You and natasha are sent in as a couple to work a weapons broker at an upscale gala. the cover is airtight. you're both professionals. you've done this before. The problem is you haven't done it with her. and natasha romanoff touching you like you're hers and whispering mission updates against your ear is a lot harder to be professional about than anyone briefed you on.
Written May 16, 2026 —May 18, 2026
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You take longer in the bathroom than you mean to.
It's not nerves. You don't get nervous, or you do, and you've spent enough years training the evidence out of your body that the difference stopped mattering a long time ago. It's something else. Something quieter and more inconvenient than nerves, which is the fact that on the other side of this door is Natasha Romanoff, and tonight you have to stand next to her in a room full of people and pretend you're in love with her.
The pretending isn't the problem.
The problem is that you're starting to forget what the pretending feels like.
You check yourself in the mirror one last time. The dress is black, sleek, fitted, cut just low enough to be intentional. Your hair is done. Your earrings catch the light. You look, objectively, like a woman who has her life completely together, which is an excellent lie and you're grateful for it.
You open the door.
Natasha is at the vanity mirror across the room, fingers raised to her ear, working in an earring and she stops. Not gradually. Not the slow trailing off of someone distracted. She just stops, earring half in, hand suspended, and she looks at you in the mirror.
You watch her look at you.
It lasts three seconds. Maybe four. Long enough that you feel it move over you like something physical, her gaze, unhurried, taking in the dress and then up, your face, and then something happens in her expression that she almost immediately collects and puts away. Something that had no business being there on the face of a woman who is supposed to be a professional.
She finishes putting in the earring.
Looks back at the mirror. Adjusts it once though it didn't need adjusting.
"You're ready," she says. Not a question. Her voice is even and unbothered and tells you absolutely nothing.
"I'm ready," you confirm.
You don't smile. You do what you always do, you take it, fold it small, add it to the collection of things you keep about her that you don't examine too closely. The two hours on the extraction flight where she slept against your shoulder and you didn't move. The way she always knows where your hand is in a crowded room. The fact that she put your name in the request form for this op and told Fury it was because you were qualified, and Fury had looked at her for a moment too long before he agreed.
You're very good at collecting things and not examining them.
You cross the room to get your clutch off the bed.
That's when you see her dress properly, deep green, and devastating in the specific quiet way that Natasha does everything, not loud about it, just irrefutably true. It's doing something deeply unfair to her shoulders and you know for a fact she chose it and you know for a fact she knew exactly what it would do and you look at your clutch.
"You look good," you say, because you are a professional and professionals make neutral observations.
She glances at you in the mirror again. One corner of her mouth moves.
"I know," she says.
There it is. You almost laugh. Eight months of working next to the most self-possessed woman you've ever met and she can still catch you off guard with the sheer unbothered certainty of her. I know. No thank you, no deflection. Just the flat acknowledgment of fact from a woman who has never needed your confirmation and doesn't intend to start.
It should be annoying.
It is annoying.
It's also, and this is the part you don't examine, sort of the most attractive thing you've ever heard.
She picks up her clutch from the vanity. Inside it, you happen to know: one lipstick, one knife, one comm unit. Very Natasha.
"Let's go over parameters," she says, turning for the door.
"I know the parameters."
"Humor me."
You don't argue. Arguing with Natasha about mission prep is like arguing with weather, technically possible, completely pointless, and you'll end up doing what the weather wants anyway. You follow her out.
The car is a black SUV with tinted windows and Hill's voice already waiting in the earpiece when you climb in.
Natasha takes off her coat.
She crosses her legs and looks out the window.
You look out yours.
You get a two-minute debrief you already have memorized: Aldric Voss, weapons broker, mid-level but climbing. Known associates, exit points, your cover ID, a couple, eighteen months together, met through work, vague enough to be waterproof.
The city slides past in amber and dark. She's close enough that you can smell whatever she's wearing tonight, something warm, something that cost more than your first apartment, and you look at the window on your side very deliberately and think about the mission.
"You nervous?" she asks.
"No."
"You're doing the thing with your hands."
You look down. Your fingers are doing a slow press against your knee, one-two-three, one-two-three. Stress habit. You've had it since you were twenty-two and you've never successfully hidden it from her.
"I'm focused," you say.
"Mm." She's still looking out the window. "You need to be relaxed tonight. Couples are relaxed."
"I'm relaxed."
"Y/n."
"Natasha."
She finally looks at you and the city light through the window catches her eyes at an angle that's really unfair, is what it is. "I'm good at this," she says simply. "Cover. Persona. I've been doing it longer than you've been an agent. Just follow my lead and it'll read."
"I know you're good at it," you say. "That's not what I'm nervous about."
A beat. You realize half a second too late that you've said too muc, left the door open, and you watch her clock it, watch the small shift in her expression that means she filed it.
She doesn't push. She looks back out the window.
"Follow my lead," she says again, quieter.
You look back at yours.
One-two-three. One-two-three.
The gala is exactly what the briefing photos promised: too much money in one room, everyone dressed like they're auditioning for something, a string quartet earning their pay in the corner. The kind of event where the champagne is real and so is the danger and the two things coexist with a smoothness that always makes you feel slightly ill.
Natasha takes your arm at the door.
Just, takes it. Slides her hand into the crook of your elbow like she's done it a thousand times, which she hasn't, which your nervous system clocks immediately and thoroughly. Her grip is light. Her posture shifts, shoulders drop a fraction, chin lifts, the set of her mouth changes. She becomes someone softer. Someone with nothing to hide.
It's the most unsettling thing you've ever watched.
"Smile," she says from the side of her mouth, still looking forward. "We're happy."
"We're happy," you repeat, and smile, and hate that it doesn't feel entirely like acting.
You walk in.
The first twenty minutes are choreography.
You work the room the way you were trained, slow circuit, no urgency, let the crowd bring the target to you rather than hunting him directly. Natasha is extraordinary at this. You've worked with her before, field ops, extractions, twice in situations where both of you probably should have died and didn't purely out of stubbornness, but you've never watched her do this. The social work. The performance.
She laughs at something a man in a grey suit says and the laugh is perfect, warm, just shy of flattered, the exact sound of a woman who is charmed but not available. Her hand stays on your arm the whole time. Anchored there. When the man in the grey suit looks at you she angles slightly, just slightly, and the body language is so clean you almost don't catch it.
Almost.
She's pulling you in. Closing the gap between you without making it a thing, just leaning into your space until you're close enough that anyone looking would see a couple, would see someone who doesn't want distance between herself and her woman
You redirect your thoughts aggressively.
"Voss is at the bar," you say quietly, mouth barely moving.
"I know." Her fingers press briefly against your arm. "Don't look."
"I wasn't going to look."
"You were calculating an angle."
"That's not the same as—"
"He's not going anywhere. Relax."
You exhale slowly through your nose. Fine. Relaxed. You're the picture of a person enjoying a gala with someone they're absolutely not in love with, everything is completely normal.
A waiter passes with a tray. Natasha plucks two glasses off it without breaking the conversation she's half having with a woman in pearls and hands one back to you without looking, just, reaches back, finds your hand, presses the stem into it with the kind of easy intimacy that comes from time and attention and knowing someone.
You stare at the glass.
She knew where your hand was. She always knows where you are in a room, tactical awareness, you've told yourself, she's built that way, but that wasn't tactical. That was something else. That was the muscle memory of a person who reaches for someone because reaching for them is just what you do.
You drink the champagne. It's very good. It does nothing helpful.
Forty minutes in, she dances with you.
You'd like to say it was for the mission. You'd like to say Voss was watching or the angle required it or there was some clean operational reason that Natasha Romanoff took your hand and led you toward the floor without asking. Without explaining. Just a slight pressure at the small of your back and an expectation that you'd follow.
You followed.
If there was a reason, she doesn't share it.
She turns to face you and puts one hand at your waist and you put yours at her shoulder and you start to move and the thing is, the thing is, she's warm. You knew that in the abstract. You've been close to her before, in the field, in debrief rooms, once on a six hour extraction flight where she fell asleep against your shoulder and you stayed completely still for two hours because you didn't want to wake her. You know she's warm.
But her hand at your waist, steady and certain and not going anywhere, is a different kind of knowing entirely.
"Voss's contact is late," she says.
Her mouth is at your ear. Not quite touching, just close enough that her voice arrives before her breath does, low and even, meant only for you. A tactical update delivered at a register that does things to your concentration that are deeply inconvenient on an active op.
"How late?" you manage.
"Fifteen minutes." A pause. You turn with the music. Her grip at your waist tightens, not dramatically, just enough to guide, just enough to feel. "He's nervous. That's useful."
"Copy," you say, which is a completely normal thing to say and not at all the voice of someone whose higher functions are running at approximately forty percent.
She pulls back just far enough to look at you. Checks your face the way she checks everything, quickly, thoroughly, filing. Whatever she finds there she keeps to herself.
"You're doing well," she says.
"We established I'm good at this."
"I'm acknowledging it."
"Natasha Romanoff acknowledging someone else did something well." You let the pause breathe. "Should I be worried? Are you dying?"
Something moves across her face. Not quite a smile, she doesn't smile easily, and you've spent eight months learning to catch the things that happen instead. The slight softening. The fractional shift in her eyes.
"Focus," she says.
"I am focused."
"On the op."
"Obviously."
She exhales through her nose. You count that as a win.
You turn again with the music and that's when you feel it, the quality of her attention shifting. Still moving, still perfectly composed, but something underneath changes. A new kind of stillness. You keep your eyes on her and say nothing.
She sees him before she means to.
He's at the edge of the room, drink in hand, shoulders loose, the easy posture of a man who has never once in his life had to make himself smaller, and he is looking at you.
Not a threat. She'd already know. She's had the full room mapped since the moment you walked in together, every exit and variable catalogued and filed, and he is nobody. Soft hands. No tells. He is absolutely nobody and he is standing there looking at you in that dress with the specific expression of a man who has decided he'd like to do something about that, and something in Natasha's chest goes very, very still.
She keeps dancing.
Her hand stays at your waist. Her face stays composed. She gives him exactly three seconds of her peripheral vision and then she makes a decision, not consciously, not with any particular deliberation, she simply decides, and lets her eyes move.
She looks at him.
The full weight of it lands across the room like a hand around a throat. Her jaw sets, the line of it going sharp and certain beneath her skin. Her chin tilts up, barely, just the fraction of an inch that means she has assessed something and found it lacking. Her eyes, green and flat and depthless, the particular green of water that goes down further than you'd expect, settle on him with the unhurried patience of a woman who has never once needed to hurry.
Her brow lifts. One increment. The period at the end of a sentence that requires no words.
She has done this in dark rooms in six different countries. She has done this to men with weapons and men with power and men who thought they were untouchable, and every single one of them has made the correct decision. This man, with his soft hands and his expensive watch, is not going to be the exception.
But here is the thing, here is the thing she is fully, lucidly, uncomfortably aware of as she holds his gaze across a crowded room, this is not the same. This is not a threat assessment. This is not operational. There is no version of tonight's debrief where she writes down redirected civilian attention via sustained eye contact and means what she actually means, which is something rawer and more inconvenient than anything she'd put in a report.
She's mine.
Not performed. Not tactical. Just, true, in the quiet way that things are true when you stop arguing with them. True in the way that has been accumulating for eight months in the space between her professionalism and something she hasn't named yet and has no intention of naming tonight.
He looks away.
Good.
She looks back at you. You're watching her, you're always watching her, those eyes that take everything in like they're cataloguing her the same way she catalogues everything else, patient and thorough and giving nothing back. She doesn't know exactly what you saw. She knows you saw something.
She doesn't adjust her expression. She doesn't reach for an explanation.
Instead she moves.
Her arm slides around you, slow, smooth, the way she does everything, with the efficiency of someone who has decided and is simply following through, and her hand presses flat against the small of your back. Drawing you in. Closing whatever distance was left between your body and hers until there is very little of it, until you're held against her, encompassed by the line of her arms, her warmth wrapping around you with a completeness that has nothing to do with cover and everything to do with the thing she is not calling what it is.
She is aware she is doing this. She is fully, consciously aware.
She does it anyway.
Her red hair falls forward as she dips her head, one curtain of it brushing your cheek, warm and deliberate, the scent of it close enough to be a thing you'd remember, and she brings her mouth to your ear. Not touching. Just the proximity. Just her lips a breath away from your skin, close enough that the warmth of them would reach you, close enough that if she spoke it would arrive like a secret.
She doesn't speak.
She just stays there. Her jaw near your temple. Her lips at the curve of your ear. One hand flat at the small of your back and the other at your waist and her whole body a quiet wall between you and the rest of the room, between you and him, between you and anyone who might be under the impression that you are something available to be looked at without consequence.
She knows he's still watching. She can feel it, the way she feels everything she isn't looking at directly. And she knows, she knows, that what he sees right now is not a cover. Is not a performance. Is not two agents running a gala op in a city that doesn't care about either of them.
What he sees is a woman who has made something abundantly, irrevocably clear.
And she lets him see it.
She stays exactly where she is, lips at your ear, red hair falling soft between you, and she breathes out once, slow, controlled, the only concession she makes to the fact that her heart is doing something she would not put in a report, and lets the silence say everything she won't.
Then she straightens.
The red hair settles. Her hand moves back to your waist, one hand, appropriate, professional. Her face reassembles itself into something even and unreadable and composed, the mask back on so smoothly it would be invisible to anyone who didn't know where to look for the seams.
She is, she reminds herself, very good at this.
She is also, and this she acknowledges only briefly, only in the space between one breath and the next before she closes the door on it, completely aware that she stopped running cover a long time ago.
When she pulls back she's composed again. Completely. The mask is on and the op is running and her hand is at your waist and her expression gives you nothing.
Except.
You were watching. You caught the tail end of whatever that was, the quality of her gaze before it came back to you, the extra second at your ear where she said nothing at all. You've run enough ops to know what performing looks like. You know every tell of a woman pretending something is fine.
You say nothing. You add it to the collection, fold it careful and small, tuck it somewhere you won't examine until later, much later, when you're alone and she can't see you figuring her out.
Her hand at your waist does not move.
The man at the bar does not look back.
The music plays on, and you let yourself be held, and neither of you say a single word about any of it.
It's after the dance, during the slow drift back into the room, when she does the thing with the dress.
You've stopped near a tall window, good sightline to the bar, natural place to stand, and she's beside you, close, her arm just brushing yours. She glances down. Frowns, very slightly. Reaches out and adjusts something at your shoulder, a strap that had shifted maybe two millimeters out of place, and her fingers are careful and light and she's looking at what she's doing instead of at you.
"Just selling it," she says.
"Right," you say.
She smooths the strap once. Doesn't move her hand immediately.
"You know," you say, because apparently you've lost your self-preservation instincts somewhere between the car and the champagne, "most people don't have to remind themselves they're acting when they're acting."
Her hand stills.
"I don't know what that means," she says.
"Yeah you do."
She looks up. And this, this is the thing about Natasha, the thing that you have spent eight months carefully not examining, when she drops it, when the performance falls away and it's just her, just the actual her underneath all that careful control, she looks at you like you're the only solid thing in the room.
She looks at you like that now. Just for a second.
Then she looks back at the bar.
"Voss is moving," she says.
He is. You both straighten. The op reasserts itself, clean and welcome, something to do with your hands, a reason to be standing this close that has nothing to do with anything.
"Ready?" she asks.
"Always," you say.
She takes your arm again. You walk toward the bar. Her grip is just slightly tighter than before and you don't say anything about it and she doesn't either.
The system, holding.
For now.
It happens naturally, the way professional things do, Voss's contact finally arrives and the op requires coverage on two sides of the room at once. Natasha clocks it first, the way she clocks everything first, and she leans in close enough that her mouth brushes your ear when she speaks.
"Split up. You take the east side, draw out the associate by the column. I'll stay on Voss."
"Copy," you say.
She pulls back. Looks at you for just a half second longer than the mission requires.
Then you separate
You are focused, present, professional, and entirely on task, and you do not look for Natasha once.
What you do, approximately four minutes in, is hear her.
Her voice arrives in your earpiece low and warm and completely unhurried, the cover voice, the one that's softer than her real one, the one she puts on like a second skin, and she's talking to Voss.
"I've heard about your work in Vienna. My associate mentioned it actually, she has excellent taste."
A pause. Voss says something you don't catch.
"Oh, she's very selective." A small laugh, warm and practiced. "That's what I've always loved about her."
You become very focused on your associate's left cufflink.
Because that, the ease of it, the way she says loved like it costs her nothing, like it's just cover, like it's just words, is doing something to your concentration that you are not going to examine while you are actively on an op. You ask your associate a perfectly calibrated question about his employer's shipping routes and you do not think about Natasha Romanoff's voice saying that word in your ear.
You think about it for the next twenty minutes.
Across the room, Natasha finds you.
The first time is almost involuntary. She's mid-sentence with Voss, something charming, something that makes him laugh, the warm practiced ease of a woman who has made men feel interesting in four different languages, and her eyes move. Just for a second. Just long enough to find you across the crowd, to confirm you're there, to take in the easy angle of your shoulders and the way you've got the associate exactly where you want him.
She looks back at Voss.
Files it. Moves on.
Tells herself it was a tactical check.
The second time she's at the bar, waiting on a refresh, and the room has shifted enough that you're visible through a gap in the crowd. You're laughing at something the associate said, not a real laugh, she can tell the difference, she's always been able to tell the difference with you, and the line of your profile is caught in the warm overhead light and she watches for two seconds longer than any tactical check has ever required.
The bartender puts a glass in front of her.
She picks it up without looking at it.
The third time she's not even trying to justify it.
She's wrapped up a conversation, Voss circling back to the contact, the op running clean and smooth in the background the way good ops do, and she lets her eyes find you across the room because she wants to and she has apparently stopped arguing with herself about that.
