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Married ♡ I love you ♡ DNI unless my beautiful wife

[mywifewilleatyou]

V / 20 / he/him

❤️ @inyourmurderfantasy is my forever. She is who I hold the closest to my heart, who I love beyond everything; we are together for eternity. ❤️

Nev is mine, and I am his > I love you

~ Everyone else DNI :)

Us!!! ☀️🌙

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Tags!!

#esther coded - Esther OC

#v's blabbering ♡ - random text posts by me

#nev ♡ - for/about Nev

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#asyleep - Asyl

#rebbb - Eric

#barko - Barkovitch

#andyg🪦 - Andrew

#seo - Moon-jo

#sm - Sebastian

#gri - Grian

#dw - Dean

#dek - Dek

#00132 - In-ho

#jg - Johnnie

#FordP - Stanford

#BOOSH - Wendy

#Glit - Glitter

#es - Esther

#jt - Jayce

#tt - Thanos

[mywifewilleatyou]

I'm not parasocial, you are

I am, however, really tired

[mywifewilleatyou]

Where would my life be if I had a normal fucking family

[mywifewilleatyou]

If you loved me you'd post about me directly on your main account like you do your private one ://

[mywifewilleatyou]

Reposting/posting on the account where you have mutuals :// cause you hate me

[twiggy-boy]

You know, every time I draw something stupid, I think to myself "surely I can't top this!" And then somehow I draw something even dumber

Edit: NOOO NOO WHY IS THIS GETTING NOTES??? STOP IT!! ONLY LIKE 10 PEOPLE WERE SUPPOSED TO SEE THIS AND THEN ID BURY IT UNDER MY REPOSTS NOOO

[mywifewilleatyou]

Hard to restock the cakes when it makes you hard lol.

[sunthoon]

Project Hail Mary fans after finishing the book and the movie

[mywifewilleatyou]

I think sleep will fix me it's just when am I physically able to sleep

[mywifewilleatyou]

Pt3 dont read

I'm really tired, can't eat, can't sleep

I don't wanna exist

Tuesday. Tuesday..

Wednesday I have to go out with dad for his birthday

Thursday I have to travel and be around people

Friday I come home

Saturday, Sunday I work and I might not keep the job even so whats the point

What's the point in any of it?

[mywifewilleatyou]

Anotha one

Don't read

I just cant sleep, meeting in 2hrs 20... waking up in an hr 20, 30 mins of sleep max since about 4pm Saturday and I'm so paranoid and so hot and thirsty but my brain is telling me theres a thing in my kitchen so I can't get a drink also thinking about just downing alcohol rn

[mywifewilleatyou]

I'm writing this so I don't vent to you, please don't read, I want you well first <3 I love you

I'm actually really tired of my issues being everyone else's problem, I tried to tell dad how I felt and explain how he approached my actual literal mental breakdown (which I'm still currently experiencing) upset me

And he made it about him, his issues and worries, about how he had a mental breakdown (years ago btw) (also he apparently only "pretended" to have multiple breakdowns because he was embarrassed he actually had them, so he lied about a lie??)

Anyway, I try to explain how I understand but yk I'm 20.. I'm not gonna have all the advice or help and I have my own stuff going on

And his whole demeanor changed

And he was like okay I have a plan I know what I must do and kept being really weird about this plan and wouldn't expand on it cause of xyz whatever

Long story short, I think I'm gonna die or he's gonna die and I'm super paranoid about it cause...yk.... mental motherfucking breakdown!!!!!!! Hahahaaaa

And no one is ever actually there when I need someone!!!! It's always them first!!! Or something is going on with them so I can't say anything about my issues cause then I feel selfish!!

And I'm just sat here crying and then all numb and then all sad then all numb and foggy and then I feel like the worst person in the whole world and I feel like everyone I know is gonna fucking kill themselves and then I want to kill myself!!! Oh my god I actually really want to die and I can't tell anyone cause its selfish and attention seeking and I'm a bad person so I obviously only feel that way to get pity points cause I know I wont actually do it but then I have these moments where I might. I could.

Life is hard and work is hard and I hate.everything ever

[mywifewilleatyou]

Lets Die Tuesday into it's getting worse Wednesday

[mywifewilleatyou]

There's a Thursday?, Forget it Friday, What happened Saturday and Suck my nuts Sunday into They're trying to kill me Monday

[mywifewilleatyou]

Lets Die Tuesday into it's getting worse Wednesday

[caramelc0rgi]

NEED EVERYONE TO GET MORE STUNTDRIVER CODED IMMEDIATELY

[mywifewilleatyou]

it's called hot girl summer not hot boy summer #becomeagirl

[mywifewilleatyou]

No actually I looove when I have interests and my brain goes lol?? dont write about it you weirdo your writing sucks lmao??? like oh..yeah okay thanks.. (brings up memory of writing being bad) you can stop now haha.. what's even the point though? xoxo