Actress of Delusion

Independent RP blog of Ken Kuroda from TOEI HERO NEXT 4 tracking the tag: moeanddelusion M!A: none

[jurinaandthediamonds-deactivate]

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“You are a girl already. A truly beautiful one. Everything else is just formality, isn’t it? We can go to a lawyer if you want to require changes in your registry though.”

[moeanddelusion]

“Yeah I know Ivy, but I still can’t th.. think of myself that way.. I d-don’t feel like I’ve really ch-changed from guy to g... girl. I.. I just feel still like a boy pr.. pretending and wanting to be a g.. girl.

“I don’t know h.. h.. how to get pa.. past that. I don’t want to majority ch-change my body. I like how I look and a-all, but then I don’t kn.. know what else to do.”

[moeanddelusion]

“I think I want to try to finally fully transition and be comfortable in thinking of myself as a girl.. I don’t want to say I want to be a girl anymore. I want to r-r... real.. really be a girl.. an-an....and think that I am one.”

[i-megumi-takani]

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     A reassuring smile flashes across her features. As much as possible, Megumi wants her patients to feel comfortable and at ease with her. It is always important to have a good doctor-patient relationship.

     Her case is not common. In her duration of medical practice, she has not encountered cases such as hers. But even so, it doesn’t mean she won’t be able to help her.

     “Alright…lean back on the couch comfortably.Close your eyes, take deep breaths then count 15 to 1 in your head silently…imagine yourself sitting along the bank of a brook, dip your feet into the water…feel the current…describe how you are feeling?”

[moeanddelusion]

“O-okay.” Ken went softly and nervous, just about what was going to happen, laid down on the couch as he was told. A deep breath and he tried to relax.

It was honestly pretty hard for him to find himself able to calm down, if just because he was so nervous about all this. He wanted to get better, you want to get better. Just relax and listen to what she’s saying. You’ll get through this and then you can maybe not be so scared of everyone and actually get less shy. Maybe you were actually shy because of this issue? It could be. He wasn’t sure, but it made sense.

Another deep breath and he closed his eyes. Another deep breath and he started to count down from fifteen just as she told him. It was so relaxing getting to a position like this. It was so nice. It was like sinking into Midori’s warm, strong arms.

Thinking of it like that a smile went across his lips and he sighed. Ah, Midori.. No this wasn’t the time to day dream about him, work with the doctor. We’re going to get better, he was going to try to get better... Imagining the brook and sitting on it’s banks the actress took another deep breath and shyly felt himself putting his feet inside. It felt nice, but it felt...

“The water.. is nice and warm, but it feels.. lonely being here. It’s relaxing here in the water but.. being here on my own is so sad..”

Even doing doctor imagining stuff, without his prince he felt sad. He loved and day dreamed of him constantly.

[sanguinumtinea-archive-blog]

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Akane couldn’t in any way describe how humorous and adorable that human being was. She thought that had seen everything, but it seemed that humanity still had the ability to surprise her when she least expected. Would be possible put that boy comfortable? Without feeling shy or intimidated? That appeared to be an unalterable characteristic in his personality, which made him a unique and curious being. "Yes adorable. Honestly I’ve never met a young man like you." The princess stated, again emphasizing the praise she had done previously.

"Are you that sensitive? But don’t worry I don’t intend test that characteristic so unique and unusual." Akane didn’t want put him in a situation even more embarrassing, since he was obviously affected by Akane be a woman. ”Demo, I want to know you better.— You’re an interesting guy.” The Immortal was eager to learn more about him, Kuroda had undoubtedly aroused her deepest curiosity.

"That seems a pretty noble and interesting activity.— But be careful for not take unnecessary risks. You never really know what dangers you’re running and earnestly would be a shame if something happened to you." The world would surely be poorer if it lost a being so distinctive like him. “Honestly I don’t know if you’ll have enough time.— It’ll start raining soon.”

[moeanddelusion]

Watching her Kuroda actually just had to blush and look shyly at the ground. “I-I, I’m a.. a.. a.. a-adorable..?” Honestly that sounded like something his boyfriend would say. Call him this adorable guy he just kept on protecting. A slight sigh escaped his lips, not a negative one, just a sigh as he day dreamed a little about the man his heart was stolen by. What a man he was. He felt like hearts were just flying from him while he was dazed momentarily in love by his memory.

