[muychulx-blog]

this is suuuuper personal but i dont know where to put it—im having an outbreak rn (just connected the dots, i take daily antivirals so its not fucking awful) and i just read colds and hormone changes can trigger them....i’ve had BOTH because i was off t for almost a month after having a ridiculously high count and then my immune system has been a little down because i was (am) a little stressed out and wasnt getting enough sleep (and i got a cold)

fucked up! on this note, im happy about the fact that “awareness” means i have access to this drug that makes it bearable, but really mad that “awareness” = stigma in reality

[muychulx-blog]

long gap update

finally made my doctors appointment to get a physical to get a referral to get top surgery. i weigh 126 pounds, my bmi is around 22 i think, and my blood pressure was 109/70. However my testosterone level was at 1196, and so i reaaaally need to decrease my dosage. but i was finally starting to see some hair changes so im kind of sad about it.

[muychulx-blog]

missed my physical when i was home-insurance needs a primary care physician to give me a referral to continue on and get surgery 🙃

so, lookin at surgery this winter potentially (hopefully)

[muychulx-blog]

pre and post shave :-) (9ish months on T)

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its been a real long three days of being told i look 13 :/

[journeyintomanhood]

Top Surgery Recovery Supplies List (so far)

So this is the list I have so far of what I think I’ll need for top surgery recovery. Let me know if I’m missing anything? What did you find essential? 

Medical Things: 

Anti-Bacterial Soap for the shower before surgery 

Laxatives 

Latex Gloves 

Gravol 

Gauze pads 

Clothing: 

Loose Button Downs

Loose Zip Up Hoodie 

Sweats 

Shoes I can slip on easily 

Post-Op Vest 

Food: 

Stuff for fruit smoothies 

Gatorade 

Protein Bars 

Soda Crackers 

Ginger Ale 

Stuff for Spaghetti 

Soup 

Other: 

Throat Lozenges 

Lots of Pillows 

Bendy Straws 

[transandtransplant]

Top Surgery Packing List: Yes's, no's, and stuff you might want to get.

Hey cuties!

Alex is almost three weeks post-op, and among other things, that means we have had plenty of time to mull over a partial packing list for you interested folks!

Please keep in mind that this list is by no means comprehensive, and each person’s needs will vary some. We’re just trying to give you an idea of the things we a) brought and totally used, b) brought and didn’t use at all, and c) didn’t bring, and ended up needing. Also, keep in mind that many of the medical supplies we ended up needing may be specific to and vary among surgeons. We worked with Paul Steinwald (currently at Lake Forest Plastic Surgery, but moving soon to the Denver area), so the things we will mention are things we needed for Alex’s after care as instructed by our surgeon. If anything we list is unclear in description or reasoning, please send us a message and we will clear it up for you!

All that said, here comes the list:

Things We Brought and DEFINITELY Needed: -pillows(as many as you can) and blanket from home -first aid kit (including, but not limited to: large gauze pads, teeny gauze pads, box of many latex-free plastic gloves, medical scissors, paper-type medical tape, etc (post forthcoming about our aftercare first aid box)) -applesauce in squeeze pouches (Alex basically lived off this stuff for the first two days) -your other favorite “oh shit, I’m sick” foods -BENDY STRAWS! ALL HAIL THE BENDY STRAWS! -a tray table for sitting in bed -button up shirts and sweat pants/gym shorts, also flip flops and many socks -ibuprofen -stool softener -a pill sorter and a notebook to keep track of what/when he took -a towel that you really like from home -(not really a thing we brought, but a thing we planned for by getting a room with two beds) your own space, having a designated safe space where he felt comfortable really helped Alex relax. -money for delivery -iPad for Netflix and video updates -hand sanitizer

Things We Brought and Didn’t Use: -homework (you might be different, but he was way too tired and I was way too busy) -any shirts without buttons, and pants with them -sneakers (for him) -throat spray

