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[mprivpages]

You were fucking bored. How could you be upset that you haven't met a lot of girls, yet you met me but you still went on dates with others. Fuck you. You can't have your cake and eat it too.

[mprivpages]

What sucks, sort of, is that I was having "fun" until I found someone else. Someone who helped me end certain relationships. If I had to choose one thing, it would be me feeling grateful for that.

But maybe this was all meant to happen. I needed a little help or a nudge to move on from my last FP. However, the downfall was that this other person became my new FP. I'm truly thankful for him, and I know God is making room for something else to happen.

But I wonder what's lined up for me next. Whatever leaves make room for what's about to come in, right?

[quotefeeling]

“We often want it so badly that we ruin it before it begins. Overthinking. Fantasizing. Imagining. Expecting. Worrying. Doubting. Just let it naturally evolve”

— Unknown

[mprivpages]

No because every single one of my family members lost privileges to know anything going on in my romantic life lol.

[mprivpages]

No because try and touch me again and see wtf happens.

[mprivpages]

"I never speak my opinion unless asked"

*every 5 minutes*

"so what do you think about this?"

lol 🥰

[vexheart]

[mprivpages]

I wonder if you told them all the same pretty things you told me. Did you talk about them being the mother of your kids? Did you introduce family to them too? Did they also envision a future with you because of a "feeling" you had about you two? I wonder if they also bet on a future where you guys lived together too. I don't know, but what's certain is that I'm probably not given another thought just like the rest of them. I feel so dumb. I think I'm more mad at myself than anything. Mad that I doubted you'd be just like everyone else. You got me good.

[quotefeeling]

“Have the humility to learn from those around you.”

— John C. Maxwell

[elizabethsinclair]

elizabeth s.

[mprivpages]

No, but fr, on a more positive note, I know that how I want to be treated does and can exist. I'll be with the right person soon...

[do-not-u-dare]

”Explain yourself” followed by “stop making excuses” has always baffled me because the fuck you think explaining myself is????

[my-dailydreams]

[mprivpages]

The worst part is that I never wanted you to be anything. I had no real "expectations" of who you "should be." I literally just wanted you to choose me/us, but that was way too much, I guess.

[aidashakur]

All I think about is love. Giving love, making love, embodying love, loving to the highest degree, being loved. Love consumes me, love runs me, love is me.

[seaphine]

I don't have the energy to be a giver anymore. I want to try the role of being appreciated and love and taken care of.