Breaking out of his day dream, as much as he honestly didn’t want to, he nodded to her question about his issue. “Y-yeah, I am. J-just a single touch and I-I kind of get in trouble. S-s... s... so I’m not trying to be r-rude by wanting to k-keep my distance a bit, I-I just don’t want to.. while w-we’re in this forest and it m-might rain and I-I don’t have someone to help me o-out of it.. s-so..” It was kind of funny how the actress could even act if normally he studders and talks so quietly, it was like he was hardly ever able to do anything or even be heard and yet he insisted he was and could. (Ah if she could see him play the part of Ian, It’s such a treat.)

Hearing her worries made him blush a bit more. She just met him and already she was being so kind and trying to hope for his safety, made him think of how Midori cared so much for him. Ah his heart. He needed to stop day dreaming about the man so much. He did it way too often. Hahaha... “I know it can be a bit dangerous, the last one we did we ended up getting held at gun point and and we ended up g-g-g-getting into a fight.. B-but I.. I guess even after that I still w-w-want to do this.. because it’s really f-fun being a detective and.. we.. we’re helping people too. A...” He paused before a soft smile went across his lips.

“And it’s nice to do these adventures with Midori. I feel like... maybe ... if I can do this, I can be cool like him..”

[i-megumi-takani]

"H-hello." The young actress stated as he walked over to her. He heard rumors about her being a doctor and he thought maybe she might be able to help him. "U-um.. I.. I ... I have an issue I.. was wondering if you could help me s-solve?"

"Hi!" The lady doctor returned the greeting with a smile on her face."Yes,what can I do for you?"

[i-megumi-takani]

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"It’s nice to meet you too, Kuroda-chan." Her face broke into a grin. The lady doctor has not had any celebrity patients before. It would be interesting to have one. "Oh! maybe that’s why you look familiar." A cheerful smile flashes across her features."No need to thank me. It’s my job to help anyone in need of my services. And don’t be shy around me. I understand your concern. We can start whenever you are ready."

[moeanddelusion]

Listening to her speak the actress had to smile himself. This lady was so nice and kind and she didn’t make fun of his issue too, she seemed to actually realize how much of a problem it was and wasn’t going to insult him for it.

Maybe this really was a good idea to try to ask for her help. If she could at least make, help make, the whole fainting issue a lot less active than it was, that’d help him so much!

“I.. I’m kind of always sh.. shy like this, even with my boyfriend, but I.. I’ll try to be more open, thank you. Please let’s start. I-I want to.. see if we can m.. make me a bit better..”

[yoshimotoxsensei-blog]

"Oh! H-hello.." Ken shyly kind of hid himself in his scarf. "I-I'm Ken."

He looked at the other curiously, smiling at him in the friendly manner and bowing his head. “Hello, Ken-kun. I’m Sakurai Sho. It’s nice to meet you.”

[yoshimotoxsensei-blog]

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"You’re right, I’m also an actor. But most of the time I work with the idol group called Arashi. That’s my main job," he nodded at the younger man, still wearing the smile. "Oh, you as well? That’s interesting. I would love to check out some of your work. Whenever I meet someone new, I get curious about their projects. You recognized me as an actor.. this must mean that you’ve seen some of my dramas or movies. Am I right?" He offered a chair to Ken, taking a seat on another one himself.

[moeanddelusion]

"Oooh y-you're an idol. T.. that sounds really fun." a small nod of his shy head and the little actress made his way to the seat and sat down. "I didn't s-see much but I saw.. the one with you as the butler.. I like w.. watching those kind of mystery things.. s.. since sometimes I work as a part of a.. bounty hunter team.. who help solve people's troubles for some money. I-it makes me think of that and.. I th-think helps me be better at it."

Smiling big he continued. "Our f-first case was a request from the police to help them s-so it was really exciting.. and our a-acting was the major help in solving it." He sounded so proud about his part in it.