You're there. Of course you're there. Working the room with that particular ease that she has spent eight months quietly cataloguing, the way you move through a crowd like you belong in it, the way you make people feel like the most interesting thing in the room without ever quite letting them have you.
She raises her glass and takes a slow sip.
And you look up.
Right at her.
Like you felt it. Like you knew.
She doesn't move. Doesn't adjust. Keeps the glass raised and her eyes on yours and lets the moment sit there between you, twenty feet of crowded room and a string quartet and the whole careful architecture of the last eight months, and she does not look away.
Neither do you.
Three seconds. Four. Five. Long enough that it stops being accidental on either side, long enough that something passes between you that has no tactical classification, long enough that she is aware, fully, uncomfortably, with complete clarity, that she is not performing anything right now.
Then someone steps between you, a body crossing the sight line, and the moment closes.
She lowers her glass.
Goes back to work.
Does not examine what just happened. Does not examine the fact that her pulse has done something she would not put in a report. Does not examine the way you looked at her like you already knew, like you've always known, like you've been waiting for her to stop pretending long enough to just
Voss moves toward his contact. She follows.
The fourth time she finds you she's already on her way back across the room, op nearly wrapped, Voss handled and filed. She's not looking for you. She doesn't have to look for you.
She just knows.
Her eyes find you through the crowd without searching, the way they always do, the way they have been doing all night, all eight months, if she's being honest, which she isn't, not yet, and you're there, exactly where she knew you'd be, and she lets herself watch you for just one unguarded moment before she schools her face and moves through the crowd toward you.
Her arm finds yours when she arrives. Slides in easy and warm, like it never left. Like this is simply where she ends up.
Because it is. That's the part she's been not examining. This is just where she ends up.
"Voss is clean," she says quietly. "Associate?"
"Account manager. Name and location. Hill's going to want it."
The corner of her mouth moves. Not a smile, the thing she does instead. "Good."
"I know," you say.
She glances at you sidelong. Something in your voice. Something dry and certain that catches in her chest the way you've always caught in her chest and she looks back at the room and says nothing about it.
The silence holds.
Then Voss moves.
Her eyes cut across the room. Mission, clean and immediate, the mask back in place between one breath and the next.
"He's going for the east exit," she says. "That's not on the brief."
"No," you say. "It isn't."
Her hand finds your arm. And you move, together, no words, no briefing, the kind of sync that only comes from time and attention and knowing someone down to the way they breathe in a tense room. Her hand steering slightly, you adjusting without being asked, cutting through the crowd like one thing, not two.
She has spent eight months telling herself that this, this particular feeling, this specific ease, is professionalism. Training. Field familiarity.
She is no longer telling herself that.
You reach the corridor just as Voss slips through the east exit.
Her hand tightens on your arm.
"Ready?" she murmurs.
You look at her. The mission in her eyes, and underneath it, still there, not put away, not this time, the other thing. The real thing. Looking right back at her.
"Always," you say.
And you go in.
The corridor is narrow and dim and smells like old carpet and money, the kind of back hallway that exists in every building like this, the one the staff uses, the one that connects the public rooms to the private ones, the one that Voss just slipped into with the quiet purposefulness of a man who doesn't want to be followed.
You follow him anyway. Natasha three steps behind you, silent.
Voss stops at a door near the end of the corridor. Produces a key card. Your hand moves to the comm unit, ready to relay to Hill. And that's when you hear it.
Not from the corridor. From the earpiece. A voice, young, female, clipped with the particular tension of someone trying very hard to sound calm "
This is Reyes, I have eyes on the asset, I'm moving to make contact—"
You and Natasha go still at exactly the same moment.
"Reyes, stand down." Hill's voice, sharp. "Do not make contact, I repeat—"
"I have a clear window, I'm taking it—"
"Agent Reyes, that is a direct order—"
And then another voice, male, younger, with the breathless energy of someone who has already made a decision "Cole in position, I've got the east side covered, Reyes go—"
"Cole, stand DOWN—"
You look at Natasha.
Natasha is already looking at the end of the corridor, where it opens back into the main gala room, and her expression is the specific expression of a woman who has just watched two people set something on fire and is calculating exactly how fast it's going to spread.
It spreads fast.
Through the corridor entrance you can see it unfold in real time, Reyes, young and dark-haired and moving with the misplaced confidence of someone who thought they saw an opening, crossing the room toward the SHIELD asset with all the subtlety of a person who has trained for six months and believes that is enough.
And Cole, flanking from the east side, doing exactly what a panicking rookie does when they realize too late that the plan is already wrong, overcorrecting, moving too fast, drawing the eye of every person in a thirty foot radius.
Voss hears it before he sees it.
Some shift in the room's atmosphere, the specific change in energy that a man who has survived this long learns to read, and he turns. Slowly. His eyes move to Reyes, to Cole, to the asset between them, and you watch the calculation happen behind his eyes, clean and fast and professional.
Then his eyes move to the corridor.
"Abort." Natasha's voice in the earpiece is flat and final. "Hill, we're pulling out."
"Confirmed, Romanoff. Reyes, Cole — you are blown, extract immediately—"
"Wait—" Reyes, realizing. "Wait, I can still—"
"You are done," Natasha says, and there is something in her voice that closes the conversation like a door being shut. "Both of you. Out."
She doesn't wait for the response.
She steps forward, in front of you, between you and the corridor entrance, between you and Voss's eyeline, and her hand closes around your arm.
"We're leaving," she says. Not loud. Not urgent. The tone of a woman who has already made every calculation and doesn't need to hurry because she's already three steps ahead of whatever happens next.
She steers you back down the corridor, away from Voss, away from Reyes and Cole and the mess they've made of the east room. Her hand is on your arm and her body is angled slightly in front of yours and she moves with the unhurried certainty of someone running a controlled exit, not a retreat.
It works because it always works. Because she's Natasha Romanoff and this is what she does.
You reach the side exit without a single person looking twice.
The car is waiting exactly where it should be. She opens the door and her hand is at your back and you're inside before you've finished processing what just happened and she slides in beside you and the door closes and the city starts moving past the windows.
She doesn't look at you.
In your earpiece Hill's voice comes through tight and clipped "intel is secure, cover held, Reyes and Cole are being extracted, debrief tomorrow oh-seven-hundred" and then the channel goes quiet and it's just the two of you and the city and twelve minutes of silence that has a specific weight to it.
You watch her in your peripheral vision. The straight line of her shoulders. The set of her jaw. Her hand on the inside door handle, gripping it in a way that has nothing to do with the car moving.
She doesn't look at you once.
Not for twelve minutes.
You don't say anything either. You think about the corridor, her stepping forward, placing herself between you and Voss's eyeline before you'd even registered the threat. The way it happened before it was a decision. The way she hasn't looked at you since.
You file it.
For now.
The hotel room door closes behind you.
You set your clutch on the nightstand. She sets hers on the vanity. You reach back to unclasp your earring and she moves to the window and looks out at the city and the silence in the room has weight to it now, the kind that accumulates over twelve minutes of nothing and lands all at once.
You take out the second earring.
"Reyes and Cole," you say. Neutral. Conversational.
"Yes," she says. Still at the window.
"First field op?"
"Second." A beat. "Which somehow makes it worse."
"The intel's still clean. Cover held. Hill has everything she needs."
"I know."
"So." You set the earrings down. "We're fine."
She turns from the window.
"You were out of position," she says.
You look at her. "I was exactly where you put me."
"When the contact arrived you should have pulled back to the secondary—"
"If I'd pulled back Voss would have had a clear corridor and we'd have lost him entirely—"
"That wasn't your call to make—"
"It absolutely was, I was the one standing there with eyes on—"
"We had protocols, Y/n—"
"Natasha." You face her fully. "It worked. All of it. The only thing that didn't work tonight was Reyes and Cole and that has nothing to do with me—"
"It could have." Her voice drops. Gets quieter. That's the tell, you know that by now, the way her volume decreases as the thing she's actually saying increases.
"If they'd moved thirty seconds earlier you would have been in that corridor without cover and Voss would have had eyes on you and I was—"
She stops.
You go still.
I was. The sentence trailing off into the room like smoke.
"You were what?" you ask. Quiet.
"Nothing." She looks back at the window. "Get some sleep. Debrief is—"
"Natasha."
"—oh-seven-hundred—"
"Natasha."
"Drop it."
"You were what." Not a question this time. Something steadier than a question.
A long pause. The city outside is indifferent and glittering and she stares at it like it owes her something.
"You stepped in front of me," you say. "In the corridor. Voss didn't even have eyes on us yet and you stepped in front of me."
Nothing.
"That wasn't tactical," you say. "That was—"
"I said drop it—"
"You were scared," you say. "You were scared and you won't say it and now you're standing at a window picking a fight about protocol because it's easier than—"
She turns.
And crosses the room.
And her hand finds the back of your neck, certain and warm and without a single moment of hesitation, fingers pressing up into your hair, and she kisses you.
Not soft. Not careful. Not the measured thing of a woman who is uncertain. This is eight months arriving all at once, her hand firm at the back of your neck like she's been waiting to put it there, like she decided somewhere between the window and here and didn't once stop to argue with herself about it.
You melt into it.
That's the only word for it, the argument dissolving out of your chest like it was never there, your hands finding her without instruction, your body making a decision your brain is still catching up to. You kiss her back and it's nothing like you imagined. It's better.
It's eight months of careful distance collapsing all at once and the specific relief of it moves through you like a current, warm and total, and you make a sound against her mouth that you don't plan and don't take back.
Her hand tightens at the back of your neck.
The kiss deepens, not gradually, not carefully, but with the particular certainty of two people who have been waiting too long and have simply stopped being careful. Her mouth is warm and deliberate and she kisses you the way she does everything, like she's already decided, like she knows exactly what she wants and the only thing that was ever stopping her was the thing neither of you were naming.
You give it back.
Your hand finds her jaw and you tilt into her, angle shifting, matching everything she's giving and then some, and you feel the small catch in her breath, feel the way her whole body reacts to it, the subtle arch toward you, the grip at the back of your neck going from certain to something that borders on desperate, and that undoes you a little. More than a little. You press closer, eliminate the last fraction of space between your bodies, and she makes a sound low in her throat that you are going to be thinking about for a very long time.
Her other hand finds your waist.
Pulls.
Like she's been wanting to do it all night, like every careful professional touch, every tactical adjustment, every time her hand found you and had to have a reason, was building to this, to her hands on you with no reason required, no cover to maintain, nothing to perform for anyone. Just want. Just her wanting you and not doing anything about it except pulling you closer and kissing you like the argument was foreplay and eight months was foreplay and the entire evening was foreplay and she is done, she is so done, being patient about this.
You walk her back. Or she walks you back, honestly you're not sure, it's collaborative, two people moving in the same direction with the same urgency, until something meets your back and you don't care what it is.
Her body is against yours and her mouth is on yours and her hand has moved from your jaw into your hair and the grip of it sends something down your spine that makes your breath stutter.
She pulls back.
Just enough to look at you.
Her lipstick is still perfect. Her red hair has come loose on one side, falling forward, and she doesn't fix it. Her eyes are dark and close and the mask isn't just gone it's nowhere, there's no trace of it, there's nothing between you and the real her, the actual her, the one she keeps underneath everything, and she's looking at you like she's been hungry for a long time and has finally decided to do something about it.
Her chest rises and falls. Once.
Her thumb traces the line of your jaw, slow, unhurried, like she's been wanting to do it for months and is taking her time now that no one can stop her, and her eyes follow the movement and come back to yours and what's in them makes your stomach drop in the best possible way.
movement and come back to yours and stay there.
The silence holds for exactly one more second.
Then her eyes drop. Your mouth. Back up. And when she speaks her voice is low and unhurried and completely certain, the voice of a woman who has made a decision and is done negotiating with herself about it.
"I want to take this dress off you," she says. "I've wanted to since I saw you walk out of that bathroom."
"Then take it off," you say.
She kisses you.
Deep and deliberate, her hand sliding from your jaw into your hair, and when she pulls back you're both breathing differently and her eyes are darker than they were a second ago.
"I've been thinking about what's underneath it," she says, low, right against your mouth. "All night."
Something pulls tight in your stomach. "All night," you repeat. "And you said nothing."
"I'm saying it now."
Her fingers find the zipper at your back, slow, deliberate, not rushing, like she wants you to feel every second of it, and you reach for her too, hands finding the fabric at her waist, pulling the green dress taut.
"You're not the only one," you say. "Who was thinking."
She pauses. Looks at you. Something shifts in her expression, darker, more interested, the look of a woman who has just been handed something she intends to do something about.
"No?" she says.
"No."
Her mouth curves. Not a smile, something better than a smile, something with teeth in it.
"Tell me," she says, and her fingers resume their work, and yours do too, and the green dress and the black dress and the whole long evening are all running out of time simultaneously.
You feel the zipper give. Her fingers trail the newly exposed skin of your back and you breathe out.
"I was thinking," you say, "about your mouth."
Her fingers pause.
"All night," you continue, steady, holding her gaze. "Every time you put it near my ear. Every time you smiled at something Voss said and I had to stand there and watch and do nothing about it."
She looks at you for a moment. Something shifts in her expression, darker, more focused, the look of a woman recalibrating.
"What about my mouth," she says. Low. Not a question, a pull.
"What I wanted it to do," you say. "Where I wanted it."
The silence lasts exactly one second.
Then her hands are moving again, more purposeful now, less patient,and she steps closer and her mouth finds your jaw, your throat, and she says against your skin: "Show me."
Your breath catches.
"Natasha—"
"Show me," she says again, quieter, right at your pulse point, and you feel her smile there. "Where."
Your hand finds her hair. Guides her. And she goes, willingly, without hesitation, like she's been waiting to be told, and the sound she makes when she gets there is
Her zipper gives completely under your other hand. The green dress falls.
She pulls back just long enough to look at you. Flushed, hair loose, eyes so dark they've swallowed the green entirely, and she looks at you like you are something she intends to take her time with.
"Bed," she says. One word. The voice that closes rooms.
You go.
The backs of your knees hit the mattress, and you go down without breaking eye contact.
The sheets are cool against your overheated skin, a sharp contrast to the way Natasha crawls over you, predatory and graceful. The green silk is a forgotten puddle on the floor, leaving her bare in the dim light, stunning and terrifyingly focused.
She settles between your legs, her hands planted on either side of your head, caging you in. Her hair falls around your faces like a curtain, blocking out everything but her. She's so close you can feel her breath against your lips, see the way her pupils swallow the green of her eyes.
You lift a hand, tracing the sharp curve of her jaw before your palm settles against her cheek. Her skin is impossibly soft, burning hot beneath your touch. She leans into it instantly, eyes fluttering shut for a fleeting second as her expression softens from predator to something much tenderer.
"You're so beautiful," you whisper, watching the admission shatter her composure.
With careful, deliberate movements, Natasha finishes unhooking your dress, sliding the fabric down your body to reveal your bare skin. Her eyes drink in the sight of you, her pupils dilating as she takes in every curve and detail.
She runs her hands over your newly exposed flesh, worshipping your form with her touch.
Her touch skims over your collarbone, down between your breasts, tracing the curve of your waist before her palms spread flat across your stomach.
A shuddering breath escapes her as she leans down, pressing her forehead to yours.
"Absolutely breathtaking," she murmurs against your lips, her voice thick with something far deeper than lust. Her thumbs brush your lower lip, gentle and reverent.
You surge forward, crashing your lips against hers in a deep, hungry kiss that steals the air from your lungs.
Mid-kiss, she captures your hand, guiding it down the front of her torso until she slips it firmly between her thighs. The sensation makes you gasp sharply against her mouth, you can feel exactly how hard she is for you, throbbing and desperate beneath your fingertips.
"Feel that?" she breathes against your mouth, hips shifting to press more firmly into your touch. "That's what you do to me. One look, one touch, and I'm harder than I've ever been in my life."
"God, Natasha..." You whisper, your voice shaking with desire. You can feel her length pulsing against your palm, and you can't help but squeeze gently, making her suck in a sharp breath. "You have no idea what you do to me."
She lets out a ragged moan, her forehead dropping heavily against your shoulder as your fingers tighten around her. "I think I have some idea," she pants, her hips bucking instinctively into your grip. "You're destroying my control, sweetheart. Every single inch of me is screaming for you."
"Then don't hold back," you murmur, your thumb tracing slow circles over the leaking tip, feeling her shudder and drip in your palm.
"Fuck," she groans, her composure finally shattering as she grinds herself desperately against your hand. "I want to fuck you so bad it hurts. I want to be deep inside you, feel you clench around me, hear you scream my name until you're hoarse." Her words come out in a heated rush, raw and unrestrained.
"God, yes," you whimper, your legs spreading wider as you imagine her thick length filling you completely. Your own arousal drips down your inner thighs, and you can feel yourself growing increasingly wet and needy. "Natasha, please," you beg, squeezing her hard length again. "Fuck me."
"Not yet," she grits out, wrenching her hips back just enough to escape your grasp. Before you can protest, she's moving down your body, kissing and biting at your skin until her face is level with your dripping core. Her eyes rolling back at the sight of you.
"Natasha," you gasp, lifting your head to look down at her.
Her expression is one of pure hunger, her gaze locked onto your glistening folds like a starving woman presented with a feast. Without a word, she leans in and drags her tongue through your wetness, tasting you deeply.
Your back bows instantly off the mattress, a sharp moan tearing from your throat as her tongue flattens against your clit. She eats you with a terrifying intensity, alternating between broad, heavy strokes and pinpoint flicks that make your toes curl.
Your hands fly to her hair, tangling in the red strands to anchor yourself against the overwhelming pleasure.
"Natasha, oh god."
"Mmm," she hums against you, the vibration sending shockwaves through your system.
She spreads your legs wider, burying her face deeper between your trembling thighs. Her hands grip your hips, lifting them slightly to change the angle and expose you even more to her merciless mouth.
You moan out, your thighs trembling as her tongue finds that perfect spot inside you and circles it relentlessly.
