it'll all fade away - 3/16/2026
hey guys, this post is a couple days late, sowwy :p
i've been really busy with work and then I was running around all weekend in the state of New Jersey and then moving my last few things from the old house. I didn't really have the chance to play games or anything this week so this post will be formatted a little differently than normal.
this weekend I hung out with two of my buddies in the middle of New Jersey, specifically in a part ive never been before. it was very windy and I almost fell asleep on the drive there but I also tried Tim Horton's for the first time which was pretty cool. I didn't even know jersey had Tim Horton's let alone a Tim Horton's in a gas station but it wasn't bad at all :3
after my little Tim Horton's excursion, I went on a little walk in the middle of some farmland with someone else who kinda lives in that same area and it was great. afterwards we smoked up and then I drove home and listened to Land of Pines by Sugar, Cherry and I started thinking about a lot of things. Sugar, Cherry, aka Rozey, actually used to be a friend of mine a long time ago and I remember him for being a very cool, albeit somewhat unhinged guy, who taught me what open tunings were for the first time which completely changed the way I write music. And of course, years later, Rozey went on to befriend Quadeca and even work with him and it just reminded me of all these strange connections and memories ive made throughout my life.
I thought about Rozey some more and then I thought about the sunset over the field earlier that day as I walked alongside my friend. the rays of light blocked most of my vision but as we walked I could still see her silhouette and a strange feeling washed over me. I've had this feeling so many times before but could never put my finger on it until now. these small little moments, these vignettes, these little slices of adventure and discovery that fit between the cracks of the mundanity, these moments are why we're alive. whether the moments be fleeting, like a silhouette briefly illuminated by the sun, or forever, I'll always hold these things close to me.
I drove home that night and passed out on the couch instantly. the next day, I test rode a new bicycle, fell off it and ate shit, and then went to my old childhood home to grab my last couple of things.
it was so empty. I could feel myself almost visualizing everything that had happened here. all the good and all the bad. its bittersweet, but I'm happy to turn the page on this chapter and move forward.
of course, I got some great lifts in these week and my body is feeling really great. been trying out lifting four days a week and I'm getting into a really great groove lately and seeing a lot of old muscle come back. also, ended up buying the bike I test rode and I'm really excited to start cycling again. I used to cycle almost everyday from around November-December, but it was stolen in January around when I started couch surfing due to some conditions going on at home. ultimately this was somewhat of a blessing in disguise since that bike kinda sucked and this new one I bought is pretty sweet :p
here she is. decided to name her Marceline.
and now onto the music portion of this week's post :p I have some interesting things to talk about.
worked on some stuff with the other two members of Yucatan Mexico the past week and ended up with a pretty cool song that I think some of you might like :p working with other people in person again reminded me a lot about how much fun just experimenting with and trying random things in a play-like way can be and it's something I've been trying to focus on a lot more.
I also finally got my first digital audio player which is something I've been wanting to do for a very long time now. there's a ton of reasons behind this, probably a lot more than I really feel like writing about right now, but ultimately a lot of it comes down to intentionality of media consumption, actually owning what I consume, and not supporting shitty streaming business models. so far it's been a great experience and I highly recommend giving a DAP a shot.
last but not least, here's some stuff I made the last week:
been feeling a little depressed lately but I know everything's gonna be okay. take care of yourselves <3