[yoshimotoxsensei-blog]

"Oh! H-hello.." Ken shyly kind of hid himself in his scarf. "I-I'm Ken."

He looked at the other curiously, smiling at him in the friendly manner and bowing his head. “Hello, Ken-kun. I’m Sakurai Sho. It’s nice to meet you.”

[moeanddelusion]

"S.. Sho? Y.. you're that actor right..?" Ken questioned tilting his head a little but he did end up bowing as well to be nice and copy the elder man. "N-nice already we.. we have something in common."

[i-megumi-takani]

"H-hello." The young actress stated as he walked over to her. He heard rumors about her being a doctor and he thought maybe she might be able to help him. "U-um.. I.. I ... I have an issue I.. was wondering if you could help me s-solve?"

"Hi!" The lady doctor returned the greeting with a smile on her face."Yes,what can I do for you?"

[i-megumi-takani]

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Cinnamon brown eyes lit up at the issue presented to her. It was an unusual case but it was one she was willing to take.”Interesting.” She smiles.”Well, I’ll see what we can do about it. Before we start, can I have your name so I can address you properly? By the way, you can call me Megumi. From where are you? You look familiar but I can’t figure out where I saw you.”

[moeanddelusion]

"M-my name is Ken.. or Kuroda.. which ever you pr.. prefer. I'm an actress so.. so maybe you saw me in something. I.. I mean actor. I wish I was an act-actress..." the young man shyly smiled a bit, a little embarrassed he hinted at his desire and wish that he was a girl. "I.. It's nice to meet you Megumi, th-thank you for offering to.. help me."

[i-megumi-takani]

"H-hello." The young actress stated as he walked over to her. He heard rumors about her being a doctor and he thought maybe she might be able to help him. "U-um.. I.. I ... I have an issue I.. was wondering if you could help me s-solve?"

"Hi!" The lady doctor returned the greeting with a smile on her face."Yes,what can I do for you?"

[moeanddelusion]

Shy and nervous the young man, Ken, looked a little off to the side as he tried to explain his issue. "W-well.. I.. I got a weird i-issue.. Whenever a.. a.. girl t-touches me.. I kind of.. have a w.. weird reaction. I get all stiff and fall on the ground and spasm a bit. I-it doesn't matter wh-who does it... if a gi girl is the p-person it happens and I-I don't know why. It happens at the smallest touch. D-do you think you can help me?"

[sayhellotojesse-blog]

Not exactly paying attention because he almost got touched by a girl and was trying to hurry away he found himself bumping himself into another man and stumbling backwards. "S-s-s... sorry.. I.. I wasn't looking." The shy actress said softly as he looked up and blinked a few times at the sight of the man before him. He looked so fancy while Ken himself looked like a nervous shy wreck hiding in his face a bit into his fluffy collar thing.

Hide was on walking around Ginza shopping for clothes. He had already collected the suit that he had ordered for and was just aimlessly walking around. When he was checking his phone, he felt someone bump into him. Out of habit, his body stiffened, ready to fight. That is until he realised that it was simply a scrawny guy who had bumped into him. As usual, he smiled his usual kilowatt smile as he replies. “Don’t worry about it. You should be careful, okay?”

[moeanddelusion]

"Y-yeah so.. sorry. I.. I usually try to b.. but I got s.. scared by a lady." The young actress responded shyly hiding his face a bit more because the man was a bit attractive.

"T.. though I.. I think I feel better now.." He went shyly, oh no his twin's habits were starting to rub off on him and he was flirting a bit. But he was handsome. Made him think of his dream boat.

[cleverandaction-blog1]

"H-hello. H-how are you..?" The shy little actress questioned blushing deeply.. hands behind his back.

Mirodi glanced at that certain figure in front of him, a little smile formed on his lips, before he left the scenario, somewhere his eyes couldn’t manage to see, then spoke. 

"Kuroda— No." He stopped for a second. "Ken. Long time no see. Doin’ fine, what about you?” 

Shintaro promised himself to start calling the delusional actor by his first name, after they became.. closer than usual.