Pleasure builds like a storm behind your navel, your nails scraping against her scalp as you hold her tight against your soaking core.
"I'm close," you warn in a broken voice. "Natasha, I'm gonna—"
She doesn't slow down.
Your eyes roll back in your head as she sucks your clit into her mouth and flattens her tongue against it. You scream, your entire body convulsing as your orgasm hits you like a truck.
She swallows every drop of your arousal, lapping at your folds like a woman possessed.
Only when your trembling begins to subside does she pull back, her chin and lips glistening with your release. She crawls up your body, pressing her wet face into your neck with a satisfied groan.
"Still want me to fuck you?" she asks, her breath hot against your ear, her hard length dragging against your overstimulated folds.
"Yes," you whimper desperately.
Without hesitation, she slips between your thighs, her thick head pushing against your sensitive entrance. You spread wider, pulling your knees back to give her better access.
She grabs your legs, spreading them even wider and hooking them over her shoulders for leverage.
"Fuck," she groans, pushing in slowly despite her obvious desperation.
You're so wet and sensitive from your orgasm that she slips in easier than expected, but you're still tight enough to make her see stars.
Natasha's jaw tightens as she pulls out slowly, watching her wet, shiny length slide out of you. She pushes back in with equal slowness, her eyes fluttering at the incredible sensation of your tightness surrounding her. Out, then in, out...
"Natasha," you moan, your walls fluttering around her despite her agonizingly slow pace.
You grip the sheets, needing something more to anchor yourself as she rocks back and forth at this torturous rate.
"You're so tight," she grits out, her hips stuttering as she watches herself disappear inside you. "You feel so good," she admits, her voice strained with effort.
She pulls out almost completely before pushing back in, her eyes rolling back at how perfectly you squeeze her.
"Fuck," you whimper, your nails digging into her arms as she continues that slow, deep thrusting. Each withdrawal leaves you feeling empty, each push back in hits that perfect spot inside you.
"Natasha... please..." You're begging without even knowing what for....more speed? Deeper?
"Please what, sweetheart?" she whispers, her voice dangerously low as she leans down to nip at your bottom lip.
She pulls out slowly, her length sliding out until only the tip remains inside you. She holds still, teasing you with that shallow penetration.
"More," you pant, trying to lift your hips to take her back in. "Fuck, Natasha, give me more." You need her deeper, faster anything but this agonizing slow pace that's driving you mad.
"Deeper?" she asks softly, pushing back in slightly slower than before, watching as her length disappears into your tight heat. "Like this?" She pulls out again, leaving just the tip inside, making you whimper. "Or do you want it faster?"
"Yes, like that," you gasp, your head falling back against the pillow as she bottoms out inside you. "And faster, please Natasha, fuck me faster."
Your legs tighten around her waist, heels digging into her ass to encourage her.
With a low moan, Natasha starts moving faster, her hips snapping forward with more force. The slow torture is replaced by deep, quick thrusts that make the bed shake and your breasts bounce.
She hooks your legs higher over her shoulders, changing the angle to hit deeper inside you.
"Oh god, just like that!" you moan out, your back arching beautifully off the mattress as she hits that perfect spot inside you. The new angle is devastating, allowing her to plunge so deep you see stars with every thrust. "Don't stop, Natasha, please don't stop."
Natasha's composure finally shatters. Her head falls back, exposing the long, elegant line of her throat as a loud, broken moan tears from her lips. Her eyes roll back, lost in the overwhelming sensation of your heat gripping her tightly.
"Fuck—oh god, you feel so good," she pants breathlessly, her rhythm faltering slightly as pure pleasure washes over her.
She's reduced to incoherent moans and curses, her hips moving wildly as she loses herself in the feeling of being buried deep inside you. One hand grips your thigh tightly while the other reaches down to spread you wider, giving herself better access.
"Natasha..." You whimper her name like a prayer, your voice breaking on a high note as she hits that perfect spot inside you again.
Your hands fly to her bouncing breasts, squeezing the soft mounds desperately as pleasure overwhelms you both.
Natasha leans down, capturing your mouth in a messy, passionate kiss that steals your breath. You pant into each other's mouths, tongues tangling as she continues thrusting hard and deep.
The kiss is sloppy and needy, a perfect reflection of how desperately she's fucking you.
With a low groan, Natasha pulls out slowly, her wet length slipping free of your dripping core. You both watch, panting heavily, as she brings the tip to your mouth.
"Taste how wet you are," she pants, rubbing her slick head against your lips.
You open your mouth obediently, your tongue darting out to lick along the tip, tasting yourself mixed with her. Natasha moans, thrusting slightly deeper between your lips.
"Good girl... Suck," she commands breathlessly, gripping your hair. You wrap your lips around her and take her into your mouth, bobbing your head as she slowly thrusts down your throat.
Natasha's eyes roll back into her head as your mouth works her wet length, your tongue swirling around the tip while you suck eagerly.
A moan rips from her throat, her thighs trembling as pleasure rockets through her.
She grips your hair tighter, fucking your mouth with shallow, desperate strokes while her head falls back, completely lost to the sensation.
Her red hair falls wildly around her face and shoulders, green eyes squeezed shut as she rocks her hips forward, feeding you more of her length.
Your own hair is messy from her fingers, face flushed and dripping with saliva as you enthusiastically take her, cheeks hollowing out with each suck.
Natasha's large, round breasts bounce freely with each thrust into your mouth. Yours heave with every breath you take around her length.
Natasha's thick, veiny length glistens with a mix of spit and precum, stretching your lips wide as you suck her. Her green eyes are still rolled back, mouth open in a silent moan.
Your jaw works overtime, tongue flattened against her shaft while you bob your head eagerly, cheeks caving with each greedy suck as a string of saliva connects with each suck.
Natasha's green eyes flutter open, half-lidded and glassy with pleasure as she looks down at you. Her gaze is fixated on her length disappearing between your stretched lips, a low groan rumbling in her chest at the sight.
She watches, transfixed, as your mouth works her over eagerly, the wet sounds of your sucking filling the room.
With a pop, Natasha pulls her length out of your mouth, a string of saliva connecting your lips to the tip.
She drags the wet head down your between the valley of your breasts, coating each before moving lower.
She presses the tip against your clit, rubbing it in slow circles that make your whole body shudder.
"I need to come so bad..." Natasha moans, her voice trembling with desperation.
She rubs her wet tip against your clit, teasing you both mercilessly.
You respond by spreading your legs wider and arching your back, wordlessly begging for her to fill you again.
"Then fuck me," you whisper breathlessly, your hips lifting toward her.
Natasha groans, sinking her length deep inside you in one smooth thrust.
"Fuck—" she gasps, her forehead dropping to your shoulder as she starts moving, chasing her release with every deep stroke. Her pace quickens, chasing that edge.
Your eyes roll back, a desperate moan escaping your lips as you grip the sheets beneath you.
"I'm— I'm close," you gasp, your walls tightening around her in warning.
Natasha pushes deeper, her hand sliding between your bodies to find your clit, two fingers pressing against it as she thrusts harder.
"Come on my dick," she demands it, her fingers rubbing tight circles against your sensitive bud as she drives into you relentlessly.
The pressure snaps instantly, your back bowing off the mattress as a scream tears from your throat. Your vision whites out, your entire body shaking violently as you clamp down around her, dragging her over the edge with you.
"That's it, baby," she grits out, pounding you through it. "Fuck!"
Natasha's entire body goes rigid above you, her length pulsing deeply inside you as she comes with a strangled cry. Her hips stutter, losing rhythm as she spills into you, painting your tight walls white with her thick release.
Her head drops to your shoulder, teeth grazing your collarbone as aftershocks wrack through her.
A broken moan vibrates against your skin, her fingers still pressed to your clit as she rides out every pulse inside you.
"You feel— fuck— can't stop—" She's trembling, entire body locked in the aftermath, completely undone beneath her usually composed exterior.
"Natasha..." you moan softly, your hands sliding up her trembling arms to hold onto her as your own orgasm fades.
Your body feels like jelly, completely spent and utterly satisfied. You nuzzle into the side of her neck, placing gentle kisses along her jaw as she catches her breath against you.
Natasha presses lingering, open mouthed kisses against your collarbone, her lips trembling against your skin.
It's a reverent, grounding touch, the final release of months upon months of tightly wound control finally snapping. She holds you impossibly close, burying her face in the crook of your neck as if anchoring herself to reality.
"I've needed this," she whispers hoarsely, her voice thick with emotion. "Needed you—so fucking badly."
Her arms tighten around you practically painfully, 8 months of suppressed desire pouring out in every tender kiss she presses against your neck.
"You have no idea...How much I've craved your touch... your voice... your smile," she murmurs roughly, trailing kisses down to your chest. "Being with you—it's heaven. Pure, perfect heaven after so long in hell."
"I'm right here," you whisper softly, running your fingers through her hair gently. "I'm not going anywhere." You tilt your head up to press a tender kiss on her lips, pouring all of your love and dedication into it. "I've been waiting for you, too."
Natasha's eyes flutter shut at your words, a soft sigh escaping her lips as she leans into your touch. She presses her forehead against yours, her breath mingling with yours as she just... exists in the moment with you.
For the first time in a long time, she feels at peace. At home.
Summary: Natasha thought keeping things casual would be simple, that is, until the lines between what’s casual and what’s not start to blur.
Warnings: fluff, light angst, sexual themes
Words: 5768
The Avengers Compound kitchen is unusually calm that afternoon. Just the quiet hum of the coffee machine and the soft afternoon light spilling through the large windows as the two agents engage in a deeply serious debate.
“No, but listen,” Clint insists from the other side of the kitchen counter. “They made a good point.”
Natasha barely looks up from where she’s resting her forearms against the counter as she waits for her coffee to finish, but the faint curve of her lips shows she’s listening.
“If we put Thor’s hammer on some sort of tray,” Clint continues, gesturing with both hands to illustrate the concept, “and then pick up the tray…technically that counts as lifting the hammer, right?”
Natasha hums thoughtfully, tilting her head in exaggerated contemplation.
“Hmm,” she says slowly. “Interesting point.”
Clint brightens immediately.
“But,” Natasha adds, her green eyes glinting with amusement as she turns to him, “would it be you who’s worthy…or the tray?”
Clint opens his mouth and then pauses. His brows slowly knit together as he processes the loophole she just introduced.
Natasha watches him rub his chin in concentration, a small, amused huff leaving her nose. She shifts her weight slightly against the counter, enjoying the rare moment of downtime.
It’s peaceful, which is exactly why she doesn’t notice the footsteps approaching before a pair of arms suddenly slips around her waist from behind.
The action comes with a familiar ease as the warm body settle lightly against her back. Before she can turn, a chin rests comfortably on her shoulder.
“I know who’s worthy,” you murmur, your voice low as your words brush against the shell of her ear.
Natasha’s smirk appears instantly. She tilts her head just enough to glance at you from the corner of her eye, one brow arching in amusement.
“Do you now?” she asks, playing along.
You nod, a confident little grin spreading across your face.
“Mmmhmm.”
Your arms remain loosely wrapped around her waist, casual and unapologetic. One of your hands slips beneath the hem of her shirt, fingertips lightly brushing the skin at her side.
“And she’s pretty cute too,” you add offhandedly. “Especially when she wishes me luck before I leave for my mission.”
Natasha snorts softly under her breath.
“And if I don’t?”
“Then we’re going to have a problem,” you warn in playful threat.
Natasha simply raises her brow, unmoved by your words.
When it’s clear she’s not budging, you tilt your head and respond with an exaggerated pout, batting your eyelashes at her with ridiculous enthusiasm.
“Come on,” you say dramatically. “Don’t leave me hanging, Romanoff.”
Natasha chuckles at your antics, shaking her head. Still, she turns within your arms until she’s facing you. Her hands rise to your face, cupping it with easy familiarity as her thumbs brush gently across your cheeks.
For a moment, the playful noise of the room fades into the background.
“Good luck on your mission,” Natasha says softly.
Your smile appears instantly, but then—
Flick.
Her finger taps your forehead.
“Hey—!” you protest, instantly bringing your hands up to soothe the spot.
Natasha’s lips curl into a small, teasing smirk.
“Don’t do anything reckless,” she adds.
You respond with an exaggerated pout.
Before you can retaliate, the calm kitchen atmosphere is abruptly interrupted as FRIDAY’s voice echoes through the room, calling your name.
“Mr. Stark has requested me to inform you that if you are not in the hangar bay in the next sixty seconds, he will leave without you.”
A beat passes before she continues.
“Fifty-eight…fifty-seven…fifty-six…”
You roll your eyes and sigh.
“Alright, guess I’m going now.”
You back away, already heading toward the doors, though you pause long enough to point a warning finger at Natasha.
“This isn’t over,” you tell her with mock seriousness. “I’m getting back at you when I return.”
Natasha leans casually against the counter again, folding her arms.
“Sure you will,” she replies, entirely unconvinced.
You point at her again as if issuing a formal threat. Then you disappear through the doors.
Natasha watches them slide shut behind you before a quiet chuckle escapes her.
When she turns back around, she finds Clint staring at her with a raised brow. It’s the look he gets when he thinks he’s figured something out.
Natasha narrows her eyes.
“What’s with your face?”
Clint leans forward slightly against the counter, folding his arms.
“So,” he says carefully, “are you two together now?”
Natasha’s expression immediately flattens.
“No,” she says, her tone firm. “You already know what kind of relationship I have with her.”
Clint waves his hand vaguely.
“Right, right. The whole casual friends-with-benefits situationship.”
He points toward the door you just exited through.
“However…”
Natasha already doesn’t like where this is going.
“…that just now seemed a bit on the coupley side of things.”
Natasha rolls her eyes at his ridiculous observation.
“It was a hug, Clint.”
“Uh-huh.”
Clint nods thoughtfully.
“I mean,” he continues, “Laura hugs me like that all the time.”
Natasha gives him an unimpressed stare at his comparison. What you did just now is not the same thing.
“It’s just a hug,” she insists.
“Sure,” Clint says with a shrug. Then he tilts his head slightly. “But have you seen her hug anyone else like that?”
Natasha opens her mouth, but then she pauses. Her eyes narrow slightly as she thinks about it.
Because…no. Not really.
You’re friendly. You joke with everyone. You throw your arms around someone’s shoulders sometimes during celebrations or victories.
But that kind of hug?
Arms around the waist. Chin on the shoulder. Body pressed against hers.
That was different. You don’t usually do affectionate stuff like that outside the bedroom.
Still, Natasha quickly pushes the thought aside.
You and she spent last night together. Maybe it was just leftover affection from that.
Except, for some reason, the thought of you hugging someone else like that causes a strange irritation in her chest.
Natasha frowns faintly at the feeling. Then she shakes her head, brushing the thought away.
“You’re overanalyzing,” she says firmly. “It meant nothing.”
Clint raises both hands in surrender.
“If you say so.”
His expression, however, clearly says he doesn’t believe her. Still, he’s learned not to push Natasha when she uses that tone.
Instead, he nods toward the counter again.
“So,” Clint says casually, returning to the earlier debate, “picking up the tray with Thor’s hammer on top?”
Natasha smirks again.
“Doesn’t make you worthy.”
Clint sighs dramatically.
“Damn.”
~~~~~~~ ⧗ ~~~~~~~
The room is quiet.
Not the brittle, suffocating silence that sometimes settles over the Compound after a mission. Not the kind that presses in from all sides and demands to be filled.
This one is softer. Almost fragile. The kind that lingers in the aftermath of something warm.
Natasha lies awake on her back, eyes fixed on the ceiling above her.
Sleep refuses to come.
It hovers just out of reach, close enough that she can feel it pulling at her, but never quite close enough to take hold.
Beside her, your body is warm. You’re tucked into her side beneath the sheets, your presence a steady, grounding weight against her. Your arm rests loosely around her waist, fingers curled just slightly against her stomach like you’d fallen asleep mid-thought.
Your breathing is slow and even. Soft against her skin.
You usually aren’t here this long.
Most nights follow a pattern—one that neither of you ever bothered to name, but both of you understand perfectly. It starts the same. You come together, lose yourselves for a while, share a few quiet moments afterward. Sometimes, a conversation drifts lazily between nothing and everything. A few smirks, maybe a teasing remark.
And then you leave.
Always before it lingers too long. Always before it can become something else.
But tonight is different.
You had just gotten back from a mission, longer than usual, rougher by the look of it. Natasha had seen it in the way your shoulders carried tension, in the way your movements were just a fraction slower than normal. And so, the moment you stepped off the jet, she had taken you into her arms and pulled you straight into her room.
Instinct. Habit. Maybe something else.
Clothes hadn’t lasted long. They never do.
But afterward, after a momentary respite of just losing yourselves in each other, instead of leaving, you had just curled into her side, exhaled once, and fallen asleep almost instantly, like your body had finally given out the moment it felt safe enough to.
And Natasha had let you stay.
Slowly, her gaze shifts, and she looks down at you.
Your face is half-hidden against her collarbone, your hair slightly disheveled, messy in that way that comes from both sleep and everything that came before it.
For a long moment, she simply watches you.
There’s something unguarded about you like this. Something softer than the version of you she usually sees—the one who jokes, who fights, who moves through the world with sharp edges and practiced confidence. This version of you seems like it’s reserved for her eyes only.
And Natasha doesn’t know what to do with that.
Inevitably, her mind drifts. Back to the kitchen. The hug. Clint’s words.
Her chest tightens slightly at the memory, the feeling subtle but persistent. Annoyingly so. And with it comes the thought she had pushed down at the time.
Did it mean anything?
“You’re thinking really loud,” you mumble against her skin. The words are rough with sleep, barely formed, but they cut cleanly through her thoughts.
Natasha blinks, startled, her gaze snapping back down to you.
Your eyes are only half-open, unfocused, like you’re hovering somewhere between awake and asleep.
“You’re awake?” she murmurs quietly.
“Barely,” you grumble.
