I Ignore..
Ever so often my fathers bestfriend calls. I wouldnt even say once a month.. but its often enough. And alot of the times, I ignore the call. You see.. my father is gone.. and when his bestfriend calls, it reminds me of something that I don’t have. A piece of my being that will never return.
So I ignore the call.
I ignore because it hurts to answer
I ignore because it causes cancer
I ignore eventhough my father would hate it
I ignore because to answer will remind me of the faded.
I ignore because I barely know you
I ignore because you are too kind and i could never repay what I owe you.
I ignore, even though I understand
I ignore. You still call. Proving you are more of a man than I am.
I ignore because if I don’t i’ll have to face this
I ignore because nothing in my face will replace this.
I ignore you because.. see.. my phone is wet right now.
I ignore you because HE can’t take the next flight down.
I ignore you.. eventhough you are God willing.
I ignore you.. cuz i’ve ignored my own feelings.
I’m sorry.
Please forgive me.
All of the above is true.
Because in another life, if you were me,
you’d ignore you too.
