2014

Just a journal, really. Enjoy.

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Sigh I'm so stupid. I should've known I was just a hook up lol well not like I was expecting much I thought you were a more reserved person. I thought maybe you wouldn't be the type to hook up just to get your rocks off. I was wrong lol I'm not mad I just wish I knew ahead of time so I knew what to expect tbh. I'm cool with hook ups when it's mutually agreed. It's just fair so I know to protect myself So I wouldn't spend the day thinking about stupid stuff like cuddling lol

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Just more updates on my life

We are NRG was really good. It's the first time in a while that I had that much fun at an event. Where do I even start?

I went with Mai Tan and Mimi. This was Mimi's first event with us and I'm so glad she had a good time. Even though I ditched everyone like half an hour in haha

I got to wander again! I loved it. I met so many people I knew, people I haven't even seen in over three years.

Kenny was someone I knew from open gym volleyball and he looks good. He had an amazing group of friends and they were all very good looking haha They were super chill and had a good time. I kicked it with them for the most part. Kenny said that I looked good, I got fit and buffer and that made my night.

I also saw Potek, Lien, James, and Andrew throughout the night. 

I also randomly found Danny (bui)! Or well he was the one who recognized me haha. he was honestly really cute. He grabbed my hands and raised them together and i was blushing LOL i'm so lame. This was the first time I held hands with a guy at a rave okay so leave me alone. I asked to dance but he said nah lol oh wells. One day I'll be able to go to a rave with someone that likes me :3

I also have somehow found myself stuck in between some drama. I don't even know how I got myself into this mess sigh. 

The night of NRG I apologized to Danny (khoa nguyen) for what happened at the party. We were both fucked up so he said that it's not a problem. Then the day after I was talking to Kevin and it came up and I told him about it. And then all hell broke loose. LOLjk Danny hit me up later that day asking if I told kevin about what happened. Apparently Danny has this huge crush on Kevin and blah. 

I've just been chatting with Kevin all week and iunno, it was nice to just have someone to talk to on the daily. Just harmless banter and maybe a little flirting haha but I never expected anything out of it yannoe But now that I know Danny has this crush, i feel weird. But Danny also sort of gave up on Kevin and I think it's all my fault. Sigh. I don't even know how I get myself involved in these things. 

I kind of really want to go to Adventure club now, but Mai doesn't. AND FUHHH I just checked and they're sold out fml

I still have 420 fest and Armin only though!

I want to meet up with more people from tumblr at a rave :3 Anyone going to those? :D

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tbt

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When I used to be 120 lbs lol

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Blurry pictures for a blurry night cuz we look like hot messes lol #nrg #bassjackers #audien #W&W #ilostthemhalfanhourinlolol #mettonsofpeople #newfriends

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Why are oreos so gooodddd ugh I'm suppose to be eating healthy T.T

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If I lose myself tonight It’ll be you and I If I lose myself tonight It’ll be by your side

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Tori Kelly | Dear No One

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XX Angels combined with TLC No Scrubs by Bastille…wow

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Why’d You Only Call Me When You’re High? by The Arctic Monkeys // This is layered so that the right ear plays before the left to make a round.

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LOVE

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Sometimes I come home from a long day and just collapse onto my bed and play out this scene:

I come home, fall onto my bed and yell out, “babe I’m home, come give me a kiss pleaseeee. HURRY I’M DYING. Help, only a true loves kiss can save me now” something whiney and stupid along those lines.

He comes and gives me a kiss and I latch onto him for dear life. 

Him: “Babe, I got work to do, let me go” 

Me: “Nope!”

He tries for a few minutes to break free, but I’m stronger so he just gives up. Kisses my cheek and ruffles my hair.

Me: “This happens every time and yet you keep falling for it”

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I just want to wrap myself in this song and sleep away my anxieties. 

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I finally got it! Just looking back a couple years ago, I can’t believe how much I’ve grown and its mind blowing to think that I am where I am today. (None of which was possible without my closest friends) so I just had to take a Polaroid to document this part of my life.

Thank you tan for indirectly making this possible. Money isn’t something I can keep and cherish, but every time I look in the mirror ill be reminded of how much we’ve been through together and how much more to come.

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Spring break motherfuckers

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Long overdue update. Setting up alarms did help me a lot. I actually exercised, and went to sleep early. The only thing is, it only lasted two weeks lol. The problem is that spring break came, and I didn't feel like doing shit anymore. I'd come home from work and just lay in bed all day. The only reason I stuck to my routine before was because throughout the whole day, I'm productive. So when I get home, its not hard to continue being productive. Whereas, this whole week, I've been in bed for hours, and don't feel like getting up anymore lol. Tan finally got his fafsa money and he gave me 200. I didn't want to take the money, but he really wanted to pay me back. I can understand the feeling. I didn't know what to do with the money because I felt that it was such a waste to just spend it on food, yannoe? This was something that had meaning. So I decided to use the money to finally get myself a new piercing. I've been meaning to get my eyebrows pierced for the longest time. I was debating getting my lips at the same time, but I wanted to eat comfortably this weekend since were going camping for tans birthday. School and work are just as usual. Nothing new or special. I just need to pick it up on studying though. Its already half way through the semester! Pretty excited about the prospect of summer. I've been loving my relationship with Mai lately, but I also realized that I'm also unsatisfied with it. I love where we are, but I'm starting to depend on her too much. Were both pretty busy people. We hang out almost weekly, but there are other things I want to do and she's too busy. She wants to do them with me, but she just honestly doesn't have the time. I need find a new person. I've just gotten too comfortable with always having Mai that I haven't been trying to make close friendships with anyone else. Its just so hard to find someone as compatible with me as Mai is lol I just gotta find a new friend but that's harder than it sounds. I just don't meet new people that often anymore. All the parties I go to are sort of with the same people. I might just end up trying to do these activities by myself. I don't really need company to go kayaking, but it'd be nice yannoe? I made an okcupid account recently lol I made it on a whim, but its pretty cool. I love reading some of the profiles. It makes me want to become a better person. Its helped me realize that I want to experience the gay scene, but I just don't have time for it. The gay scene is honestly just fun and its not necessary to my life. If I had more gay friends, it'd be more in my life, but I don't. I also don't think id fit in. But its definitely nice to think about. I live vicariously through those that I follow on instagram lol I think that'd all for now. Ill post a picture of the new piercing when I can get a good enough picture of it lol