el 🤍 active september 2022

sw: 130 lb cw: 115 lb gw: 100 lb

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i hate feeling like i ate way more than the cals add up to 😧 it freaks me out bcs i feel like i must’ve forgotten something

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this is the longest i’ve stayed on track in a while!! i’ve gone two weeks now with no big binge days and if i’ve had small binge’s i’ve managed to stay under my cal limit :)

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oh my god i hit 115 :)))

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i feel ok. i’m trying to be positive so here are some positives

- i stayed under 1000 today

- i had a fun night without drinking

- i saw my friends

- i was outgoing and met new ppl !

stay safe & hydrated <3 remember to see the good in things

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around 500cal today, i did good until my mom made me soup and watched until i finished it ..so i think she’s rly catching on which is stressful. i don’t need her all up in my business

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gonna try this but i have to start sunday or monday :( i’ll be around ppl this weekend that’ll notice if i don’t eat

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120lbs now.. 100lbs by the holidays.

— i will not binge i will not binge

i will lose weight i will lose weight —

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just got weighed at the dr and i’m 120 lbs ! it’s far from my goal but i’m honestly glad cause i was so scared my scale at home was super off. it’s only abt five pounds off so now ik to add 5 to whatever it says :)

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“i wanna be emaciated, i wanna hear one song without thinking of you”

- me & my dog, BoyGenius

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what i ate today was a granola bar (90cals), and i had a slushee (around 270 cals) so around 360cals overall !

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i have a drs apt this week and i can’t wait to get weighed, i’m always so scared my scale at home is off and i weigh more than i think

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380cal today. i feel less shitty.

also liptons pineapple mango green tea is so so good i highly recommend !

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660 today, went for a run but i felt like shit so i didn’t get to do much other exercise

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… gonna be active again

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near 36 hours on my fast !

i WILL make it to 48 this time

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been doing so bad the past 2 weeks :( i have to get back on track.

i just feel like absolute shit

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my bday is next week and i’m already dreading the dinner and cake and all of it. my family really wants to celebrate and as much as i’m thankful i don’t wanna have to deal with all of it