finally

everyone’s dying to know ✰

[busemsiiii]

[namedrop-natalie]

I’ve reached the point of feeling nothing at all.

[rebelculture]

[namedrop-natalie]

Hoping I wake up tomorrow with less weight on my chest.

[udrug]

[zegalba]

[gothredy]

[namedrop-natalie]

why is it only when you die that people acknowledge you were struggling?

[destroymylife]

[gothredy]

[djglory]

[coltranes]

sade photographed during the ‘love deluxe’ world tour in 1993

[namedrop-natalie]

to be understood:

and yet, overlooked, robbed of a gift that I’ve longed for.

do others wander and question if they too are the martyrs?

in a life lived and both unfulfilled in an endless void of now you see me, now I’ve disappeared.

I suppose many things are out of sight and out of mind, though, as people I would hope to find more meaning in our connections.

maybe that’s the flaw in my discretion, maybe I am to blame.

though, despite that possibility and that weight the desire to be understood never seems to go away.

[aqqindex]

Peter de Bretteville, Bretteville-Simon House, 1977

[blackberryvision]

[namedrop-natalie]

all of those emotions, watch you bury them alive.

like, what you know? what you trying to hide?

[ruesdeluxe]