just trying to be an okay mom and junk

here it is my mommy blog up and downs navigating though life as best as I can trying to focus on life with kiddos without the judgmental commentary from facebook.

[telayli]

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[telayli]

These goofballs. Riding the bus. Rites of passage. i see the other moms all dressed for the day but you know what i was totally rocking sweats and slippers. I even had my finest cup in tote. Thats how i roll. Day three kiddos sent off to school. Now what….

[telayli]

Lets be real. I have a hard time letting him do this himself add on a ok are we done about twenty times in the half hour we did this where as sissy and I did this for about four hours on hers when she was in kindergarten but it turned out cute. Ugh not ready….. on another note apparently I have counseling conveniently on his first day. Lame. I’d cancel but I may have canceled the last four times. :(

[mommly]

Went played on a farm for a bit picked somethings. It was fun. Love this time of year.

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After two years of a mountain I got this. Finished like a gangsta. Here's to change!

[telayli]

Liam had his evaluation today it went better then I expected he even wrote his name without any help that’s a first. My only thoughts is she’s a normal person and super young. She refered to kids as littles which I do. And she wanted to love them all. Which is super cute. But she either genuinely loves her job or she’s fresh and they will own her. Here’s to the year.

[mommly]

Okay. So I did this purge thing got rid of pretty much everything in the house. Apperently I hoarded 2t to 4t and had twenty bags of non unusable clothing. So yeah. And Cloebelle got this tiger hat when she was 4. She's 8 now. I didn't rethink shed notice so I thought I tossed it. Yesterday she was really upset she couldn't find tigey .... I had guilt thinking I should have put it in her hope chest. Or what does it matter if I let her keep it. Everyday she wears a fox tail. Is it really that big of a deal. I felt like a monster. Then now I find it. I'm a little torn do I set it on her bed do I put it in the hope chest. Lol

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Day two. This is the year my babies are both school kiddos. Cloebelle came in at 4:18am to get ready for school. I pulled her into the blankets and said even third graders cuddle. We went back to sleep it was warm I didn’t want ti get up until seven. Cloebelle starts third grade. I gave her a pep talk about how she’s a beautiful young lady and this year will go by so quick. I’m not sure of the lesson in that other then she’s getting to old. Liam has his evaluation today for kindergarten. This year the school is doing a weird thing where they watch each kindergatener for an hour to put them on iep and junk. Its weird and I don’t like it. Its like they are labeling them before they get the chance to know them. I really don’t want him to go yet but with the junk going on this year it is best. I think the positive will be routine structure discipline and he’s going to need that. And I can start yo build up my foundations with school for myself. Liam can’t be my excuse. Cloebelle didn’t want to ride the bus and wanted daddy to take her. He was a poop and didn’t want to go. I gave him a pep talk and convinced him to go. I honestly don’t know how this year is going to go other then it’s sink or swim and I’m not going to sink. Blah the feelers. Oh android just be real we typically eat cereal or oatmeal or eggs every morning. Today we didn't have time. And even though I told Cloebelle cereal next thing I see is here eating a tacobell bean burrito from the fridge. Last night we got back so late and after bedtime. She ate so much fair food she didn't eat dinner. As a bonus they both ate apple's. Liam however got his cereal I made it after Cloebelle left for school. I know judge me I don't even care this morning. She ate a burrito. Moving on. Also where is Liams jacket for the first time in years I have washed all the laundry where have I placed his jacket.

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So day one we did a thing. Oregon state fair. I decided to start blogging my junk as a mom away from FB. Just as a reminder to myself help me focus my goals. I have depression and I’m trying to navigate. I figured if I can post continuous moments on my progress or strengths weakness away from the commentary from others. I don’t know. And judge me if you will we ate a lot of craps food today in the form of deep fried Oreos, poptarts, and dare I say it bacon wrapped reeces. I feel sick to my stomache personally but it was fantastical. As for kids we got home to late to take a bath or get into routine and tomorrow school starts opps. Things I learned today Cloebelle has a huge interest in robotics. That was her fave part. She had so many questions. Maybe something to look into. Liam was up for all the rides today. Also behavior four hours was his limit and he was unredirectable. To be expected. My social anxiety was sky rocketed and I couldn’t function by end of day. Here’s to hoping things go smooth tomorrow.