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[ GRANNVALE ] - An old waltz from before the rise of Emperor Arvis. It was popular during its time in the 750s but has now become a relic of the past, one that may not be as appreciated by the newer generation.
"Oh this song!" Deirdre looks past Eirika a moment, caught up in her nostalgia. She remembers, now, the first time she had ever heard it. It was a song all of her friends had been all too familiar with but one she had never heard before. Growing up in Verdane and away from other people did not create an environment where Grannvalian court dances were necessary!
"Lord Sigurd taught me to dance it when we were first married. I do not know how good of a teacher I will be but the steps were easy enough that I was able to learn so you have my full confidence!"
[ SEQUESTER ] - Some rooms remain unused, and while by the padlocks on their doors you suspect they are meant to remain that way, some poor sap seems to have forgotten to make sure they were locked properly. They make for an excellent space away from the chaos of the rest of the ball—though you may not be the first one there.
The door is slightly ajar. It is very clear that someone is in there or at least had been in there. Even still, when Deirdre pushes the door open and sees Claude standing in the middle of the room she jumps in her surprise.
When she realizes there is nothing to be afraid of, she laughs. "I suppose, as a professor, I should remind you that you should not be here." Moments like this have always been the most difficult part of her position here. "But I also know that it can be rather overwhelming at an event like this. If you would allow me to join you in a moment of quiet, I can offer you a flower as well as a promise to keep my lips sealed."
[ CHAMPAGNE ] - And from one of the finest bottles Adrestia has to offer. No student is allowed more than a single glass, and it looks classier to swirl it before it's empty.
"This is...for me?" Truthfully, she had not expected Lachesis to approach her, let alone with a gift. She had resigned herself to admiring the Lachesis looked so stunning in her gown from afar and hoping her old friend had a lovely evening with her daughter.
Deirdre really is not very fond of beverages like this but it is expected in an event like this to celebrate with a glass. And it is from Lachesis. Of course she will accept!
"I only have a tulip to give you in return. They are often used to represent new beginnings..."
[ GOSSIP ] - For those who don’t want to be the center of attention, sitting on the sidelines and observing those who do is a time-honored tradition. Exchanging thoughts with another while doing so is a rite of passage for a student—it is a slightly worse look for the staff to take part.
"Do you think we will see anyone fall in love tonight? I hope so. I think it would be beautiful. Magical even!"
Fall in love?
Sylvain internally scoffs at the soft-spoken words that sound over his shoulder. Sure, it would be a storybook love - something special that only happened within the pages of poetry or performances. People didn't fall in love in these situations. Lust? Absolutely.
But love? That would mean that everyone here was willing to put aside ambition, forget status. Yeah...right.
Amused, he turns to look at the woman in question. "..." The twist of his smirk caves in as he takes in the perfect fall of her hair, her eyes, the gorgeous dress that flutters over perfect skin. "Magical is a way to put it..." He breathes, ducking his head as if he has to recollect himself, the color on his cheeks at least a little genuine as he glances back her way. "I've never believed in love at first sight," He still doesn't, but it doesn't change the way he moves, clasping the purple hyacinth in front of him as he stares in near slack-jawed wonder. "...But I would be the happiest man alive if you'd marry me tonight."
Deirdre begins to open her mouth to gush over her own experiences with love at first sight. To bring hope that it is possible to find someone so easily that brings joy and love. She does not. There is no chance to speak anything before what he says next.
Lavender eyes grow wide as saucers and Deirdre can hear her heart break in her chest. Not because she loves him, no, quite the opposite. Her heart shatters at the mere thought of having to tell him no. She thinks about her own beloveds and what it would have done to her to be rejected by either of them.
She looks down at her feet for just a moment before raising her head to look back up at him. "I hope you can forgive me," she begins, "but I am already quite spoken for." She reaches for his hands, careful not to crush the hyacinths he holds.
"You will find someone, I am certain of it. Someone lovely and kind who will bring you all the joy you can imagine." Deirdre leans up to press a gentle and chaste kiss to Sylvain's cheek. "All I am able to offer is this tulip."
[ PHOTO IN MOTION ]
"this will be a night to remember! don't you think ma'am?" Lene approached her eagerly "We have to try this video thing together!"
