Memory Vault

When there is no enemy inside, the enemies outside cannot hurt you. - African Proverb

[ringo712]

終わった（╹◡╹）

[iamwotan]

✨Official art by Old Xian✨

[crimson-chains]

Still thinking about these two sometimes~

[nando161mando]

[queen-mihai]

How every business sounds these days.

Shut it off.

[kinnerations]

[because being with you saves me just the same.]

[kaboku]

I wish the anime had adapted this scene of him in the mirror because not only is it one of my favorite panels. I think it’s a really good moment for ‘Hikaru’. He just woke from a nightmare, after hurting Yoshiki the previous day. And it’s the first time he’s really looking at himself, both literally and metaphorically, feeling that intense regret and guilt. He calls himself “gross”, and can’t get out of bed again the rest of the day. Until this point he hadn’t seemed to feel much remorse for anything, he was still figuring out what feelings even are. And while I do love the anime, I really wish it had shown us this quiet moment of him alone, sitting with his new strange feelings.

There was a post I reblogged awhile back talking about how ‘Hikaru’ in the current chapters has such an intense guilt for simply existing, but that it was probably something that’s been building for a long time. And I think this scene is when that actually started taking root inside of him. I dunno I just really love the more quiet and almost unassuming parts like this, because it communicates a lot about a character’s mental state with just the atmosphere alone.

I also love how the panel is directly mirroring (lol) his position over Yoshiki from their fight. Hammers home exactly what he’s guilty about, and signifies the beginning of him trying to really understand how his actions affect others, how this person he loves so much might feel toward him. Their conversation later being full of tears and begging Yoshiki not to hate him lets you know he was really absorbing what happened and realizing how wrong he was.

He has a lot of moments like this again and again and each time just. Hurts my heart. But I also really love seeing him navigate emotions and values throughout the series like this. I genuinely just feel such a deep sadness for him now though lol it’s rough

[lemitinc]

[19daysonly]

English translation

Manhua: 19 days

Author: @oldxian_ox

Chapter 480 "Coinsidence"

:Translator : @ 19daysonly (intagram)

Read it all : @ 19days.eng (instagram)

[cheerscafe]

Some of my favorite official art from Mokumokuren’s twitter! (@/mokmok_len)

[demonfujo]

[zephyrine-gale]

yearner of the year

[monstersofmemory]

Nov 5 - some days I am consumed by this overwhelming need to hurt, to die, to end myself, to slip into oblivion so dark and final I don't need to see or feel or hear how ugly myself is how ugly this world how tiring how bothersome

[eliseliedl]

You're even more of a brat than I am.

[jamiessecretoh]

The development of yoshikaru is so funny to me because it did a full 180 . “Hikaru” is like “I need to go back to the mountain to let yoshiki move on with his life. He doesn’t want me, he wants the old Hikaru.” Meanwhile yoshiki is like “if you leave me I will kill myself.”

[jakomusiclover]

Hikaru was terrified, devastated at the thought of hurting Yoshiki and breaking his promise to him. Yoshiki in return sensed his fear and urgently started reassuring him and comforting him. In vain, eventually. The desperation is evident in Hikaru's distressed voice, in Yoshiki's gasp as he grabs his wrist to prevent him from leaving. The scene is very emotionally charged and the voice actors did an excellent job at it, once again. Kudos to them.

[manga3am]

[finallgirll]

I need to be sedated after reading this