Not too shabby: Life

Hi Everyone, I'm Kelly 27 from Berkshire in the UK, I'm married and mummy to Hollie. I love Baking , Photography,Reading and all crafty shabby chic stuff.. Thank you for taking a look at my Blog please feel free to follow me! xxx

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Hello December! 🎄🎅🏻☃🎁

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I'm still shocked when I come in from the kitchen to find her sat on the sofa!

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Starting to get bits for Hollie's Birthday with it not long after Christmas! Thank you @confetti_day for this cake topper!

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We lost Hollie's little roo comforter yesterday and we had a horrible night (myself & James) we felt so guiltily, upset and just generally sad. I guess it was more the sentimental side of it, but luckily we were reunited with it today!

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Because a winter hat and a knitted jumper just makes her smile!

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How cute is this Reindeer headband modelled by Miffy?(Hollie wasn't up for staying still) it's from @mylittlecupcakex Thank you xx #mylittlecupcakex #Christmas #headbands #reindeer #christmasiscoming #miffy

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Broke down

Late last night I really broke down, Hollie hasn't been sleeping at night since James went to Norway. Well he came back last night and I stupidly thought in my head she would settle back into routine once he came home (I knew it wouldn't be instant but had hoped) but she was up till half 1 really fighting it nothing I could do would settle her. It really got to me and I just broke down and cried all my feelings came with it, I blame my tiredness for being shitty with everything. I feel if I wasn't so tired I'd be a better Wife, Mum, friend and also I'd be able to tackle the one thing that's controlling me- my social anxiety! I hate myself for letting it control me but I have no fight in me because I'm so tired, I need to take a step In learning how to control it as I tend to hide away and then I'm not but into a uncomfortable position but then that equals being a crap mum who doesn't get out and just stays in the house doing the same thing day in day out. Hollie gets bored so easy, I guess she is still young and that being the reason so I try and do small activities with her but after 5/10 mins it's over then what do we do?? It's just a cycle day in day out so easy to keep doing it but knowing things need to change scares me really sets me off. I'm looking forward to learning to drive, give me something to focus on like I said in the last post I'm really holding on to hope that that is the answer and the help I need.. Ok I won't be making friends but it's a start. I'm hoping I'm just having a shitty week and things will be better once Hollie sleeps better and I get more sleep too!

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Where's Hollie??

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We're doing the book advent this year too! I only got her 12 though for the 12 days of Christmas as the thought if wrapping 24 books plus the ones I'd already got her as presents seemed painful! Plus our tree might not be up till then too as she will for sure want to play with it along with the cat! Glad your back to posting on here btw!

Aw thank you, I'm glad to be back! I was going to do 12 but feel I need to build up her book collection so it's the perfect excuse ha ha I think it's such a good idea too, wish my mum had done it when I was younger xx

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15 books wrapped need to get 9 more then I'm done for Hollie's first 'advent calendar'

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Social Anxiety 👎

I've had it for quite a few years but since having Hollie it's much much worse. We don't go along to baby groups, we don't have any mummy friends so pretty much stay in all week unless we go for a walk to the park. I've tried making local mummy friends online but nothing comes of it, no responses etc. I've tried reaching out to friends & family I have here locally but no one seems to want to help, you might say well it's not there problem it's mine and I agree.. But all I have asked is if they will come along to a group, help me build my confidence. I hate knowing what's the 'problem' is but not managing to get myself out of it... I feel it's swallowed me up but it doesn't want to spit me back out yet. I feel I've made a few friends online over time and I only wish they were closer as I feel if they were we would get along so well and I'd be able to get out. I'm hoping to start learning to drive early next year and I'm hoping that will be a good start in building my confidence, I'll be able to get out and about a bit further for Hollie's sake as I know it's not fair on her. She need to go out and explore and interact with other children.

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I've missed Tumblr

Why did I ever leave, I've missed catching updates from some of you ladies.. I may follow you on Instagram but sometimes it's not the same! I must must try and come on here more often, may even start blogging on here again! Waving HELLO to you all xx

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#dontleaveittochance #Coppafeel I found this video powerful and deep.. Maybe we should all share? https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=TZb6uRAR_fo

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Ladies (and gents) I'm on a mission!

How do I find uk twin blogs? Unfortunately we had a fake profile in one of my baby groups on fb… We want to try and let the ladies know that their own personal photos have been used thanks!

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