Just Need Support Please
So this is just a little bit about whats been going on im my life and why I haven't been active. My Grandpa was in the hospital the past month and on my birthday (July 10) we were told he wasn't going to make it. Best Birthday gift ever right?(Pure and Utter Sarcasm and Sorrow right there) Well we prayed and prayed and hoped for a miracle but sadly it didn't work. He passed away Yesterday (July 13, 2016 at 6:42 pm) and I am devastated. My Grandfather is my heart and soul. He is my role model and everything I want to be in life. And he is gone. Then it hits me while consulting with my aunt. I have never met my biological dad or ever talked to him in my entire life. And now his father just died. My Grandpa. He was notified and will be attending the funeral more than likely. Im attending the funeral. I am meeting my dad for the very first time in my life ONLY BECAUSE OF A FUCKING FUNERAL! No i couldn't have met him because he wanted to. He never wanted to. Now he is going to be forced to look his beautiful 17 year old daughter in the face for the first time while she is crying over her dead Grand Father, who at least put in an effort to stay in my life. So many feelings at this moment are bottled up inside me. I am in great grief and sorrow about my grandpa but at the same time so much anger and hatred for my father. All I can do at this point is watch @therealjacksepticeye and @markiplier videos and looking at a lot of @cartoonjunkie artwork and just try so hard not to cry again and again. I have to find a dress for the funeral and I have to fix my car so I can travel all the way back to my home town and visit everyone and make sure my Grand Mother is doing ok and all my Aunts and Uncles and I just have to be strong. I have to be the strong one this time. I really just need someone to hold me. I really just need something happy in my life right now. I need sleep. Im sorry.