You shift slightly, adjusting your position so your chin rests more comfortably against her shoulder. Your arm wraps firmly around her waist in an absent, instinctive movement.
Natasha’s gaze flickers downward to your hand, resting against her stomach. Then back to your face.
“What was with that hug before you left?” she asks quietly.
You lift your head just enough to look at her properly, blinking like you’re trying to piece together what she’s talking about.
“What hug?”
“The one in the kitchen,” she clarifies. “Before your mission.”
Your brows draw together slightly.
“What about it?”
Natasha shifts onto her side, propping her head up with one hand so she can see you properly. The movement creates a small distance between you, just enough for her to notice.
“I don’t know,” she says slowly. “Clint was saying some things, and it just seemed…”
She trails off, searching.
“…intimate.”
The word lingers between you.
You go still for a second, thinking.
“Oh.”
It’s quiet. Almost too casual. But something changes.
Without seeming to realize it, your arm slips away from around her waist. It’s subtle. But the absence is immediate.
The space you leave behind feels colder than it should.
Natasha hates how quickly she notices.
You run a hand through your hair, still looking thoughtful.
“I guess I didn’t really think about it,” you admit. “It just sort of happened.”
Natasha nods faintly. That’s what she expected. Clint had been reading into it. Overanalyzing, like he always does. The hug didn’t mean anything.
It was just—
Nothing.
For some reason, that revelation doesn’t bring the relief she thought it would.
You sit up with a quiet stretch, a tired yawn slipping past your lips. The sheets fall away from you as you move, revealing the tank top and underwear you must’ve pulled on at some point.
Natasha’s eyes track the motion automatically. She remembers exactly how those clothes had ended up on the floor earlier.
The urgency. The heat. The way neither of you had slowed down long enough to think.
Now, you stand beside the bed, scanning the floor for the rest of your clothes.
The contrast is jarring.
Natasha stays quiet, watching as you dress—pulling your shirt back on, stepping into your pants, smoothing each fold as if putting yourself back together piece by piece.
When you finish, you turn toward her again. You lower yourself onto the mattress beside her, leaning in. Your hand lifts to her chin, gently guiding her eyes back to yours.
Then your lips press softly against hers.
Natasha responds without hesitation. Her hand slides up to the back of your neck, fingers curling lightly into your hair as she kisses you back.
For a brief moment, the thought crosses her mind.
Pull you down. Keep you here. Start it all over again. Lose herself in something easier than this feeling sitting in her chest.
But before she can act on it, you pull away.
“Sorry about that,” you murmur, your voice still close enough that she can feel the words against her lips. “I’ll try not to do anything like that again.”
Natasha’s brows knit slightly. She tilts her head upward, chasing your mouth for another brief kiss.
“It didn’t bother me,” she says quietly.
You smile, soft and small.
But when she leans in again, you pull back. Just enough to be out of reach. Her hand lingers in the air where you had been.
“But you’re right,” you continue gently. “That kind of thing’s too intimate.”
Your expression softens further.
“At least when we’re not hooking up.”
The words settle heavily in the quiet room.
“We agreed this was casual,” you remind her.
Natasha nods slowly. She remembers how this all started. Months ago, at one of Tony’s infamous parties. Too much music. Too much alcohol. Too many people packed into the living room.
The night had blurred into laughter, dancing, and eventually, one very impulsive decision.
The morning after had been awkward. Not because either of you regretted it, but because you both understood exactly what it could become.
And what that would mean.
In this line of work, relationships don’t come easy.
They come with risk. With distance. With the constant possibility of loss.
Neither of you had ever been particularly successful at making relationships work in the past. Neither of you had ever been good at holding onto something like that.
So Natasha made it simple.
No expectations. No attachments. Just something to take the edge off between missions. Something steady in the middle of chaos.
And it has worked so far.
You lean down again, pressing one last, gentle kiss to her lips.
“Let’s not blur the boundaries, Natasha,” you say softly. Then you pull away. You slide off the bed, your movements quiet as you head toward the door.
“Sweet dreams.”
The door clicks shut behind you, and the room falls silent again.
Natasha exhales slowly, her head sinking back against the pillow. Relief settles over her. Or something like it.
The misunderstanding is gone.
Everything is exactly what it’s supposed to be.
What you have is casual. Simple. Safe. It’s better this way.
She repeats it to herself as she closes her eyes.
Again. And again. And again.
Eventually, sleep begins to take her.
But no matter how many times she repeats it, it doesn’t quite erase the faint, persistent ache in her chest.
~~~~~~~ ⧗ ~~~~~~~
Natasha takes a slow, measured sip from her glass, letting the burn of the liquor settle before she swallows. To anyone else in the crowded living room, she looks perfectly at ease, just leaning casually against the bar at one of Tony Stark’s increasingly extravagant parties.
The room is alive with movement and sound. Music pulses through hidden speakers, low and rhythmic, blending with the hum of overlapping conversations. Laughter erupts from every corner. Glasses clink in celebration of yet another successful mission. The Avengers are relaxed, off-duty, and untouchable for the night.
Everything appears normal.
But if anyone cared to look closely, they would notice the cracks beneath her surface.
The subtle tension in her posture. The way her fingers tighten almost imperceptibly around the stem of her glass. The faint clench of her jaw.
And most telling of all, the fact that Natasha’s gaze hasn’t shifted in several minutes.
She isn’t watching the party. She’s watching you.
When you told her you would avoid doing things like the hug, the things that blurred lines, it hadn’t seemed like a big deal at the time. A new boundary drawn, respected without argument.
At first, Natasha thought she wouldn’t even notice the difference.
But she had been wrong.
It started small.
A movie night in the common room.
Where you used to drop onto the couch beside her without hesitation, your shoulder pressed comfortably against hers, your presence warm and familiar. Sometimes you would lean into her without thinking, your head resting briefly against her arm as if it were the most natural thing in the world.
Now, you sit on the opposite end. A pillow placed neatly between you two, creating a quiet, deliberate space.
Then in the gym.
After sparring, when both of you were catching your breath, Natasha had paused in front of you, expecting, without thinking, that same absentminded gesture where your hand fixes a loose strand of hair behind her ear as you made some teasing remark about her fighting skills.
But this time, you passed right by her, reaching behind her instead and grabbing your towel and water bottle without so much as grazing her skin.
Even during mission briefings, the difference was impossible to ignore.
You used to lean over her shoulder to read the screen, your presence close behind her. She could feel your warmth at her back, your breath near her ear as you murmured observations only she could hear.
Now, you stood at the table with your own tablet.
Still beside her but never close.
Always careful. Always just far enough away.
Natasha swirls the amber liquid in her glass, watching the way it catches the light.
So this is what you meant. This is the new boundary.
And she had agreed to it.
So why does it feel like something is missing? Why does the absence of those touches that “meant nothing” feel so…loud?
Her gaze sharpens slightly.
And more importantly, why are you giving them to someone else?
Natasha’s jaw tightens at the sight.
Across the room, you’re laughing. There’s a looseness to your movements, a little more relaxed, your smile a little brighter. Tony’s been generous with the drinks tonight, and it shows. You’re not out of control. Just…lighter.
Your arm is draped casually around Carol Danvers’ shoulders as the two of you talk, the two of you caught in your own bubble of conversation.
Carol laughs, her head tipping back at something you say. And you laugh with her. Then, without hesitation, your arms slip around her from behind, pulling her into a playful hug.
Natasha’s grip tightens around her glass.
It should mean nothing. It is nothing.
Just like how it is for her.
But to her irritation, the hug lingers. Your arms don’t drop right away from the other woman.
Carol nudges you with her elbow and says something in response, prompting you to lean closer so you can hear her over the music. You lean in a little too much, your face drifting into her space with an ease that feels overly familiar.
A sudden, sharp heat twists in Natasha’s chest.
Before she fully registers her own reaction, she downs the rest of her drink in a single motion. The glass meets the counter with a quiet yet decisive sound.
Then she moves.
Natasha crosses the room with clear intent, weaving through groups of people without slowing.
You’re still smiling when she reaches you, still caught mid-laugh as you turn to greet her.
“Hey—”
Her hand closes firmly around your wrist as she pulls you away from the other woman. You look at her in surprise, but you do not resist as she leads you through the crowd.
Behind her, Carol calls out, her tone light and amused.
“Hey, Romanoff, what’s the rush?”
Natasha does not respond or look back. She continues forward, guiding you toward the hallway.
You glance over your shoulder, your smile lingering.
“I’ll catch up with you later, Danvers!” you call.
The promise sharpens Natasha’s irritation. Within moments, she pulls you into her room.
The door closes behind you with a quiet click, and the atmosphere shifts immediately.
You move first. Your arms slide around her neck as you pull her into a deep kiss.
Natasha responds without hesitation. Her hands grip the front of your shirt, fingers curling into the fabric as she kisses you back.
There is nothing gentle about it. The kiss is intense and consuming as she steps forward, erasing the space between you until your back meets the door with a soft impact.
She barely notices. All she feels is the heat building inside her.
For a brief moment, an image flashes through her mind of you standing with Carol, your arms around her, leaning in without hesitation.
The feeling tightens inside her, and Natasha presses into the kiss with greater intensity.
Her hand slides to the back of your neck, holding you in place as though anchoring you exactly where she wants you. Where she feels she needs you.
Mine.
The thought hits her before she can stop it. She resents it immediately, hating how natural it feels and how good it sounds.
Because the truth is, you do not belong to her. You never have. That was always the agreement.
When she pulls back, it is only for a brief breath. Her eyes move over your face, taking in your flushed cheeks, your softened expression, and the way you are looking at her, completely unaware of the conflict inside her.
“Hey, what’s wr—”
She silences you with another forceful kiss.
Your words dissolve into a soft sound against her lips.
Her hands rise to cup your face, drawing you closer as though she fears you might slip away if she lets go.
“Natasha…” you murmur.
The sound of her name on your lips sends a dull ache through her chest.
Still, she continues to kiss you. Again and again, her lips lingering briefly before moving to the corner of your mouth, your jaw, your cheek, and then back again. The rhythm becomes restless and searching, almost desperate, as though she is trying to remind both of you of something unspoken.
Eventually, your hands move to her waist and pull her closer.
The contact draws a quiet breath from her.
Your touch feels exactly the same as it always has, and she hates how much she has missed it.
Your fingers trace along her sides and slip beneath the hem of her shirt. The warmth of your touch against her skin sends a shiver through her.
But the sensation is complicated.
Even as she leans into it, something inside her aches. This is the only time you touch her like this now, hidden away behind closed doors.
Outside of this space, there is distance. No casual contact, no easy closeness, and no quiet affection shared without thought.
Yet tonight, Carol received that version of you.
The realization sharpens the ache. For a moment, Natasha allows herself to sink back into the kiss, into the feeling of you, into the illusion of being chosen.
But the thought does not fade.
Only here. Only like this.
Abruptly, Natasha pulls away. Her hand catches your wrist, stopping your movement beneath her shirt.
She shakes her head.
“I can’t do this.”
The words feel as though they tear something open inside her.
You blink at her, confusion crossing your face. Your head tilts slightly as you try to understand, and then your expression softens.
“Are you worried about the drinks?” you ask gently. “I’m fine. I only had a few.”
She shakes her head again and steps back, creating distance between you.
“No,” she says quietly, gesturing between you. “I can’t do this with you anymore.”
The words settle heavily in the space between you.
Your hands lift slightly, as if you intend to reach for her, but you stop yourself at the last second and let them fall back.
For a moment, you simply look at her. Then something in your expression shifts. Your arms fold loosely, your fingers gripping your sleeves.
“Oh.”
The sound is soft, almost lost, but the way your shoulders drop afterward makes her chest tighten painfully.
You look hurt, though you try not to show it.
Every instinct in Natasha urges her to move, to close the distance, to pull you back and say something that will erase that look from your face.
But she remains still.
What right does she have?
She agreed to something simple and uncomplicated.
Yet standing here, watching you try to act as though this does not matter, she finally faces the truth she has been avoiding.
She does not want something simple. She does not want something casual.
She wants you.
Not just in this room or within some boundary. She wants you openly and completely.
The realization arrives all at once, clear and undeniable, and entirely unhelpful.
Because the words still refuse to come.
You offer her a small smile that doesn’t reach your eyes.
“If that’s what you want, Natasha,” you say softly.
Her throat tightens as she tries to respond, but no words follow.
You nod once and turn toward the door. The quiet click as it closes behind you echoes through the room.
Natasha remains where she is long after you have gone, her chest tight and aching.
Only now does she understand why.
~~~~~~~ ⧗ ~~~~~~~
Natasha exhales slowly, releasing a quiet sigh as she leans her hip against the kitchen counter. One hand remains loosely wrapped around a ceramic mug whose warmth has long since faded, yet she makes no effort to refill it.
She is waiting, though she cannot fully define what she expects. Perhaps she is waiting for the coffee machine to finish, for the silence to shift, or for something deeper that she cannot quite name.
The steady drip of coffee fills the otherwise empty room.
It reminds her of how things were only weeks ago, before everything changed and before words were spoken that cannot be taken back.
Sunlight stretches across the polished countertops, catching along the edges of steel and glass. Somewhere within the walls, the faint hum of the tower’s systems continues, a constant reminder that life is still moving forward.
However, she doesn’t feel as though she is moving with it.
Her thoughts wander without restraint, circling back to that previous night. Every word, every glance, and every moment she wishes she could change plays repeatedly in her mind.
A dull ache settles in her chest, familiar and unwelcome. Despite how hard she tried to ignore it, it never truly fades, instead lingering with quiet persistence.
She closes her eyes briefly, hoping for relief, but nothing changes.
The sound of footsteps echoes faintly from the hallway. The rhythm is steady and unmistakable.
Natasha’s attention sharpens immediately, her body reacting before her thoughts fully catch up. She glances over her shoulder and straightens as soon as she sees you standing in the doorway.
You appear just as surprised to find her there.
For a moment, neither of you moves. The space between you feels heavier than it should, weighed down by everything that was said. The silence stretches, pressing in from every direction.
Eventually, you offer a small smile. It is soft and genuine, familiar in a way that causes something in her chest to tighten.
But you do not step closer.
Instead, you remain where you are, leaning casually against the doorframe as though an invisible boundary separates you. The distance itself is not large, but it is undeniable.
And Natasha notices it immediately.
You clear your throat, the sound quiet but enough to break the tension.
“I am heading out for another mission today,” you say, your voice careful and measured. Your head tilts slightly, a habit she knows well, one that always made her smile without effort. “Wish me luck?”
The words are the same as always. The tone, the phrasing, and the moment itself are all familiar.
Everything surrounding them, however, is different.
There is space between you now, a deliberate distance that marks the line she has drawn.
Natasha swallows, her throat suddenly dry.
She understands what this moment means.
You are trying in your own way. You are trying to show her that things are still manageable between you, that you respect her decision, and that you can stand here and speak with her as though nothing has truly been lost.
Her fingers tighten slightly around the mug before she sets it down with a soft clink.
“Good luck,” she says quietly.
The words feel small and inadequate, but they are all she can manage.
Your smile lifts just a fraction more, and relief flickers across your expression. It is as though you expected resistance and are grateful not to find it. You nod once.
“Thanks, Natasha.”
Just like that, you accept it. You seem satisfied with that small offering, with the careful and restrained version of whatever exists between you now. You push away from the doorway and begin to turn, ready to leave things exactly as they are.
That is what breaks her composure.
It is the ease with which you accept the distance without question.
Something twists sharply in Natasha’s chest. In that instant, with startling clarity, she realizes she cannot continue like this. She cannot stand there pretending that polite smiles and quiet farewells are enough.
Her body moves before the thought fully settles.
“Wait.”
The word is soft, barely above a breath, but it stops you immediately.
You pause mid-step and glance back over your shoulder, confusion flickering across your face.
Natasha is already moving. She crosses the kitchen quickly, her steps decisive as she closes the space between you before doubt can interfere.
Before you can react, her hands rise, warm and steady as they cup your face.
Then she kisses you.
There is no hesitation, no restraint, no careful distance. There is only her, choosing you.
A soft, startled sound escapes you, muffled against her lips. For a brief moment, you freeze, caught off guard as you try to process what is happening.
Then instinct takes over.
Your hands find her waist and pull her closer as you return the kiss.
In that instant, everything falls back into place. The warmth, the familiarity, and the connection that never truly disappeared all return at once.
Natasha leans into you and deepens the kiss, pouring weeks of restraint, frustration, and unspoken emotion into it. Her grip tightens slightly, as though anchoring herself, as though afraid this moment might slip away again.
Your hold mirrors hers, firm and certain.
When she finally pulls back, both of you are breathing unevenly. She rests her forehead against yours, her thumbs brushing softly over your cheeks as she steadies herself in the moment.
“Don’t do anything reckless,” she murmurs.
The words are familiar, but their meaning has changed. This time, they carry everything she left unsaid before.
Your eyes open slowly as you study her face, and when your expression softens, Natasha knows that you understand.
This was not an accident or a lapse in judgment. It was a deliberate choice.
Before you can respond, FRIDAY’s voice cuts through the moment as she calls your name.
“Mr. Stark has requested that I inform you that if you are not in the hangar bay in the next sixty seconds, he will—”
“FRIDAY,” you interrupt calmly, “I got it.”
You do not look away from Natasha.
There is a brief pause.
“…Understood.”
Silence settles again, softer now.
Your hands remain at her waist, your fingers idly tugging at the edge of her top.
“So,” you say carefully, a hint of teasing in your voice, “are we establishing new boundaries?”
The question sounds light and joking, but Natasha knows what you’re really asking. You’re trying to understand what she is offering.
Natasha exhales sharply, her nose wrinkling slightly in slight irritation at the word.
“Yeah, new boundaries,” she mutters.
Your brow lifts slightly.
“And they are...?”
She rolls her eyes, though there is no real sharpness in the gesture. When she looks back at you, her expression is completely unguarded.