"It will!" Of course, Deirdre does her best to make sure every moment is one she might remember now. She keeps a journal each day chronicling what happened no matter how mundane, just so she can be sure she will never forget it. She cherishes the few photos from the photoartifix that she has collected from balls prior.
But this new contraption that captures a moment completely, movement and all! Deirdre is fascinated by it.
"I would love to try it with you! I am hoping to bring my husband and my son to try it later this evening but it would be nice to give it a try first, just to see how it works."
[ GRANNVALE ] - An old waltz from before the rise of Emperor Arvis. It was popular during its time in the 750s but has now become a relic of the past, one that may not be as appreciated by the newer generation.
"Do you know this song? It is quite popular in my homeland. Well, at least it was when I was last there." She is quite happy to take Iago's hand and let him lead her onto the dance floor. And she cannot help but wonder if this same waltz is still played in ballrooms across Jugdral. She supposed she could ask her son but there is part of her that worries the answer might make her feel even more separated from the land she once called home.
"I am afraid you will have to lead us. I have never danced that role myself. But I will do my very best to guide you!"
Before the dance begins, she offers a tulip from her bouquet. "And this is for you, as thanks for offering to be my partner!"
[ GRANNVALE ] - An old waltz from before the rise of Emperor Arvis. It was popular during its time in the 750s but has now become a relic of the past, one that may not be as appreciated by the newer generation.
"I was awfully jealous when I had to stay behind during the Jugdral expedition," Deirdre admits as Andrei begins leading her in a familiar waltz. "It has been too long since I have seen it or the people that still live there. But this song, this dance. Dancing it with you..." Lips curl into a smile. "It is nice to be reminded of home."
She has so many of her old friends here. And, of course, Lord Sigurd and Seliph! But Andrei is rather unique. She did not know him until after her memories were lost. Their friendship together is a wonderful reminder of her life in Belhalla and she is so grateful for it.
"Thank you, Lord Andrei, for thinking of me!"
Deirdre has tulips. Her dress reminds her of the armor her beloved wears.
Tracker:
Rose: Sigurd
Lily:
Hyacinth: Clair
Orchid: Serra
Tulips: Seliph
Across the Stars
"Sigurd..." She repeats, enjoying the way his name sounds in her voice. He should not have told her his name but she is still glad to know it. Now, at least, when she thinks of him, when she imagines the brightness of his blue eyes, she can think of his name, too.
"You would...take me with you?" There is a flutter of excitement in her chest as she tries to picture what it might be like to leave this planet. To no longer be alone. To have someone to talk to. To lose herself in his smile and listen to his laugh whenever she might like. "You would protect me?"
She shakes her head and takes a few more steps away. "No. I cannot. I cannot go with you or anyone. The Sith are not eradicated. They are hiding. Biding their time. Searching for me. I would put you in danger, too."
Still he reaches for her. His presence in the Force remains unwavering and steady. A safe harbor in the storm of fear that surrounds her. She looks at his offered hand a few moments before reaching out her own and taking shaky steps toward him until their hands meet.
"Deirdre," she finally tells him, marveling at how warm his hand is as it wraps around hers. "Though I do not know if your Order would be so pleased to know what you have promised to someone like me."
"Ah. Hmm…"
Though his hand lowered and the line of his mouth and brow turned to a thoughtful expression, the timbre of his voice remained nonetheless playful and undissuaded. He brought a knuckle to his chin in thought and turned away for a moment, glancing about the emptiness of the planet that surrounded them, the bubble of the bog the only thing this girl - Deirdre, she had said her name was Deirdre - had for company.
Sigurd nudged at a branch with his boot, and shook his head as though disappointed when it sunk into the waters without snag or fuss, tsking gently when he turned back to face the girl before him.
"Well, I am afraid that puts me into a bit of a conundrum. You see, if the Sith are indeed not eradicated, as you say, then I surely could not leave you here by your lonesome, simply for them to come and collect you." Sigurd shook his head again, emphatic; "No, I'm afraid that I would have to stay, in that case, and find them eradicated by myself."
Here, his fingers rested on the hilt of his lightsaber, and one corner of his lips lifted, lighting his face up in a cocky and boyish expression. "It would be quite difficult, by my lonesome, but I suppose if that is the only way to do it…"
Trailing off, almost wistfully, he sighed, then lifted his gaze to the girl again. "Unless of course, you chose to come with me - and you could find yourself under the protection of my company in the Jedi Order."