Things We Didn’t Bring (or Didn’t Bring Enough) and Wound Up Needing: -6" ace wraps with Velcro closure (they gave us two, but ooze and other nastiness happens, and washing those suckers is a pill) -fan and heating blanket (Alex found that he was very sensitive to temperature changes) -benadryl (NOTE: MAKE SURE to tell your surgeon if you have ANY reaction to adhesives such as the ones on band-aids! Watch Alex’s video updates if you would care to see why.) -MOAR gauze pads, ibuprofen -alcohol prep wipes (we were given some at the hospital, they really make emptying the drains and accompanying tubing much easier) -MANY MOAR clean gym shorts and button-ups -wheelchair (we ended up renting one from a local medical supply store because we were going stir crazy, but walking around was still pretty cumbersome and uncomfortable for Alex) -Again, not a thing, but I cannot stress how much easier it will make things for the caretaker to have a second person there to help with the recovery, especially if staying close to home isn’t an option for you. Alex and I made it work, partially with ingenuity, and partially with plain stubbornness, but having a second (stronger!) person would have really helped. - quarters for the hotel’s guest laundry

That’s all we’ve got for now, but if we think of any more, we will certainly amend the list!

As always, feel free to ask any and all questions,

-A&L-

[djcoulz]

Hi, I've been following you on Tumblr (and even DeviantArt) for quite some time and have asked you things about drawing and boxing before, so I won't apologize for bothering you, as you were always super nice and helpful and willing to answer before. I'm supposed to get surgery in about a year and was just wondering how much it hurt, how is everyday life after with the wounds and how to deal with the aftereffects. If you could answer, it would mean a lot. Thank you so much in advance.

Of course, no reason to apologize, Ilike being bothered. I’m glad I was helpful before.

Well first off I had my surgery Tuesthe 18th. So it’s only been alittle over a week since my surgery.So far it’s not so bad, keep in mind I have a very high paintolerance and I didn’t have alot of medical stuff to work againstlike I don’t bruise easy and I heal pretty quick and all that soI’m blessed there. I also had most of my chest removed, if you’redoing keyhole I’m sure it’s a lot more minor on the recovery, this isjust based on mine.

Okay here are some of the major tips Ican give;

Keep reading

[fuckyeahlgbtqartists]

There are the facts of what happened, but the story is in parts. It is still hard to capture the salty terror of the worst of it, the freeze, the split: how I lost a body, or how I conflated the two ways my body was lost to me.

I was born female, that’s a fact. I saw myself as a boy, but that made a certain kind of sense. It wasn’t until much later that the complex facts of my anatomy needled at me. Later, people would say that my manhood was always there, blueprinted in my torn-knee jeans, my He-Man castle, my short hair. Maybe that’s true, but let’s not make this the kind of story where I know all the answers.

What you need to know is that afterwards, I’d read a book in my bathtub, and my little legs, hands, torso would return to me eventually, and that was what it meant to be alive: clean and immersed in a library book I could make sense of, breathing in the sharp smell of soap, touching the warm boundary of my skin to the scratchy bottom of the tub.

READ THE REST OF THE EXCERPT HERE

[midnight-femme-deactivated20201]

“oh i love your name” “thanks i picked it out myself” is an A+ trans joke 

[eearth-deactivated20180601]

I’ve grown and I’m still growing. I’m more myself every day. I can’t wait to meet myself tomorrow, next week, next month, next year. I can’t wait to see how I’ve transformed, what I’ve become. 

[muychulx-blog]

aaaaaaa shit big update : im able to get top surgery covered up to $10,000 by my moms insurance! i've already found a surgeon and had a virtual consult, now i just have to sort out my insurance stuff im thinking of having surgery over winter break, but honestly now that i've decided to go home instead of burningg myself out working and taking summer classes, i might go earlier ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[muychulx-blog]

ALSO i got my new social security card!!! we'll see when i have a chance to go and get my new license :))))

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my t levels are really good my doctor says i think i was just adjusting to having levels that arent through the roof im less emotional now im also getting real fuzzy and this wednesday im six months on t!

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think my t levels might be low...i've been emotional as hell guess i'll find out when they process my latest blood sample!

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i missed my shot for a week over spring break and its fucked me up emotionally i've been crying so much im so sad and i dont know why i think its hormones but i guess we'll see

[muychulx-blog]

aaaaaaaa (0 months vs 4 months on T)