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Next post will be about my trips trust. I just need to yap talk about origami real quick.

It was something I kind of looked forward to when going to Japan. International students were required to take a class where they would introduce different Japanese cultures and let you experience them. Surely, they will include origami as an activity at some point. We got to do plenty of things like calligraphy, learn how to make wagashi, participate in tea ceremony, etc. But to my disappointment, origami wasn't on the list.

So I started making them on my own. Well, I would say I'm quite an origami master myself. The first origami I learned to make was a crane. I remember sitting on the floor in the house with my dad, watching him fold the paper until it transformed into a bird. He also taught me how to make different types of paper plane, and frog that jumps when you press on its butt. The joy of making origami grew as I keep looking for new tutorials from physical books to videos online. But just making them would be too simple, I thought. I need some motivation. Some kind of goal to achieve. Some way to not...waste the other extra pack I accidentally bought (the cashier did ask if I wanted to buy 2 when checking out and my dumbass said yes). I looked around my rather empty room. The walls and the door were in plain white. Most shelves still had nothing in them at the time. What if I decorate them with some origamis? Let's fill this room with some personality!

Not only that, I also tried to make an origami everyday. If I forgot or was too busy, I just added the amount to another day and made more catch up.

An origami like the flower vase was counted separately by each piece. It didn't matter if I made the same origami over and over again as long as I make one so I can just make multiple water balloons on a day I ran out of ideas. I'm going to dump a lot of photos so be prepared to scroll in awe.

Eventually, I had to stop making the origami halfway through. Not that I was getting lazy (I kind of did), but this was how my shelf look like by the end of July ;

It's quite literally full.

The other flower vase was on another shelf with an orange crane, the hydrangea bowl was on the table, and I put the chameleons on my doorbell monitor. Some other origamis were taped here and there on the side of the shelves too. The origamis were everywhere. There were more that I didn't take photos of because I made them for other people too. Even some Japanese students were impressed. They said they could never do something like this.

Personally, I believe everyone absolutely can make origamis. You just need to be patient with paper. And practice makes perfect!

When I had to leave for home, I brought everything I made to lounge and announced that all the origamis were free to take. If there were any leftovers they can be thrown into the bin without notifying me because I unfortunately won't be coming back (I'm too poor to do that). Apparently after I left for about a month, someone told me that the origamis were still left where it was. Some of them were even used as decorations...? It was kind of crazy to me. It was good to know that the little things I made is still giving people joy.

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So...there is a lot to catch up here.

Totally not because I didn't upload this blog for almost a year or anything. I keep telling myself I need to write something, but I never get to work on it. It's been a month since I came back home after the exchange period is over. Uni isn't opening soon and I'm getting bored, so why not use this blog to reflect on what happened? Let's see where I left from my last update. Ah, yes. Part time job interview. To my surprise, I got the job. I wouldn't say I did great on the interview. The manager is known to be generous with foreign students and I was technically recommended by another foreign student who work there so that helped. I even got to befriend a coworker. She was a high school student working the same shift as me. I unfortunately couldn't remember her name (we only talked once), but she started a conversation with me because she saw my itabag in the locker! She had a lot of Chiikawa keychains on her bag. We talked about our interests for a bit before leaving the place for the night. She didn't know the characters on my bag but she was into a lot of projects I know like Twisted Wonderland and more. I went back to my dorm content. I may accidentally touched the stove and burned my finger, but I made a friend. I was finally getting the hang of the work here. It can only be better from now on. Little did I know that it was going to be my last shift of my job. My parents found out that my work schedule is late in the night and they didn't like it. You need to hear their excuses.

"The Night is too dangerous!" "What if there is an earthquake?!"

Yeah... Like. Are they fucking stupid. We fought over the phone for over an hour. In the office. Right before my shift started. I was crying. The store managers tried to help convince my parents, but they wouldn't listen. I haven't finished training when I had to sign my paper to leave. It hasn't even been a month since I was working there. I somehow found 10k yen delivered to my bank account later and I felt even worse. Whenever I go to that part of the city, I never step foot in that store again. I was too shamed to look at their faces from all the drama I caused. I didn't find another part time job after that because my classmates from uni have gathered in Japan around that time and we were planning to travel together. I had fun with everyone but I wish I still had the job to help recover some money because some of those trips were really expensive. I'll talk more about them on another post.