“Whatever lets me love you.”
The honesty is blunt and unfiltered in a way that’s entirely her.
For a moment, you simply stare at her in surprise. Then your smile spreads slowly, bright and certain. Your hands shift, slipping just beneath the hem of her shirt as your fingertips brush against her warm skin.
Natasha relaxes at the contact. Her eyes flutter closed, and a quiet sigh escapes her as relief washes over her.
The distance is gone.
Your arms wrap fully around her, pulling her into a tight embrace.
She melts into you instantly, burying her face against your shoulder as though it is the most natural place for her to be, as though she is finally allowed to rest there.
For a moment, neither of you moves.
Then, softly near your ear, Natasha speaks with quiet curiosity.
“That hug in the kitchen the other day…?”
You hum softly in response, waiting for her to finish.
“…Did it mean something?”
After a brief hesitation, you nod gently against her temple.
“Yeah,” you admit gently. “It did.”
Her arms tighten around you. And for a few seconds, the world narrows to just this moment, to the two of you standing in the quiet kitchen, holding onto something that never truly left.
“Forty-eight…forty-seven…forty-six…” FRIDAY'S voice counts softly in the background.
You groan quietly and pull back just enough to look at her, offering a reluctant, almost apologetic expression.
“This is not over,” you say with mock seriousness. You lean in and press a brief kiss to her lips before whispering, “I am going to tell you exactly how I feel when I get back.”
You begin to turn, but Natasha catches your arm and pulls you back against her. She arches a brow, a playful smirk forming on her lips.
“You honestly think I’m going to let you leave now?”
She leans closer to your face, close enough to steal your focus again.
Your grin returns instantly.
“Oh?”
Your arms slide around her waist once more, drawing her tightly against you.
“Are you planning to hold me here with you forever, Romanoff?”
Amusement flashes in her eyes.
“Maybe,” Natasha says, her smile widening. “Unless there is another boundary you would like to set.”
You rest your forehead gently against hers, a soft laugh escaping before you answer.
“No,” you murmur quietly. “That actually sounds perfect to me.”
~~~~~~~ ⧗ ~~~~~~~
a/n: hope you enjoy the fic and thank you for reading! (love/hate relationship with this one but I needed to get it out of the drafts so that I can stop editing it every time I see it 😅)
people on tw1tter having a discourse about the og avengers coming back except natasha when multiverse saga exists. tbh i get it, i also want nat to come back but oh boy, scarlett said it multiple times that natasha’s story is done i trust her (kind of) i don’t trust the mcu not to mess it up if they bring her back 😂
You keep ending up in situations where you’re cuddling with Natasha
Note: This is a soft one. Enjoy!
Natasha Romanoff Masterlist 1, Natasha Romanoff Masterlist 2, Main Masterlist
The first time it happened it was a complete accident.
You were assigned an overnight mission with Natasha and when you got to the hotel room there was only one bed. She tried to sleep on the floor, but you protested.
“If you sleep on the floor, then I sleep on the floor too,” you had said.
“Then what’s the point of the bed?” She asked.
“Exactly. There is no point then. Come on,” you said.
You were both exhausted from the mission and a good nights sleep was calling your names.
Natasha laid down a careful distance from you. The bed was plenty big enough to share, but she didn’t want you to be uncomfortable. Or maybe she didn’t want her feelings for you to get even more complicated.
After falling into a deep slumber, Natasha woke up first in the morning. As she became aware of her surroundings, she realized she had another body tangled up in hers.
Her arm was draped around your waist as you rested with your head on her shoulder. You breathed into her neck and your legs intertwined with hers.
If she could just ignore reality, then she could imagine this is how it would feel to wake up with you every morning.
But the reality is that you’re not together and she untangled herself from you as stealthily as she could. You simply rolled over and went back to sleep.
When you finally woke up, Natasha hadn’t suspected that you knew about the accidental cuddling.
Until it happened again.
This time is happened at the compound. It was movie night, a new bonding experience the team was trying, and you sat next to Natasha on the couch.
Most of the team had gone to their rooms, but you and Nat were trying to finish the movie.
Sleep started to take over and you leaned slightly to rest your head on the couch. But what you found was Natasha’s arm outstretched behind you. She tried to move it but you stopped her.
“You’re more comfortable than this couch,” you told her.
She only laughed shyly and left her arm in place. You snuggled into her shoulder once again and her fingers ghosted over your arm. She wanted to touch you, to hold you, but she didn’t want to ruin the moment.
When you fell asleep against her, she turned off the movie and you practically laid across the her lap. You weren’t consciously doing it, but Nat just felt so safe that you couldn’t help yourself.
She smiled to herself as she drifted off to sleep as well.
You woke in the middle of the night realized where you were. Your head was on Natasha’s lap and she was asleep.
Grinning, you closed your eyes and went back to sleep.
But once again, Natasha untangled herself from you and got up early. You missed her warmth and she all but vanished the rest of the day.
Later that night, you decide to confront her about it.
You haven’t been to her room before, but you got up the courage to go to her floor and knock on her door.
“Who is it?” Her voice comes from the other side.
“It’s y/n,” you say. “Can we talk?”
The door opens to reveal Natasha in her pajamas. The plaid shorts and a black tank top make her look so perfect.
“What’s up?” She asks.
“Can I come in?”
“Uh, yeah,” she agrees hesitantly. You walk into her room and take a quick glance around.
It’s about what you expected. Very organized and neutral colors aside from the desk that is littered with photos of the team and of Natasha with Clint’s family. She also has drawings and trinkets that the kids have gifted her.
“I would’ve cleaned up if I knew you were going to stop by,” Natasha breaks the ice again.
“If you don’t think this is clean then I hope you never see my room,” you joke.
You share a laugh. She gestures for you to sit down on the edge of her bed next to her.
“Natasha,” you begin, swallowing your nerves. “I wanted to talk to you about- well about us.”
“Okay,” she says. “Can I say something first?”
You nod and watch as Natasha fiddles with her fingers. A nervous tick you’ve only seen her do a few select times.
“I really like you,” she begins. “But I’m just not sure what to do about it.”
She pauses and you jump in. “Well, we could be together.”
She looks stunned at your words. Had she been unaware? You don’t think you did a great job pretending you weren’t in love with her.
“Y/n, I’m not someone you need to date,” Natasha says. Her barriers start to rise and you realize you have to stop them before you’re locked out.
“Natasha, you are exactly the person I want to date. I’ve liked you since I met you. And clearly, I feel so comfortable with you that I’ve subconsciously snuggled with you a few times,” you say. “So please, can we try?”
“I don’t know,” Nat says. “You’re so young and innocent. And I’m, me.”
“Exactly. You’re you. And I-” you stop yourself, but she remains silent. “I love you.”
Natasha’s eyes fill with tears. No one has ever been so outwardly loving of her and said it to her while really meaning it.
“I don’t know what to do,” Natasha admits.
“That’s okay,” you tell her. You scoot closer to her and pull her into a hug. “I don’t know either, but we’ll figure it out.”
“I want to try,” she says, her face buried in your neck. She mumbles something else in Russian that you don’t understand.
When you pull back from the hug, Natasha presses her forehead against yours. You soak up the moment together.
That night, you sit on her bed with her and talk about how this is what you both want and how to make it work.
You fall asleep with your bodies entangled once again, but this time it’s on purpose. And you wake up the next morning still tangled together and feeling safe and warm.
This is your favorite thing when Natasha comes back from a mission. As soon as debrief is done, she turns off her phone and spends the next 24 hours with you.
And for the next day or two, she’ll stay glued to your side, even when you’re trying to cook or clean. Which inevitably means take out, making out on the couch, showering together and cuddling in the bed or living room.
This must have been a very exhausting mission, because ever since she’s been home, you’ve spent the better part of the day in bed. She’s snoring lightly and you’re on your phone, because your day just started while Natasha’s still on a different time zone.
You try not to move too much, your girlfriend’s arm around your middle. But when you get the notification of a sale on your favorite store, you immediately go to their page, adding enough things to the shopping cart to get free shipping (girl math, duh).
“What are you doing?” Natasha mumbles when you try to get up.
“I need my credit card” you explain, pushing her arms off. “Be right back, babe”
“Why are you paying for things?”
“It’s just clothes” you say, knowing Natasha hates it when you pay for anything. “I can manage”
“I’m buying them for you. But you have to stay here with me” she pulls you closer, kissing your neck. The contact distracts you enough to losen the grip on your phone, and Natasha takes it away, placing it on her nightstand.
“You were sleeping. How do you even know…” you protest and she places you on your back, peppering kisses all over your face.
“Green velvet corset top, denim pencil skirt, short checked jacket, white lace top, red lingerie…”
“I was not buying lingerie” you laugh.
“Right. I am. Now, let me take care of some stuff” she says, her hand slipping between your thighs.
You grant her access, feeling beyond spoiled.
—
The issue with being spoiled is that it can turn to brattiness real quick.
Natasha’s been taking your attitude for the better part of the day.
It started with the usual morning. She went out for her run while you made breakfast. Your girlfriend came back with a bouquet of red roses and a scone from your favorite place.
“Aw. Were they out of tulips?” you ask as you put the flowers in water.
Natasha has to stop herself from glaring, because you’re turning around and kissing her cheek.
Of course, you’re only teasing. But it’s not like your behavior gets any better.
Especially when, that same night, you go to Tony’s party wearing a low cut dress and very obviously, no bra.
“Would you like to… change into something more comfortable? It might get cold” Natasha tiptoes around the question. She doesn’t want to come off as controlling.
“No, I’m fine. Do you think I look bad?” you say, tilting your head, pretending to be confused.
“You always look perfect, detka”
“Ok, then let’s get going” you say, standing on your toes to kiss her.
And if your tongue darts out to lick her lower lip, making Natasha groan against your mouth, well…
“We don’t want to be late” you remind her when she stares at you.
As expected, the party is in full swing when you arrive. Natasha is dragged along the other side of the room to confirm one of Tony’s crazy stories. You seem to be doing pretty well, chatting with Wanda and Pietro.
But then there’s Ellie, from IT. You’d gone on a couple of dates before Natasha asked you out, and of course you broke it off, amicably.
Mostly. Ellie would block Natasha’s access to the building from time to time.
The fireworks are the perfect excuse to come get you, and the other woman must sense Natasha approaching, because she reaches for your hand and you laugh, waving as she leaves.
“What was that about?” Natasha says as soon as she’s next to you. You sip from your martini, arching your eyebrows. The redhead is about to ask again when you frown.
“How many beers have you had?”
“Three… and a half”
“Mhm. Let’s see the fireworks” you take her hand, smiling as if you hadn’t just ignored her question.
You stand next to her on the balcony, greeting Steve as he approaches you.
“You must be freezing” he says, taking off his jacket and putting it over your shoulders.
“Aww, Steve. You’re such a gentleman. And yes, I was getting a little cold. Natasha didn’t tell me it would be this bad”
Your girlfriend lets out a pathetic sound, half protest and scoff as you keep talking to Steve. She’s still trying to find a way to remind you she did in fact bring up the weather, but then the fireworks start and you slip your hand into hers.
“It was a nice show” you comment once it’s all done and Natasha nods. “You want to go home?”
“Yes, please”
“Alright, you good to drive?” you say, noticing she had another beer.
“Yes, detka” she insists, impatient. Natasha's never been drunk, especially when you're around. She insists on driving you everywhere.
Now she thinks the alcohol might have gotten to her head and you’re not really acting strange. Except that when you walk up to the car, you don’t wait for her to open the door for you.
“You couldn’t wait?” she says, practically huffing as you hide your smirk.
“What? You’re drunk, and my feet are killing me. Looks like you can barely find where to start the car”
That’s your bad, because she gets you out of the garage in under five seconds, only slowing down once you join the usual traffic.
“So, how’s Ellie?” Natasha asks, again. She’s not about to drop the subject.
“She’s fine. Asked for some relationship advice, because she’s seeing this girl and they’re not exclusive. Wanted to know how to ask her. Too bad I have zero experience with that”
“What do you mean?” Natasha says.
“Well… we never talked about it. You and me. Are we exclusive?”
“We live together!”
“Ok? So do Buck and Sam. And they’re not a couple” you say, trying really hard not to laugh at Natasha’s expression.
“Sorry, is this piss-off-Natasha day? Because you’ve been acting strange” she says, turning off the car once you reach your own building.
“Strange how?”
“Off. Just…”
And then it happens.
The last straw is something stupid.
You, reaching for the door handle. Natasha dashes forward, and in one swift motion closes the door again and locks it.
“Natalia! You’re kidnapping me!”
“Listen to me” she says, holding your chin between her thumb and index fingers. “You don’t pay for stuff, or open car doors or check the price tag on anything, understood?”
The contrast between her icy tone and the care behind her affirmations make you squeeze your legs together.
“Use. Your. Words”
“Understood”
“Now, the coat was my bad. I should have picked a better outfit for you. I’m never drunk enough to drive you anywhere and I’m certainly not letting anyone else touch what’s mine. Are we clear on all fronts now, detka?”
“Yes, baby” you nod, the bravado fading as soon as she reminds you of your place.
“Are your panties ruined?”
“Yeah” you sigh, feeling like a total fraud. This morning, you woke up ready to tease her and she’s got you wrapped around her finger in a matter of seconds.
“Are you wearing that red set I bought you?” she smiles when you nod, because the part of your brain in charge of words is not functioning right about now. “Good girl”
You moan.
“Stop looking at me like that” you say, annoyed when she smiles. “Open the door so I can change out of this”
“I’m opening the door for you, and then I’m carrying you to the apartment and I’ll undress you, however slow or fast I want to”
There’s a beat of silence and then you nod, pretending you’re not happy with her conditions.
“Fine, whatever”
She kisses your cheek, walking around the car and offering her hand to help you out.
That’s the last time she’ll be this gentle tonight. Because after this, she kisses and fucks you until you can’t take it anymore, saying her name like a prayer.
You don’t even think about it when you say it, just tossing the question into the air like it doesn’t matter, like it won’t land anywhere important.
“Hey… name a woman. A random woman.”
Natasha doesn’t even look up from where she’s leaning against the counter, turning a knife in her hand with that quiet, practiced ease that makes everything she does look effortless.
“Anya.”
Immediate.
No hesitation, no pause, no thinking.
Just the answer.
And that’s what makes you look up.
“…who’s Anya?”
You’re still smiling when you ask, still expecting it to stay light, to stay part of the joke.
Natasha shrugs slightly, like it’s nothing, like it should be nothing.
“Just a name.”
You let out a small laugh, sitting up straighter as your eyes narrow just a little.
“No, that was way too fast to be just a name.”
Now she looks at you, calm, unreadable, but attentive in that quiet way of hers.
“It was random.”
“It didn’t sound random.”
There’s something in your tone now, something sharper than before, and she notices. Of course she does.
Natasha straightens just slightly, her attention settling fully on you as she sets the knife aside.
“I remember a lot of names.”
“You don’t remember what I asked you to buy yesterday.”
There’s the smallest pause. Barely there, but enough for you to catch it.
“…that was different.”
You hum, unconvinced, already standing and closing the distance between you without really deciding to.
“Okay, so where is she from?”
“A mission.”
Too easy.
That answer comes too easily.
You tilt your head, studying her now like you’re trying to pull the truth out of her by force.
“What kind of mission?”
“It was a while ago.”
“That’s not helpful.”
“It’s enough.”
You stop right in front of her, arms crossing loosely, but your focus is sharp now, fixed entirely on her face.
“Natasha.”
She hums softly, like she’s indulging you.
“Mhm?”
“Why do you remember her name that fast?”
There it is again. That flicker. That fraction of a second where something passes through her expression before it smooths out again.
“I told you. It was random.”
You don’t believe her.
Not even a little.
“Okay,” you say, lifting your hand slightly, counting without breaking eye contact, “option one. Ex.”
“No.”
“Too fast.”
“Because it’s not true.”
You lift another finger.
“Agent.”
A pause.
“…yes.”
You blink, caught off guard by how easily she gives you that.
“She was an agent.”
“Oh my God, she’s real.”
There’s a slight tightening in her jaw now, not defensive, just aware.
“I didn’t say she wasn’t.”
You step a little closer, your curiosity now fully turning into something else, something you’re not naming yet.
“What kind of agent?”
“She tried to kill me.”
That stops you completely.
“…what?”
“Twice.”
You stare at her, trying to decide if she’s serious, and the worst part is… she is.
“That’s the woman you picked.”
“You said random.”
You let out a breath that turns into a disbelieving laugh, shaking your head as you look at her.
“So your brain went straight to someone who tried to kill you.”
“She was memorable.”
“Oh, I’m sure she was,” you murmur, but there’s an edge there now, something quieter and more pointed. “Do you think about her often?”
That’s when it shifts.
You see it happen.
Natasha’s posture changes just slightly, her attention sharpening, focusing in on you in a way that suddenly makes you feel like you’re the one being studied now.
“You’re jealous.”
You scoff immediately, even as your chest tightens just a little.
“I am asking questions.”
“Mhm.”
She pushes off the counter slowly, taking her time as she steps toward you, and you already know you’ve made a mistake.
Because now she’s interested.
And when Natasha is interested, she doesn’t let things go.
“You always do this?” she asks softly, stopping just close enough to make your breath hitch without meaning to.
“Do what?”
Her gaze drags over your face, slow, deliberate, like she’s reading every little reaction you’re trying to hide.
“Get like this.”
You frown slightly, defensive.
“I’m not getting like anything.”
Her hand lifts, fingers brushing lightly against your arm, barely there but enough to make your focus slip for a second.
“Possessive,” she murmurs.
Your stomach tightens.
“I am not—”
“You are,” she says quietly, almost amused, stepping just a fraction closer. “It’s subtle. But it’s there.”
You swallow, trying to keep your footing.
“I just think it’s weird you said her name that fast.”
“Of course you do.”
