It feels a little bit like this...

[mmdwritings]

And as we sat by the deck

With the sun at our feet

Sipping coffee

We dreamed about Christmas Day

During the summer solstice

Birds chirping and playful with the wind

We, here and also then

Together

On the longest day

M. M. D - 21.06.2021 - 06.43am

[mmdwritings]

Tight jaw and teary eyes

I battle with myself

I battle with my thoughts

Waving the noise away

I need a clear sight

A stable sign

To carry away this extra weight

A love so deep

It rips me inside out

So sudden

So real

My fears come to the surface

Pinch my raw skin

I reach out to hold on to something

I wanna hold on to you

Can I?

Should I?

My heart is trembling

Please, be kind...

M.M.D - 10.06.2021 - 7.17pm

[mmdwritings]

Here for you

Here with you

When you feel something,

When you feel anything,

When you feel everything,

Land it here with me

Pour it all into my heart

Here there’s a home for you,

There’s a home for all...

All that you are

All that you feel

Come home to me

As you are

As you need to be

As you want

I’m here for you

I’m here with you

I’ll meet you raw

And I’ll stay within

I’ll stay where we meet

Inside and out of our corners

Anywhere in between

I’ll breathe you in

Stitch any cracks with kisses

Put you to bed gently

Wake you up eagerly

And I’ll stay and stay

Here for you

Here with you

M.M.D - 08.05.2021 - 17.17

[mmdwritings]

Jag finns överallt

Det händer mycket på den här platsen

Platsen där mina ord har många olika post adresser

och mina känslor har många olika språk

mellan, finns bara luft som ingen kan se eller känna tyngden av

Men inte jag, som känner allt

Eftersom det är jag som existerar på så många olika platser samtidigt

och översätter många olika liv inom mig

Där finns norr och söder på samma längdgrad

Även om världen behöver ha mig på bara en plats

Men här finns jag,

överallt!

M.M.D - 10.03.2021 - 10.45am

[mmdwritings]

It’s not about you, really

It’s what you represent

The hope i have lost

The pain I have forgotten

The sting of the reminder

Is my everyday paranoia

In this pandemic utopia

The reality I dispose

A delusion for survival

Of a spinning mind

Of an aging body

I won’t project it on you

I’ll keep it within my radius

A grip of my own senses

M.M.D - 06.09.2020 -11.46am

[mmdwritings]

I might dissolve into your lips

as they meet my skin

Unfolding slowly

Unwrapping my sorrows

I’ll be liquid,

Melted heat

Floating through your pours

Evaporated desire

Awaken by your every touch

I rescue what’s sacred

I whisper what’s forbidden

I make space

As you announce your entrance

As you meet me with grace

Taking your time

Taking me in

M.M.D - 02.09.2020 - 03.55am

[mmdwritings]

The words that won’t come back

I paint the path in neon

There are no footsteps

Like water on sand

Disappearing as I go

My every move is nostalgia

It’s rebirth too

Of a new old world

Pouring out of my skin

I’m tuning my tone

Testing the water slowly

I open my eyes

Share a wink

Pick up my heart

Hold it tight

Then spread my hand open

Waiting for the raindrops to touch me...

M.M.D - 20.08.2020 - 8.58pm

[mmdwritings]

Countdown

Last breath

Reverse

Life happens

Right now,

Right here

Inevitable as it is

Painfully aware

Playfully in denial

Loving and letting go

Opening and closing

Going and staying

Ephemeral

Planted only to transform

Alive only to die

Being only to exist

Step by step

Countdown

Pause in that smile

Kiss those eyes

Freeze that blood

Where we once met

Where we’ll always meet

And go on...

M.M.D - 15.07.2020 - 9.50pm

[mmdwritings]

Is this a place

A dungeon of my feelings

Tying me up

Holding me hostage

Why is the mirror blurry

Why is the sound vintage

Have I aged?

Spinning around

In an endless loop

Meet myself each time

Face myself, harshly

I see me inside myself

Through those tired eyes

It’s been weighing on me

I’m so heavy

Float me, please...

