldn’t you worry about yourself?  A rookie idol with a scandal is a death sentence, I hear.”

[mkwnluna]

[🌙 ] luna could only shrug, knowing she could never slander the ‘’saint’’ that was her mother. “in the beginning i want to say that perhaps she was more interested in the money than him. i mean, he is chinese and we know how the older generation still sees them.” she didn’t want to go in detail, something about mixing her own personal opinion with political correctness didn’t sit right with her. “after a while he won her over. i’ve always liked him. he’s not a bulshitter. he tells it like it is. i like that about a person.” she bit down on her bottom lip. the comment ‘if he wasn’t my step-dad he’d be my future husband,’ dying on the back of her tongue. again, she shrugged. “yeah. i’m just pushing my luck at this point. recently i’ve come across a group of girls who get into it worse than i do, but even though everyone assumes they’re scum of the earth, no information has come to light to support it so... they’re still pretty successful despite all the ‘’rumors’’. my career will live to see another day.”

[jyjunho-deactivated20161127]

He gives her a small shrug while catching the coin in his hand. “I guess to me it seems like It would be bad, since it could ruin your career. Guess it is just personal morals,” pocketing the coin. He looks at her in surprise at the sudden hostility, “I prefer rock music most of the time, though I won’t talk trash about your music”. 

[mkwnluna]

[🌙 ] “well, if we’re being honest, the smoking itself wouldn’t ruin my career. no, people would be mad about it for a month or two, and i’d have antis bring it up in every article, no doubt. but people will get over it and accept it. they’d only make a big deal out of it because smoking would ‘kill my visuals’.” she only shrugged, “the more attractive you are the more you can get away with.” luna nodded, “oh you’re not the only one. i mean, i like our music. but i’m into heavier stuff myself. just so happens that my voice suits pop better.”

[mkwnmiyeon]

“yes and no.” miyeon understood the pressure, but not the accountability. when she fucked up, it was all on her back– which was nice, since she never had to worry about others taking the fall for her, but it was a lot for a person in an already fragile state to have to handle. “which is why i’m up here and not down there. still does more damage to you than me. people already expect this out of me. you’re a different story.” though she was sure that she didn’t have to remind her of that, and she probably didn’t want to hear it either.  “whose problem is that?” not hers, that was for sure. she raised an eyebrow, trying not to let the shock show on her face, but she was in no place to judge considering she was downing shot after shot and being back room party entertainment at fourteen. “if you’re really interested in covering your tracks…“ there was no point in going into a lecture, nor did she care to. “i hear vapes are all the rage these days.”

[mkwnluna]

[🌙 ] “it’s all the same.” luna had heard all about her although she tried not to pay the model any attention. if she was asked she wouldn’t deny it... luna was terrified of ending up in the same position as her. losing it all (most of it?) over some stupid crap. she chuckled, finding the thought absolutely hilarious. “mm, not really. my image might be doing pretty well right now but people happen to think that my lack of smiling is because i’m secretly a mega-cunt.” she sputtered momentarily as she tried to exhale, absentmindedly swallowing the smoke. thank god she had a drink with her. luna bought herself a few seconds of recovery, gulping down a third of what was left of her liquor on liquor concoction. “although they’re not wrong but it’s in my best interest if i keep up the good girl act.” she dropped the butt onto the ground, smothering what was left with the toe of her high heel. “i want to relieve stress, not be a douchebag. i’ll stick with my cigarettes. i’ve cut myself down to like fourteen a week which is an amazing feat, even if i’m a mess in between each one.”

[mkwnluna]

lunaj97:

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[jyjunho-deactivated20161127]

“But where would that get me,” he say waving his hand nonchalantly. “Sure I’d make a few bucks but I prefer more honest work. Besides, I may not like your group’s music but I don’t hate it either”. He pulls a coin out of his pocket and flips it.

[mkwnluna]

[🌙 ] “where would that get you?” the question was almost rhetorical, she ultimately decided just to leave it up in the air. “how is selling truthful stories about someone not honest work? yeah, it’s a little grimy but if it pays the bills...” she perks up at the mention of her group, eyes narrowing suddenly. “and why don’t you like our music?”

[daeunxmp-deactivated20161024]

“if you were careful i wouldn’t have found you.” she should probably watch her mouth but really, how hard was to find a secret place to smoke? all the burn outs did it, why couldn’t luna do it? sighing she stared. “yeah, don’t worry i’ll change. i have no reason to snitch, it’ll get me nowhere so i won’t do it. besides. it shouldn’t be me you should worry about but yourself.” and your image. she thought. “me? that’s easy. i enjoy silence and know a few places, i usually come here to try and write something.” jahye shrugged, not too othered by the questions. “i’m not trying to be annoying or get into your business because, believe me it’s not my problem and i don’t care much about it. but. you should stop doing that, it would be an issue if the company, or your manage, finds out.”