Her fingers trail from your arm to your waist, slow enough that you’re very aware of it, very aware of how easily she settles there, like it’s the most natural thing in the world.
“But that’s not all.”
You try to ignore the way your pulse picks up.
“It is.”
“It’s not.”
Her voice dips slightly, softer now, closer.
“You didn’t just ask who she was.”
You hold her gaze, even as it gets harder to.
“You started guessing. Ex, agent…” she pauses, just long enough to make you feel it, “lover.”
Your breath catches.
“I didn’t say that.”
“You thought it.”
You hesitate, and that’s enough.
Her thumb shifts lightly against your side, slow, absent, like she’s not even thinking about it, which somehow makes it worse.
“…did you like her?” you ask before you can stop yourself.
There’s a flicker of something in her eyes then, something warmer, something that almost looks like satisfaction.
“She tried to kill me.”
“That doesn’t answer my question.”
Her hand tightens just slightly at your waist, not enough to hold you there, just enough to remind you that she could.
“No,” she says, softer now, but there’s still that teasing edge underneath. “I didn’t like her.”
You exhale, some of the tension slipping out of you before you can hide it.
“Good.”
Her eyebrow lifts just a little.
“Good?”
You roll your eyes, trying to recover.
“You know what I mean.”
“Do I?”
Her voice drops just enough to make it unfair, her forehead almost brushing yours now.
“Because it sounded a little like you didn’t want me liking anyone else.”
Your cheeks warm.
“That’s not—”
Her thumb presses slightly more firmly against your side, grounding you, steadying you, keeping you right where you are.
“Not what?” she asks quietly.
You hesitate again, and she notices. Of course she notices.
“Say it.”
You glare at her, but there’s no real heat behind it anymore.
“I didn’t like it.”
There’s that soft, satisfied hum from her, like she’s been waiting for that.
“Better.”
For a moment, neither of you moves. The air between you feels different now, heavier, but not in a bad way.
Quieter.
“I just…” you start, softer now, your voice losing that defensive edge, “you could’ve just said me.”
And that’s what finally softens her.
Completely.
Her hand relaxes at your waist, her touch gentler now, more careful.
“You’re not random,” she says, and this time there’s no teasing in it, just something steady, something real.
You look at her, really look at her, and it hits harder than you expect.
“If you ask me to name someone that matters,” she continues, her voice low but certain, “it’s you.”
Your chest tightens.
You try to hold onto the bit, onto something lighter.
“…you still said Anya first.”
And there it is again, that small curve of her lips.
“Next time,” she murmurs, her thumb brushing lightly against your side again, softer now, “I’ll say you.”
You narrow your eyes at her, even if you’re already losing.
“There shouldn’t be a next time.”
She leans in just slightly, her voice dropping into something quieter, more certain.
“There will be.”
A small pause.
“You like it when I make you jealous.”
You let out a breath, shaking your head as you push lightly at her shoulder.
“I do not.”
She doesn’t move.
If anything, she looks more sure.
“Mhm.”
You try to step away, and this time she lets you, but her fingers linger just a second longer than they need to, like a reminder.
⋆ headcanon form of being natasha romanoff’s wife .ᐟ
warnings — none. except me just writing without any context, i was just thinking about wifey nat :)
Wifey!Nat who is the definition of a protective spouse—her love language is knowing where you are, who you’re with, and that you’re safe. She doesn’t hover, but she’s always aware—or more likely loves to always be aware of everything revolving around you.
Wifey!Nat who isn't super traditional, but she does wear her wedding ring at all times. She’ll take it off on missions and slip it on a chain under her suit.
She absolutely adores waking up next to you. Morning Wifey!Nat is soft, clingy, and kisses your shoulder before she gets out of bed to make coffee for both of you.
You have a drawer in the kitchen specifically for knives because she keeps buying them with the reason of “can't never have too many.”
Wifey!Nat who is surprisingly domestic. She might not be an amazing cook but she finds peace in cleaning or folding laundry after intense missions. (post resting under your obligation, of course).
Wifey!Nat who hates grocery shopping but will come along if you ask—she pushes the cart while you pick things out, occasionally sneaking snacks into it for you.
Wifey!Nat who insists you know some self-defense, even if she’s never planning on letting you be in danger. She teaches you how to disappear in a crowd and how to spot a tail—“Just in case, printsessa.”
You’ve had multiple SHIELD/Avengers agents secretly assigned to keep an eye on you when she is away.
Wifey!Nat who always gets the best security in your shared home. Think panic buttons, reinforced locks, and facial recognition tech.
Wifey!Nat who has a sixth sense about people. If she doesn’t like someone in your life, she’s almost always right.
She’s not super flashy with PDA, but she’s incredibly intense in private. She loves slow dancing with you in the kitchen at night.
Wifey!Nat who loves kissing you softly when she first comes home from a mission, then holding you like she’s never letting go.
Wifey!Nat remembers every single anniversary, important date, and your favorite things. She’ll buy you flowers or little trinkets from other countries she visits.
Wifey!Nat who only calls you by sweet pet names like “moya lyubov” (my love) or “zvezdochka” (little star) in Russian. It's only ever your name when you're either arguing, or just you being a brat.
"tell me the truth, y/n. don't play with me."
Wifey!Nat has a soft spot for cuddling. She’ll sprawl across you like a cat, insisting she’s “just resting for five minutes” but actually falling asleep.
Wifey!Nat who becomes terrifyingly efficient when it comes to your safety. No one lays a hand on you without facing heavy consequences.
If she ever finds out you were scared or threatened, she’ll hold you close and whisper, “I’ve got you. Always.”
She’d burn the world down if someone hurt you.
Wifey!Nat who steals your clothes. She’s always lounging in your hoodies and claims they smell like “home.”
Movie nights mean she falls asleep halfway through but won’t admit it.
She’s the kind of wife who will assemble IKEA furniture at 2 a.m. and curse in Russian the whole time.
Wifey!Nat who also loves to tease you endlessly but gets defensive if anyone else tries.
Being with you gives Wifey!Nat the sense of family she’s always craved. You’re her safe place, her anchor.
She gets emotional about your wedding day because she never thought she’d ever get that kind of happiness.
Wifey!Nat who writes you love notes when she’s away. Little “I love you” slips left in your coat pocket or book bag.
Summary: Part 2 of The Secret Admirer. You receive a gift, but you don't know who sent it.
Warnings: fluff
Words: 1432
Natasha walks through the sliding doors of the common room at an unhurried pace, the soft hum of the facility fading behind her as they close. Her steps are light, almost absent-minded, as she crosses the open space. She makes it halfway across the room before something catches her attention.
Her stride falters. Her eyes narrow slightly in suspicion, and after a brief pause, she pivots on her heel and redirects herself toward one of the long sofas positioned near the center of the room.
She circles around the back of it, her expression shifting from mild curiosity to faint surprise as she discovers you crouched low behind it, clearly trying to remain hidden.
“What are you—”
She doesn’t get the chance to finish. The moment her voice breaks the silence, your hand shoots out, grabbing her wrist and tugging her down beside you. She lands with a soft thud, more startled than resistant, and before she can protest, you press a finger firmly to your lips in a sharp shushing gesture.
Your attention immediately flicks upward. Carefully, you rise just enough to peer over the back of the couch, scanning the room as though expecting someone to appear at any second. After a brief check, you duck back down again, shoulders tense with focus.
Beside you, Natasha watches the entire display unfold with quiet amusement. A small, knowing smile curves her lips, her eyes glinting with curiosity.
“What exactly are you doing?” she whispers, her tone light but edged with intrigue.
You shoot her a sideways glare, clearly unimpressed with her lack of stealth, before settling back against the couch. The two of you sit pressed into the floor, hidden from view, your backs resting against the upholstery.
“I’ve been getting these notes every time I come back from my runs,” you murmur after a moment, keeping your voice low. “But I haven’t been able to figure out who’s leaving them.”
Natasha lets out a soft huff of laughter, the pieces clicking into place as she glances around your hiding spot. She props her elbow on her knee, resting her chin against her hand as she studies you.
“So this is your master plan?” she teases quietly. “Hide behind the couch and catch them in the act?”
“Yes,” you reply, a faint pout forming at the corners of your lips at her tone. “And you’re currently ruining it.”
You give her shoulder a light shove, trying to nudge her away, but Natasha doesn’t move an inch. If anything, her smirk only widens, her amusement growing more obvious.
“Let me stay,” she insists, her voice playful as she easily resists your second attempt to push her aside. “I want to see how this plays out. I’m curious about your secret admirer, too.”
Your lips twist in exaggerated annoyance, but the faint warmth creeping up your cheeks betrays you. Natasha notices it immediately.
“It’s not a secret admirer,” you protest, turning your head away and crossing your arms as you sink further back against the couch.
Natasha watches you for a moment, her expression softening into something quieter, more fond than teasing. A small smile lingers on her lips as she takes in your pout.
You glance at her out of the corner of your eye, catching that look, and immediately turn away again with a huff.
A soft laugh escapes her before she shifts closer, her shoulder bumping lightly against yours in an attempt to coax your attention back.
“What do the notes say?” she asks.
There’s a brief pause, as if you’re debating whether to answer at all. Then you sigh, the tension in your shoulders easing just slightly.
“They’re just short messages,” you admit reluctantly. “Compliments, mostly. Nothing big.”
Natasha hums, thoughtful.
“Seems a little cowardly,” she remarks casually. “Not having the nerve to say those things to your face.”
Your head snaps toward her immediately, eyes narrowing into a reprimanding glare.
“There’s nothing wrong with being shy,” you argue, your tone defensive.
Her smirk returns, subtle but unmistakable, as she leans in just a fraction.
“Then why are you hiding back here trying to catch them?”
“Because—” You stop yourself mid-sentence, suspicion flickering across your face. Your eyes narrow further as you poke her shoulder. “Wait. Do you know who it is?”
Natasha chuckles softly, catching your wrist before you can continue prodding her.
“They’re probably the same person who sent you those flowers,” she says, her tone deliberately casual.
You roll your eyes, already having made that connection yourself.
“They are,” you confirm. “The handwriting matches.”
Her brow lifts slightly in interest.
“You’ve been keeping the notes?”
You hesitate, the words catching in your throat as you realize where that line of questioning is going. Quickly, you shake your head, cutting off the conversation before it can turn into more teasing.
“No more questions,” you say firmly. “Either sit here quietly or leave before you blow my cover, Natasha.”
She lets out a quiet laugh but complies, at least partially, stretching her legs out beside yours as she settles more comfortably against the couch.
Seeing that she has no intention of leaving, you roll your eyes but eventually relax again, your focus returning to the room beyond your hiding spot.
Time drifts by in silence. The stillness, combined with the early hour and the warmth beside you, begins to wear on your alertness. At some point, without realizing it, your head dips, your body relaxing as sleep quietly takes over.
You don’t wake until the soft clatter of morning activity begins to fill the room—voices, footsteps, the faint sound of dishes.
Your eyes blink open slowly, disoriented, and the first thing you see is Tony standing over you with a bowl in his hand, casually eating as he looks down at the two of you.
“You two have a sleepover here or something?” he asks between bites, gesturing lazily with his spoon.
It takes a second for his words to register, and then you realize. Your head is resting against Natasha’s shoulder, her own tilted slightly toward yours.
As you shift, she stirs, blinking awake with a quiet yawn.
Memory rushes back all at once.
Your eyes widen, and you sit up abruptly, turning toward the counter where the notes usually appear after your runs.
Nothing.
The spot is empty.
A wave of disappointment settles in your chest.
“Hey,” Tony calls again, drawing your attention. He taps his own head with the end of his spoon. “You’ve got something right there.”
Before you can react, he’s already walking away, uninterested.
Your hand lifts instinctively, searching your hair, but before you can find anything, Natasha rises smoothly to her feet. She reaches over, her fingers brushing lightly against the side of your head before pulling out a small, folded piece of paper tucked into your hair.
She unfolds it, eyes scanning the contents, and then, much to your horror, reads it out loud.
“Your sleeping face is cute,” she says, her voice laced with amusement, “but you should really get some proper rest in your bed.”
Heat floods your face instantly.
Embarrassment mixes with lingering disappointment as you realize not only did your plan fail, but whoever it was was close enough to realize what you tried to do and managed to leave the note without waking you.
You let out a frustrated sigh before shooting Natasha a small glare.
“This is your fault,” you mutter. “You distracted me.”
She arches a brow, clearly entertained.
“I didn’t make you fall asleep during your own stakeout,” she points out.
You press your lips together, choosing not to respond. Admitting that you only fell asleep because she was warm and comfortable would only give her more ammunition, and you’re not about to hand that over.
With another sigh, you turn to leave to continue on with your day, despite your failed attempt to find this mysterious person.
“Should I throw this away?” Natasha calls after you casually.
You stop immediately.
Without hesitation, you pivot back, stride over, and snatch the note from her hand without a word.
Behind you, Natasha lingers where she stands, her gaze fixed on your retreating figure. Something soft flickers across her expression before she quickly dips her head, as if that alone might steady the sudden rush of warmth climbing to her cheeks. Her fingers flex faintly at her side, betraying the nerves she rarely shows, and she lets out a quiet, breathy laugh under her breath, one that carries more fondness than amusement, as she tries, unsuccessfully, to compose herself.
You really are too cute.
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a/n: thank you for reading! this is going to be a light-hearted fun kind of series
Summary: Natasha was stressed. Her life was filled with responsibility, even more now that she had to train the new recruits for the next three months. Not finding the same relief she had once felt after working out, she started watching a gaming streamer. Finding that your voice relaxed her and eased the tension in her body.
She walks into a flower shop, needing to buy flowers for Wanda’s birthday. You welcome her warmly. Wait, why does that voice sound so familiar?
“Thank you for stopping by! I hope your girlfriend likes the bouquet,” you say brightly to your last customer of the day.
The bell on the door chimes as they exit and you let out a sigh of relief. It had been a busy day, rather a busy week with a multitude of events that called for bouquets, arrangements, etc.
You were always grateful to be the go to florist for weddings, holidays, and anniversaries. At times for more somber reasons like funerals, but you were able to leave a lasting memory for your customers with the care you put into their requests.
Being a florist and owning your own shop was something you always aspired for and it brought a lot of meaning into your life. Seeing people at their happiest and at their lowest points was something you didn’t take for granted and always gave it your best.
Though, being empathetic and connecting with customers didn’t cost you anything and felt natural, you needed some time in your day to focus on yourself and relax.
You did that through gaming which became a hobby a few years ago. Being able to immerse yourself into another world and focus on only that was something that took your mind off the responsibilities that came with being an adult.
Wanting to connect with others who enjoyed the same hobby, you started streaming a month ago in hopes of meeting or creating a community of people with interests similar to yours. It had started off slow, which was to be expected, but soon you had people joining your stream and chatting with you.
You loved the small community you had and was grateful to have something to look forward to after work. You enjoyed talking about your day and hearing about the lives of others and the different games they were playing.
You chose to stream without a camera because you wanted this to be completely separate from your normal life and were a bit too shy to put yourself completely out there. Thankfully those in your community didn’t mind and stuck around for you and your personality.
–
After closing up the shop, you arrived home and began settling in for the night. Doing your usual routine of showering, making dinner, and preparing for your stream.
You do your routine of making sure all your equipment is working, your connection is stable, and at last, you press “Go Live”.
–
Natasha turned on the TV and connected to the live stream of the only person who brought her peace for the past two weeks.
It was Natasha’s turn to train recruits for the next three months which had begun a month ago. Being as skilled as she was as Black Widow, training people who didn’t know their asses from their elbows was headache inducing. Not to mention the overconfident recruits who felt that they were above the training they were receiving.
Exercising had been a way for her to release stress and still was, but recently it hadn’t felt like enough. She wanted a way to relax at the end of the day and discovered gaming. After exploring a few games she learned that while she did enjoy it quite a bit, she found more joy in watching people playing after stumbling upon a videogame streaming site.
She came across a channel called, “Y/N’s Corner” and was immediately hooked. Your soft and gentle voice brought her a sense of calm that she hadn’t experienced in a while. Like the stresses of the day and the responsibilities she had didn’t matter for the time that she watched your stream.
Listening to your little rambles about your day as you traversed throughout whatever game you chose to play made her smile without realizing. You were just the right amount of casual and competitive that kept her engaged. Hearing you laugh brought a sense of warmth in her chest that she couldn’t explain and she wondered what you looked like when you were laughing.
She never chatted, rather, was a silent supporter and showed up whenever she could when she saw the notification that you went live. Always thankful for the unknown streamer that allowed her to go to sleep in peace.
After your stream ended for the day, Natasha laid in bed thinking about what she needed to do the next day and remembered it would be Wanda’s birthday. Tony would be throwing a party for the occasion and she didn’t want to show up empty handed. Maybe flowers? she thinks as she drifts off to sleep.
–
After a few deliveries, it had been a slower day at the shop. Considering how busy it had been the past week you couldn’t help but feel a bit relieved to have a breather.
It was nearing the time to close and the sun was starting to set, creating a warm hue throughout the shop. Shadows casted from the dissipating light were all around you in the shape of flowers as you began doing a few closing tasks around the counter.
The bell chimed as a customer entered the shop and you looked up to see a distracted redhead examining the flowers near the door. You couldn’t help but pause as the setting sun made her look like she was glowing. Her hair looked fiery but soft at the same time and her green eyes were shining from the reflection of the light. The green dress she was wearing accentuated her eyes even more.
You shook your head, remembering that you have a job to do and need to lock in.
“Hi, welcome in! Is there anything specific that you’re looking for?” you say with a bright smile.
Her eyes snap to yours and looks at you as though she recognizes you from somewhere.
“Not anything specific,” she says while squinting at you. “It’s my friend’s birthday and I wanted to get her some flowers.”
Choosing to ignore the looks she was giving you, you respond “That’s very sweet of you. Did you want to choose a few flowers for a bouquet or select a premade one? Or I can select a few for you.”