A laugh, bright. "That is, of course, presuming that the Sith are even still alive at all. Have you felt them at all?"
If. If! She is surprised at how easily he dismisses the threat that has kept her here and alone her entire life. Could it really be true that they aren't as much of a threat as she's been told?
"You do not believe me, do you?" If he did, she does not think it would be so easy for him to laugh. She would miss his laugh.
Deirdre shudders and shrinks into herself when he asks if she has felt them. Reaching out, opening herself up to the Force around her is dangerous. Of course, that does not mean she has never done it. There have been times when the temptation, the need to feel some sort of connection, have been too strong to ignore.
"I have," she admits cautiously, eyes fixed firmly on the hand that rests at the hilt of his light saber. "It was faint once but it has grown stronger."
She grows silent as she considers his offer again, turning away from him to gaze out upon the swampy planet she has called home all eighteen years of her life. She has never known anything else. Looking out at the stars and imagining herself out there among them has only ever been a dream. But so has meeting anyone else and here she is still engaged with this Jedi.
"I have never left this planet. I...am afraid. I do not want my curse to follow you..." Deirdre turns back toward Sigurd, eyes narrowed but determined. "But I do not think my heart could take it if I stayed here without you."
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She hums in her agreement. "That is a good point. I have seen so many wondrous things since I have come here. Things I would have once deemed impossible." Her smile turns knowing. This meeting now is one of them. Sometimes she wonders if she herself might be some sort of spirit now.
"It might be exciting to witness something mysterious while we are out here together."
Deirdre smiles at Tine. She will not promise to forget what was said. She has spent far too many years of her life forgetting. Now, she holds onto every moment, no matter how small. The memories are precious to her. But she does refrain from acknowledging it further, even if she would like to agree and say she's heard something similar.
"Come." She reaches for Tine's hand and gives it a squeeze before pulling her forward, quickening her pace. "I can see a clearing ahead. That must be it!"
Sure enough, the two women reach the hot spring quickly. Deirdre drops Tine's hand to rush ahead, slipping off one of her shoes to dip her toes in and test the water. "Oh! It feels lovely!"
Together those worlds ring within her ears
As if erasing all the times she had been deemed unworthy of presence.
A disgusting yet sincere joy floods her veins. She is here; she has been deemed deserving of being here.
She smiles to herself as she's led along towards the rising heat.
No clear threats, it seems, for now.
She shouldn't let her guard down so quickly.
stillll….
She touches the water lightly
yep it is indeed salty.
One way in which this world sees fit to fall in line with her expectations.
"Please don't wait for me then, I uhhh."
She blanks why is she hesitating now? Is it just embarrassment over her silly motive for coming here?
"… stil
want to stretch my legs a little bit."
She drawls out
"Try not to stray too far, alright? I would hate for you to end up losing your way. It is better if we stick together."
Deirdre does not quite understand Tine's hesitance but she does not question it or point it out. Ideally, she just wants to see her be able to relax a little bit. That is why they are here, after all. A nice relaxing soak!
Deirdre does not match the hesitation, wasting little time sinking into the gloriously hot water. It is as lovely as she had hoped and a sigh escapes her lips as she sinks down to her chin. Silvery curls fan out around her and she is reminded of the enormous bathtub she had sought refuge in after the Ethereal Ball. She likes this better, she thinks, surrounded by trees rather than tiled walls.
"Lady Tine, you are missing out!" She laughs, trying to entice the other in. "The water is perfect!"
"Oh alright!"
She squeaks out in the middle of another useless stretch.
There hadn't been any concerning activity around them. Only a bird or two so far; the only ghost is Empress Deirdre herself.
That's why she hesitates; she's warm and kind in a way she's hardly gotten to experience.
She's exactly who Tine wished she was.
The water is a shock, not really due to temperature; the surroundings are already quite warm, it's just.
"This is really nice."
She speaks out the obvious as she pins up her hair high, not keen on getting sick on their way back.
"Haunted or not, I can't believe no one else comes here.
Still, that's fine by me; I'm much better with monsters than I am with crowds."