[mkwnluna]

[🌙 ] she was 100% right but luna wasn’t the type to admit that so easily. “whatever,” she sighed, eyes rolling themselves instinctively. “it’d earn you the spot as ceo’s pet, that’s for sure.” tko’s ceo always made sure to keep an eye on luna. always luna. troublemaker of the company. it was said in a meeting that her beauty made l:oveless shine brighter but her attitude and recklessness was the group’s achilles heel. perhaps she really should work on her aegyo. worry about yourself. seemed easy enough, right? it was a lot more complicated than it seemed. luna did nothing but think about herself, that was precisely why she was here. drinking and smoking her stress away. “i should stop? i never thought about that...” her eyes widened, “they already know,” to an extent. “just mind your own business and everything should be fine.”

[mkwnjuno]

He noticed as her shoulders sank slightly, her posture becoming more lax as she took a swig of her drink.  She must have realized that he honestly had no interest in her behavior, that he was of no threat to her reputation.  He didn’t have the energy to ruin people like most of the other Royalty did. “Yeah, no shit.  Bet you’ve got more to stress about than everyone here combined.”  He had heard about the lives that idols had to lead, always on their best behavior and forcing smiles as they drowned in practice and diets and pressure.  He could understand why she needed a cigarette. “Nah,” the sound slipped out passed his lips, simply dismissing her comment about him.  That just wasn’t true.  His mother was back in New York, safe from any reckless behavior on his part.  His father hadn’t raised him, and despite working toward the goal of running his company in the future years, not many people even knew he existed.  He almost wished that he could ruin his father, that he could do something to stir up shit in the old man’s life, but he wasn’t important enough to do that yet.  Right now, his behavior had no effect on anyone but himself, and he simply didn’t care enough to worry about it.  “The only thing I have in common with those rich kids is the cash.  I can do whatever the fuck I want.  No reputation to screw up but my own.”

[mkwnluna]

[ 🌙  ] “that’s arguable.” luna wasn’t really the woe-is-me type. yeah, life wasn’t going the way she wanted it to but she wasn’t going to sit there and complain about it like she hadn’t brought it upon herself. she knew what she was signing up for when she joined tko as a trainee. however, shooting up the popularity pyramid so quickly came as a shock. there would be articles printed about her that had no other aim than to discuss what color nail polish she was wearing. luna got cf offers left and right, invitations on to variety shows, asked to host award ceremonies, etc. it was far too much for her to handle all at once but she assumed it was loads better than being irrelevant. “all i have to worry about is smiling, singing on key, and looking pretty.” she took a steady drag, smoke dancing around the space in her lungs. she nodded as she exhaled through her nostrils, knowing she’d forget about this conversation within a few hours. “ah, i see. sounds like you’ve got it made then. i have a few reasons why i can’t act up. my mom married money when i was like fourteen and they already think she’s a gold digging whore, being a piece of shit daughter would only make her look worse to the public.”

[jyjunho-deactivated20161127]

He had just been wondering around when he found her. He looked up at her in confusion for a moment before it registered what she said.He shrugs as he leans up against the wall. “To those who could screw you over with this yes. But how would it affect me. I don’t smoke,” he points out. “Though you wouldn’t have to listen to me if I told you to stop”. 

[mkwnluna]

[ 🌙  ] “see that’s where it gets interesting. at this current moment in time you have absolutely no interest in this whole...” she gestures at herself, smoke leaving a trail around her. “fiasco. but if you were to want.. a few extra bucks in your pocket all you would need to do is sell this to your favorite gossip site. you wouldn’t even need pictures. i get told often that i have a very distinct bad girl aura.” luna shrugs nonchalantly, “it’s an ideal situation really. except it’d ruin my life.” 

[mkwnluna]

mkwnxjahye:

jahye hadn’t meant to stumble across the other but somehow she did. and the second she saw the cigarette and bottle of alcohol she knew she was in trouble. if the smell stayed in her clothes she would be in trouble, especially since she had to go to the company for some lessons. “sunbae.” she started, trying to not sound as annoyed as she felt. “you ought to be more careful. i do hope you plan on showering otherwise anyone could tell you were smoking. just a word of advice.”

[ 🌙  ] luna could feel her stomach form knots, eyes squeezed shut as she tried to drown out the other’s voice. “careful?” she repeated, a small giggling following soon after. she was as careful as she possibly could, this was the closest she’d ever gotten to getting caught and luckily... it was by a trainee at tko, someone she could hopefully convince into keeping quiet. “as long as you don’t snitch then there shouldn’t be a problem here.” she looked down at the cigarette that sat snugly in between her fingers, “i have no schedules for the rest of the night. i’ll be fine. worry about yoursel-” her eyebrows rose, expression turning into one of amusement. “matter of fact, what are you doing here?”