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I hate POP MART figures.

My first impression to them is just slightly more expensive gachapons. Most of them aren't even that pretty. Especially the ones called LABUBU. They're somehow very overrated in my country despite those ugly teeth they all have.

So imagine my surprise when I followed my friend into a POP MART store in Shibuya, only for me to ended up buying one instead of them. We were browsing through the different designs (while trying to be as quiet as possible because there were so many customers from our country it's kind of embarrassing) when one set stood out to me. It got me staring into the glass container for quite a moment.

An Alice in Wonderland themed POP MART :

Like. Wow. The artist actually did their homework on this one.

We usually have a favorite to aim for when opening blind boxes or doing gachas, right? Which is why I usually look through sites like mercari first so that I wouldn't have to waste my money on hopeless gambling. But I don't hate a single design in this set at all. The in-store price wasn't so different from the resales on mercari either, so I grabbed one from the shelf, headed to the counter, and cracked the box open...

I have acquired The March Hare. He is now sitting on the top shelf along with the goods I bought and the doujins my friends asked me to buy for them. I should start thinking about when to deliver some of these back home because my single luggage cannot fit them all.

Other than my character development arc towards POP MART (I still hate LABUBU though), I have to mention how I almost got a heat stroke while riding a bicycle to the train station.

It wasn't even that hot in the evening. I checked the weather report and everything before heading out. Yet right after I parked my bicycle and went up to the ground floor, my eyes became blurry and I couldn't stand straight. I somehow managed to make my way (literally half crawling) to the nearest vending machine and was saved by a bottle of cold water.

Who would have thought that summer in Japan can be this hot? Even the exchange students from SEA complained about the heat. Some of them who already returned told me that they'd rather tolerate summer at home than whatever is going on here. Global warming is real and it's getting to us.

Summer isn't a good season to save money, but since I've never experienced snow in my whole life, my real challenge would be in winter. An electric fan is enough to help me through the summer. But the freeze I felt to my bones when I arrived in Narita Airport during spring?

I will need those money for my heater bills.

It has been stormy lately because of the passing typhoon, but that didn't stop me and my uni classmates from reuniting in Tokyo a couple weeks ago. We stayed together in an Airbnb and it was a very chaotic experience. I wasn't really close to any of them but watching them throw hands at each other (in a friendly way, I suppose) had been entertaining. Though, the Airbnb caretaker who lived upstairs probably hated us to the core because we were being loud almost every night.

Before heading to Tokyo, we were invited to watch an annual fireworks show in a reserved area thanks to a Japanese friend. I've only seen fireworks from afar during new year countdowns so I wouldn't lie when I was a bit frightened by how close the explosions? bangs? were to where we were sitting. Let me show you some photos I took.

Here is what the area looks like. I, of course, brought the plushie with me so I can pretend we were dating under the fireworks light.

And here are the fireworks! The show was about an hour long if I remember correctly.

The blue one was screenshoted from a video but I personally think it's the best photo.

There were smoke everywhere once the show is over. Everything smelled burnt. Like we were barbeque sticks on a grill or something. It became really crowded when everyone started heading home at the same time, but the Japanese friend's family was very kind and took care of us so well. Apparently, the father used to live in our country and is still a huge fan as he kept telling us he couldn't wait to visit the capital again in a few months. We wish him the best.

Now that I'm getting hungry (it's midnight) I shall end the post here. I will try to upload some smaller posts so that I can make up for the months I have missed.

The way I actually had a draft for this post days ago but ended up rewriting everything again just because. You will forever be in my heart, little draft.

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If I were to make an excuse for why I haven't uploaded anything in a month, this game is to blame.

The new idolm@ster game? Nah, I'm not playing that. I'm already busy with Star Rail and other stuff. The system also looks complicated. I don't want to touch any game like umamusume ever agaiー

Errr, what just happened...? And why is it 2am now...?

That, and this weird guilty feeling where if I haven't completed my homework, I shouldn't be writing here. I've been getting a lot of assignments where I have to write at least a thousand Japanese character report for multiple subjects. I don't have the mood to do some of them right now, so I decided to write something here instead (if I keep on waiting to finish all my work, I'll probably never get to update this blog).