"It is." Deirdre smiles. She can understand why stories of ghosts and hauntings and monsters would deter others from such a lovely place. Tales like that so often do. But she does wonder how much of it is true. She lived her own life in a Spirit Forest but there was hardly anything frightening there. A name to frighten others away from her, perhaps.
"It is nicer with company. It is nicer with you."
She watches Tine curiously, trying to figure out what she might mean. Has she experience with monsters? Or have crowds been too unkind to her?
"Do you believe in ghosts?" Deirdre asks as though she is not one.
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Life in a castle is nothing that Deirdre could have ever been prepared for. It is so starkly different from solitude in her little forest cottage that, sometimes, she wonders if she will ever grow used to it.
Everything is far too big. There are too many rooms, too many corridors. Too many places to get turned around and mixed up when she is trying to find where she needs to be.
There are more people residing here than she has ever met in her entire life up until this point. It makes for noise and bustle that, while she does appreciate it, can be quite overwhelming. Until she is the only person around and it is suddenly far too empty and far too quiet and the only sound she hears is the unfamiliar echo of her footsteps against the floor.
It is when she finds Lord Sigurd again that the world shrinks again to a more manageable size. She does not need to rush across the room to him, he is already at her side, grinning and twirling her into his arms. It is when she is at his side that she knows that this new, strange life is truly her own.
"Oh, my love, it is truly lovely! I could never have even imagined wearing anything so fine!" In the Spirit Forest, she was forced to be resourceful, self sufficient. Trips outside of its safety into the nearby towns for the supplies they could not make themselves were very limited. Whatever clothes she made for herself needed to last. It was not often she was able to create a brand new dress and never with such rich fabrics. "I do not know how I could possibly want for more when I have everything provided for me."
Hands rest on his chest and she smiles up at him. It still feels like a dream that she never imagined would actually come true. A husband! Someone who loves her even after hearing her confession of the darkness that lurks within her!
"Though, if I may be honest with you, I often find myself feeling quite lost. It seems as though everyone else knows exactly where to go and what is expected of them. I want to be helpful, too, my love, but I am not sure how."
"Helpful? Oh my dear, you have no need to be helpful – here, come, sit." Their fingers entangled and he tugged her across the room by it, still so electrified by the sensation of her hand in his that he continued to glance down at where they joined, as though he needed to reassure himself that it was real.
Ushering her into a chair, he sat himself opposite her, pulled their clasped hands to his lips and pressed a kiss to her knuckles, continuing to grin at her.
"We are here to serve a purpose, to be certain, but those amongst the household are here to help us, not the other way around. They can serve our needs, so that we – I, really, you need do nothing but be by my side – may complete our duties here in Verdane, and then we will move on. I cannot tell you of my excitement for the day that we may return to Chalphy, there is so much that I would like to show you in our future home."
Their home! Where they would live, as lord and lady, but also as man and wife – and child! Hopefully, to continue the name -
"I believe there is...some public event or other, in the coming days, but the most that we will need to do is show our faces, to make the presence of Chalphy and the Crown known here. I am confident that you will make the best impression, as you did with me."
The way he smiles is so easy. The way he reaches for her and touches her seems so natural. Everything about him is just so effortless. He does not need to consider his place in this world or how he is supposed to behave. She smiles back though hers is much more forced. She hopes that, one day, she will find it easy to feel as though she belongs. The way his eyes twinkle when he looks at her helps her believe she will.
"And when your duties take you from my side? What will I do then?" It would be easy, she thinks, if she could just stay by him always. But there have already been moments where he is called away and she is left waiting for him, even if they are only separated by rooms in this castle.
"Will it be like this in Chalphy, too? I admit the fairy tales I read as a girl did little to prepare me for what happens after the handsome knight rescues the cursed maiden from her solitude..." She gives his hands a gentle squeeze. It is difficult to imagine what her new home will be like. Every day her new life brings her some sort of experience she never would have imagined. If she thinks about it too much, it can be rather intimidating but feeling Sigurd's hands around her, seeing his eyes locked with her own...as long as they are together, she knows she has nothing to fear.
Not even the idea of being presented in public scares her enough that she would refuse to do it. "Do you really think they will like me? My whole life I was warned that I would be hated and feared. I supposed they do not know about my curse. And all of your friends have shown me nothing but kindness. Everything is just so different from living in my forest..."
