My Cuckold Journal

My fiancée and I have a loving and adventurous cuckold relationship. I love DMs and Asks. This is an authentic, real-time blog, so posts will come irregularly as we have new experiences.

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My blog kinda blew up over the past 48 hours with a big influx of new followers. So I thought I should give a brief intro to the new folks.

Welcome!

My name is David and my fiancée is Michelle. For the past 6 years of our 8-year relationship, we’ve enjoyed deeply exploring the world of cuckolding.

We got started during the pandemic. At that time, Michelle and I were doing a long-distance relationship. We lived 2,300 miles apart and took turns flying to see each other every month for 4 days to a week at a stretch.

When pandemic lockdowns happened, we went 7 months without seeing each other. Michelle has a very high sex drive, so I offered to her that she could have an encounter with a trusted male friend with whom we’d previously had a threesome. They indulged, and when the sky didn’t fall afterward I told her they could keep seeing each other for sex while I was out of town.

Immediately after the ongoing sexual arrangement began, our male friend took on the behaviors or a Bull. Michelle and I both found ourselves surprisingly turned on by that kind of interaction, and things progressed from there.

At this point we’ve had 5 serious Bulls, one for 18 months. We’ve explored many aspects of cuckolding. It’s been wildly fulfilling and has brought us closer together with iron-clad trust.

So enjoy my writings and the photos I post. I never post Michelle’s face and I always censor her tattoos. If you ever figure out who she is somehow, please don’t contact her. This blog is my outlet for expression and my emotional safety valve. Michelle deeply values her privacy and has stated she’ll make me pull the blog if readers end up in her DMs. Nobody wants that.

I’ll note that this is a real-time blog. Posts come irregularly as we have new experiences. Sometimes the men disappoint, or dates fall through. Sometimes we don’t have a Bull, and action-packed updates don’t happen for a while. I only post our personal experiences; I never reblog other people’s content.

Feel free to use the Ask function and feel free to ask anonymously if that’s your preference.

Again, welcome! I hope you enjoy the ride.

Also, look how fucking hot Michelle is 🥵

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It's hot to see Michelle's repertoire expand to multiple doms and the dominatrix role. Do you expect she'll bring out the cage tonight when she goes out with Daniel?

I’m loving watching her grow and explore!

I’m not expecting the cage tonight. Daniel dates tend to be less involved. He’s not as interactive as Doug, and Michelle is more mellow when he’s involved.

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A message from Michelle on International Whores’ Day

“‘Come hither; I will shew unto thee the judgment of the great whore that sitteth upon many waters: With whom the kings of the earth have committed fornication, and the inhabitants of the earth have been made drunk with the wine of her fornication.’

On International Whores' Day, I give tribute to the Great Whore of Babylon, personification of man's basic needs, desires, and pleasures. Today let's uplift and validate all the professional whores out there that face discrimination, violence, deplatforming, and moral persecution because they provide for us all that which makes us most human.”

#InternationalWhoresDay

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Michelle has a solo date night with Daniel tomorrow evening! I’m going to ask her to take a special picture as an anniversary present to me. It can be an action shot or even just a bathroom mirror selfie in the aftermath.

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What if I wanted to hire Michelle’s dominatrix services?

DM me. But before you do, some things to know

Serious inquires only! This is a serious job for her.

She works out of one location and it’s in the Northeast of the US. She doesn’t travel to clients.

Her personal rate is $250 an hour plus there’s a facility use fee for the dungeon.

She’s not interested in talking about her personal life, and she will block anyone who goes down that road. So she won’t be talking about the blog, her cuckolding experiences, etc.

Again: serious inquiries only.

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Texting with Daniel last night about Michelle’s rapid success as a Dominatrix. I’m in blue.

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Michelle’s client as a Dominatrix last night night flew all the way in from Kansas City (we’re located on the East coast) to see her. He’s planning a second trip to see her next month.

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Today is me & Michelle’s eight-year anniversary! Six of those years have involved cuckolding on a nearly ongoing basis.

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Michelle last night before her Dominatrix session.

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I have a painful crush on Michelle.. 😅

I come to look at her pictures every day

I totally understand, haha! I still get butterflies when I see her and it will be 8 years tomorrow that we’ve been a couple. Even though I see her every day, I still also look at her pictures every day. She’s very crush-worthy.

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Michelle 🥵

Photo taken for a lucky man (not me)

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As of this evening, Michelle is currently scheduled to see 6 clients as a Dominatrix over the next 2 weeks. She’s averaging $500–$750 a session so far. This all on top of her decent paying full-time job. I wish I had a marketable skill, haha!

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Which one of you first broached the topic of cuckolding? How was it brought up?

Neither, it just kinda happened, haha.

Here’s the backstory: It was peak pandemic. Michelle and I were living on opposite sides of the US and because of flight restrictions we hadn’t seen each other in over 6 months.

Michelle expressed to me feeling very sexual frustrated. I had the idea of her having a one-time fling with Chris, a mutual guy friend with whom we’d already had a drunken threesome once before.