As much as I wanted to complain about how unfair it is that the English class only has to write 500 words for the same subject for the millionth time, I should be talking about other things like how I went to Tokyo with my fellow university friends.

Going to Tokyo wasn't in my weekend plan, but I'm still too nervous to travel by myself so I came along for experience. Some of our classmates are currently studying in Tokyo, so they kindly allowed us to stay at their dorm. We went to this fair that has a theme of our country only to be disappointed at how bland the food taste. It was also getting crowded, thus we moved elsewhere.

We spent half a day walking around Tokyo, looking for specific spots that was used as background in the movie Kimi no Na Wa because my friend is a huge fan. She made me take a lot of pictures for her even though I know nothing about how to take a good photo (whoever travels with her was destined to become her personal photographer at least once or more).

She kept saying she gained weight and that she looks fat but I honestly couldn't tell. To each their own, I guess.

This photo was a quick one I did before having to take a video of my friend walking up and down the stairs. There were less than 10 tourists there including us so we all had the place to ourselves. I might've gotten a cleaner shot without people if I waited a bit longer but I'm happy with this one.

On the last day before going back, we went to Harajuku with other friends of a friend (I couldn't remember who is who anymore). I volunteered to take care of our bags because every coin locker in the train station was full so while my friend went shopping, I was sipping iced cocoa in starbucks. I wasn't in the mood to walk and I've been here before anyway. I even completed half of my assignment while waiting for them too.

Apparently, the hardest part of travelling to Tokyo was actually the way back. The way we had to rush onto one of the last few buses of the day to get back to our dorm. Thank god we made it because I'd rather commit unalive than having to walk while dragging a large suitcase for a whole hour. The poor junior who went with us almost couldn't make it back as he was late by a few minutes. Me and my friend thought he had to sleep at the station for the night.

I immediately became busy for the next 3 weeks. I had to prepare for a presentation about "something interesting I found in town", went on 2 field trips for different classes that I have to write those long reports after, got addicted to a new game(?), and went to do an interview for the part time job.

To my surprise, they accepted me even though I intentionally screwed up half of my quiz answers. I was starting to get lazy because after recording my expenses for 2 months, I found out that I can survive without getting a job. Though, I'm more than glad to have some extra cash to compensate that 50k yen taxi fee and to cover my foolish purchases in the future, which might as well be now since my junior just pointed out that there actually is an animate where we live.

Looking forward to snatch some gakumas goods if they don't sold out. First time I went there only Sena, China, and especially Sumika were left. And I thought she's the popular one...

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There were so many things to talk about that I can hear the thoughts in my head crashing against each other.

I've been typing and deleting a single sentence for well over 15 minutes now. I haven't written a post in a while, but I really wanted to write something. To be fair, there wasn't anything relatively interesting to talk about until last week.

Most of the days went on the same. I go study, come back, play games, sleep, and repeat. Sometimes I'd join a group of exchange students that cook and share food from their countries at dinner time. Thank to them, my meals now have more variety than frozen food or cafeteria lunch that I never bother to change my order.

Me and the classmate that came to this same exchange program has been getting along well. She usually let me hang out in her room while she cooks. I mostly help with washing the dishes because, well, that should be obvious. One day last week I was still at her room while we chat about random stuff. It was getting late, and I was thinking of going back to my room. We suddenly heard a loud noise.

And before we knew it, the whole room was shaking.

My first earthquake experience was a 5.0 magnitude with the center right in the province I live in.

Luckily, the shake lasted a couple of seconds. It was so short that fear didn't even get a chance to register in my brain. A small aftershock also followed after, but it was nothing compared to the main quake so no one really cared. I guess this is what it feels like to live in a country where earthquake is a normal occurrence.

Few days later me and a couple other exchange students went to Hitachi Seaside Park. We all got crowded on a small car of this kind Japanese friend who was living to drive us there. The whole ride was chaotic because the junior from my country kept trolling the poor Japanese guy to say bad words in our language.

Before seeing the Nemophila, we hung around the amusement park area first. Half of the group decided to get on some rides while the other half chose to spend money on consumables.

Here is my failed attempt at taking a photo of the two-tone ice cream because right after the seller handed it to me, the thing started melting too soon that I had to finish it all.

Fortunately, I had enough time to get a second cone because some weren't done with the attractions yet (the ice cream also tasted so good that I was willing to have another one despite the expensive price).