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Sai is not wholly familiar with the events sweeping the monastery. He recalls hearing whispers of things like pirates and port troubles, but much of it did not need to concern a new faculty member. There was little point in trying to solve external problems when he was in a place he had never been before, so he simply pushed it aside. It hurt him to turn away those in need, but he had simply assuaged himself with the thought that he would get around to it as soon as he was acclimated!
Well, he is acclimated now, and the pirates issues are still going on. So! Here he is.
A swimmer he is not nor can he operate a vessel, but he can do something not many can: fly. Not upon his own wings, but Blessed Naga has provided him with an alternate means of transport in his beloved pegasus. An aerial view of the waters, bestowed to him by his steed, should give him an advantage in searching for capsized boats.
He leads his pegasus by the reins, drawing close to the ports to find a few others waiting. "Hello there," he greets, reserved but topped with a short bow. "My name is Sai, and I am one of the new Faith professors here. I take it that you all are here to assist in the search for overturned boats and the like?"
Naesala himself can fly. He's quite good at it, impressive in his large bird form -- he could show these beorc how one should take to the sky if he had the mind to. He' doesn't though, right now he's sitting atop one of the academy's own flying mounts with a little frown on his face. It's a bit ridiculous, a bird atop a pegasus, but here he is.
It evens the playing field in case they are shot down, he can help his friend escape with his own wings. He'd rather avoid that possibility, though, this is still a living creature beneath him. Honestly, he only wants to help to gather information and not necessarily get involved in the scuffle itself; he would much rather run away than have to deal with any of that.
He's lost in his own thoughts when he's addressed. He turns, giving the newcomer a polite-yet-distant little smile. "Oh, you seem eager to begin," he says. He seems friendly enough, and Naesala doesn't mind another person to round out their duo into a trio. "Pleasure to meet you. I'm Naesala, with the Blue Lions."
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"And I am Deirdre, with the Black Eagles." The professor bows her head slightly. She has become rather close with Naesala but Sai is new to her. Even if she is familiar with Naesala and his wings, she does find her eyes continuing to drift toward Sai's distinct features. It is amazing how vast this world is!
"I was hoping my skill with a staff might be useful. I am sure that, through our magic combined, we will be quite unstoppable."
It might be the first time she has borrowed one of the monastery's pegasi outside of simply practicing and training, but she has done so enough times that she feels confident enough. All they are doing, after all, is searching for those who might need their help. It is not as though they are expecting trouble!
"Shall we be off, then?"
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(Deirdre and Ashe, making chocolates)
Dessert making was something Ashe had always enjoyed, just as much as making savory foods. So upon learning there was a chocolatier offering lessons on making your own chocolates naturally the boy was quick to sign up, the decadent sweet being one he never quite had the opportunity to master.
As his own chocolates finished chilling, the boy steadily pushed each one out of the mould. The treats were shaped like little hearts, filled with a jam on the inside. They were supposed to be friendship chocolates, something to show his classmates his appreciation for having gotten the chance to learn with them.
However, as the topic of love kept being brought up by both the chocolatier as well as his fellow students naturally his mind began to wander. To a certain person he found himself admiring more and more..
His initial decision to make regular squares changed into hearts. A commonly liked caramel filling became a more specific flavor of Albinean berry jam.
“I wonder if he’d like these….” The boy found himself wondering, before promptly shaking his head to get rid of the thoughts- as well as the slight reddish tint that threatened to blossom on his cheeks.
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"Do you mind if I join you?" Deirdre asks Ashe as she approaches the empty spot at his work station. There are other places she could work in the seminar but Ashe seems to be the only participant without anyone else near him. It is the season for the Day of Devotion and it does make her a bit sad to think that someone might be alone during a time of year dedicated towards spending time with others.
And this does make a lovely excuse to get to know him. He may not be one of her own Black Eagles students but that hardly matters.
"I have never made anything like this before. Everything I learned to make growing up had to be created with ingredients I grew or foraged myself. It will be exciting to try something new."
She leans in, a sly but knowing smile sliding across her lips. "And I am sure he will be overjoyed just to know you created something just for him."
“Oh! Yes, of course!” Ashe said with a smile, carefully moving his belongings to one end of the bench so that the unfamiliar lady could put her stuff on the other side. Working alone was fine, but it was always more fun to cook with someone else after all. “I just finished my first batch, but there’s enough ingredients left to make more.”
