Nadryw

Kämpfende Phantasien einer Steppenwölfin.

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/:Her Highness:/

Better look twice, because you only see me once.

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/:Self-fulfilling prophecy:/

Die Welt stinkt vor Zweisamkeit.

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/:Downright ridiculous:/

Ich gehöre zu den Gewinnern dieser Gesellschaft und verhalte mich wie ein Hund mit eingezogenem Schwanz.

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/:Straying:/

Wie ein einsamer Straßenköter Irre ich rastlos durch Berlins dunkle Straßen Das Herz schwer vor Sehnsucht Getrieben von einem unersättlichen Verlangen Nach zufälliger Inspiration An fremden Orten Auf heimlicher Suche Nach verlorenen Seelen Die dagegen sind Nach rebellischen Geistern Die streitbar sind Auf der Jagd nach Intensiven Begegnungen Die Lust auf Leben machen Mit struppigem Fell und Hungrigen Augen Bettle ich stumm Um Aufmerksamkeit

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/:No poetry:/

“Why won't you date me?”, I asked in disbelief and anger I know I could close your gap And I know you could close mine We are ambidextrous Which is rare enough to find

So I keep asking In deep wonder Over and over again Why won't you date me Why won't you allow us to be What we could be

It tremendously hurts me That you might not be part of my life Because I know that we would support Each other to reach our goals No matter what it takes Outgrowing ourselves Reaching for the stars

Yes, I see your pain Everywhere In your eyes, in your smile, in your hands It doubles my pain And makes me even more furious

How can you be so ignorant Such false nobility Claiming  you want to protect me From what the hell?

I am the monster The destroyer and Self-destructor I am the one that Steals lives and makes them her own Sucking every breath of life out of them To give me power to live When they are empty I spit them out naked On a lonely, dirty street

“You're a maneater”, Jonas said “Nobody deserves the pain of loving you” I'm a monstrous Borderliner Destroying everyone who loves me

So you want to protect me from yourself? What is it? What can be too cruel for me to bear?

So when we're two arrogant, egocentric assholes Don't we perfectly well deserve each other? We are meant to be Because minus times minus Is plus

I neither want to kiss a dead body Nor listen to a dead song And you must not end your life Because it would end mine, too

When I go and let you go I at least want to know That you are somewhere out there That I'm not alone, but we exist

We may be meaningless to the world But we aren't meaningless to each other

I don't want to let you go I'm so desperate to connect Because it feels so natural, so evident When is the point reached that I have to stop fighting for my love? But how could I even ever forget?

I don't believe that you won't date me Because you want to protect me I don't believe it and I still don't understand it

How can you cannot say no But saying yes would be a lie? How can there be an in between in love? You just don't love me enough Not now. Not in the future. How can you ever consider the future to be different? What do you think will change or has to change that We'd be not apart

You are dating all these girls Because you are searching for love Why don't you want to search in me? Why do I have to watch you…

What's the problem with me? Too serious? But you also don't want us being superficial? What the hell is this?

And if you're searching for someone else Why can't you let me go? How selfish is that! What do you want from me? Am I your security back-up or what?

What the hell does the future hold? Your death? Our love?

People come and go in your life Which is okay But just this very time It is not

I am used to be the rational, the responsible The one that leaves To help everyone out But why this time? I don't want to be sane I don't want to act against my faith, against my belief It hurts

You cannot just tell me that I'll find out one day Because it will be too late

I just want to feel you I just want to be around you Time doesn't matter

Why are you blocking so much? It drives me insane because I feel it every time I get so mad at your helplessness which makes me helpless

Oh only if I knew What's wrong With something that Feels so right.

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I'm stupid enough to try living a sane life. Its like forcing a psychopath to become a doctor. It will end messy.

J.B.

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/:Lebensfluss:/

I feel like a piece of art. People watch from afar and move on. Nobody touches artwork.

[nadryw]

Pick apart the pieces of your heart Let me peer inside Let me in where only your thoughts have been Let me occupy your mind as you do mine You've lost (too much love) to fear, doubt, and distrust (not enough) You just threw away the key (to your heart) You don't get burned ('cause nothing gets through) It makes it easier (easier on you) That much more difficult for me To make you see Love ain't fair So there you are, my love Your heart's a mess You won't admit to it It makes no sense But I'm desperate to connect And you, you can't live like this Love ain't safe You won't get hurt if you stay chaste So you can wait But I don't want to waste my love

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M: Nur für Verrückte: Wann sehen wir uns wieder? R: Wann du möchtest. Ich bin derzeit zwar gesellschaftsuntauglicher denn je, aber damit kannst du wahrscheinlich umgehen. Wo bist du? M: Klingt nach Spaß. Antwerpen. Noch ein paar Wochen. Kommst du? R: Klingt nach larmoyanter Depression. Antwerpen? Quasi um die Ecke. Dann könntest du dir eigentlich auch mal mein Zuhause anschauen.  M: Klingt übel. Wehe das ist ansteckend. Weeze? Warum nicht.

R.M.

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/:Bonding without bond:/

He is not my friend. He is not my lover. He is. And I am. 

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/:Bittersweet:/

Everybody’s darling. Nobody’s choice. 

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N: Is there actually something that you can talk about in a non-philosophical, non-abstract way? M: Sex. N: Good answer.

Niklas, Sophie’s wedding

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Do you know what I really like about you? Your aura. When I look at you it's so colorful. And everything around you becomes grey.

Midas

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/:Conflicting parallelism:/

You date because you are searching for love. I date because I have to forget that I’ve found it. 

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The whole “it’s so special that we met” part can be kind of soft. Do you believe in coincidence? Is this contact just something vague and forgettable in a few weeks?

M.T., 01.06.2015

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Leave the cat in Antwerp. Leave all the broken pieces in Antwerp.

Vital, Art Gallery Owner

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/:Nexus:/

You must know that Every time I possibly Hurt you Is because You don’t let me love you