Once everyone gathered up, we finally headed to the most popular spot of the park, and the view was breathtaking.

The Nemophila field looks just like what I saw on the TV so it kind of felt unreal to me. Both local and foreigner tourists can be seen on every part of the field because this was the last few days before the seasonal flower gets changed.

We found a couple of cosplayers at the park too. There were Riddle, Ace, and Deuce from twst who came as a group, Artoria Caster from fgo who seem to come with her photographer, and Frieren Himmel duo who were done with their shoot and was taking photos with everyone who passed their way. They then got misunderstood as characters from Evangelion by a random couple who were behind us. Seriously baffled at how they could guess so wrong.

I of course didn't miss the chance of taking photos of my oshi plushie in this stunning scenery. Please witness them below.

My yumejoshi brain considered this trip our date.

I had several more photos of the plushie, but most of them are with food with similar angles so they're rather boring looking if put together. I will need to look for more photo ideas from now on.

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The sakura trees at Senba Lake were gorgeous.

I'm glad to have such an outgoing friend because I can count on them to invite me to join their trip or else I'd be in my room all day and my mother wouldn't like that.

Me and the others had some ramen at a shop in Mito station first (the shoyu ramen tasted so bad I was offended at how they fumbled on such a basic menu) then we got on a taxi to the location because Japanese bus schedule is a pain in the ass.

Because it is currently spring, the sakura was in full bloom which explained the amount of people there. All my friends waited in queue to rent a pedal boat while I chose to stay on land.

Thanks to the windy weather, I successfully complete 1 whole round around the lake without breaking a sweat. That somehow impressed my friends who all gave up and waited for me at the entrance. Well, I didn't spend 30 minutes screaming for life while pedaling a boat, so I obviously have more energy to spare.

Since there were so many people, I couldn't help but feel like I was being silently judged whenever I take out my oshi's nesoberi. Would I get the same treatment if the plushie wasn't an anime character? I ignored the stares and managed to get a couple of photos.

This is where I proudly presented my masterpiece;

I like to imagine we sat here together for a moment as we stared into the distance, watching the ducks floating by.

Some sakura branches were low enough for me to reach so I of course had to put him next to the flowers.

And now, my most favorite one so far;

This one was actually taken at a park near my dorm the week before, but it also has sakura so I wanted to put it here. I tried to do the same at Senba Lake but the sakura petals immediately fell from my touch. The flowers had been blooming for quite some time, after all (they mostly all fell by now as I noticed from the trees in my university).

It was getting late, so we headed back to Mito station and have dinner at an Italian restaurant. I heard another group of exchange students went to the same place, but I didn't expect to run into them here as we didn't see them at the lake. Our seats were even at the opposite side of each other.

I ordered carbonara spaghetti and ice cream for dessert. Everything tasted lovely. If the shop isn't so far away from the dorm I would like to eat here often.

Tomorrow I'm finally meeting with my tutor after class to finish my official documents. We barely talk at all, and I honestly feel kind of bad. There is actually a requirement where I have to meet up with the tutor at least once a week, but I've only met her once on the first day. We need to get to know each other better very soon.

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Second week in and I already caught a cold.

It lightly rains all day long, which is so annoying. People here don't seem to bother using an umbrella when you can barely feel the rain either. I thought I would be fine, but now I have a sore throat and nonstop runny nose (a tissue is plucked into my nose as I'm writing).

Yesterday, I went to the station in the city with a friend and got a Miku keychain from DAISO. She will now guard my dorm key for the rest of my stay if she doesn't choose to run away first.

As we explored the mall, we found a floor that only sells second-hand items. I saw a glass that looked identical to the one my mom bought from a Japanese second-hand store in my country, so I had to take a picture and send it to my family group chat.

Mom confirmed that it's the same glass.

The world can feel so small sometimes.

There were also cheap figurines and anime goods that were still in decent condition. I actually found a couple of twst plushies for only 200 yen each. That's crazy cheap for a popular franchise. I ended up leaving the plushies where they were as I, unfortunately, am a horrible owner when it comes to keeping dolls.

Talking about twst, I got both Vil's SSRs from the event and his newest birthday gacha in 80 pulls. I usually have to reach 100 pity for his majesty to grace upon my account with double SSRs, which isn't that bad because nothing will ever top the Fairy Gala Leona incident (I switched my oshi to Vil because of that). Can't wait for the event to be over so I can groovy the event SSR.

