I Regret Nothing

Unethical blogger

[mrpostaldude]

MDNI

hi im ​𝔻𝕌𝔻𝔼​ ✩

25 - player of games

tumblr user crca '13 ((this is a sideblog))

i love POSTAL, tf2, mgs--gaming is my passion

i do not tag TW; traumaposting & uncivil rants

im a derranged egotistical fag! i can come across as unironically -ist/-phobic and cynical, nonetheless i want a cute outlet to be uncensored to say what i want n how i feel, i dont owe an explanation

i am insulting and full of rage. thoughts are my own. prob dont follow me okthxbye

my DESKTOP website for more info - ty for visiting my account

How'd you like it if somebody called you a lunatic?

Me, Dude - I'm kin with every ideration of POSTAL Dude. I'm a decrepit internet kinner and generally uncomfy with doubles, please keep that in mind and feel free to AMA. I have ALL Postal titles Platinum'd. I love RWS and their work, they are close to home in very real ways to me (literally). I am a kickstarter backer for Postal 2 Redux and anticipate flesh&wire soon.

The Bitch - My loving husband, our bond is indescribable. I have no boundaries with him and we share our life together. We kin from tons of sources, he is my soulmate and reason to get up in the morning.

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7.16.26

no one cares about my problems. i dont have anyone to vent to. not like they'd have anything to offer in return. ive been really struggling this year. this has been the worst year of my life. i cant land a job. i called this job yesterday, since they said they'd call yesterday, and they said they'd call today. nothing.

i hope they burn in hell.

ive pivoted a lot of my attention recently to marxist studies. the fact that capitalism has dictated my life to be this way, full of stress and worry. apart from my love, apart from living my life; instead slaving for low wages, wages that dont even allow me to afford rent. this cycle is cruel. its hard not to be pessimistic and feeling like giving up. everyone else who gets offered these positions over me is no where as skilled, intelligent, or able. they just want check boxes on their sheet based on resume and experience, and not willingness. im more deserving than the rat millenials or elders they employ. i was told at the last interview, someone got the job over me ONLY because they knew spanish. racist pigs, im doomed to have every job application require/prefer spanish because ive lived in the southwest all my life. the fact that not knowing spanish literally does GO AGAINST you in the hiring process, fuck off. none of you deserve anything if this is my hand as of late. its fucking retail i can ask if they need a bag or receipt FINE but you're telling me thats the only person you have on your team that knows spanish? spanish speaking customers dont even need their hand held. not to mention theyre usually my dumber clientelle anyway.

i have a lot of gripe with society. a lot of different types of people, i dislike. i hate most people. for one, most people are normies, so they'll never get close to me. i dont want them to. their tired small talk is the bane of my existence. i work in the service industry and have to slave and sling meaningless goods. i dont care to meet your quota when im paid minimum wage. suck my dick.

im an addict. im addicted to a lot of vices, and want to consume all of them as long as possible. but i barely feel pleasure from it anymore. its just, i feel worse when im without i guess. not physically, but i feel mentally dependent on substances and masturbating. its because im so depressed. its only getting worse.

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7.13.26

ok, being hypersxual again. eek im still picky but i wish itd be easier to slip into a goon3r mindset. it makes me a little dysphoric i guess. well i like my bigpenis and it gets big and twitchy and needy after i bate for a while. i feel how hard it is between my fingers. uhh, FUN. i like going dumb off dick as much as the next guy alr

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7.8.26

this is just an hr or so after my last.

idk what to think of suicide while battling depression all my life. before i took it more seriously i guess, just because my perspective on life has changed as ive grown up. complete mental anguish and hardship plagues me everyday. its a struggle to calm my anxiety and chug through my life, knowing i make no money and am in the worst year of my life. all these years working the jobs ive had was always a means to an end, to leave that industry. now its all i can possibly hope to get again. getting hired at the firm was luck. they were desperate corpo capitalist dogs. i feel helpless. i feel challenges in every way. the crushing bitter truth of reality is too much to bear. i complain too much.

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7.7.26

there are things i feel i cant be open about. and by feeling that way, i feel like im keeping secrets. i feel like no one is seeking my wellbeing. i think if i were to hurt myself itd go unnoticed, and of course no one would prompt anything. no one would create dialogue over my condition.

neglect. the acceptance of being alone.

im lonely. its a horrible feeling, when im accompanied. one day il be alone. one day, the bad day will come. i have horrible death anxiety. im fakely superstitious, i keep catching the clock at 11:10 lately, a minute short.

its horrible thinking im going on like this and any day could be my last. its a sinking realization, knowing im not making anything out of the day, out of me being alive. just misery and self pity. its humiliating. no one cares. no one in the world will ever know of me

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hate being a bitter fuck

the feeling of helplessness to radical change and general societal NICETIES let alone biases and evils of the world... just... being there for one another and putting in effort

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i dont get sleep bae im an insomniac

getting 4h of sleep

at least i have days i do sleep

heavy communist thoughts at midnight

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6.23.26

and what do u know im getting ready for a 6am shift and my partner neglects me entirely in what i say bothers and upsets and makes me uncomfortable and unable to sleep beside him at night anymore because i feel physically repelled and distant from how uncaring he is to what i verbalize as triggering

you do deserve to be treated that way. i tell u what u can do to change and do the same daily daily daily routine olease stay awy from me

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lol doja cat noob foid trying to play dbd cant comprehend shit in the tutorial and ragequits to play fort.

im gatekeeping the internet and gaming

back to simsdewvalleycrossing for the miss?

