I've been watching intervention all day.
I have so many mixed feelings on addiction. If youāre addicted to drugs and reading this post, I want to say before I say anything else that I am not judging you, nor making stabs at you. Just writing out thoughts (some about the show some about my experiences).
Seems like heroin is the queen of all drugs these days and I can see why. Iāve heard it described in many ways, different feelings for different individuals but one word always in common when users describe their relationship with heroin : āloveā. Users of this drug say that when they shoot heroin into their arm that it is the best feeling in the world.
I guess it just intrigues me that you could put a drug in that same emotional category as a woman would have for their new born baby, or how a husband loves their wife. Then I realized it isnāt the same. Their love for this drug is much deeper than that. They put this drug before their family, before living, breathing HUMAN people that care for them. And is it really their fault? Iām not so sure.
My best friend from elementary school is now addicted to heroin. I donāt even know how long itās been and I donāt even know how she is still alive. I first KNEW about it my junior year of high school. Weāre 21 now so thatās give or take a few months 4 years addicted. Iāve tried tough love; Iāve tried being her friend, a good influence, someone that wonāt judge her. Nothing is as strong as the relationship she has when that drug hits her. Iāve seen her nod off and sheāll just tell me sheās tired. I wish she wouldnāt lie to me. Iām not the person who would ever look down on someone for making a mistake.
Yes. A mistake. A single mistake. Thatās all it takes. Iām so sick of hearing about this being their own fault. That itās a self inflicted problem and not a disease.
Are you joking? So if thatās true than youāve never made a single mistake in your life? āOh but weāve had all the programs and we know what heroin does and we know we will be addicted for life we know what it does to people we know it kills peopleā
I donāt think itās so crazy to have a lapse in judgement and thing āI just donāt care, I want to dieā
Iāve felt that. Although Iāve never turned to drugs to cope with my depression, Iāve been there. Iāve felt hopeless. Fortunately enough I have the support and self worth to pick me back up on my feet and rationalize that itās not the solution.
Some people donāt have that. Some people donāt have people they feel they can depend on and the self esteem to pick them back up.
So how about instead of looking down on them as if their scum and be that support. Be the person that they can turn to when they feel like they have nobody. No, maybe you wonāt be able to get them away from the drugs but you could be the difference between a small shot to keep them from being sick then that person saying fuck it Iām doing the biggest shot and oding.
No one. And I mean NO ONE. Deserves to feel like that donāt have someone to fall back on. It could be the difference between life and death.
One of my best friends died of an OD when I was just 16, he was 15. He did a bunch of different drugs, I donāt remember which ones but one was heroin. I was so young. Staring at my close friend dead in a casket. And it didnāt even look like him. And he never even had a chance, he was so young when he started.
Was it still his fault that he was young and naive and 14 years old when someone handed him a little blue pill and said swallow this?
So he deserved to die because of that one mistake? That after that his brain was wired like a magnet to that high, after only weeks he couldnāt even go the day without it or he would be sick? His parents werenāt there for him, his friends werenāt there for him and itās something i always wish I could change. Maybe he wouldnāt have combined all those drugs together and died that night on his bedroom floor if someone would just listen.
The last time I talked to him he was dope sick and asking me for money to get drugs. Promising me it was one of the last times. That he just needed it to make the sickness stop and that heād go to rehab. I said no. Three days later he was dead.
Most addicts want help. Be that help. Donāt sit back and judge them for something you know nothing about. If you do then youāre the ignorant one and I pity you.
So this post started because I got annoyed watching intervention and 2/3 addicts on the shows I had watched had children. Themselves (the addicts )and their parents all said the same thing. ā they love their kids they would do anything for themā. In my head Iām just like. Anything. Doesnāt that include getting clean ??
I guess this post went in a completely different direction huh?
I guess that just proves my underlying point though, no love is stronger than that emotional and physical attachment to that horrible drug.
Make a difference, not judgements.
(Iām sure Iāve made spelling and grammar errors in this and usually Iām a nazi about that but youāll have to bare with me because this is too long to re-read on my phone and try to get my curser with my finger in the right spot to correct anything. )
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