Ashe then carefully listened to her speak as she explained her unfamiliarity with the lesson’s topic. “You grew your own food? That’s amazing!” The boy replied delightedly. “My parents used to do the same thing. You can taste the love if you grow em yourself, they always said.” He thought back to those times fondly. Times spent digging in their yard for fresh ingredients.
“But I’d be happy to help with the chocolates! I’m not exactly a master, but I know my way around a kitchen.” None of the equipment given to them had been unfamiliar. At most, their application took some getting used to, here and there.
But then she brought up him, and suddenly that red tint he’d been trying so hard to hide came back in full force. “Huh?! N-No, these are… ahem, I made them for all my friends! Not just… one guy in particular….” At least that was the initial idea. But looking at the chocolate hearts staring back at him… yeah. Flustered his fingers went to the strings of his hoodie, lightly tugging on them as suddenly the room around them got a lot more interesting, eyes flitting about.
Deirdre is glad she chose this spot to work. This student seems sweet and she feels already as though they both must have at least some things in common. As she begins to examine the ingredients in front of her, she hopes even more opportunities will present themselves.
"Let us help each other then, hm?" The heart shapes he has chosen for his chocolates do not escape her. There were other molds available. Circles, squares, shapes more suited to all of his friends. But she does not judge and she does not tease. "I am hoping to make mine for someone special, too."
She realizes that she does not yet know this young man's name and quickly holds out her hand in greeting. He does not know hers either. "Oh but my manners! I am Deirdre, a professor with the Black Eagles."
what if bluey was real — deirdre & timerra
"The Radiant Hero..." Deirdre repeats. She remembers seeing his likeness in the ring chamber but cannot help her slight disappointment that he is the Emblem Timerra is familiar with. Of course, she is glad to know more about any of them. Understanding Timerra's relationship to the Radiant Hero might still help Deirdre understand more about the specific Emblem she is hopeful to learn about.
"I was hoping..." She smiles awkwardly and continues to pet Timerra's wolf companion. She never would have considered such a creature to be a potential mount but, with how soft and cute they are, she can certainly see the appeal. "Do you have any experience with the others as well? I would like to learn about the Holy Knight. Or even just how the rings work. I find it quite fascinating but also terribly confusing. Lord Sigurd, well, I am his wife."
"you were hoping..?" timerra repeats, tilting her head and waiting for the woman to elaborate. vienna whines softly as if in response to deirdre's emotions, his tongue sticking out slightly from the comfort of being so lovingly pet.
"ohhh." solm's queen draws out once deirdre admits her relationship to emblem sigurd. "so that's how it is. i see." she nods in understanding, placing her hand on her chin. "emblem sigurd mentioned his wife a lot— and i only engaged with him a few times. i can't imagine how much he actually talked about you with the people he was engaging with regularly."
seeing the expression on deirdre's face, timerra cannot help but frown a little. "i'm sorry i can't help you much with learning what his emblem self was like. i do know he was by queen lumera's side a lot when she was alive." she pauses before smiling again, gesturing outward with her hand flat. " queen lumera was the divine one's mother. if you asked the divine one, i bet you could hear some good stories about him and what he was like."
"Did he really?" Deirdre sighs dreamily. Of course he did. She still does not completely understand the Emblems but if one of them was her husband, then he would naturally behave the same way. She will have to seek out this Divine One at some point to ask more.
"I only ask because I find it such a difficult concept to understand. I realize that I have not known my husband for as long as I would like but he has never once mentioned this place. He, of course, deserves to be revered. He is the epitome of a hero. But how did he come to be here of all places?" Deirdre laughs and shakes her head. "Forgive me, I am sure this is a lot to ask of you. There must be a book or something that explains better. I know I must be getting carried away."
the jugdral yuri situation is crazy — deirdre & edain
Deirdre takes the offered seat and forces an awkward smile. Even if things are not so terrible between them that Edain would turn her away, it had been rather unpleasant and uncomfortable the last time they spoke. Still, Deirdre will do what she can to make the best of the situation and remain positive.
