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Faith. Fact. Disease

I'm in a paradox. I can trust souly in God, and how it looks right now, I could go to heaven as a pod. Lol I giggled real hard thinking about that earlier...or Go to Hell as a Pod? They both have the same yet kinda different ending. Yet neither provide escape for the current situation. In the bible it says not to worry about tomorrow because tomorrow will worry about itself..but what do I do when I don't wanna be sick anymore. And there's nothing to do but to look too tomorrow for a cure or some sort of relief...I'm sorry. I'm rambling. I'm ill, my family keeps telling me to cone to revival and they wanna "lay hands on me", but I'm sick for the simple reason that I cannot afford my medicine, and the reality is that the healthcare system here is so fucked, and no body cares, it's frustrating that some bitch with an std can be fully taken care of by the government and live a LONG FULL life, and someone who's dying more and more everyday simply BC they can't get meds for a disease they DIDN'T ask for. Or worse, have to lose their limbs one by one, while their family watches, unable to do nothing, can't even die with fucking dignity. This is such blasphemy. And yes a sober. Rant over.

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#thoughtfortheday #byefelicia #notimeforthat#getreal#getGod#helpyoself#cantfightyourbattles#hecan#hesthemovement #blessed#nostress#givingitalltoyou

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I'm in the in-between. Halfway between looking up And looking down. I'm making myself stay concentrated on the straightforward. Can't look left or right Only brings that false idea of pain Halfway between waiting on that text back And not giving and cares at all Oh how frustrating Can't manage to send another text I'm a pitiful abomination Halfway between a flood of tears And and a head full of anger Foolishness. Halfway between making a move Or standing stern like a tree. But what do I stand for? How can a tree stand for nothing? No fruit. Barely branches. Few leaves. I'm in the in-between.

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Mother nature and the balled of better.

Wake up. Mother of flipping Nature shows up Completely unannounced. The tart knows I hate it when she does that. Checks phone. An abundance of messages. People asking how I am. Oh how kind. Like I believe any of them are actually asking that Ha. Ha. Ha. Shower. Oh a little consoling. Guts wrenching. I decide to reply to a message. "I'm okay, mother nature arrived". Sends. Phone-bingdingpingshaboom. Checks phone, Message back"oh kewl, I'm in high spirits today! Wish you felt better" I roll my eyes. Puts phone down. Phone- bingdingpingshaboom Picks up phone. Guy has sent picture of his smug. Unattractive face. Oh yes now all my pains and heartfelt struggles of my life are gone. Thank you. So much. Idiots. Definitely changing my number. Rolls eyes. Back to bed.

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#voice#sing#cover#legohouse#bored#practicemakesperfect#beautiful #brave#blessed#childofgod #ocapella#playing around

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Just a start. -side note

-This is an exploration of myself A new start for me. I’m faced with many woes. But I’m definitely getting help. I’ve seen the Snow. Classic white. Ever so lite. I’ve seen its love. Lifting me up, and breaking me back down. She left me, dead cold and alone. I’ve seen the evergreen. Luscious grassy fields. Her colors varied from different spectrums. The deepest of purples to the lightest of greens. We burned her, and she took my heart. And she too forsaked me. Leaving my head emptier than from the start. My starving heart looks for anything. A comfort to console her. The hand caresses. Fills with warmth. But my dear heart still cried. For nothing seemed to puncture the darkness. For, I have seen the darkness. Swallowing all my hope Eternally condemning me to my pain. No escape. I have been left, Cold Alone and dead. My soul cried out. I’ve seen The Blood. I washed in it, I’ve been saved. His overwhelming light Brightened my dark days. Filled my cup, I’ve never seen it empty since How have I never known of Such a love. My poor heart can at last Love again. My lord Jesus Christ Has made amends. I laugh, I live, I love, Still exploring. Til later. -your child.