Trying To Remember Fear

Or trying to remember how to feel anything at all?

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Okay I would never read a fanfic and judge but it just read a fic (yes it was smut don’t judge me it been a long year) and this guy stuck the strong metal paper clips to this other guys nipples. His nipples.. I just,, like, do we know how much that would hurt??? And not even in a sexy way. Surly no one who’s had sex or better yet no one who has nipples could find that sexy?? This was followed up with “kissed his abused mouth” and atp yeah abused is right cus tf

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Btw everything’s amazing and life is awesome

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I take it back everything’s horrible and I’m going to cry scream or both

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I take that one back I’m getting a puppy and all is well again

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Btw everything’s amazing and life is awesome

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I take it back everything’s horrible and I’m going to cry scream or both

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Btw everything’s amazing and life is awesome

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College to study performing arts in sep and an interview to be a performer tmr when did my dreams come true

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Wowly job interview tmr (or today if you count 2am as the same day) and driving lesson the day after when did I become an adult??

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I did it. I booked a driving lesson. Now I just need to learn how to drive

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Btw everything’s brilliant and nothing will ever be bad again (I’m home alone and got new bedding)

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I applied to be a 5am drive thru worker at my local McDonald’s and didn’t hear back. I’ve reached new lows of unemployment.

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Guys I kid you not my exam was about the effects ai has on youth and why we shouldn’t depend on it. Holy I wrote 1000 words on antintellectualism and the effects ai has on it

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Failed maths by 2 marks, got my period, excruciating pain, ruined my favourite trousers, had an allergic reaction to my cat, ate a whole chocolate bar when I’m trying to loose weight, left my key at home so I had to call someone to pick me up and let me in and I have another exam tomorrow that was meant to be my last but now I have to resit maths in a couple weeks so pretty much I win the worst day in the history of worst days competition and everything sucks.

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Found out I failed maths and have to resit it at the school I’ve not been in since I had my first panic attack in 2 years AND started my period today so if you don’t hear from me assume the worst.

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Okay so I got into college, (hopefully) passed my exams, have my provisional drivers license and am on anti depressants with therapy. Now what do I do??

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you know what they should do? they should make one of those squeaky chewy dog toys for humans, i think i'd appreciate having something to chew on sometimes

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I think I had one of those as a kid on a necklace like a chew buddy or something

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I was wondering why I felt almost fly like symptoms, sleeping literally all day, sweating relentlessly, headaches and brain zaps, nausea lack of appetite ect. Then I remembered to take my meds for the first time in 4ish days. Yeah so it’s not the flu or heatstroke but withdrawal and now I feel a bit stupid

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Guys it’s been 26 degrees with a uv of 8 but uk heat so times it by a billion today and I was at the beach (in every life) so I’m so sunburnt and just dying rn

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Unfortunately the rest of my family are REALLY tan so I’m out here tanning and sweating to I don’t actually physically hurt to look at in my nans wedding