Trippy💜

Welcome to my colorful world💘my 8 year old daughter was diagnosed with trichotillomania 6 mths ago. I lack community support around my town because it's not so common and the people who struggle with it don't want to talk about it. I could really use support from people who struggle with it or support loved ones who struggle with it.

[mztrippy]

I know it's not my fault...Is it? :(

I told A it was time for us to clean her room. (Every couple of months I go through it with her so it’s spotlessly done) She got sooooo upset. I stayed calm until she kicked my shoe rack. Not hard or anything but in my house, we don’t kick things when we are angry. At that point I started yelling and told her that she needs to get her butt in her room, calm down, and then I’ll be up when we both calm down and I reminded her that I didn’t make the mess and surely didn’t want to clean her stuff but I wanted to help her. This is a normal argument with normal kids. I went and took trash out, chatted w my neighbor, and then went up to the bedroom to help her. She was already cleaning and was totally calm. Her right eyebrow was red though. My heart broke as I asked her if she picked. She softly said yes and then quickly said at least she was being honest. For the record she doesn’t have to tell me if she did it at all, it’s completely her choice to tell me or not… I’m here for support not to add pressure. But my heart broke because I couldn’t help feeling like it was my fault. Maybe I yelled to loud or maybe I left her alone too long. I didn’t cry in front of her, I cried tho. but she’s not picked her hair in over 2 weeks and she was so proud about it. I know it’s not my fault she picks but is it sometimes? I know it’s hard for her, but as her mommy it’s so hard to watch her go through this. And it’s truly had its benefits but these times are what remind me that she’s so delicate still- no matter how far she’s come.

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I so didn't realize I had to enable so many account settings 😳 I have so much to learn about this site lol any tips would be great lol

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Here's her pretty hair for picture day (: 💘 I'll redo it in the morning in her outfit with her accessories and post

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I watched a documentary on trichotillomania maybe 6 mths ago completed by accident. I had never even heard of it. Two weeks later my 8yr old daughters eyelashes, eyebrows, and sideburns started disappearing. It wasn’t something that she saw and started doing to mimic it because she wasn’t home when I watched the documentary. I was so scared for her and I admit, I handled it completely wrong the first week or two. She’s been in therapy since a month after she started pulling her hair out. On this journey I have watched her grow and learn how to understand and cope with her feelings… Something I’ve never been any good at. So I started therapy too because the only way I can support what she’s learning is if I know how to do it too. She’s been through a lot in the 8 yrs she’s been on this planet. She is my everything. As devastated as I was in the beginning, I didn’t think I’d ever feel ok about it only because anything that makes life hard for her or cruel for her I could never be ok with. But she’s grown in ways she only could have grown by going through this and it’s helped me grow with her. She has a long road ahead and nobody can say what it will bring but one thing is for sure…. She will bring the sunshine 💘 I love her so fucking much with every single bit of me.

[mztrippy]

Berry Blast and Blue Envy and one very awesome child :) 💘

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Well these are before pictures but I forgot to get a pic before I bagged her head of the color applied. Either way I’ll finish pictures tomorrow. She was so tired she passed out in seconds 💘 I love her so much :)

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My 8yr old has trichotillomania and coloring her hair is one way she uses to help her not pick 💘 tonight we r doing more color!! 😆

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