Posts About Nothing

My everday thoughts on whatever crosses my mind at the moment

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Why now

Literally why? With all the shit that’s happening in one side, it’s the worst thing that could have happened on the other

I just wanted to go watch a movie, man

Love is bullshit, relationships are crap

Life is 

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Despite me saying I hated relationships, I ended up in one.

Fucking hell, hurts more than it should and for longer than I would have thought

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It’s been that kinda weekend. IDK

Everytime I take one step towards graduating somethings happens and I end up taking three steps forward

Everytime

My sleep schedule is crap, again, as always

I just need to know if I passed, I really don´t want to stay in school for one more semester

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I’m worried

5 daya till my exam and I’m pretty sure I don’t know anything relating to the subject 

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Just watched Wonder Woman

Damn DC needed that. I was ready to call time of death on the DCEU so I'm glad it's showing signs of life, I can only hope all subsequent movies are just as good if not better than this one. Why do Amazons wear platforms though? Doesn't it go against their whole message? They don't seem even remotely fit for a fight, weird little thing bothered me during the entire movie Having said that, BvS isn't that bad, keeping the ultimate cut in mind

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At the rate I´m studying, I’m never gonna finish in time for my final

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It’s gonna be that kind of week

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My generation’s pre party was on saturday

I don’t know why that’s a thing, but I digress. I did have fun, and I proved just how little tolerance I have for alcohol (I don’t drink, usually).

I didn’t have that much to drink and I couldn’t even stand up straight, luckily I didn’t barf so that’s good. Plus no hangover (fuck yeah)

Bad news tho, since I’m not really used to being drunk, I have little self control, case in point: I kissed two girls in very public places. The first one is my best friend (we’ve had some casual encounters in the past) nothing serious, but it’s supposed to be a secret and I’m pretty sure someone had to had seen us (oops)

But the real problem was the second girl, she’s been one of my crushes for a while (yay!). See, she playfully and drunkenly pushed me into the pool since I didn’t want to go in (she’s half my size, yeah right) and we got kinda very close to each other, and maaaaaybe one of my hands slipped a bit too low on her back, and I’m not even sure which one of us started it but I do remember that we said we were each others crushes (yay x2)

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But this ain’t a Disney channel show, it’s never that easy. See, what’s been killing me for the past couple of days is that she has a boyfriend (fuck me, I’m that guy) and he was there, just a couple meters away from us (fuck me x2) oh, and someone had to had seen us (god damnit)

I’ve been wanting that kiss for a while, but damnit not like that, I’ve never felt such a weird combination of guilt and happiness.

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We went out a few days ago

We’ve never been more than friends, even though I’ve  felt something towards her for the past three years.

But sunday was different, I didn’t get that ususal feeling, I figured maybe it’s beacuse of this girl I’ve been seeing, but to be completely honest with myself, I’m just not feeling it with her, she’s nice and all, but relationships are just so... ugh.

But hey, I’m finally over her, she’s still one of my favorite people, she’s still a wonderfull person, weird as only herself, but It’s been long enough and I’m glad it’s over, it’s time for a new type of relationship between us, one with out expectations. A friend like everyone else

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On Religion

You know, I don’t like religion. I remember when I was young, about 12 o 13 years old, just started discovering my sexuality and guess what? I hated it. I felt horrible about it. (But that’s a topic for another day) Why? Because I was raised catholic, and the church said I wasn’t supposed to enjoy it. Fast forward a few years and I see so much hatred on the news, radical groups against homosexuality, against whole countries. Why? Because religion. Don’t get me wrong, I know being religious doesn’t automatically make anyone a radical extremist, I do however hope that these people are only the very vocal minority out of all religious groups.

But still, I don’t like religion, so many musturbatory thoughts, dogmas, rules, which for the most part are so out dated it makes me wonder why people don’t question their religions more, I mean they can’t be that scared, can they?

It does, however, make me think about my own faith. See, I believe in people, I think the quintessential quality of a human being is their inherently good nature. Some people laugh when I say it, thinking the exact opposite is very popular these days, a lot of hatred going around, so much evidence to the contrary: Presidents fueled by corruption and fear, groups threatening to start WWIII, discrimination running rampant, etc. I can see why it’s so easy to believe we’re such a horrible species

So why is my faith so unshakable? Because a wise man once said:

“Just because someone stumbles and loses their path, doesn't mean they're lost forever.”

I couldn’t have put it better myself. We’re taught to fear and hate what’s different from the moment we’re born, it’s a survival mechanism, it kept us safe back when we couldn’t even talk. Thankfully now we can, we can communicate, we can settle our differences, we can tolerate. And I think that’s the key. Tolerance. I don’t like religion, yet I can see its benefits, I understand why people identify with one and I’m not going to try and convince anyone to leave theirs, all I ask is that we all try to tolerate whatever may seem scary or different at first glance. Who are we to judge what other do, think, or feel? Live and let live, right?