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Why I still watch OUAT…

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If I finally let my guard down for you, you better not remind me of why it was up in the first place.

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We fall so that we can get back up again, right? Honestly, I’m surprised I’m here to write this at all.

The only time I’m truly happy anymore is when I see my best friend. She is the only calming presence in my life and is the only person who doesn’t demand anything of me that I wouldn’t already give freely.

My boyfriend is profoundly selfish. Yes, he gives me nice gifts, but that doesn’t make him a good boyfriend. He just tries to bury things by buying me nice stuff. When I told him I was deathly ill today, he seemed concerned at first, then was overjoyed because it meant that he could go to bed early and get more work done. And the guy who cheated on me, the one who hurt me so deeply? He was the one who offered to come take care of me. He was the one who told me that he’d drop what he was doing to make sure that I was okay. And most importantly HE DID. He isn’t supposed to be the one doing that. I’m supposed to not like him, but I can’t help but be grateful. He stayed on the phone with me while I just cried. And told me that everything was going to be okay.

I worry that I will never truly matter to anyone except for my best friend. And I worry that I let her down. I just want to feel something other than pain for once. This has been such a long year and I’m so near the end of my rope. I miss the way things used to be. I used to be such a happy person, so confident in myself and in the way my life was going. Now, I have no idea what’s happening. I feel like I’m watching a movie of my own life, powerless. I’m just tired. So tired. I have worked so hard for so long and I just can’t stand to see it all apart.

Help me?

msfiestypants

Baby girl I love you so much. I wish I could take away all your pain. You know I support you in any decision you make. He just doesn't make sense and I've gone through it... if he wants you and ONLY you you've got to talk to him.... if you are feeling this way you need to talk to mark. It's only fair. And if you want to be with Ian you know I support you. We are 25 life isn't supposed to make sense as much as we want it to. :) I love you. And I'm here for you. I think we need a wine night soon :)