[cleverandaction-blog1]

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Those reactions of Ken made Midori just die inside. Was is even legal to be that adorable? He could hug the hell out of his co-actor, but his inner, cool self didn’t allow him to. No dorky things now, Shintaro. Enjoy the sight, be the man you are!

His hands reached to the box, opened it, and what a surprise.. Cookies. A little smile formed on his lips once more, before taking one of the sweets, placing it in front of Kuroda’s mouth, waiting for the shy actress to open it for the chocolate cookie. “Say ‘ahh’, Ken~” Of course, there was a reason behind this action.

Maybe another.. kiss.

[moeanddelusion]

It was so hard to get a hold of himself like this. This moment was just such a dream, such perfection and wonder. He was so happy. So very happy! Maybe it didn't matter it wasn't Valentines Day anymore, they'd make today their Valentines Day instead.

Watching him, he was nervous he might not like what was inside. Feeling himself wanting to hide. But wait. What was he doing..?

Seeing him hold the cookie out in front of his mouth he blinked a few times before going shy once more. Opening his mouth a little.. shutting it.. and then trying once more to open it for the cookie he made the most embarrassing "a... Ah... ahhh.." sound he probably ever made.

I love you Midori. You.. you're the best.

[cleverandaction-blog1]

"H-hello. H-how are you..?" The shy little actress questioned blushing deeply.. hands behind his back.

Mirodi glanced at that certain figure in front of him, a little smile formed on his lips, before he left the scenario, somewhere his eyes couldn’t manage to see, then spoke. 

"Kuroda— No." He stopped for a second. "Ken. Long time no see. Doin’ fine, what about you?” 

Shintaro promised himself to start calling the delusional actor by his first name, after they became.. closer than usual.

[cleverandaction-blog1]

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Just because he was handsome as hell, Midori received lot of chocolate on Valentine’s Day, but that didn’t mean anything special. His only wish was to get something little from his co-actor. Seeing the little red-white box, a noticable smile showed on Shintaro’s lips. 

"Thank you, Ken.."

He didn’t lose his chance to steal a sweet, little kiss from Kuroda’s lips, then one for those cute cheeks

[moeanddelusion]

Seeing him smile made Ken relax. It was nice to see him honestly happy and it not being an act of character. But he didn't expect though to right after get a dream come true.

Feeling his lips be touched by the other's made him feel like his heart stopped. His eyes going wide as he tried to calm himself once more. He.. He.. Before he even could recover he felt the kisses on his cheeks and his face heat up. "M.. M.. M.. M.." He could barely talk as he trembled a bit.

To get this without a real reason just that he was happy to get a gift from him. It felt so official like they really were dating now. The actress couldn't believe how wonderful and happy he felt. "M.. M.." He wanted to say something.

To tell him how the cookies that were in the box were actually baked by himself and that's why the frosting looked really really horrible and sloppy. He really wanted to apologize for being so late with the gift but it took him so many tries to get the cookies to turn out without burning them or making them taste bad. That he wouldn't stop until he got it right. To tell him how much he regretted not being there on the day itself with him so they could be like a real couple.

But not a word could get out of his mouth. Not even his name.

[theficklewind]

"a.. are you the guy wh-who's good with make up..?"

Though “the guy who’s good with makeup” wasn’t Daisuke’s preferred makeup, it was always nice to get some recognition.

"Yes, that’s me. My name’s Kazama Daisuke, drifting like a feather on the fickle breeze…How can I help you?"

[theficklewind]

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A guy asking for a makeup job? That wasn’t something Daisuke had much experience with—he usually avoided using his talents on men except for the most dire of situations. Though…perhaps he could entertain this shy man’s request, odd as it was. It’d be no different from his usual work, right?

There was a hint of that charming smile Daisuke had. “Sure, I can help you with that. Do you want to make an appointment, or is this an immediate request?”

[moeanddelusion]

"W-well..." Hearing that he'd accept made the shy actress smile. "I.. I hope maybe to learn how to on my own but I don't re.. really know what would look good on m-me so.. so I can ma.. make an appointment.. " He tried to respond before bowing his head as he explained. "I..I.. I really wish I was a g-girl s.. so I'm t.. trying my b.. best to be like one.."

