I haven't used this in such a long time I doubt anyone's gonna read this but I gotta get some shit off my chest... im so fuckin alone in this world I'm really sick of my life. I used to have so much fun then I grew up and lost everybody.. literally. One real friend after another til there was none left. The friends I have now pretty much in all reality don't give a fuck about me. Everybody I know is all for themselves and personal gain. I grew up thinking that one day I was gonna at least have two or three people that genuinely gave any fucks about me but I was wrong. Girls wont give me the time of day... I never been in a relationship in my life. The closest thing I ever had to that was a girl a dated in my freshman year of high school for two weeks that cheated on me lol. I try to get in contact with my old friends and they straight ignore me.. never in my life did I do something to fuck a friend over or stab them in the back I've always been a very loyal person and I guess that's truly my downfall. All this time I spend alone I can't help but think back to all the fucked up unfortunate things that's gone on in my life.. a lot of petty bullshit drama all caused by the people I've surrounded myself with. Never did I ever think I'd be sitting here writing this right now. I'm honestly fucked up. I seek out help to get no answer or to be told to stop being a bitch. I guess that just shows the kinda people that's always been around me. I just need someone to cut me some slack. That's all. I don't need kind words I just need actions to prove that there's at least some decency left out there... somewhere. I think I'm just rambling at this point. If you read this far just know I appreciate you. Matter of fact if you read any of this at all just know I appreciate you for the simple fact that you took any time out of your life to acknowledge how I feel on the inside. Because at the end of the day I really don't know anyone that cares enough to know those things. I'm done