Im not going to read that post but from what I’ve heard:
It is vile to post private messages (especially cherry-picked messages and not showing the part where I was egged on and encouraged to think and say these things), vile to pull people in who were never involved in this whole stupid mess.
I spent over a year in this fandom staying out of drama and just enjoying things, until I fell in with those three. When I was caught up with them, I admit that at the time they felt rational and persuasive and I’m so ashamed to have been caught up and actively participating in the conversations with them. They created an atmosphere of extreme paranoia, suspicion, and negativity. I’m already sending out apologies to anyone exposed in those screenshots because it’s unfair and ugly. Even though those were messages I sent MONTHS ago, and were all things I stopped thinking the second I put my phone down and realized what was happening and was thinking for myself. I’ve learned my lesson and will never take a step near people like that ever again, because this whole thing is not worth it. I do NOT like the person I was this summer, when Bookie and Alyssa kept trying to pull me into their drama and shit-talk the whole fandom, and I’m so happy I was able to extract myself from them eventually and go back to focusing on the friendships and sweet creators who have never made me feel this way (aka everybody else).
This whole thing is just one huge misunderstanding. I tried extracting myself, went to blocking last week. I don’t and never have had problems with any other creators or people in this fandom, and these girls have had multiple problems with multiple people. After being caught up with them, even for a short while, I see how easy it is to view others in the fandom in that way and they’ve never made it out of their narrow mindset.
And FINALLY, I’m sure it goes without saying because you all know me. But I have never used anyone in this fandom for an ego boost, I’ve never just enjoyed attention people give me nor have I ever taken it for granted. I love coming on and seeing what people post and hyping them up, and sharing my own brainrot. Sometimes I can be insecure about stats, who isn’t? I’ve even made posts being open and honest about how I feel on my blog in the hopes it could help someone else feel better or less alone with those thoughts, it’s not a secret that I get those insecurities sometimes. I apologized to the other girl about what had happened before, and I realized where I had gone wrong. I’m not perfect, but I’m also not the evil person being portrayed in those posts.
I never named names publicly or told ANYONE what was happening until yesterday. I’ve never sent people to harass, and I don’t agree with sending death threats or harassing in any way. But these girls have extreme hatred latched onto me, and I’ve just been so uncomfortable and overwhelmed with it for so long.