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Ottawa, ON "Be at peace, not in pieces"

[brizzlewritesthings]

“I want to tell you that I’m falling in love with you. ‘Like’ was never the word to describe what I felt for you. I was enamored. I think I was in love with you on that very first day and since then I’ve found more reasons to love you and my heart has become more and more of you and now it’s all you. This thing in my chest– it’s got your name carved all over it and I never saw it happen. One day I woke up and I said to myself, “I’m in love with you and that’s it.” That is it. You and me? I want this. I want this painful, crazy, swirling thing and I want it with you. And not a lot of people can say that. You want to fight at 2 am over bills? I do. That’s real. That’s the real thing. You forgot to get milk? I’ll stop after my twelve hour day and pick it up and I’ll still kiss you when I walk in the door because you’re here and isn’t that everything? You are here and I love you and even if nothing else ever made sense– that does. I love you. That’s the beginning and end of it all.”

— -I probably won’t get the courage to say this to you. (via brizzlewritesthings)

[brizzlewritesthings]

“That’s how it is when a person develops an attraction toward someone. He’s nowhere, then suddenly he’s everywhere, whether you want him to be or not.”

— Ugly Love (Colleen Hoover)

[brizzlewritesthings]

“I am a very small person in a very large world. Of all the mountains and lakes and oceans and cities and lights and empty streets in the world, if I could belong to anything; I would still belong to you.”

— -I’m yours. (via brizzlewritesthings)

[brizzlewritesthings]

“I didn’t really believe in reincarnation. I didn’t really believe in anything but I knew that she and I had found each other in some other time, some other place. I believed that our souls were extensions of each other and that I’d been looking for her since whatever star I was made of collapsed. I believed that my atoms were her atoms, my stardust was her stardust, and the only thing left for us to do was ignite.”

— -excerpt from my new book. (via @brizzlewritesthings)

[brizzlewritesthings]

“One day I’m going to do something reckless. One day I’m going to show up at your door and lay the earth at your feet. I will look at you and say that I’ve loved you with every mile between us and I will love you through a thousand more. You were crafted from the stars and the sea and I have never, in this lifetime or the last, seen anything that moves or speaks like you. One day I will do something reckless. One day I will tell you that you look like the rest of my life.”

— One day. (via @brizzlewritesthings)

[brizzlewritesthings]

“It’s you. I think it’s always going to be you and that scares the shit out of me but you’re it. You’re always going to be the person I’m going to want to come home to and fall asleep with. You’re it.”

— -even still. (via @brizzlewritesthings)

[brizzlewritesthings]

“I love you with words I don’t know and in languages I can’t speak. You are my home and you are all of my heart in each one and if they asked me to choose a place to exist, it would be with you. Wherever you are, let me exist there, too.”

— -all of my heart. (via @brizzlewritesthings)

[loveserum-deactivated20191021]

I really wanted to get it right with u

[brizzlewritesthings]

“I don’t think I took a full breath until I met you. I’m done for. I’m ruined. I’m marked. I’m yours. Ask me where I’ve been, I’ll say waiting for you. Ask me if I’ve loved, I’ll tell you not until right now. Ask me if I’ve been whole, the answer is no. Ask me what I’ve been longing for, I’ll say it’s you. Ask me if I’ll be able to get your hands off my skin, I’ll say I wouldn’t want to. Ask me if I’ll be able to look at the world the same way again, knowing you exist in it. Listen to me say no.”

— -ask me (via @brizzlewritesthings)

[forestlymph]

I don’t know how to love in moderation

[brizzlewritesthings]

“Somewhere, here, there’s a girl in Pennsylvania who is holding her own spine together. Who locks vertebra in her fingers and reconstructs her back. In some angles, she is the tallest one in the room. In others, she can’t even stand. Somewhere, there, in Georgia, a man restitches his heart together. They say that war breaks you, but he thinks love is worse. He rips the stitches away and watches it beat. Watches the memories seep back out. He turns his cheek and looks away. He never wanted those memories anyway. Somehow, here, in the middle, across a dozen state lines, the broken back and the broken heart mix in together. He says, stand tall. He takes the bones and puts them back in place. He says, throw your chin up. You are not broken, and so you do not need to rebuild. The girl stands. Somehow, here, in the middle, the man picks up his heart, her hands over top. She curls her fingers over it. ‘Just because she didn’t love you doesn’t mean no one else will. I do. I have. I will.’ He puts his heart back in his chest. His heart is beating. He feels every painful inch of it. Somehow, here, on the cusp of something grand, we pull each other to our feet. You give me your armor, I give you my back. You give me your heart, I give you my rage. “You do not need to rebuild,” he says, “because you are not broken. All you need is someone to stand with you. I do. I have. I will.””

— -in the end, we’re both okay. (via @brizzlewritesthings)

[brizzlewritesthings]

Maybe one day I’ll find the courage to tell you you’re full of the softest light I’ve ever seen. Maybe I’ll tell you I like who I am when you’re around. Maybe I wont. Maybe I’ll just keep loving you quietly until I’m sure. Either way, how lovely it is to find someone who sings to your soul.

[traumasurvivors]

I recently saw someone talking about how one day you'll be grateful for the trauma you went through since it made you who you are today.

And I just want to say that you don't need to be grateful for your trauma. You don't need to give your trauma credit for who you are today. You’re who you are today because of you. You deserve the credit. You’re the one who’s made all the growth and made it this far. Please don’t forget that.

[traumasurvivors]

I talk a lot about healing but I want to take a moment to say that you aren’t terrible if you aren’t in a place where you’re ready to heal or want to heal. You aren’t a failure or pathetic if you just aren’t ready to make those steps. It isn’t a moral failing. If you aren’t ready to heal or need to take a break from healing, that’s okay.

[traumasurvivors]

There is no one-size-fits-all when it comes to recovery. For some people learning to manage triggers so that they don’t have to avoid them is the goal. For other people constructing a life where they do not encounter those triggers often is the goal. Sometimes it’s a mixture of both depending on the triggers. Whatever path you choose to create the life you want to live is valid.

[selfcare-journey]

Remember you are a human first. Before you’re an employee, a student, a cook, an artist, you’re a human being who deserves love, compassion, and understanding.

[sunsetsandhope]

Due to personal reasons I will be loving myself with my whole heart