Classes will be starting on Thursday. Japanese courses are determined by a small test me and other exchange students did last week. I may have done too well as I was put in the highest level, making me have to beg the Japanese teachers to put me in a lower class. In tears. By accident.

I could've skipped the harder questions, but I was afraid my score would be too low as people already know I have N2. I'm just not mentally ready to study N1, especially in Japan. Studying isn't my main priority here. The teachers suggested that I try first class on both levels first before I make my decision. I've already made my mind but agreed anyway.

And instead of runny nose, my nose has become stuffed. I'm glad I postponed the meeting with my Japanese tutor to another day because I'm not feeling very well right now.

I think I'm going to sleep a bit more until it's noon and shower later.

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It has been 3 days since I arrived in Japan.

They wouldn't allow students to enter the dorm until a specific date, so I flew on the day before as I didn't want to spend money on hotels. It was a late-night flight so it was mostly peaceful, except that one toddler in the far front who cried from time to time.

A girl in front of me decided to watch 2005 version of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory so I just watched from her screen the whole flight. There were so many details and scenes that I have forgotten because I saw the movie when I was very young.

The flight attendants kept mistaking me and the Japanese lady's nationality during service which I found quite funny. They thought the Japanese lady was from my country, but when they realized she wasn't they somehow assumed I was also Japanese. I replied to them in Japanese anyway because why not. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

When the plane landed it started raining, making the temperature a lot cooler than I expected. The immigration process took so long that once I got out of the airport I only have a few hours left to travel to the appointed destination. I went down to the train, but the ticket booth was super crowded that I'd have to wait for another train for almost an hour. The bus had only 1 trip per day to my destination won't be coming soon, so I bit the bullet and got on a taxi.

There is a reason why Japanese people avoid taxis.

The service was top notch, but it came with a price.

A ridiculously expensive one.

(And that I also told the driver to take the fastest route, so it costed even higher)

Dear my parents, if you're reading this, I'm so sorry I spent 50k yen on 2 and a half hour ride from Narita to Mito. I will make sure to find a part time job once I know of my study schedule.

After reaching the destination, I paid the driver with my credit card so I signed the receipt with my signature in my language.

Apparently, that's when the driver realized I'm a foreigner.

He seemed shocked and amazed because after apologizing (I asked him to repeat something, but he didn't make it sound easier to understand so I just nodded), he complimented my accent saying how natural it was.

It may have something to do with my appearance too since I'm Asian. Even the local students at the dorm said I look like a Japanese. It was kind of fun at first, but I'm starting to feel like it's more of a debuff because instead of yasashii nihongo, I will be hit with normal level speech that can be very hard to listen.

In the evening of the first day, me and other 2 students from my country went to 3 different supermarkets to find items for our dorm. They even rode bicycles to a Donki far deep in the city to buy pillows (only mattress is provided in the dorm), utensils, and so much more. There were only 2 bicycles available so I just waited for them at the lounge, praying for their safety because one said they almost crashed into a car.

The two bought lots of ingredients to cook food on their own while I mostly bought instant meals. I don't feel like cooking because I'll have to wash the dishes, so I bought different food and put them together.

Personally, I think it turned out great.

The students from my country came from the same university and one is a classmate of mine. They are a cheerful person and a socializer. They probably befriended most of the exchange students already at this point. Thanks to them introducing me to others, I was able to talk and make friends with more people. Everyone was really kind. Some students' Japanese or English skills might not be very strong, but nothing can stop any of them from having fun together.

Tomorrow after sending in our documents at the City Hall, the exchange students are planning to have a barbeque party. I also heard another party will be held after too. It hasn't been a week, yet everyone seemed to close to each other. From a view of someone who's socially awkward, I find that fascinating.

I hope to get to know more of everyone soon.

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2.1 update, and a dream come true.

Happy 1st Anniversary to Honkai Star Rail!

I'm so glad the update came a few days before my flight or else I'd be distracted from everything. Though, I already am distracted because I should be packing my stuff right now. I'll leave that to me in the future.

