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little black book. TW !! please be aware this containts mentions of suicide!!

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cube_ptg twitter update:

[Pentagon] Musical ‘Iron Mask’ was so much fun 🥰 Our Jinho hyung and Changsub hyung too! Pentagon and BtoB hyungs too fighting :)

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20/09

08:56 I don’t think I’ve had a proper night’s sleep this week

08:58 Will that stupid blog ever shut up?

09:05 'hur hur i’m anonymous and i can promote suicide to impressionable preteens because it’s funny !!!! xD xD’

09:08 How has no one reported that site and gotten it shut down? Crazy.

09:20 It’s so funny how they think they own me like you have nothing on me. 

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13/09

02:08 I haven’t written in so long.

02:09 I made it back into master.

02:12 And I lost my virginity.

02:13 Not really important.

02:14 I think I actually like someone.

02:15 What the fuck do I do?

02:17 I have to be honest. January is close. I can’t lead her on.

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29/08

23:05 This wouldn’t have happened if I hadn’t pushed her out the way.

23:06 This wouldn’t have happened if I didn’t exist.

23:08 I really can’t live another second if it’s going to put those around me in danger.

23:27 Fuck with me all you want but don’t touch my brother. He’s done nothing wrong.

23:30: You win.

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27/08

06:11 What the hell did I do that for? I don’t have feelings for her.

06:13 I just like her company.

06:14 And I guess she doesn’t completely annoy me.

06:19 Is that liking someone?

06:22 Why couldn’t I have been born normal?

06:23 Hey God, I want an exchange on this life for another?

06:24 Or maybe just a refund, you know?

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24/08

16:54 I’ve been here for just over a month now and I’ve yet to meet someone actually half decent.

16:55 I guess Berry is okay.

16:57 Sophia would be alright if she didn’t have a weird complex.

16:58 I really don’t like feeling this way.

17:02 My chest feels like it’s gonna collapse.

17:39 I hate myself.

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20/08

00:40 Oh yay. Toby’s coming.

00:42 "Watch out for him, he’s your brother.” Are you sure we’re genetically alike?

00:45 He’s gotta learn to take care of himself.

00:46 I have been for seventeen years and I’m still alive.

00:49 For now.

00:51 That sounds so ominous, I love it.

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15/08

19:33 Soft? Get fucked

19:34 I’m not soft.

19:45 Maybe I am too soft, letting people get too close.

19:47 Fuck that.

19:50 Also, can people stop “shipping” me with others? It’s creepy.

19:51 Unless it’s with death. I ship me with death.

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13/08

22:50 Please Stop liking me.

22:52 What the hell did I do to deserve people having feelings?

22:56 I mean she’s really cute and stuff but I can’t hurt her.

22:57 This is some really delayed April fool’s joke, right?

22:59 The sooner I get out the better.

23:02 I really don’t want to be here anymore.

23:04 I don’t want to exist anymore.

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12/08

11:44 Tell me why I decided to watch Bridge To Terabithia and I’m actually crying?

11:51 SHE SHOULDN’T HAVE DIED.

11:53 Note to self: Find a sketchy looking rope dangling above a dangerous looking river and try to swing it.

11:58 Actually no, I don’t want to drown. I hate swimming.

13:00 Holy shit, this stupid gossip thing is giving me a headache.

13:09 Oh cool, I was right. He doesn’t care. I’m all alone, I think I’m going to cry real tears now.

13:16 Imagine if I actually sounded like that, I’d kill myself anyway I could.

13:20 Why is it so difficult to buy a gun online?

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09/08

02:02 I can’t fucking sleep.

02:07 Why does he liked me? That’s actually disgusting.

02:10 Well, he’s not disgusting. The opposite, actually.

02:13 He’s alright for an arrogant dick.

02:15 Is it wrong to date someone for their weed?

02:19 No, I can’t let him get even more attached. It’s weird enough as it is.

02:33 He’s definitely lying. People don’t even friend like me, let alone boyfriend like me. I think he smoked too much.

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05/08

15:22 I’m such a fucking idiot.

15:24 I’m sorry Sophia.

15:25 I didn’t mean it.

15:30 Okay Google, how do I defend myself without being an asshole?

15:33 Okay Google, how do I not be an asshole in general?

15:35 I swear, she’s going to make my life hell.

15:38 I’m not trying again. This is why friendships ain’t worth it.

15:40 My mom won’t stop asking about her.

15:49 Geez, she sees one girl within ten feet of me and she starts picking out centerpieces for our wedding.

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03/08

23:11 Make a wish.

23:49 I did not wish for a fucking kiss.

23:50 Why the hell did he just show up and pretend to care?

23:52 Does he actually?

23:53 Don’t be fucking stupid, no one does. 

23:58 He’ll get over it when I’m gone.

23:59 Damn, that made me think of that Avril Lavigne song.

00:01 I’m going to add that to my suicide playlist.

00:04 I’m still gonna do it to hero by family of the year.

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01/08

20:08 Oh my god, this isn’t happening.

20:09 How the fuck?

20:14 I don’t know what to do I don’t know what to do I don’t know what to do I don’t know what to do I don’t know what to do I don’t know what to do I don’t know what to do

20:19 I can’t breathe.

20:20 How did they find this?

20:23 I don’t care.

20:27 I really don’t care.

20:29 No one cares.

20:40 Why does no one care?

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28/07

16:19 Hey cool a party.

16:20 Hey cool 4:20.

16:27 Should I actually go? I mean, free weed..

16:29 There’s got to be a catch. No one gives out free weed.

16:30 I bet it’s an orgy.

23:46 Not an orgy, but it could have fooled me with everyone hooking up. Are teenagers actually this horny or just anyone who knows Shea?

23:50 I don’t like Shea.

23:52 Weirdo.

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26/07

09:15 I wish you could actually die in dreams. I would’ve died like, eighty times already.

09:34 I wouldn’t want to die to some wolf dressed as little red riding hood, though.

12:01 I can’t stop sneezing, I hope it’s ebola. Please, god, let it be ebola.

13:09 Oh my god I hate this school and everything it stands for.

13:13 When life gives you lemons, stuff them in your ears so you don’t have to listen to have the shit I do in the corridor.

13:20 “Oh my god he’s looking at my ass!” Yes because you sat on a twinkie.

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20/07

10:13 So I’m being sent off because of my attitude? I don’t have a fucking attitude.

10:15 Okay I have a bit of an attitude.

17:49 Beverly Hills, what a piece of shit. I can’t wait to be surrounded by tanned and bleached assholes.

17:53 With bleached assholes.

17:58 Why the fuck am I so funny?