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HW- 142.5 CW- 117 GW2- 113 UGW- 103 height 5’7”

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at my lowest weight- im trying to control my macros so when i do eat something it’s only beneficial but all i end up recording is 3 black freakin coffees.

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I gained 10lbs in 3 days. EDs are not restricted to losing weight.

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so i had this goal of 130lbs by June 15th...

it’s currently 11 something on June 14th and i weigh 131.2lbs... so I’m gonna do like 27479 jumping jacks and hope i can make my goal😌

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i wish weed was a hunger suppressant

not a hunger igniter.

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i have major munchies rn,

but i already had an accidental binge earlier today so like fuck.

pleeeeeeeassse don’t eat food.

ew food.

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I saw a girl do this, but i have absolutely no clue what her @ is... sorry sorry but here are my goals w/ dates.

130 by June 15

128 by June 22

125 by June 29

120 by July 6 (gw1)

117 by July 13

115 by July 20

110 by July 30

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this’ll only work w hella dedication, so yeah.

I only wrote this down so I could kind of manifest it in a way... hope it helps me out lol.

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i can’t wait for the day i can say “fuck you” to my munchies.

anyone else?

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i just bought a bluetooth scale that has a connected app that i downloaded on my phone that tells me my

weight

body fat %

muscle mass %

water weight %

BMI

It was just $30 on amazon and I love it!!! Now if I wanna eat sum fat ass food i just look at my stats and avoid it.

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if i eat 341 calories a day for 7 days, i will lose 4lbs.

if i eat 341 calories for a lil over 2 weeks I’ll be at my first goal weight.

tell me why i can’t just do something consecutively for 2 weeks..that’s it..2 weeks and I’ll actually accomplish something.

I’m going to do it. 2 weeks. this blog will be where I post my feeling throughout the 2 weeks.

stay safe<3

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so there’s this person that doesn’t know that we’re mad at each other, but we are. since my anger isn’t reciprocated, i will be starving myself till further notice.

thank you.

stay safe<3

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why are both of my parents chefs?

like the irony.

come on dude.

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Me fasting for 24hrs:

ahhh 😌 im not hungry at all, i can do this for another 12 hrs.

Me eating 3 meals a day:

food, food, food. MMMM COOKIES. I NEEEEEED ITTTTTTTTT😳😳😳

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i want to look good in running shorts and tank tops!!!!!!!!!!!

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my roommate just cooked some bomb ass food that is abt 800cal total and i cant decide if the smell makes me want to throw up or eat all of the fries in one go.🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤩🤩

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i can’t wait to go back to having a routine, once school’s back in session it’ll be so easy to restrict.

i just wish i was already skinny so i can start school off at my ugw but ya’ know what fuck it.

like imagine how easy it would be to skip meals w/o anyone knowing,, i skip breakfast cuz my parents leave for work b4 i do,, i skip lunch cuz i don’t like being in the cafeteria (long story/not rly),, I’ll be at practice after school and can say i ate dinner b4 hand. BOOM- math.

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tips to reduce hunger?

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so i had like 203)292927 cookies last night...

2 cookies=110cal

that was the last binge of the night out of 4 so...

today I’m 4 cups of black coffee in and 15hrs in on my 36hr fast.

munchies are my worst enemy.