M.M.D - 17.02.2020 - 21.30

[mmdwritings]

My cry is dry

I’ll cry now

I’ll grief all the lives I won’t be able to live

Accept my never ending conflict

Between my multitudes and reality

The narrow format of existence

Unbearable to my many shapes

I’ll splash my selves on pages

Stories of who I could be

All the censored versions

Limits of minorities

A fairness that doesn’t truly exist

Life is heavy and light at once

A balance of holding on and letting go

The sounds I choose to listen or to silence

The places I choose to leave traces or not

And all the dots along the way

The crossroads, the lines that overlap

My cry is dry

My tears are frozen inside

Of a heart too cold to melt

M.M.D - 2019.11.11 - 12.22pm

[mmdwritings]

The blue that colors me

I looked but I didn’t see

the wave washed over my wish

and another year begun

Time pulled me by my hand

Reset the steps, walking in sand

The world spins, the sun hides

And I rest my head at nights

Heavy thoughts on soft pillows

Kindness is in the breaks

in the long breaths we take

My heart heals in the sea,

the blue that colors me

I’m infinite

M.M.D - 2019.08.16 - 03:26am

[mmdwritings]

Who’s waiting for me?

Who’s waiting for me

Once I’m back in town

Counting down the minutes

To see me again,

Check my tan

Inspect my smile?

Who has made a plan,

Cooked a welcome meal

Put flowers in my empty vases?

Who knows my arrival time

Make sure I have what I need

Wishes me a safe trip

Stocks my fridge with love?

There’s the embrace of the sea

Always kissing my legs

Always touching me kindly

Salty on my skin

And I too, leave that behind

To come back to nothing at all

Time after time...

M.M.D - 2019.08.15 - 1:06pm

[mmdwritings]

Washed off by waves

I am disappearing

Slowly, but surely

Life happens elsewhere

I’ve frozen in time

I see them passing by me

Unsynchronized pace

Solitude has wrapped me in

I’ve painted the walls inside

A week of rest, I recharge

Back to an empty square

Hidden from open hearts

How long will it take?

My name will be written in sand

Washed off by waves

If a number matters

If the springs lived count

Amount for something

Who’s keeping track?

A faded smile inside my eyes

A lost love, in disguise

Who am I?

M.M.D - 2019.08.15 - 1pm

[mmdwritings]

Rowing in happiness

This disconnect

Feelings stagnated

Inside, about to implode

Arriving there alone

Empty hands

Hollow heart

Where did it go?

Dissolved in water

Sparkling in the air

No shape that fits

Trapped in this gap

Heavy memories

Long days

Endless nights

Moonlight, red wine

Rowing in happiness

Left behind

Naked in the past

M.M.D - 2019.07.16 - 8:25pm

[mmdwritings]

Countryside

Sips of red wine

in the corners of our mouths

A moon spying on us through the clouds

Stillness, silence

Reflection in the water, upside down

a moment that kept me immersed in the now

The world is ours

we’re the last ones alive

We can laugh, love, skinny dip and dive

There’s no boundaries,

No wrong way to touch

my eyes, your smile, scars and such

I forgot about the insects

I’m flirting with the stars

You’re grounded, while I’m clearly from Mars

And yet, here we are

Rowing that boat, swimming naked and free

And I can’t shake this feeling that it could really be you and me...

M.M.D - 2019.07.15 - 7:52pm

[mmdwritings]

Sketch you

Your dimple at the tip of my fingers

as you laugh your way through life

hours spent with you feel like seconds

I wanna collect your time

Fill the gaps of your silence

of all the stories not yet told

and if your thoughts find me

randomly, in the middle of the day

and if my memory paints a smile on your face

Maybe your heart can be open

Make room for my eyes, on you

I’ll get closer, carefully

Slowly

I can take my time

I’ll sketch you with the tip of my tongue

Next time

M.M.D - 2019.06.06 - 9:41pm

[mmdwritings]

Walls made of wind

The end is here

and I am alone

with air beneath my feet

walls made of wind

The road ahead is empty

I step into it, blind

Shaking in my core

Swallowing my tears

Alone

What I need is not here

My waiting kills my life

It fails my sanity

I seek foundation

I seek an extra heart

I want what I’m worth

and where is that?

Must I keep on waiting

Must I keep on craving

Painting a smile on my face

I am tired

M.M.D - 2019.05.16 - 7:06 pm