I’m sorry. I’m sorry, okay? I’m sorry if a lot of the things I do make you love me less and I’m sorry that I’ve created such a mess. I’m sorry that I’m selfish for wanting to be with you regardless of all the problems it creates than to not be with you at all. I’m sorry for loving you as much as I do. I’ve never loved someone this much before and that’s probably why I cared so much about a lot of things when I really shouldn’t have. I should’ve just let the little things go rather than jeopardising things between us. You’re my best friend and you’re my favourite person in the whole world. I can’t imagine what my life would be like without you. It’s so hard to be without you. I’m sorry that we’ve screwed up as much as we have and can’t give each other what we want. And I’m sorry that life seems to make it hard for us to be together. I’m sorry for all the times that I’ve hurt you, that was the last thing I wanted to do. All I wanted was to make you happy and to be happy together. And I’m sorry that we wanted different things. You are so important to me and I’m sorry that we’ve dragged this out for so long because we’re scared to let go and lose each other and lose it all. And I’m sorry if when you look at me, you don’t feel the same way anymore because I know that it’s my fault. I’m sorry that every time you tried, I didn’t acknowledge it or give you enough credit. I’m sorry that I have such a hard time of letting things go and letting you go. It’s just when I’m with you, it’s like every bad thing went away; that’s how happy you made me. And when you held my hand, I felt so lucky to be loved by you. I felt so lucky that it was my hand you were holding. I felt lucky to be yours. I’m sorry that every single time we’d fight, I pushed you further and further away when all I intended was to fix and address problems so we could make things between us the best that they could possible be. I’m sorry of how irrational I’ve been and how it’s made you indecisive. I’m sorry that sometimes I’m so stubborn and refuse to listen. I’m sorry of how much has changed between us. I’m sorry of how difficult we’ve made it when it could’ve been simple. I’m just really sorry and I hope that one day you’ll forgive me and we’ll be okay. I love you, I mean it. I do. I’m sorry if you feel like you have wasted a year of your life, but to me it wasn’t a waste. I feel like we’ve both learnt lessons from this. I think we needed each other, we were there for each other and we loved each other so much and that meant and will always mean so much to me. Just like how you will always mean so much to me. I want you to be happy and if you are happier without me in your life, then I understand and I will just have to learn how to accept that. I’m sorry, okay?
Sorry sorry sorry // by c-oquetry (via c-oquetry)
