INACTIVE BLOG

[ndbits-blog]

As of today (12/3/16) I’m officially leaving my main account. Since this is a sideblog, it will be inactive from here on out.

Feel free to unfollow if you wish.

[tachylyte]

fun fact: trauma victims becoming obsessed/infatuated with what traumatized them (especially if that trauma came from abuse) isn’t creepy or disturbing. That’s literally a symptom of PTSD, and is often uncontrollable, so maybe don’t demonize people who get stuck or overly focused on their intrusive thoughts. We literally can’t control this.

[seaptsd-moved]

Someone: don’t you miss being younger and having no worries and responsibilities :’)

Me, lugging my childhood trauma behind me in a garbage bag: Can’t relate

[loukessler]

[deathtripdog]

beliefs that people with cptsd may have;

[lesbiantenets]

Emotional Flashbacks

- Are a sudden arising of feelings/emotional states which overwhelm the present moment and hijack the amygdala

- Are literally a replaying of internal felt experiences and the accompanying stories (I am bad, unsafe, ugly, unworthy, etc.) previously experienced in abusive and neglectful relationships

- Possess us and take over, allowing the feeling state to dominate and shut down critical reasoning and the ability to access other perspectives/nuanced information, a sort of dissociation from the present

- Involve a highly evolved inner critic who is the primary defense system, allowing us to hate ourselves before others have the chance to and demanding nothing less than perfection from ourselves in the context of relationships and performance or else we will be in utter despair/on the streets/alone/dying/fired, etc.

- Often go untreated as flashbacks because emotions are not understood to present as flashbacks the way single event traumas replay themselves

- Can cause havoc in our lives and relationships when these are not understood to be flashbacks or related to previous trauma because no one has any idea why we respond so intensely and suddenly at times, often seeming out of character to those who love us

- Often occur when things are going well, too good, we are too happy, too calm, too trusting or at peace

Wild Geese, Emotional Flashbacks & Mnemosyne

[junkirat]

[inter5tellas]

Also if you’re mentally ill and someone with dpd tells you that you’re their depended & you can’t handle that, you aren’t ableist. Don’t let some asshole try to tell you you’re ableist for not being able to handle having to make every decision for another person.

[inter5tellas]

You’re also not ableist if you can’t handle being imprinted on by someone with a cluster b personality disorder

[leontranskennedy]

It’s like anything else where you just need to communicate it.  It’s also perfectly fine if you’re initially okay with it and then realize you can’t handle it!  It’s not a fun conversation to have, but all you can do is communicate that you can’t handle that, and do what you need to in order to be safe.   As someone with DPD, I would much rather you straight up tell me, so that I can work on trying to cut the dependency, than to find out after the fact that someone I care so deeply about was messing themselves up for my sake.

It’s not ableist, it’s not bad.  You are not bad.  DPD and cluster b personalities can be a LOT to handle as a depended or someone who is imprinted on.  You always, always have the right to say no.

[inter5tellas]

This is such a good addition thank you so much

[sinbadism]

this goes for any relationship where the person is relying on you even if it’s like, a healthy amount of reliance, because if you can’t handle that you need to set boundaries and you can also like, make it a more mutual thing… or just period like if your friend comes up to you w some heavy shit you can just say “i can’t handle this right now i’m sorry”

[spectredecay]

and if you try to set boundaries or tell someone you cant handle it and they guilt you for it or accuse you of ableism/pressure you/start turning your mutual friends against you for not being able to bend backwards and break your back to go along with every single one of their whims, REGARDLESS of whether their symptoms unintentionally contribute to that type of behavior, they might be using their mental illness as an excuse to be toxic/abusive and that’s a huge warning sign and you should skedaddle at the first chance you get

[cosmiicbear-deactivated20170328]

Because people who struggle with mental illness are still people despite what they go through. Please remember you’re not alone. You are loved, and someone really cares about you. It’s okay to have bad days- just remember to keep going. You’re worth it. Stay strong. You’re not alone.

[johnsarchive]

This is so cute! I’ve been feeling really shit for months now and I normally hate positive stuff but I love this ^o^

[metapianycist]

never trust a psychological professional who does not have compassion for people with bpd

[innocencelives]

Childhood trauma can affect a person so greatly because of its prescence in the time of developmemt. Events that would normally change a person become embedded in every fiber of one’s identity. It is this time of life which is so crucial to your entire future. This is the unique nature of C-PTSD, which doesn’t merely change a person, it creates them. It builds every trait, interest, and understanding of the world with this toxin. Nothing is unaffected or unaltered because all there is to alter was created by the trauma. Moving forward is not moving back to before the trauma, it is in every essence a rebirth and reeducation of life itself. To move on we can not erase, because to erase trauma’s effect we in theory erase ourselves.

Understanding Childhood C-PTSD (via ughptsd)

[icantdrawbutdontcare]

Based on ‘The “Good Survivor” Narrative’ (x)

[eidlon-blog]

ugly thoughts

[arijandro]

#abuse #clusters

[albinobunnyboy-blog]

[julianbashir]

beastly thing

do not reblog if you are neurotypical or not kin

[lesbiantenets]

Folks with CPTSD can often exhibit the outwardly signs recognized with PTSD such as anxiety and avoidance behaviors, but they have literally developed their identities within the containers of trauma and neglect, unable to make external changes to their environments to bring relief. Because there was an inability to create external changes to protect or remove onesself, the person learns to make deep internal changes, often absorbing as fundamental truths the insidious lies of the traumas in order to survive. Because of this, relationships can be some of the most challenging and in fact terrifying things to navigate as they are the actual battle ground where the original traumas occurred. Imagine if all the ways you learned to understand yourself, what you can expect from others and your role in the world was shaped through neglect, gas lighting, manipulation, shame, physical,  sexual and psychological boundary violations and isolation. At the core of CPTSD is the very real struggle for trust, especially trusting yourself. The primary relationship that is most damaged in ongoing developmental trauma is the relationship we have with ourselves AND it is the one we have to fight the hardest to get back.

CPTSD, Allostatic Load and Giving No Fucks (via optais-amme)

[kriegsrhetorikinspace-blog]

trauma is not defined by the traumatizing thing that happened.

trauma is defined by the reaction of the person who experiences it.

if you are traumatized by something, then the thing that happened was traumatic.

if you are severely traumatized by something, then the thing that happened was very traumatic.

it does not matter if other people experienced the same thing and were less or not at all traumatized by it. because the only thing relevant for judging the severety of trauma is your reaction to it.