As someone who used to play Guns Girl Z it's nice to see how far miHoYo had come, especially HOYO-MiX. While I couldn't say much about the story (I unfortunately am a dialogue skipper), I've always loved their music. Sometimes I would boot GGZ up only to go to the OST section and listen to my favorite tracks for hours. Even after I dropped Genshin Impact from burnout, I still find myself checking out OST of newer updates from time to time. Heck, whenever my brain gets too loud at night, I would calm myself down with Liyue or Dragonspine playlist. Yet somehow, it's different when it comes to HSR.

But before that let me slide one of my favorite tracks from GGZ here ;

There is something about older music that sounds simpler yet enjoyable when compared to what we usually hear now. A banger from the past. Not saying one is better than another, of course. HOYO-MiX always delivers.

HSR OSTs are really good. I honestly don't know why it didn't hit me as hard as the other two games. There is only one track so far that strike my interest enough to make me hunt it down on YouTube so I can loop it while laying on my bed as I stare at the ceiling (the one named "Stade du Miroir" if you're curious). I've also said above that I'm a story skipper. Then what exactly keeps me on hook? To be fair, I've always felt neutral about HSR.

Until he arrived.

Look at this man.

A beauty bestowed upon Xianzhou Luofu.

I was intrigued.

From that day on, my goal was set.

Meta or whatever.

If he isn't E6 I'm not pulling for anyone else.

It was a miracle that I managed to get Luocha to E2 on his first banner. I couldn't remember how much I pulledーNo, I'm not a whale. I'm but a little dolphin who purchased a couple of monthly passes. Welt also came home on one of the pulls along with Luocha. Maybe he's trying to stop this pretty blonde from reaching me. After all, his past encounters with similar looking men didn't end well. I had a feeling I got the 3rd Luocha on a solo a day or two before the banner disappeared too.

Charming new characters appeared left and right as the story progress, but I stayed strong (I didn't. I accidentally got Blade while trying to build pity, tried for Argenti and stopped before I hit 50/50 then lost about 50 pulls to Ratio LC). Sunday and Aventurine worried me because oh boy, how would I be able to resist those two. Thankfully, as I'm writing, Luocha's rerun came together with Acheron. I would've lost it if Aventurine was first.

Long story short, this is the final result after around 250 pulls.

I have 21k stellar jades left, so I may be able to save enough for Aventurine (or Sunday if he is confirmed to be playable). Though, I'll have to wait for guides to help me collect chest because my head still hurt after completing the main story. Penacony maps make me feel dizzy and somehow the main story makes it even worse.

Now I have an excuse to stop playing HSR for a few days so I can continue preparing for my flight.

Sigh...Can I skip every process and just warp there?

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Honestly, I have no idea where to start.

The last time I successfully journal something was probably when I first visited Japan. It was an 8-day trip where I got to spend most of my time at the countryside of Takasaki, along with other students. As proud as I am to be part of this program where we didn't have to pay a single penny (personal expenses excluded), I couldn't help but feel jealous of the other group from the paid program where they got to tour a planetarium and even went to an amusement park. Meanwhile, we had to impress the locals and were told to maintain our public image over and over again. The only time I felt free was during the last 2 days where we finally get to be in Tokyo to buy souvenirs. But enough of that for now.

A couple of years had passed since then. As I've continued studying Japanese, I managed to apply for a one-year exchange program and will be flying in less than 2 weeks. So, I think it will be a good time to attempt journaling again. My original plan was to do it on Facebook, but the recent reel update was my last straw (short form content will forever be my enemy). Because of that, I dusted off this Tumblr to document my upcoming experience in the foreign country.

I couldn't help but feel nervous. I may have been to Japan once, but I was accompanied by the teachers. All I had to do was just follow what they say. If anything happens, I know I could count on the adults to solve the problem. But this time is different. I will be on the plane alone (as in without people I know). I have to travel to the meeting point on my own. I have to do so many things by myself. I am the adult.

I've been living with my parents my whole life, so I'm unsure of what lies ahead. Which is exactly why I need to go out there. To step out of my comfort zone. While I despise the idea of growing up, it's inevitable. I sincerely hope that this opportunity will help me improve as a person because if I want to support my oshis, I need to able to support myself first.

In the end, I guess I just want to be able to pay for my most favorite band in the world for the rest of my life.

TLDR; weeb wants to get back into journaling and have a sustainable life to support their oshi