“If it’s not too much trouble, would you select a few to create a bouquet?” the redhead says.
“It’s no trouble at all,” you say while walking around the counter. “Do you happen to know what flowers your friend likes?”
“I don’t, sorry. I know that flowers have a meaning behind them and I’d like to convey our friendship and hope for her happiness, if that’s helpful at all.”
“It’s very helpful,” you say while scanning the shop. You pick up a yellow freesia and hold it up to her. “This, for example, conveys friendship in flower language. While a yellow daisy represents happiness. There’s a lot of combinations to choose from to convey what you want to express to the person you’re giving them to. My job is to try to make it presentable at the end,” you say with a laugh.
“I don’t know if my friend will understand the meaning of them,” she says with a little smile. “Hopefully the feeling will be conveyed anyway. I think my friend likes pink. What about these ones?” Glancing at you while pointing to some pink hyacinths.
“Oh, so you’re doing my job for me now?” you say playfully. “Those are pink hyacinths. They represent playful joy. I think they’d add a pop to the bouquet. I was starting to get worried that it was getting too yellow.”
“I had to throw in a suggestion considering I hardly gave you anything to off of,” she says with a smirk. “I think three different types of flowers should be enough. I don’t want to hold you up any longer.”
You gather a handful of each of the flowers and move behind the counter to start arranging them.
“You’re not holding me up at all. What’s your name by the way?” you ask while multitasking to fill the silence.
“My name is Natasha. What’s yours?”
“I’m Y/N.” Pointing to your name stitched into the fabric of your green apron.
Natasha looks surprised that she didn’t notice as she looks down to where you’re pointing.
You catch her attention again, gesturing to the ribbons. “What color ribbon would you like to be tied around the bouquet?”
Her eyes move to examine the ribbons. Smirking, she says, “Let’s go with scarlet.”
You pull up the total as you do the finishing touches on the bouquet.
Natasha pays as you hand her the finished bouquet. Her fingers brush yours as she looks up and gazes at you. It feels like the noises outside come to a quiet and it’s just you and her, hands touching, looking at each other as though you were both exactly where you needed to be.
“Thank you so much for your help today Y/N,” she says softly while looking down at where your hands are touching.
You looked down as well, feeling shy all of a sudden. “It was my pleasure. I really enjoyed helping you today and I hope your friend likes the flowers.”
Her hand moves away from yours as she grabs the bouquet from you fully. You immediately miss the bit of warmth that her hand had given you but shake it off as you look up to give her a soft smile.
“Have a great rest of your day Natasha. If you’re ever in need of flowers again, you know where to find me.”
“Of course. You’ll be my go to girl,” she says with a playful smile. She turns to leave and you find yourself staring at her as she walks away.
With her hand on the door handle she turns around to look at you. Even though the sun had set a bit more than when she first walked in, she still looked as radiant to you as when she first entered.
Her eyes shining like emeralds linger on your face as if memorizing you before smiling and walking out the door.
You inhale deeply, realizing that you hadn’t been breathing during the short staring contest. You feel your heart beating a little faster and wonder what it was about her that made you feel this way.
You could only hope to see her again as the shop was encompassed in darkness as the sun fully set.
—
Natasha walked back to the Tower, holding the bouquet securely against herself as though it were something precious and fragile. She wouldn’t be able to forgive herself if she ruined the beautiful arrangement you had made for her.
She looked back on the interaction she had with you and wished it could’ve been longer. When you had first welcomed her in she felt startled to hear the same voice she’d heard last night on stream. The same voice that would quiet the worries in her mind and soften the shell she surrounded herself in.
At first she thought it was just a coincidence, someone with a similar voice. Your laugh though, was unmistakable. That laugh that carried an ease to it and was so infectious that she couldn’t help but feel lighter while hearing it.
She’d always wondered what you would’ve looked like laughing, and seeing it in person was even more than she could’ve imagined. Your eyes brightened with a little crinkle in the corners of your eyes that she found endearing. The way when your laughter would slowly die down and turn into a soft smile.
You brought the same sense of peace that she felt while watching your streams but the feeling was even deeper while talking to you in person. She felt a pull towards you that she couldn’t quite explain and secretly hoped to see you again soon.
Maybe tell you about how Wanda liked the flowers tomorrow as an excuse to visit you, she thought as she entered the tower and stepped into the elevator to go up to the party.
The elevator doors open to loud music and a sea of people that Tony probably invited. She scans the room to find the birthday girl leaning against Vision and talking animatedly to some members of the team.
She makes her way through the crowd with light steps, gracefully avoiding bumping into other partygoers until finally arriving in front of Wanda.
“Yes, sorry I’m a bit late. I was grabbing these for our beautiful birthday girl,” she says while handing Wanda the bouquet.
“These are gorgeous Natasha. I didn’t take you for one to know flower language or did you just take a lucky guess and happen to choose the ones that mean friendship?” Wanda remarks with a teasing lilt while giving Natasha a hug.
“Hey, I can be sentimental too you know,” Natasha states exasperatedly. “But yes, the florist was the one who helped me with the meanings behind the flowers and choose them. The pink one was my lucky guess.”
“I figured,” Wanda says with a laugh. “Thank you anyways. I love them. I guess I’ll have to pay them a visit when I want to change the flowers in my room.”
“You should. The florist’s name is Y/N she’s really–”
“Rushman! You’re needed behind the bar,” Tony calls from somewhere nearby.
“Unfortunately duty, or I guess I should say the Tinman, calls,” Natasha says while rolling her eyes. “I’ll catch up with you whenever you decide to freshen your drink. Enjoy the party Wanda, you deserve it.”
Wanda gives Natasha another hug before Natasha walks to take over as makeshift bartender.
Charming the guests came naturally to her as she made their drinks. Fake smiles and polite pleasantries. Never anything below surface level despite the many advances made towards her.
After a few hours she was relieved of her duties and decided to call it a night. The forced smiles had taken a toll on her social battery. She wishes Wanda a happy birthday one last time and says her goodbyes to the team before heading back to the elevator to go to her room.
She releases a sigh of relief as she closes the door to her room, taking off her heels and begins getting ready for bed.
It was late and she knew that the chances of you streaming were low, but decided to check anyway as she opened her laptop. She was happily surprised to see that you were live. Her body relaxed into the bed the moment she heard your voice. You sounded a bit congested compared to earlier, but maybe her speaker was the problem.
“Haley is so hot but so rude in the beginning. I know she gets better but do I really want to marry someone who was mean to me until I gave them gifts? Leah feels more stable and more wholesome. Sigma67, hell no I’m not marrying one of the bachelor’s. Sebastian? I may as well marry a rock at that point.”
Natasha chuckles quietly as she hears you continue to rant about the marriage candidates in the game. Feeling her eyes slowly begin to close to the soothing tone of your voice.
“If I could marry Krobus I would. They’re the only one that never disappoints me, doesn’t get jealous, gives me buffs. What’s not to…”
—
Natasha woke up feeling refreshed. She had a rare day off and was looking forward to resting her voice from yelling at recruits.
After finishing her morning routine she joined the team for breakfast in the common room. Everyone but Steve was fairly hungover so it was a quieter morning with Wanda cooking, Tony grumbling about how much his head hurts, and Vision watching over everyone.
You stayed in the back of her mind all throughout and she wonders if it’d be too soon to pay you a visit. She continued to consider this while going through her workout and while she headed to her room to shower.
While showering, she convinces herself to go, not to see you, but to let you know how much Wanda loved the flowers. Definitely not because she already missed your smile.
She changes into jeans, a white shirt, a leather jacket, and a baseball cap. It was much earlier than yesterday when she visited your shop and she hoped she wouldn’t be catching you at a busy time.
She turns the corner to see the white door of your shop but pauses when she sees a sign on it.
The sign on the door read, “Closed today, sorry:(“
While your handwriting and frowny face looked adorable, she felt a wave of disappointment wash over her when realizing she wouldn’t be seeing you today.
Hopefully you’d be streaming today so she could at least hear your voice, she thought as she trudges back to the tower.
—
The day passed by slowly and it was finally around the time you normally stream. Natasha had her laptop open, ready to watch whenever you went live.
This went on for a few hours, with her tidying up her room, doing her nighttime routine, all the while checking her laptop every few minutes. The notification of you going live never comes.
Maybe you’re taking a break today too,” she thought, trying not to be too disappointed.
Realizing you wouldn’t be streaming today, she put one of your previous streams on, hoping that it would have the same effect. She felt herself relax a bit, but missed hearing new stories about your day and worried about why you had closed today.
—
Sleep had not come easily. Natasha woke up throughout the night, pausing to listen to you, then going back to sleep. Apparently there was something special about hearing you talk live. Or perhaps after meeting you, she wanted more.
The combination of the change in routine and her lack of sleep forced her into a lousy mood that she wasn’t afraid to show.
After getting ready for the day and changing into her workout attire she walked into the common room for breakfast. Everyone was already seated as she made her way to the end of the table next to Steve and Tony.
“Wake up late, Romanoff? That’s unusual for you,“ Tony quipped.
“Finally got your head out of your ass, Tony? That’s unusual for you,” Natasha snaps back with a glare.
“Jeez, who rained on your parade today?”
“Stop provoking her, Tony. You’ll just make it worse,” Steve says, glancing between them. “Nat, is something wrong?”
“What’s wrong is both of you spreading your testosterone and not minding your own business.”
“What am I supposed to do about–”
“Tony, let’s just eat quietly.” Steve, sensing her mood, picks up his fork and silences Tony.
—
Natasha slams her jacket down on her bed. It felt like everyone was getting on her last nerve today. Tony with his constant comments, the recruits being incompetent, and most of all you still not going live today.
You didn’t stream for another two days and Natasha was losing it. She had checked your shop to see if you were open, under the guise of surveying the area, only to be disappointed each time. The rain cloud that was forming on the first day only grew and she wasn’t afraid to strike lightning down on anyone who tried to mess with her. Or breathe within five feet of her for that matter.
She was towards the end of sparring training with the recruits and everyone had been paired up except the odd number that got stuck with Natasha. She took her time making small jabs until she caught them off guard and slammed them into the mat with more force than necessary. Finally dismissing everyone for the day.
The recruits grumble about how harsh she had been the past few days as they walk to the locker rooms.
She releases a tense sigh. The days felt slower without you, like she was just going through the motions to get to the end, only to start over again the following day.
She felt a desperation in her chest that she had never felt before. How could you affect her this way when she barely knew you? Sure, she watches your streams and knows small details from the anecdotes that you shared, but those were simple. What she felt when she met you was like she was behind a door that could bring her happiness. Unlocked and inviting. She just wasn’t sure if she was brave enough or trusted what was beyond.
She made her way up to her room to shower, passing by staff and team members who took one look at her expression and scampered away.
Her head felt clearer after showering but there was a lingering feeling of exhaustion that wouldn’t go away. With dark circles under her eyes and heavy shoulders, she made her way to her laptop, deciding to catch up on reports to get her mind off of you.
The streaming site was still open from when she had played one of your past broadcasts the night before. She was about to close the tab when she saw a notification on the top right of her screen indicating that you had just gone live.
The exhaustion she felt washed away into disbelief. Completely disregarding the reports she needed to finish, she found her way to your channel and heard you greeting everyone.
Your voice sounded a bit scratchier and you spoke quieter, but the complicated feelings in Natasha’s chest dissipated. She felt lighter than she had in days. It was you. You that had been on her mind, you that brought quietness in the chaos of her life, you that she had missed even if she didn’t want to admit it.
“Sorry for not streaming these past few days without any notice. I ended up getting a cold and was confined to the dungeon that is my room and the cell that is my bed. I’ve been symptom free for the past day – throat is still going through it as you can hear. Hopefully I won’t sound like a gremlin for too much longer.”
Natasha caught herself smiling softly the entire time you were talking and laughing along with you. Your giggle might’ve been the cutest thing she ever heard. She was glad to hear that you were okay and still had your infectious positivity.
You couldn’t talk as much as normal, as you were protecting your throat, but Natasha savored the bits and pieces of you talking about your cold as if it was an adventure.
“And then I literally sneezed 10 times in a row. I thought that was it for me – with no one to bless me and all. It’s a miracle I survived without any blessings.”
Natasha listened for as long as she could, but felt herself slowly dozing off. The lack of sleep finally catching up to her as though hearing that you were okay was the permission she needed to rest peacefully.
I hope the flower shop is open tomorrow, she thought before letting sleep take over her.
—
You woke up feeling better than you had for days. Your throat didn’t feel like it was on the verge of shriveling up every time you talked and your complexion looked better as you tested your voice in front of the mirror of your bathroom.
“You’ve been symptom free for 36 hours. It’s time to get back on the saddle and work.” Hyping yourself up while walking to your closet.
Deciding on a gray long sleeve shirt and blue jeans you head out to the door to put your sneakers on before finally departing for your shop.
It felt good to be walking the familiar route after being trapped inside for a few days. Other shop owners stop you to ask where you’d been. You retold the story of your cold in the most dramatic way possible as they laugh along with you, handing you little treats as a way of saying “We’re happy to see you back and hope you’re feeling better.”
After finishing your tale, you bid them farewell as you made the rest of your way to your shop. Taking note of the sign on the door that you haphazardly wrote when you realized you were too unwell to open.
You unlock the door and take everything in. The automatic watering system thankfully had done its job. Your plant babies were still thriving. Your green apron is still hanging near the counter. The fresh smell of the flowers gives you energy.
It hadn’t been long but you had missed this. You loved the routine you had of taking care of the flowers and managing your shop.
You walk through the space, going around the counter to put on your apron. Starting your opening tasks before finding yourself at the door ready to kick off the day.
You saw customers already waiting outside the door, some being regulars that you felt grateful to. You turn the closed sign to open and open the door with a smile.
“Welcome in!”
—
It had been quite the rush until you were in the last half an hour of being open.
Regulars had stopped by when they noticed you were open and new customers joined when they saw how popular your shop was. You caught up and laughed with them as you navigated the shop to help them find what they were looking for. Helping others who were unsure, until everyone left with smiles on their faces and flowers in hand.
The sun was low in the sky. You felt sapped, but filled with warmth. You hadn’t been gone for long, but the reception you received filled you with gratefulness.
You were tidying up around the floor when you saw pink hyacinths in the corner of your eye. You brush the petals gently with your fingers. Natasha suddenly came to mind. The sun had been setting like it was now and you remember how drawn you felt towards her.
Is it weird to feel this way towards someone I’ve only interacted with once? you thought, reminiscing about the interaction.
While lost in thought, the bell chimes and you glance up.
You lock onto familiar green eyes, the same eyes you were just picturing. Your heart flutters as you glimpse down at her lips that were curling into a smile.
You try to muster some courage. “I guess you couldn’t stay away. Back for more?”
“I did say you’d be my go to girl,” she says with an easy smile. “Plus, my friend adored the bouquet you made her for her birthday.”
“Hey, you chose one of the flowers so it was a team effort,” you say grinning at her. “What’s the occasion today?”
She looks caught off guard but quickly answers, “Just something for myself.”
“Nothing wrong with some self love.” You cringe inside at your response. Normally you were charismatic with your customers, but with Natasha you couldn’t stop your nervousness.
“Yes, exactly,” she responds seriously. “Can you choose a few flowers for me to create a bouquet like you did last time? I’m not familiar with that many so I’d really appreciate it, if it’s not too much trouble.”
Already looking around for the flowers that came to mind when you thought of her, you shot her a smile. “I’m more than happy to.”
You pluck some light red carnations, pink tulips, and white orchids from their containers with decisiveness.
Natasha watches you with fondness as you begin wrapping the flowers in floral wrap.
“Are you not going to tell me the meanings of the flowers this time?”
You feel your cheeks heat up, forgetting that she’d probably be expecting you to explain the meanings like you did last time. Contemplating if you should lie, you decide you should do your job properly.
“The light red carnations mean admiration, the pink tulips mean gentle affection, and the white orchids mean beauty,” you relay quickly while pointing to each one. Looking away to not see her reaction.
You don’t see Natasha change from looking at you with fondness, to looking at you with so much tenderness that even she’s surprised at how you can make her melt with just a few words.
“Can I get a bouquet of these as well?” she asks while pointing to the container of white gerbera daisies.
“Of course,” you say while going around the counter to retrieve them. Relieved that she wasn’t asking further about your selection of flowers for her.
You wrap the daisies while she watches your hands work. The silence felt more comfortable than it did the first time she had visited.
You bring up the total for the bouquets after finishing the wrapping, handing them to her after she pays. She only grabs one of the bouquets, leaving the bouquet of white gerbera daisies in your hands.
“Those are for you,” she says leaning forward with a soft smile. “New connections.” She turns around and walks out the door. Leaving you with just the sound of the bell’s chime, a racing heart, and an astonished expression.
—
Ever since Natasha had gifted you the bouquet, she had been visiting you everyday around the time you closed.
She would help you move the heavier pots and containers that you normally struggled with, with ease. She’d sweep the floor for you and wipe the windows even though you protested against it. After the first few days you started joking that she was an honorary worker.
The conversations started gradually, just learning bits and pieces about each other. You learned that she was Russian, that she has a sister who she loves but tries to hide it, that she learned ballet when she was younger. You could tell that she didn’t like to share much about herself, so you gratefully held the pieces that she did share close to you.
After two weeks, she nervously told you that she was a part of the Avengers with Black Widow being her alias.
“How could you let me charge you for the flowers?” you shriek.
“That’s what you’re focused on?” she asks, amused. Her shoulders lose their tension.
“I mean, for someone who’s saved the world a couple times, the least I could’ve done was give you some free flowers,” you mutter regretfully.
She looks down at her hands, rough from her training and field experience. “I thought you’d treat me differently considering everything I’ve done in the past is out there.”
You consider her words before reaching for her hands. Holding them in yours gently as though she were precious. To you she was.
