#c-ptsd

[mimizzzwacky]

He calls me his little chihuahua

When I was a kid my dad beat the shit out of me

[the-indigo-syndicate]

so... Just watched baby reindeer

Ouch.

[shiradestin]

Prophet?

“If you leave me, you will immediately die.” What had I done? Why was he saying this? I’d been doing my best. Working to have faith, working to be obedient. Trying to believe. Eve had said that she trusted him because he quoted scripture. Reading the Bible, at least, was better than watching her screaming at the TV, urging her favorite boxers to kill each other. I heard him shuffle his feet,…

Prophet?

[fakingtranquility]

A meteor exploded near me yesterday.

I was taking a nap.

I was petrified before the explosion because of the weather (wind advisory, pouring rain)

As a climate refugee from a hurricane, I was already Not Okay, severe weather gets me in a tizzy.

The meteor’s sonic boom woke me, I cried, my life flashed before my eyes.

I didn’t die, despite my fears.

Life goes on.

[joleneboquila]

Anyone got any experience performing legal action against healthcare providers?

[edenfenixblogs]

Me the first day of my period after feeling good all day and feeling productive and getting most of the stuff on my list done when my anxiety meds wear off: Why am I so anxious?

[damnbluewires]

being alone is hard.

not to trauma dump, but my mother was a real piece of work. always making me miserable and afraid, but keeping a face up in public. and how can i be this smart, talented, capable, without my mother having some part in it?

no. she just made it basically impossible to tell anyone i was abused. how could you be, since you achieved so much?

i did it in spite of it all. with blood and tears and sweat, clawing my way back up each time

again. again. again.

and i had abusive people in my life since then. having an innate desire to help people is the sweetest smelling nectar to them.

so you have to leave. you have to spot those people as soon as possible and you have to leave. even if you end up alone again. even if they will hate you for it. you have to choose yourself. you have to find your joy elsewhere.

this is better for you

THEN WHY DOES THIS HURT SO MUCH