Kai

18 | My life's an open book.

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No matter how hard I try in doing something, I always put my heart in to it but the sad thing is that, I'm still not good enough.

[mswhomustnotbenamed]

Unsent Letter

Dear You, Hi! Palabas lang ng feels! Wala akong mapagsabihan e. And then naalala ko na I used to send you letters like this when we're young. Pero kung dati binibigay ko, ngayon I just want to keep it to myself. I just don't feel like giving it to you. Well, I just want to congratulate you for your win on your sport. Galing mo! I've witnessed how you've started on this. Dati pa lang, alam kong magaling ka na. You owned this one. Kaya ngayon na may panibagong success ka, I know that you deserved it kasi you worked hard for it. I just wanna say that I'm so proud of you. Hindi ko man masabi sayo kasi ang dami nang bumabati sayo kaya di mo naman na mapapansin yung bati ko pero lagi akong natutuwa sa bawat panalo mo. Naalala mo nung kakasali mo pa lang sa college varsity team mo, sinabi ko sayo na one day you will be famous tapos di mo nako mapapansin? Tinawanan mo lang ako kasi ayaw mo maniwala. Then now, wow! Lumabas na pangalan mo sa dyaryo, napanood ka na sa tv, nafeature ka na din sa magazine ng university mo. Grabe! Ikaw na talaga! And I'm so proud kasi I was there nung nagsisimula ka pa lang. Hindi man kita nach-cheer ngayon, know that I will always be proud of you. I was once your goodluck charm and I'm grateful to have that chance but I know that you have already found your strength and inspiration that made you even better now. I am happy for you. And I hope for more victories to come. You deserve it. And once again, congratulations! With proud and love, Me

[mswhomustnotbenamed]

You really cannot please everybody

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Friends daw.

It sucks when someone befriend you because you have the capability to make them pass the exam. Its when you share a part of yourself and they chose to accept what’s beneficial for them. I want to ignore them but I chose not to. I want them to see that inspite all of it, I chose not to hate them. Although, I’m disappointed to some of them, I chose to move forward and let this pass. I want them to see their cruelty by letting karma do its magic. Though things will change between all of us, that’s for sure cause I don’t want to waste my time forcing them to accept me. I want to tell them all these but I chose to share it to you cause I know even if they’ll know, they still won’t give a damn about this for they’re cruel like that.

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[mswhomustnotbenamed]

Train to Busan Craze

Nung una talaga, ayaw kong panoorin yung train to busan. Medyo nacorny-han kasi ako kasi parang ordinary lang. Zombie chuchu and all. E syempre para sakin wala pa ding makakatalo sa TWD. Tapos napanood ko pa yung trailer, medyo natakot ako kasi parang mga may rabies yung zombie dun. Hanggang sa napilitan na akong panoorin kasi nga lagi nilang pinaguusapan tapos OP ako. Ayun, after kong mapanood, it’s not that bad naman. Medyo nabwisit lang ako sa nangyari sa bida. Pero ang pinakatumatak talaga sakin dun ay yung parang aning na gesture ng mga Zombie dun. Yung tipong pag naglakad sila, nauuna yung ulo. HAHAHA tapos kapag nakakakita talaga sila ng tao, yung ulo nila yung inuuntog nila dun sa salamin ng train. Na hindi sila marunong gamitin yung kamay nila. HAHAHA Takte pati ako nagagaya sa kanila. Nakakaaning. HAHA To the point na gusto ko nang magportray ng Zombie. HAHAHA

[mswhomustnotbenamed]

Hindi ko alam kung pano to nagsimula pero bigla na lang isang araw, ayoko nang masaktan. Hindi lang sa lovelife pero sa buhay mismo. Simula nang ‘ve naging 4th year college ako, I’ve had the glimpse of what real life is. How cruel people can be and how life is so unfair. From what I’ve experienced from the past months, I just want everything to fell numb. Nakakapagod din palang magexplain kapag walang gustong makinig. Nakakapagod ding magdefend nang sarili kapag sinarado na nila yung isip nila. To the point na I’m training myself not to feel anything. Most especially anger. Kasi wala ka namang karapatan. Kasi mas may alam sila sayo kaya wala ka nang choice kundi pakinggan sila at hayaang kung anong sa tingin nilang tama, yun na yun. Ang hirap. Minsan naiisip ko baka maging robot nako. HAHA ewan ko.

[mswhomustnotbenamed]

Don't save me for I don't need saving. I just need you to understand.

[mswhomustnotbenamed]

Sa dami nang nararamdaman ko, mas pinipili ko nalang wag maramdaman lahat. Mas madali, less hassle pa. Ang hirap kasing magkamali nang dahil lang sa pinairal mo yung nararamdaman mo. So to prevent that to happen, I chose to refrain myself from feeling anything.

[mswhomustnotbenamed]

Nakakalimot man ang isip, sa puso ko nandoon ka pa din.

[mswhomustnotbenamed]

Ni wala man lang nakamiss...

[mswhomustnotbenamed]

Just by thinking tumblr, your name started popping in my head.

[mswhomustnotbenamed]

Kamusta ka na kaya?

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Gusto mo ng pagbabago, pero nung dumating pilit mong ginagago.

[mswhomustnotbenamed]

Shut up ka na lang

May mga pagkakataon na mas mabuting manahimik na lang. Walang makakapgpabago sa isip ng isang mapanghusgang tao. Kahit anong paliwanag mo, kung ano man ang nasa isip nila, ganun ka. Magmumukha ka lang tanga kung magpipilit ka pa. Sa tuwing nangyayari sa akin to, isa lang ang nasa isip ko. "Ganyan talaga ang mga kontrabida, nabubuhay sila para pahirapan ang buhay ng mga bidang tulad mo. Tiis lang. Sa huli naman, lagi kang nanalo tapos sila, kung hindi namamatay, naloloka." Kaya chill ka lang! Sa una lang tayo natatalo. :)

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I always feel like i need someone but i don’t say it because i don’t want them to see me as a needy person and i want to show them that i don’t need anyone. But when someone’s there, i’ll only push them away. I’m afraid that once i’ll get used with their presence, it might be hard for me to let them go. Maybe the problem is me, i’m always afraid and i always think that people will just leave anytime.

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What is love po para sayo ?

God.

[mswhomustnotbenamed]

Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero kinikilig talaga ako sa lalaking nakawacky pose! Ugh.