"I wanted to help read the reports from the recent trip. I had wanted to travel with everyone but Lord Sigurd insisted that I remain behind. Where it is safe." Again hangs heavy in her mind but remains unspoken. She wonders if it will ever grow easier to watch him ride away from her to where he claims he is needed more. If the intense grip of fear that she will never see him again that strangles her heart will ever loosen. "I thought maybe reading them might help me feel like I was part of it."
She reaches for the report on the top of the stack and takes a moment to admire how lovely its author's penmanship is. Neat and uniform but still beautiful. "You were on the ship. I remember seeing you board. How was the journey?"
"you must understand him. he already lost you once— do you think he would be able to bear losing you again?" edain spoke as she brought another chair to the desk along with a seperate quill for deirdre to use.
"although if midir would have said that to me when he was still alive you would have had to drag me away from him while i was kicking and screaming." a mirthless smile tugs at her lips in reaction to her own joke, edain finally sitting down and taking the next paper off the stack after deirdre.
"lord sigurd and i along with professor yunaka were tasked with watching over a small group of students for the travel." she knows deirdre must have worried about how he was doing while he'd been gone, so she attempts to comfort. "i would say i made sure he didn't do anything foolish but... you know how he is. i was there to take care of him though— i can promise you that much."
"Perhaps I should kick and scream the next time." Deirdre rests an elbow on the desk and leans her cheek against her hand. Her lip puffs into a pout. There will be a next time. She knows there will be. He will leave her behind again and claim it is safer if she is not with him.
It does help a little knowing that Edain was there with him. As much as her husband worries about keeping her safe, she worries about him too. Edain knows how he is and Deirdre knows there is no other healer better than her dear friend. "I hope you did not need to take care of him too much. But... I do know him."
She continues reading the paper in front of her and her face furrows deeply at this student's account of their time in the Aed. Cultists. The thought of it causes her skin to prickle. Before she had met Sigurd, the idea of them finding her had been her greatest fear. "Maybe he was right to keep me home... Please tell me the two of you did not need to cross the desert..."
It was odd, in the amount of time that he had been gone, he has started to think instead that Garreg Mach was home, and that the port at Grannvale was simply the place where he set off after a completed campaign, successful in the strictest sense of the word but with lingering complications in how complete it had felt.
His boots had hit the ground at the port in Enbarr with the same confident stride, and Sigurd felt his shoulders relax after the long period where it felt he had been holding his muscles taut, as though in waiting.
Fingers came up to brush the circlet that hovered at his clavicle, and his eyes dipped to the ground, a faint smile coming to his lips.
He was not the only one waiting. And he had promised to return.
He was not entirely certain as to when the caravan would return back to the monastery, and frankly, if it had no intentions of leaving within the hour, he would rather make the trip of it alone.
His eyes drifted along the faces in the crowd, milling and expectant, watching and waiting to hear from the conquering heroes who had returned with tales, busting up the line that had made the waters impassable and routing those who intended to cause mischief in the foreign unknown - not unknown for him, and yet more than it had ever been, when he came to think on it.
And his gaze came to rest upon the faintly gleaming silver that had rested delicately just beyond the scope of his vision, and it felt as though the world weighed a significant amount less.
“Deirdre! My Deir!” He wove through the crowd, picking up speed to a jog before colliding with her in a tight embrace, lifting and spinning her about before setting her gently on the ground and burying his nose into the crook of her shoulder.
“I’ve returned,” he teased, “Just like I said I would.”
Each moment since the expedition to Jugdral departed had felt like an eternity. It is hard to believe it has only been a single month since she was forced to stay behind and wave goodbye to her beloved from the harbor.
It has not even been that long since she made her way back to Enbarr in preparation of his return. What if the ship returned early? The thought that he might arrive before she did had been so troubling that she rented a room in an inn nearby a week before the scheduled return. She never wants him to have to return without her waiting again.
The very moment sails are seen on the horizon, Deirdre rushes to the dock to wait impatiently. She watches as each person departs, waving to those she knows but growing more and more anxious. He had not come home the last time he set out on an adventure. Not with everyone else.
But then she sees him. She hears him. "Lord Sigurd!" She rushes toward him, not content to simply let him close the distance between them. Husband and wife collide together in an embrace that she has been dreaming of for weeks now.
"You came home!" She clutches tightly to him, not willingly to let go just yet. "And you did not make me wait far too long." A tease of her own. "Please, you must tell me everything!"