SCHOOL VENTING!!
Tw: venting, mentions of being/feeling trapped, naive writer, rejecting ones feelings, rejecting their own feelings, deep talk of hating school, mention of getting someone sick on purpose, cussing.
Written with microphone, so many grammar mistakes. Crappy mic..
Why do I hate school? That's a question that I ask myself, and I can never figure out why. I just have a feeling, a dreadful feeling every time when I walk into the building. I feel trapped because I am. People say that it's just a certain amount of days to stay there but it feels like an eternity. It's usually, like, 36 hours staying there for a whole week.
And I try to downplay it like everyone else does but it doesn't sit right with me because I don't want to be there. Teachers say "if you don't want to be here go home," but the government won't let our parents keep us there and our parents won't let us stay here. Of course it's difficult for parents or teachers to understand how kids really don't want to be at school and that their minds feel like they're trapped, even though they say, "oh yeah I used to go to school when I was younger," but this now the present.
You guys can't get mad at me when I feel like I do enough at school. Yeah all I do is homework and the school work that they give me, but that's what I'm going there for. I'm not going there for like an after-school program, I'm not going there to talk to a counselor for no reason, and I'm definitely not going there for no reason in general!
And I almost- I almost come home everyday with f****** math homework so I am doing enough! It's not like I don't have classwork to do, I always get my work done quickly because I don't want to have to sit at home and drag school into my home life. I don't care if you say homework is for home I'll do it whenever I get the chance. I will take my lunch break away from myself and do homework then because I will not bring it to the only place I have a little bit of comfort in.
And I try my best in school. I'm being serious I get- I have credit roll and I'm going for Honor Roll. I'm trying even though I hate school so much but I am trying to be the best student there possibly is! Well I wouldn't say that I want to go that far but I'm trying my best and you guys always just deny my feelings whenever I say something negative about school. My whole mood will change when you just say, "you have your stuff ready for school tomorrow?" Or, "remember you have school tomorrow?" I will never be the same after you say those words or something related to school it just messes me up that bad.
I don't get bullied or anything in school it's just a school air that brings negative energy to me. Just going to bed and knowing that I have to wake up at 7:40 a.m. in the morning to get up and go to school before 8:30 or 8:45 just puts me in a bad mood. And I know people have to wake up earlier for school or work and 7:40 doesn't sound that bad, and I really don't care about what time I need to get up and leave.
But if I try to get myself sick so I don't have to go to school, you should know how much I hate it.