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6.23.26

uh idk im still bitter. i keep thinking about 🐄 and what happened tn, he keeps going on about the home server. idc about his hobby its not interesting/doesnt make that much sense to hold a conversation about/a waste of money. like to me sure cisboy go buy ur golfbag and uhh airsoft gun and drone. stupid men doing dumb hobbies. its more annoying because its also just coming from a place of privilege, its begun to just annoy me. its unfair, i want to root for my friend. but he put his cv thru ai and gets opportunities i dont think he deserves. im sure this is how i feel, but i cant explain why. above anything i just dont care. its great u and ur gf can argue on wether red bottoms are worth it in a home u have for free with degrees u rode into for free. its like, the complete opposite of 🍔 and how her life is handed to her but does nothing w it. well, 🐄 is unemployed and he brags too much and is vain and materialistic while being a penny pincher? its confusing, he refuses to upgrade his pc but wants to spend over $600 on his internet/server. its unnecessary tech bloat to me. capitalism n shit? maybe he sees it as anti-capitalism by overcoming streaming services, but thats a crazy amount of consumption. you can store content without spending that much LOL. the uses of it being used wherever and every reason he gives for using linux... have u considered i don't give a shit

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jun 10 2026

today was hard and streneous. it was my first day on the sales floor (despite being told we'd shadow at some point) and customers asked me endless questions honestly barraging me and i felt so overwhelmed. nothing i cant handle, obviously i handle custys and keep them in line... but goddamn they are annoying and relentless.

then i watched jerma stream for like 7h and was too exhausted to do anything else. before work i threw up right as i was grabbing my keys to leave

it was an uncomfortable day, and the Bitch is obviously really tired but i cant help but get my feelings hurt. im too scared to initiate sex knowing how itll end, my trust is fragile. i feel warm and hot and tired. i got so in my head about my life. work, home life, being bored. etc. im really tired now

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im the most competent applicant for any and every job I apply to (for the most part like 99.99% of the time) the fact just cus some mexican knows spanish you think they outclass me as a candidate? you hire teenagers for this "really easy" (the SM's words) job. ive been in customer service 8 years and spanish speakers have had no problem interacting with me and its just an excuse, it actually means nothing

if it was truly 1:1 and a 2nd language was the deciding factor, youre just mistaken. how could that be against me as an applicant? i've only lived in southern cities (both within 2 hours of the Mexican border) and specifically worked at places where the majority of customers WERE travelling from mexico to the store TO RESELL, sometimes 1-3 carts full of shoes, bags, etc. this expectation is BULLSHIT because they don't even pay you more for knowing spanish its a fucking scam its disgusting hiring practices. hire who is fucking competent. any company not hiring me over others is suffering as a result, half of my co-workers over the years are inept that is the fact of the matter. my experience is being unable to apply to so so many jobs because they require bilingual, dont pay you more for being bilingual, and its not even fucking necessary they bar access to candidates purposely and for no gain.

the department store didnt call back and i bet it was for the same reason

now that im older ive learned why revenge and vengeance is such a large concept, the world is only focused on belittling those most deserving

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er im going through the worst period in my life thus far im not really in the mood to entertain your existence 🐄

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i don't care if the black guy isnt in mw4 he was overwritten and boring before and still was in mw'22

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6/2/26

1:37a

honestly im at a complete low point in my life. i find no joy in anything. im completely demotivated and am satisfied staring at walls and wallowing in my shortcomings. my partner neglects me. he doesnt want to touch me, he never has. he forces himself abruptly and awkwardly to meet a quota of his every say, once every 3 months. well, i cant stand having sex anymore. i think my trust is completely shattered. im uncomfortable at every turn at night and i cant cope. im losing sight of myself and the things around me. im losing meaning in the everyday and sucombing to misery, self pity, vengeance. i have an understanding of life as of late, that society, people are the problem. no one wants to hear from me and i dont want them to listen. one day, ill be completely alone. ill be in my silence indefinitely. ill leave everything behind and then what. all this suffering, every moment will mean nothing to no one. whats the point in finding meaning in the everyday when everyday im tormented. im in this abyss. im already alone but no one gives a shit. at least in my silence ill only have myself to blame.

i cant get a grip on myself and what im thinking or how im feeling. im numb entirely. i just hurt. feel betrayal. nothing matters

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bro that plays bad boring femoid games but swears hes a grinder #larp

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retarded internet censorship "adult content"