“These past few weeks I’ve gotten to know Natasha. Not Black Widow. I know Natasha can’t tell the difference between a hydrangea and a dianthus even though I’ve told her at least 100 times,” you say with a playful eyeroll. “I know Natasha is a menace if she doesn’t have a coffee at 3 o’clock on the dot. I know that Natasha loves her friends and family even when she’s complaining about them.”
You rub the back of her hand with your thumb. “And I know Natasha that’s allowed herself to tell me pieces of herself even though it’s difficult. That’s the person who I want to continue to know and learn about, past be damned.”
She looks at you, eyes glistening, as though you hung the stars and the moon.
“I guess I’ll have to keep telling you more about me,” she murmurs, holding your hand back.
—
It had been a month since Natasha started visiting your shop regularly. Helping you close at the end of the day had become a part of her routine. You and her had gotten even closer after she told you what she does. Even bringing you to the tower a few times, in which you were endlessly entertained by F.R.I.D.A.Y.
She wasn’t sure how to define your relationship. It felt like an in between where she accepted how she felt about you, but was too afraid to risk what you guys had currently. She had convinced herself that she was satisfied with how things were as long as she had you, her sunshine, in her life.
That is, until she walked to your shop and paused at the door to see a man leaning against the counter. Far too close to your personal space. Natasha could tell he was flirting with you and she felt her chest tighten.
She knew you were popular in the area. People from other shops often brought you gifts in the form of baked goods and other items from their shops. She always figured that you’d probably have some admirers, but seeing it in person brought a twinge of irritation that she wasn’t anticipating.
She wanted to stop him but knew she didn’t have the right. You weren’t hers. People were allowed to be interested in you and she had to be okay with that. She told herself this, but imaging you with someone else felt unbearable. The facade of being satisfied with just being friends cracking.
While lost in her thoughts you notice her at the front. Wearing jeans and a black t-shirt with her leather jacket that you had become so familiar with. The man, who was leaning far too close to you and only talking about himself, had blocked your view of her. You wave at her, catching her attention.
She looks conflicted as she walks through the door. You lean back from the counter, letting the man know you would be closing soon. Essentially dismissing him without saying it outright.
He gets the idea and walks out, grumbling about how women never give men chances.
“Are you ready for your closing shift?” you ask with a grin.
She looks lost in thought as she absentmindedly murmurs, “Yeah, let’s get started.”
Normally she’d chat with you while you guys went through the checklist of tasks. Today she was quiet. Seemingly engrossed in what was preoccupying her mind.
Maybe she’s tired today, you thought while moving the last pot into place and closing out the register.
You turn to look at her, only for her to already be watching you. Her face fills with determination as she locks eyes with you.
“Do you want to hang out at the tower today?”
Your eyes widen. Figuring that she wasn’t in the mood to talk today. You would never turn down an opportunity to spend time with her though.
“Of course. You just can’t get enough of me huh?”
“I really can’t,” she says softly, moving towards you. She reaches her arms around you, untying the back of your apron and gently maneuvering the neck loop over your head. “Ready to go?” she asks next to your ear.
She moves away to put the apron on the hook near the counter.
You're glad because you’re sure if she was still next to you that she would be able to hear your heart beating a mile a minute. Did she know the effect she had on you? There’s no way she didn’t. You had known that you had feelings for Natasha for a while now. At times you thought she might feel the same way, but she never pushed the boundaries of friendship. So you always held yourself back.
It was the first time you felt that maybe just being friends wouldn’t be enough. Your heart wanting more. To be hers and for her to be yours. You just didn’t know how to make that step forward and if it was worth risking everything.
You both walk to the door together, her holding it open for you before you lock the door.
The evening was warm as you both made your way to the tower. You felt yourself gravitate towards her, bumping into her occasionally. Apologizing each time with a shy smile.
Her hand brushes yours as she gives you a smile, telling you not to apologize when you’re about to open your mouth to say sorry again. Your hand felt electric where she had made contact.
You enter the tower together and head to the elevator. She presses the button for her floor.
You’d only been to her room twice, both briefly. You felt glad that your relationship with her was progressing and maybe she was putting more trust in you.
She leads you to her room, closing the door but not turning around.
“Nat?”
—
So many thoughts were racing through Natasha’s mind. Should she risk everything? If you didn’t feel the same way, how would you guys go back to how you were before? Would you even be in her life after this?
She looks down and notices her usually steady hands, shaking. She was terrified of not having you with her.
She swallows the fear down, the feeling of wanting more – to have you be hers overtaking her as she takes a deep breath and turns around.
“Y/N,” she says with as much confidence as she can muster. It was now or never. It was time to allow herself to open the door.
“We haven’t known each other for that long but the moment I walked into your shop to buy flowers that day, I knew I was a goner for you. You’re on my mind all the time. When I see the sunset, I think of you. When there’s flowers on the side of the road, I think of you. Even when I’m brushing my teeth, I think of the silly faces you make at me when we’re closing the shop and I can’t help but smile and wish you were there with me.”
She takes a shaky breath before saying, “I might’ve been a goner even before that. Your voice, your laugh, your cute giggles, have brought me so much peace even before really meeting you. Over two months ago I came across your stream and I was hooked. Hearing about your day and watching you play games with your adorable commentary became a part of my routine. When I went to get flowers the day we met, I didn’t know it was you until I heard your laugh. I’d know that laugh anywhere. The same laugh that felt like it was lifting the burdens of my day away. I didn’t mean to hide that I knew about your stream, I just didn’t know how to bring it up. I’m sorry for keeping it to myself all this time.” She finds the courage to look at you.
You’re staring at her. Eyes wide, like you couldn’t believe what she was saying.
She prepares herself to be rejected. She’d told you this too late.
“Y/N-”
“Nat,” you say, cutting her off. “For a master assassin you’re not very good at hiding things.” You say with humor in your voice, eyes filled with warmth.
“The first time you allowed me into your room I happened to see your laptop open. I promise I wasn’t peeking on purpose! It was just right there, and I saw my channel on your screen. If I clocked you as a stalker, we wouldn’t be here right now.”
You walk forward until you're standing right in front of her. Her eyes tracking you the whole way.
“The day we met I knew there was something different about you. When you walked in, I was floored. I almost couldn’t do my job because I was so lost in your eyes,” you say with a sweet laugh. You reach your hand up to cup her cheek, smiling up at her adoringly. “And then our hands touched, and it felt like it was just you and me. Like we were meant to be there together. I didn’t think my feelings could grow even further, but every time we talk I just want more. More time to talk to you, more time to look at you – just more of you.”
“I was yours the moment we met,” she murmurs while leaning down before pausing halfway. “Is this okay?”
Instead of answering, you close the distance. Your lips meet as you wrap your arms around her neck.
She wraps her arms around your waist, like she originally wanted to when she took your apron off but couldn’t find the courage to. Wanting to be as close to you as possible – finding it just wasn’t enough.
She lightly bites your lower lip, asking permission. You part your lips, allowing her tongue access as she starts walking you backwards slowly against the wall. Your bodies pressed tightly together as she leaves you breathless.
With one kiss, Natasha was already addicted. Feeling like she couldn’t get enough of you. You had her in a haze and she wanted to be as close to you as possible. She slowly dragged her hands under your shirt. Feeling the warmth of your bare skin as she held your waist. She pulled her head back slightly to look at you. Gazing at you with a wordless question that you understood immediately.
You lean your forehead against her shoulder and murmur, “I want you.”
“I’m yours,” she says, sliding her hands down to the back of thighs and lifting you. Carrying you towards her bedroom.
You let out a startled laugh. Kissing below her ear as she lays you down onto the bed.
She leans down on top of you, supporting her weight with one arm as she gazes at you lovingly.
“Stop looking at me like that,” you whisper. Your cheeks heating up from her gaze.
“Like what?”
“Like I’m the only thing that matters.”
“Maybe you are.” She leans down to kiss your neck. You jolt, feeling her lips suction onto your neck, leaving her mark on you.
She brings her hand down to the hem of your shirt, looking up from where she’s leaving another mark, asking for permission silently.
You sit up, allowing her to slide your shirt off. She looks at you like she can’t help herself before reaching behind you for your bra clasp. Looking at you to see if it was okay.
“I trust you, Natasha,” you say before brushing your lips against hers. Hoping she understood that you wanted to give her everything.
You hear the click of the clasp being released as the straps of your bra loosen. She slides them off your arms and tosses your bra aside. She presses her hand to your shoulder, laying you back down.
She gazes down at you adoringly before murmuring, "Gorgeous.” She leans down, kissing between your breasts before turning her head to take one of your nipples in her mouth.
It wasn’t your first time, but everything with Natasha felt different. New. Like your sensitivity got turned up a few notches. You felt yourself reacting to every swipe of her tongue. The pressure of her fingers gripping your breast. All culminating into the growing wetness you felt between your legs.
You weren’t the only one reacting. You could feel her length pressing against your thigh through her jeans. Your shaky breaths when she would lick your nipple and sharp intakes of breath when she would suck a bit harder drove her crazy.
She gave your other breast the same attention before kissing down to your stomach. Covering every inch of you with kisses like she were on a mission.
You tugged on her jacket, wanting to feel her warmth more clearly.
She slips out of her jacket, taking off her shirt and bra in the process. You admire her body openly and wrap your hand around one of her biceps. No wonder she was able to carry everything with ease when helping you. Her strong muscles flex in your grasp.
She hides her flushed cheeks in your neck as she moves her hand downwards. Her fingertips resting on the button of your pants.
Kissing over the marks she made, she undoes the button of your pants and zipper and slides your pants off. She drags her fingers over your underwear until she reaches the spot where your arousal has gathered. You were already soaking and she hadn’t even truly began.
She let out a breath against your neck before leaning back to drag your underwear down your legs. A string of your arousal shining as she fully removes them.
“You’re driving me crazy,” she mutters.
Her thumb presses lightly against your clit and you twitch from the sensitivity. She presses harder and circles her thumb, forcing a moan out of you.
“Mmm-” Your cheeks heat up from hearing yourself and move to cover your mouth.
Natasha grabs your wrist and presses it into the bed. “Don’t be embarrassed, baby. I love the sounds you make. Let me keep hearing them,” she whispers while her fingertips move downward until she’s at your entrance.
She doesn’t give you a moment to feel shy before swirling your arousal on her middle and ring finger. She looks up, looking for approval.
You give her a small nod, feeling safe with her.
Her fingers slowly enter you and you feel yourself tighten at the intrusion. She rubs circles into your hip to ease you and you feel yourself relax.
She starts slowly, setting a leisurely pace. Her fingers drag against the spot inside you that forces breathless moans out of you. You feel her thumb return to its spot on your clit, continuing its ministrations from earlier while thrusting her fingers into you faster.
You feel your mind become hazier as you get closer to reaching your peak. A part of you wants more of her. To be full of her.
You reach towards her, touching her cheek. “Nat,” you say breathlessly.
Her fingers pause – eyes filled with worry that she might’ve hurt you. “Is everything okay baby?”
“Everything is okay,” you say, trying to ease her worries. Shyly looking down, you bite your lip. Finally peeking up to see her looking at you with a mix of worry and adoration. Your chest fills with warmth as you find the courage to say, “I don’t want to cum without you inside of me. I want to be even closer to you.”
It’s like a switch flips in Natasha as she eases her fingers out from inside of you and begins unbuttoning her jeans.
You could see how hard she was from how her cock was straining against her boxers, creating a tent. You reached out, rubbing her length through the fabric and noting how thick she was. She inhales sharply at the feeling.
You push her boxers down, not being able to be patient anymore, as her cock springs free and hits her stomach. You could see the head of her cock glistening as precum dribbled down her length.
You lay back down as she shuffles forward until her shaft is rubbing against you. She slides herself on your slit, gathering slick and bumping against your clit as she thrusts upwards.
Your arousal was down to your inner thighs from how turned on you were. It didn’t take long for her cock to be covered in you and she lines herself up to your entrance.
She cups your face with her hand, rubbing her thumb across your cheek.
“I’ll take it slow. You let me know whenever something doesn’t feel right, okay?” She looks at you seriously.
You wrap your arms around her neck to pull her closer to you so you’re face to face, Leaning up the rest of the way you kiss the corner of her mouth. Smiling against her lips you respond, “I promise I will.”
She brings you into a deep kiss – slowly beginning to press herself into you. The stretch feeling impossible at the beginning. You suddenly feel grateful that Natasha had stretched you out a bit earlier.
She makes her way into you. Inch by inch. You grip her biceps as she continues. The head of her cock finally hitting the deepest part of you. The sound of your pants filling the room.
She rests her face against your neck. Staying still to allow you to accommodate to her size.
“I’m obsessed with you,” she breathes out.
“I’m that good already?” you say playfully through uneven breaths.
She pauses for a moment before pulling out halfway and thrusting back into you with force. You release a startled moan.
“I’m that good already?” she says looking at you with a smirk.
“The absolute bestest,” you say with a teasing glint in your eyes.
She rolls her eyes with a smile. She presses her lips against yours and you feel yourselves both smiling into the kiss. Her hips gradually move away from yours as she begins a slow, but steady pace.
Everything with Natasha felt perfect. Her caring demeanor, the way she looked at you like you were her world, even the random playful banter when you were making love. You wanted everyday and every moment for the rest of your life to be with her.
You feel the stretch start to feel more manageable, Natasha reading your expression, increases her tempo. Hitting the exact spot inside you that makes you feel like you’re losing control with every thrust.
You feel tears start pooling and falling down the sides of your cheeks at how intense everything felt. At the overwhelming adoration you have for her. At the love you feel building for her, even in the short amount of time you’ve known each other – knowing that this love would only continue to grow.
She wipes your tears away, matching your expression of love for her as if she knew exactly what you were thinking. You memorize her face at this moment, cheeks slightly flushed, pupils dilated, her red hair disheveled, but most of all – her tender expression. Like she was memorizing you too.
Your hands grip the sheets as you feel your climax steadily approaching. She reaches for your hands, uncurling your fingers and interlocking them with hers. She presses your hands into the bed on both sides of your head as shifts to change her angle, hitting even deeper inside you. You wrap your legs around her waist, wanting her closer to you.
Your moans reverberate next to her ear, her strokes becoming erratic. Too lost in your pleasure to feel smug about the effect you have on her.
“I’m close, baby,” she groans, trying to make the moment last longer. Unsure of where to finish.
You wrap your legs tighter around her waist. You look up at her with pleading eyes. “Inside please. It’s okay.”
That sets something off inside of Natasha – gripping your hands tighter, her thrusts shallow but don’t lose their intensity. Your walls tightening around her as you sit on the verge of climaxing.
“Fuck, baby-” she moans shakily before making a final rough thrust, reaching as deep as you can allow.
You feel the warmth of her seed filling you to the brim and beyond. Your legs shake against her waist as you reach your peak. Your vision blurs from the pleasure. Clutching her hands until your knuckles turn white. Letting out a broken moan that sounds like her name.
She murmurs quiet praises into your ear. Making slow thrusts to help you ride out your orgasm. She releases one of your hands to cup your face.
“This feels like a dream,” she whispers, still breathless.
You gently grab her hand, maneuvering it until her palm is resting over your heart. Finally able to speak after coming back down to Earth.
“I’m right here. I’m yours. You have my heart,” you say softly but with conviction.
She leans down, giving you a deep kiss that she hopes conveys her feelings, unable to put them into words.
“And I’m yours. Always, as long as you’ll have me.”
“This coming from my biggest fan?” you question, giving her a mischievous grin.
She throws her head back, letting out an unrestrained laugh at your cheekiness. Yeah, she’s in love, she thinks to herself.
She gives you a playful smack on your shoulder.
“Domestic violence already!" you shriek dramatically.
“What have I gotten into?” she says, shaking her head trying to give you a disapproving look but failing.
You pull her into a tight hug. “No take backs,” you say softly.
“Never,” she says, holding you tighter. “I’m exactly where I want to be. Now and in the future.”
“Forever,” you whisper, picturing it.
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The sun casts a red orange glow around your flower shop. Its fading rays shine off the leaves of the flowers, and glint off the shelves.
The bell chimes as a customer enters. Red hair accentuated by the remaining light.
“Is it too late to buy something?” she asks while looking around.
“It’s a bit last minute but I guess I can make an exception,” you respond while hiding a smile. “Do you need help finding something?”
“No thank you. I know exactly what I’m looking for,” she says while grabbing a bouquet of red roses. “I’ll just take these today.”
You ring her up while trying to keep an air of professionalism. “Receipt today?”
“No thank you, ma’am.” Her act finally cracking as she smiles at you. The soft smile she only gives when you two are alone.
She hands you the bouquet, brushing your hair behind your ear. It was longer than it had been a year ago.
“Happy anniversary, my love,” she says softly, voice filled with love.
You rush forward, giving her a kiss that has her stumbling backwards before catching herself. Your eyes shine with love as you look at her.
“I love you too,” you say against her lips.
“Sorry I’m a little late getting out today. Let me just finish up so we can leave for the restaurant,” you say while removing your apron.
“Take your time, gorgeous. We’re in no rush.”
“Maybe if my part time closer showed up on time I would’ve been done already,” you say with faux discontent. Glancing back to give her a pointed look.
She lets out a laugh filled with amusement. “Aren’t they just terrible?”
“Just the worst,” you say while reaching to hold her hand.
You both walk toward the door. She pauses right before, leaning down to give you a sweet kiss before opening the door. You walk out together, looking forward to all the anniversaries, memories, and love that will only continue to grow in the future.
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This is my first time writing a fanfic. Hopefully I did okay 😅. I haven't done any creative writing since I was in my freshman year of university. I got interested in this fandom late last year and reading other writer's fanfics have brought me a lot of joy. I was originally writing this for myself, but I wanted to maybe give that same joy to others. I have a handful of other fic ideas, so feedback is always appreciated. Sorry if my formatting was poor at times. If you want to see my journey as I improve my writing, please give a follow! Thank you for reading! 😊
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