She was skeptical. Would I really be okay with her having a solo sexual fling with another man? I promised her it would be fine. I trusted her fully and I knew Chris wasn’t a man she’d want a relationship with. Would I experience some jealousy? I figured yeah, probably, but I wasn’t expecting to be hurt by it. The problem with infidelity for me had always been the dishonesty, not the sex.

Chris, to no surprise, was thrilled by the idea when Michelle brought it up to him.

So, the big night came and went. I experienced some gnawing jealousy but it was nothing serious. Then Michelle texted me. She asked a question I never expected: “Want to see a picture?” I told her yes. She sent me a selfie. It was her, but her makeup was a little runny and her hair was a total mess.

I felt a jolt I’d never felt before. The picture was sexy and fascinating. I stared at it for a long time, pondering what it meant.

The next night, as Michelle and I debriefed about the encounter, I told her that she could keep seeing Chris for sex while we were stranded apart. She seemed cautious but grateful. I next jumped on a video call with Chris and we talked over expectations and boundaries, and after that I green flagged the arrangement.

They started regular (1–2x weekly) hookups after that. Almost immediately, maybe the third time they hooked up, Chris started texting me, bragging about the things he was doing with Michelle: how he was fucking her, how she responded to him, etc. He also sent me several pictures of her. It was boastful and cocky.

Michelle found herself very surprised but absolutely thrilled by this behavior. She found it very sexy. As it turned out, I was digging it, too. She started getting in on the action of telling me juicy details about their encounters and sending me pictures. I absolutely loved it.

We eventually put a name to this dynamic: cuckolding. We called it “soft cuck play,” and between the two of us decided it was something fun and exciting that was contributing to our bond with each other. There wasn’t teasing and taunting yet. No power exchange. No chastity. Just sharing details and being aroused by it.

Chris eventually flamed out. He caught major feelings for Michelle, was dishonest with both of us about how he felt, then got cryptically drunk, showed up at her place, and blew up at her verbally before driving off. That was the end of things with Chris.

We promptly decided that we wanted to explore more of the cuckolding dynamic. We established a dating profile on SwingLifeStyle, and within a couple weeks we found Jason. Jason would be our first serious Bull, and would be an ongoing part of our lives for the next year and a half.

And that’s how it happened!

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Okay but how do I find a woman who’s into cuckolding in the first place? 😕

I have no idea, haha. This dynamic was never my goal, and cuckolding was not originally my idea. When Michelle and I met, we were both monogamous people. If she had brought up cuckolding in the first year of our relationship, I’d have been in despair.

If I was newly single, and I knew I wanted cuckolding to be a part of my life, I’d probably start with dating sites that cater to alternative relationship structures, like Feeld or SwingLifeStyle. I’d even try FetLife, even though it isn’t really a dating site. I’d also immerse myself in social scenes where I’d be more likely to meet women with non-traditional views on sexuality.

For any man trying to meet women in any romantic or sexual capacity, the trick is to bring stuff to the table. I don’t mean six-pack abs and a 6-figure salary, or the other nonsense the manosphere has convinced men that women want. I mean depth of character. Strong ethics. Respect. Kindness. Commitment to a collaborative effort. Humor. Personal drive. Especially if you want to incorporate cuckolding, you as the man are going to want to be a pillar of stability and genuine support in the relationship. It’s the only way she’s going to feel safe exploring as high-risk a dynamic as cuckolding.

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Unbelievable. Michelle is so much hotter than I realized. You get to be cuckolded by a literal nude model & dominatrix. 🤯 Advice for us wannabes?

Michelle is my fantasy woman and I’m newly blown away by her beauty every single day. I still have a crush on her after 8 years and I still get butterflies when her name pops up on my phone, or when I first glimpse her in the morning.

The main prerequisites that I’ve found are key to a successful cuckolding relationship are

Radically open communication. Nothing can be off limits.

Complete emotional honesty.

A relationship that is basically rock solid, except maybe for the sexual component.

Cuckolding can definitively help your sex life (depending on how you define a good sex life) but it will not help a relationship that is rocky on other grounds. I strongly discourage any form of non-monogamy when the relationship has preexisting issues.

The rest really varies by couple. Clearly, as a baseline, the woman needs to be open to sexual experiences outside the relationship and the man needs both to be OK with that and to be able to process and enjoy the storm of emotions that cuckolding creates.

From that starting point it’s a matter of experimentation and debriefing with each other. What worked? What isn’t working? What are everyone’s fantasies? What are their boundaries? Fantasies and boundaries need to be talked about calmly and completely on an ongoing basis because they will shift over time, and they might shift at different rates for the man and the woman of the couple. How does the couple compromise when there’s a fantasy-boundary misalignment?

There’s a million considerations.

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Can you show us one of Michelle’s modeling pics?

Here are several.

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Holy shit .. that last picture of Michelle. 🥵 She should be a model FR!

Right??

Michelle has been doing nude and fetish modeling for almost 20 years now! 🙂