i dont know that im going to be able to overcome this and the reality is starting to sink in and im terrified. I still have so much i want to do, but it's starting to feel like the odds are stacked against me
it's hard carrying the burden that unless something miraculous happens, my time is running short. really short. i dont want to tell people because that's not anyone else's burden to carry haha. but, fuck, man. there's still so much life left that I want to live. i'm trying to keep up but i'm falling more and more behind, delayed by my stupid fucking health and body failing me