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“There was a time I came out, but it was involuntarily. My dad found gay porn on the computer, that I had been looking at. I must of been like 13. Started watching porn young, and that’s another thing is how porn how fucked up my perception of the gay community. I was very ashamed. I cried about it, I said ‘I’m sorry, it’s not what it looks like.’ And I kind of came up with this excuse that I watch straight porn too, that I was Bi, to make it better. And he said, “Okay, well just don’t tell people that you’re gay. Just only act on your straight side, and hide the rest.”

Don’t be so mindful of how other gay men think of you. I cared so much coming out, about how my counterparts thought of me. I should of told myself to be willing to stick with the people who accept you for the unique individual you are.”

- Sam S.

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“I feel like the cliche is, ‘Just be you. don’t be so scared. Take a breath.’ But I think I would tell myself and anyone younger than me whose dealing with self-identity issues, that you’re on a loop, not a road. So don’t be so scared about the things you missed out on. Things that are meant to be, come back around. Stay positive.

And there’s something that i’ve been realizing lately as well, with my struggle with religion. It being a part of my life for a really long time, and me navigating it through my identification as gay. Every religion in the world is based in kindness, no matter what it is. There are a lot of negatives to every religion, some more than others. But at the heart of it is basic kindness. So if you move forward with your life everyday and do something kind, no one can take that away from you. No one can tell you that you’re 'damned’ for living your life not according to god.” - Bobby

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Billy: “I came out to my mom over a blooming’ onion at ‘Outback’. And she said, ‘Yea I know.’”

Nathan: "I did not come out till last year, as Bisexual. Back when I was in third grade, before I even knew what sex what… I was called gay for the first time. I didn’t even know what that meant. . I didn’t come out to my parents, till this past fall. I never felt close enough to talk with my parents about anything important. So I decided to write a letter to them. I was safe at school, and I had a support system there that could help through whatever the outcome was. It took what seemed like a year for the letter to get there and them to send a letter back. My mom texted me before they sent the letter back and said, ‘We got your letter. We love you and we’re sending a letter back.’ A few weeks letter I got that letter. And it wasn’t quite what I was hoping for. After getting that text, I thought it was going to be much more welcoming… and it wasn’t. It basically said, 'We love you. But we don’t agree with who you say you are.’ That was hard. Very hard. There was a even a part of letter saying to keep my private life private. So I actively defy that.”

Billy: “I wish I could go back and tell myself, 'You’ll find it’. The thing I did struggle with was never knowing if I was going to find somebody. I didn’t know what that love was. Because there was no one around that was queer growing up. No one could relate to me. Although I don’t look back on it with any resentment, because what it did was made me have to love myself, now that I’m ready to love other people.”

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“I think what blew my mind when I researched being Bisexual, was that it’s not 50/50. You don’t have to be 50% attracted to men and 50% attracted to women. If you feel like you are attracted to men, women, non-binary people, whatever… it can be 10%. I identify with percentages. Some people really hate it, so it’s not to define all Bisexuals. It’s just realizing that, it doesn’t have to be equal. Because I think in my mind when I thought Bisexual, I just really heard Bi or two or half. It doesn’t have to be 50/50. You can be 90% attracted to men, and 10% attracted to women and you can still consider yourself Bi.” / Morgan D.

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“Recently I went to this thing called, ‘Bear Your Soul’, which is a bunch of workshops where anyone who identifies as a bear can go. I think bigger men in the gay community, have it a lot harder. The downside is that there is a gay male standard, and it can be suffocating. So with the bear community, I had a great experience, and got to make a lot more friends that are bears and look more like me. Because what’s been challenging to me, is that when my gay friends and I go to a gay bar, I’m not necessarily the type of guy thats gonna get a lot of attention. I feel like all my gay friends tend to put only twinky guys on a pedestal. It can make me feel like Quasimodo. And… I think fat men are sexy. I do. And I think just because someone is overweight, doesn’t mean they aren’t sexually desirable. So within this bear community, I’ve found this accepting, body-positive group of people, who accept diversity in all of it’s forms.” - Sean P.

The first of a new LGBTQ+ Portrait Series I’m doing to share experiences and stories with the LGBTQ+ community. This is a way to shed light EVERYONE within the community. Because we are so much more than just the gay, white, masculine men you see. It’s time to represent more people within the community and share their stories!

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watch my roommate slay Radiohead’s “Creep” at our Senior Cabaret :)

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I’m sorry if I seem uninterested Or I’m not listenin’, or I’m indifferent Truly I ain’t got no business here But since my friends are here, I just came to kick it But really I would rather be at home all by myself Not in this room with people who don’t even care about my well-being