[theficklewind]

"a.. are you the guy wh-who's good with make up..?"

Though “the guy who’s good with makeup” wasn’t Daisuke’s preferred makeup, it was always nice to get some recognition.

"Yes, that’s me. My name’s Kazama Daisuke, drifting like a feather on the fickle breeze…How can I help you?"

[moeanddelusion]

"I.. I don't mean to be rude or anything b-b-b-but... th-think you could help me.. me out..?" Ken asked with a faint blush on his cheeks. The actress took a deep breath before spilling it out. "Could you help make me look like a pretty girl..?"

[cleverandaction-blog1]

"H-hello. H-how are you..?" The shy little actress questioned blushing deeply.. hands behind his back.

Mirodi glanced at that certain figure in front of him, a little smile formed on his lips, before he left the scenario, somewhere his eyes couldn’t manage to see, then spoke. 

"Kuroda— No." He stopped for a second. "Ken. Long time no see. Doin’ fine, what about you?” 

Shintaro promised himself to start calling the delusional actor by his first name, after they became.. closer than usual.

[moeanddelusion]

If he wasn't already blushing just hearing his name would probably have made him blush anyway. "I.. I'm doing okay too." He stated shyly looking up at him. "I.. I know it's a little late b-but.." Removing his hands from his back he held out a little gift box 

"Happy l-l.. l.. l.. late Valentines Day... Midori.."

[moeanddelusion]

"So.." Midori rubbed the back of his head, while his eyes avoid to take a look at the other. "It looks like you're back, eh?"

"Y.. yeah. I’m b.. back!" Kuroda went with a shy nod before looking up at him. "I.. I missed… you… b.. being away so long."

[cleverandaction-blog1]

"Dummy," Midori couldn’t help himself, he had to chuckle quietly at that shy response. Even after that role change Kuroda was still himself. "Missed you as well.. Ken." The actor nearly whispered his name as the male stepped closer to the well-dressed actress. A short pat was placed on Kuroda’s head.

[moeanddelusion]

Hearing him go from how he used to just call him Kuroda to now calling him Ken made him feel like they were a lot more relaxed and closer. He wasn't sure why but that's a good thing so it didn't matter. Blushing he looked up at Midori with this shy adorable smile and he nodded.

"I.. if I am a d... dummy.. ... .. I'm y.. your d.. dummy.."

[sanguinumtinea-archive-blog]

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"Seriously? Well, it’s the first time I know someone with this kind of behavior. Honestly I think it’s adorable." She told, remaining with her visage ornamented with a celestial smile. Without a doubt that young man was an interesting being. Akane thought that had seen everything, but it seemed not. "It’s a pleasure to meet you Kuroda-san." She added, continuing with her amicable and affable attitude towards him.

He appeared to be really nervous about that encounter. He always reacted that way with all the females? She didn’t know. Perhaps he had some aversion to women. In that world there were all sorts of phobias. "Are you afraid of women?" The question came out naturally due to her curiosity.

"Clues? Are you some kind of detective? Well, I guess I’ll wait for you and thus we can leave this place together.— If I stay alone, I think I’ll end up getting lost again."

[moeanddelusion]

"A-a... a... adorable?" Kuroda could hardly reply as he shyly looked off. Ahhhh she was complimenting him without even knowing him. The actress was just made so shy. "N-nice to meet you t-too." He tried to reply to be polite as he tried to take a deep breath.

"A... afraid..? N.. no..? More.. um.. I.. I.. I fa-faint if girls ... t.. .touch me... but I-I'm like this al-always.. S-so d-don't b.. be offended.. pl.. please!" He stated quietly looking at the ground. He obviously didn't want to offend or hurt her feelings because he was such a overly shy little guy.

"w-well... a-about the detective stu-stuff... I'm an actress.. but.. A group of us.. take.. bounties and try to solve cases together.. they all have a. an act but me and s-since I know this fo.. forest I'm here lo.. looking for clues on my own t-today before the rain hits.. Some people might have ki.. kidnapped a few kids and hid them out there for a few days... an.. and I'm trying to find where... to s.. see if it really happened or not."